More Than A Feeling
Disclaimer: I don't own Criminal Minds or NCIS, they're CBS brain child.
Summary: AU fic. Emily and Hotch are best friends. When Emily decides she wants to have a baby on her own she asks her friend NCIS Tony DiNozzo if she can use his sample that he donated years before, but what happens when her best friend Hotch falls for her and doesn't think this is a good idea?
A/N: No set timeline, but on CM's the Doyle drama didn't happen so Emily and JJ are there not Seavers'. On NCIS there's no EJ Barrett so all's clear on that end. Only a tiny tidbit of NCIS is in this story and it's mostly Tony with small cameos of a few NCIS characters.
Monday came alot faster than Emily had anticipated and she felt butterflies in her stomach.
But they were more at war with each other than fluttering.
Hotch had agreed to drive Emily to her doctor's and that Tony would meet her there.
Emily never felt more nervous and she left her apartment not noticing the answering machine lighting up with a message.
'Breathe, Emily.' she told herself 'Everything will be ok.'
"Emily Prentiss?" a nurse said handing her some papers to fill out.
The nurse looked at Emily and smiled seeing her with Hotch.
"Just fill out the front page and then we'll call you to the back to begin your procedure." The nurse told Emily.
"Ok." Emily said taking the papers.
Hotch watched as Emily got to work on her paperwork.
Hotch felt like she was making a big mistake, not the having a baby part.
He understood that, he wanted his son way before Jack was even born.
Hotch felt that it was a mistake for her to have a child with Tony, even though she told him that Tony wouldn't be involved with raising the baby.
Emily told Hotch that Tony would be more like a cool uncle who took the kid out to carnivals and bought presents for.
Hotch wanted to tell her he'd be happy to offer the donation that he'd be a suitable donor, as evidence look at how great and beautiful Jack was.
Emily got up and handed the nurse the paperwork and went to follow her when the nurse said "Oh no cell phones are allowed in the back room."
Emily went over to Hotch and said "Can you watch my bag for me?"
Hotch nodded and said "Ok. I'll get some air and see if Tony's showed up yet."
Emily smiled and kissed his cheek and said "Wish me luck."
"Good luck." Hotch said watching her follow the nurse.
As soon as she left Hotch walked outside to get some air when he heard Emily's cell phone ring.
"Hello?" Hotch said.
"Can I talk to Emily?" Tony asked.
"She's with her doctor." Hotch said "Tony?"
"Yeah, can you tell her I'm sorry I can't be there." Tony said "Big case just dropped in."
"Ok." Hotch said "Bye."
"Bye." Tony said thinking he knew that tone of voice, Hotch loves my friend, and he hates that I hold a place in her life.
'I know that feeling.' Tony thought looking over at Ziva 'I feel that way.'
Hotch went back inside and saw a nurse approach him "Your with Miss Prentiss right?"
"Yeah." Hotch asked wondering if something went wrong. "Why?"
The nurse held up a specimen jar "We need your donation."
"Excuse me?" Hotch said confused.
"Didn't Miss Prentiss tell you?" the nurse asked "We left a message for her that the earlier sample was misplaced and that since she knows the donor. You. That we'll need a fresh sample so we can start the insemination."
"You want me to go and give you my fresh..." Hotch started "So the insemination can be done, today?"
"Yes." the nurse said confused "Didn't she tell you?"
"I don't think Emily got that message." Hotch said "I would of heard that from her earlier."
"Oh." the nurse said "Well if you can't or don't want to do it, than I'll inform the doctor and the insemination can be reschedule."
An idea crossed Hotch's mind and before he could stop himself, he told the nurse "I'll do it."
The nurse handed Hotch the cup and walked him to a private room filled with "mood inspiration".
'God, what am I doing?' Hotch thought before shutting the door 'She'll kill me, if she finds out.'
Less than 20 minutes later Hotch walked out and nodded to the nurse who went in to get the donation.
"Oh, she's going to kill me." Hotch whispered to himself, but felt no remorse for his action.
'Tony wasn't here, he was on a case.' Hotch reasoned with himself.
While Hotch was lost in deep thought a different nurse came out.
The nurse said "Emily's procedure is done, you can go and see her."
Hotch followed her to Emily's room and saw her laying there looking even more beautiful.
The nurse said "She needs to lay there for awhile to make sure it takes, she can leave in 20 minutes."
Hotch nodded and walked in, Emily looked over at him and smile.
"Tony called he had a case and couldn't show up." Hotch said.
Hotch smiled at the thought that he not Tony might be responsible for a new life inside of her.
"Oh, ok." Emily said than looked back up at the ceiling.
"How are you feeling?" Hotch asked.
"Kinda weird." Emily said "But that may just be the nerves talking."
Hotch took Emily's hand and she looked over and smiled at him.
"Thanks for being here with me, Hotch." Emily said squeezing his hand "I don't think I could of gone through this alone."
Hotch smiled at her and said "I'm glad I'm here."
At that moment Hotch felt no regret, even if she killed him. He didn't regret it.
To Be Continued...