More Than A Feeling

Disclaimer: I don't own Criminal Minds or NCIS, they're CBS brain child.

Summary: AU fic. Emily and Hotch are best friends. When Emily decides she wants to have a baby on her own she asks her friend NCIS Tony DiNozzo if she can use his sample that he donated years before, but what happens when her best friend Hotch falls for her and doesn't think this is a good idea?

A/N: No set timeline, but on CM's the Doyle drama didn't happen so Emily and JJ are there not Seavers'. On NCIS there's no EJ Barrett so all's clear on that end. Only a tiny tidbit of NCIS is in this story and it's mostly Tony with small cameos of a few NCIS characters.

Emily wondered what was bothering Hotch ever since they found out she was having a son.

Hotch had been acting like he wanted to tell her something, but he always clammed up.

Emily was now almost 9 months along, and Hotch still hovered around her like she was made of porcelain.

That annoyed Emily to no end, and today was not a good day for her but it was looking up.

Hotch and Jack were finishing up the baby's room for her and she finally settled on a name for her son.

But she had yet to tell Tony that she was pregnant, 'God. I'm such a coward.'

Emily wanted to tell Tony but she knew he and Ziva were getting close to starting something.

So Emily decided that tonight she'd call him, just as soon as she set up her brand new answering machine.

Finally putting the new machine together she looked down at the old clunker who had been acting up for almost as long as she'd been pregnant she glared at it.

Hotch walked in and said "I set Jack up to watch a dvd in your room if that's alright?"

"It's fine." Emily said smiling at him.

"You finally getting rid of that old thing?" Hotch said smirking while she gave the machine a glare.

"Yes." Emily said "This damn thing is going to be kissing the garbage can soon."

Hotch laughed at that and said "Ah."

"You go rest while I finish this up." Emily said "Thanks for finishing up the changing table for me."

"Well Jack had more fun, straightening up the toy chest for the baby." Hotch said smiling at that memory.

Emily lifted the papers off her answering machine and said out loud "Oh look. It saved a call."

Hotch laughed at the sarcasm in her voice, 'This is finally it. After she's done I'm really going to tell her this time."

Emily clicked the message on the machine thinking that it was probably some old telemarketer.

"You have one message, for Monday September 18 at 10:15 am..." the machine said.

"Wow, that's the same day I got..." Emily started to say when she noticed Hotch's head lift and looked at her in shock and fear.

"Miss Prentiss, this is Janet Corbin at the United Family Health Clinic. We're aware of your procedure due today, we know you're close friends with the donor and need him to make a fresh deposit, because the sample you are to be inseminated with was misplaced. If you have any questions before your scheduled appointment for today please call us at..." the nurse said.

Emily's eyes widened and looked over at Hotch, who looked dumb founded.

"But Tony never showed up that day." Emily said looking over at Hotch "You told me that."

"Emily, I can explain..." Hotch started to say and saw it click in Emily's mind.

"You?" Emily said in shock and anger "You did it, didn't you?"

Hotch looked at the ground and started to speak "Em..."

"Answer me!" Emily said "You did this didn't you? You're the donor."

Emily got up ripping her answering machine out of the wall.

When Hotch didn't say anything she threw the answering machine at his feet watching it smash into pieces.

"How could you?" Emily said "You were never going to tell me, were you?"

Emily looked at him and said "Are you even going to open your mouth?"

Hotch said "Emily, I don't regret it. I wanted to do it, and given the choice I'd do it again."

Emily felt her skin crawl and as he approached her she backed up and said "You don't even get it, do you?"

"What?" Hotch asked confused.

"This was suppose to be mine. My choice for a child, my choice of the donor." Emily said looking him in the eye "You weren't suppose to be involved in that!"

"But you haven't even told Tony about the baby, yet." Hotch said trying to reason this out.

"And that was my choice." Emily said heading for the bathroom, "Since Jack's here and in earshot I will not raise my voice like I want to and utter out the real words I want to say. But get your son and leave."

"Emily..." Hotch said.

"Leave." Emily said closing the door, "I can't stand the sight of you."

Hotch felt his heart break when she shut the door on him and went to get Jack leaving.

Hotch sat in his apartment putting Jack down who was sad to have to leave Emily's.

'Did she really hate me that much?' Hotch thought 'I need to see her.'

Hotch heard a knock on his door and thought maybe it was her, but saw it was Dave instead.

"She called me and told me what you did." Dave said.

"She did?" Hotch asked closing the door behind his friend.

"Are you stupid or just insane?" Dave said sitting on the couch "Do you even realize what you did?"

"What?" Hotch asked.

"You violated her." Dave said "Her trust and took away her choice at who'd father her child."

"What?" Hotch said "Tony's sample was lost, they thought I was him."

"And you happily accepted the role to fill as daddy to be." Dave said "That wasn't your choice to make."

"Well, I didn't think she'd take it that bad." Hotch said "I know I should of told her sooner."

"God Aaron." Dave said "Not only did you sit on this for months, but you tricked her."

"Tricked her?" Hotch said "How did I trick her?"

"By using your own "donation" instead of Tony's, you purposely put yourself in her life forever. That kid will always be a link between the two of you, and you had no right at doing that." Dave said.

"It's not as bad as you make it sound." Hotch said but knew Dave was right.

"If Emily wanted you to father her child, she would of asked you. You are her best friend, or were but now, you lost her friendship, any budding romance that started to be there and that baby were all based on a lie." Dave said.

"Oh God. What did I do?" Hotch said putting his head in his hands.

"I know you don't regret it," Dave said "But when she told you that she was doing this what was the first thought that ran through your head?"

"That I wanted to be donor she used." Hotch said.

"Well you screwed that up now." Dave said.

Emily called JJ and Garcia over and the two listened in shock at what Emily said.

"He did what?" JJ asked not believing what she was told.

"Are you sure?" Garcia asked "Maybe it's some kind of mistake."

The two watched their very pregnant friend walk around her apartment in circles.

"Oh no it's no mistake." Emily said "This is no freaking mistake. He said he didn't regret it!"

Both JJ and Garcia's jaws dropped at that.

"He was suppose to be my best friend and he tricked me into having his kid!" Emily said.

"I guess he wanted to be more than your best friend." JJ whispered.

"Ya think?" Emily growled out.

"What are you going to do?" Garcia asked afraid to say anything.

"Kill him." Emily muttered out. "Justifiable homicide. Put a bunch of women on the jury and they'll acquit me in 2 minutes."

"Emily, aside from the murder plot." JJ said "Do you want him involved in raising your baby?"

"No." Emily said "He has no rights to my son. This wasn't even suppose to be his. It was..."

Emily doubled over in pain and screamed.

"Em?" Garcia said as she and JJ rushed to her side.

"I think I'm going into labor!" Emily said "Damn Aaron Hotchner."

'I had to go and fall in love with him only to find out this.' Emily thought.

The two blondes rushed Emily out, as JJ grabbed the overnight bag by the door.

'Oh, I'm going to kill him.' Emily thought 'For doing this to me.'

To Be Concluded...