Disclaimer: I own nothing except the plot and my imagination. I probably also own Ryan at life too… ha! No, just kidding. I can never match all of his emo followers! Haha! But of course you all like me enough, to help me own one of my best friends at life right?
Jasper's POV
Time to start yet another agonizing day, with basically the whole female population of Forks High School chasing after me, a married man, I think I even have a few male 'followers'. Disgusting. I can't believe how stupid I was to sign up for the damn army! Now when I think back I just want to kick myself in the ass, nice and hard. You see that is the one thing Rosalie and I have in common, if I can even relate to her, we both want our human lives back. She has always wanted children, and now that she's a vampire well that's impossible. The only thing keeping her from breaking down is her beauty, that's why she seems so conceited. Me, well I just want my wife, my Bella back, to have a family with her, to have grandkids, to grow old with her. But now just like Rosalie having children, that's impossible. Bella died at least 8 decades ago, she probably moved on, had kids, grandkids, grew old and, hopefully, died peacefully. I could've looked up her records to check, but hoping and knowing are two completely different things. I could live my life hoping she moved on, but knowing for sure, my cold, unbeating heart might just break. Then again, I probably deserve this, unlike Rosalie; I actually walked into this knowing full well that I might never see my beautiful wife again. I had willingly joined the army; Rosalie got her chance taken away from her. She didn't give up her whole world willingly, I did. Then again, I probably didn't know what I was signing up for, I was so naive, so blind, I had thought that I could help my country, and come back unscathed. I didn't think for one second that I could be killed, that there's a chance I could never see my family, my wife ever again.
Esme's voice broke through my thoughts "Jasper, dear, it's time to leave for school. You wouldn't want to be late on the first day." Esme. My mother figure ever since I had accidently stumbled into the Cullens all those years ago. She is so caring, and I know it hurts her to see me so… self loathing, for a lack of better words, no one understood why. Everyone's human memories fade, they don't understand why I feel the way I do. The only memories I remember from my human days as clear as day are those of a certain Isabella Marie Swan-Whitlock, I always knew there is a reason why I remember her, and our times together, even those from early childhood that were even foggy in y human mind, so clearly, like they had happened just yesterday, but I never figured out why.
I lazily walked down the stairs, slow even for a human and waited for my siblings. When they finally came down, Alice, as always, was happy and bubbly, like a pixie. Edward is happy because Alice is. Emmett was being a goofball, nothing new there. Rosalie walked down the stairs acting as conceited as always, gave me a comforting smile. She knew what's on my mind, she always knew.
Soon we were all piling into Edward's silver Volvo. Alice in her usual front seat, with Edward driving, and Rose, Emmett and I crammed in the back. Really uncomfortable as it is, but add Emmett's massive height and bulk, and my height, it's all we could do to not explode through the roof.
We made it to school without incident. I had heard there were two new students today, boyfriend and girlfriend. They must be pretty committed to move together like this. Hopefully this girl can stay faithful and not try to seduce me.
"Don't worry Jasper I'm sure you'll be fine" I'm the only one who understood what Rosalie really meant. All the others thought she was talking about my bloodlust, but unknown to them I really have a great control over it, most of the times I had slipped up was because of everyone's combined bloodlust that I feel through my gift/curse, I have never blamed any of them, and they have never supported me or taken any of the blame. I just smiled slightly and nodded. The others were used to my dark mood so they think nothing of it now.
A/N: bad cliffy!!! Hehe you guys probably thought I was going to go with Bella's POV right (what with the huge cliffy I left you all with)? Well nope! I know Jasper sounds really depressed but you would too if you were in his position. Remember Bella was the love of his life, and he thinks she's dead! This chapter was shorter than the last one by about 400 words….. Yeah well, Jasper is a man of few words, after all….. There you go the second edited chapter! Did you like it? Is it better than the original? Or did you like the original better? I'm antsy, because I don't know what you guys think of what I think is a much better chapter….. so, tell me? It inspires me to edit more, and then when I'm finished editing I can finally post the next chapter, which won't make sense until everything is nice and edited up….
P.S. I tried really hard to get to 1000 words but it just didn't work! Hence the extremely long and boring A/N with information, none of you probably even care about….