Author's Note: And now we skip ahead to CH. 5. I don't remember if I mentioned it or not but this story won't really have a plot it's just different scenes that Ashley requested to see in Logan's POV and since she is my soul sister and I love her, I went ahead and wrote them out. So I hope I don't let anyone down with the lack of plot. And if you need to, I know I did, read the corresponding chapter in IASwaA to better understand what is going on in this. O.o And as always, enjoy!

Disclaimer: I don't own BTR, but I DO own season 1 on DVD! :3

"He has an interactive game system," I yelled in delight as I watched the game start up. "Do you realize these things aren't even released to the general public yet?"

"But he only has golf," James sighed, readying himself to putt.

"You'll like it! Any sport that has a ball in it is worth trying," Carlos grinned. "Here, I'll show you!" Carlos moved to stand behind James, wrapping his arms around him and putting his hands over his as he showed him the proper way to swing. I stared at the two in shock.

"Popcorn," Kendall's voice cut into my thoughts. I nodded and ran out of the room with him.

"What do you think is going on with them," I asked softly, searching the cabinets with for popcorn.

"Who? James and Carlos?" he grabbed two tubs of popcorn and grinned at me, showing me the prize.

I smiled and nodded. "Yeah, I mean…isn't that a move?"

"You mean the stand behind them and teach them how to swing? Yeah it is...usually."

I took one of the tubs from him, reading the instructions before following them. "Do you think they're into each other?"

He chuckled and shrugged. "Logie I really don't know. As long as they're happy I don't question it." He moved to follow my motions with the other tub of popcorn. "Well, if they were on drugs then yeah I'd step in, but being gay isn't bad." I shrugged, setting the microwave for the proper time.

"You'd be ok with it?" I looked at him, my eyes wide and curious. I had always been told it was wrong. That two men aren't capable of actually loving each other. What they felt for each other was just a rush of lust that they needed to release and didn't care if it meant they'd go to Hell. Gay men just couldn't control their urges and were as bad as the people who have sex with animals. My mother and grandmother even forbid me from watching shows where there was even a mention of two men being in love. I still had no idea what Will and Grace was about.

"Of course," he smiled, moving his hand to ruffle my hair, making me unconsciously lean into his touch. "Wouldn't you?"

My eyes went to the floor as I whispered, "my parents…they always said it was disgusting."

His hand moved from my hair to my cheek then to my chin, lifting it to make me look into his eyes. For some reason the contact made my skin tingle. I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion before he spoke."Your parents were wrong. It's not disgusting, there's nothing wrong with it. Deep down, you know that don't you?"

I looked at him, examining him before finally nodding. Yeah, I could see how a guy could really truly fall in love with Kendall. I could see how a guy could fall in love with James even. But, was it really normal? Was it really ok for another guy to fall in love with Kendall? I mean I didn't care if James and Carlos locked themselves in a room for five months and never came back out, but would it be ok if someone did that with Kendall? He was the tall blonde leader, the captain of the hockey team, would that really be ok? No. No it wouldn't be ok. Whatever guy fell for Kendall he wouldn't give him everything he deserved. Kendall deserved to be a dad! He deserved to have the picture perfect family and having another guy in there with him…it wouldn't work. I wanted to see little baby Kendall's running around with his blonde hair and green eyes. A guy just wouldn't be enough for him. But for anyone else, yeah they could be gay. I wouldn't care. But Kendall...he deserved more. "Yes," I whispered. He smiled and pulled me into a soft hug, petting my back softly as I shivered in his arms. The girl that got him would love these touches. "If they're really together," I began softly, enclosing my arms around him, "then I'm happy for them."

He grinned. "That's the Logie I know and—"

"Guys! Are you finished making the popcorn yet," Carlos yelled from the media room.

He chuckled and tightened his grip on me slightly before letting go, moving to check on the popcorn. "Almost just give it a minute," he called back to him, moving around the kitchen to see if Gustavo had anything else worth raiding.

I stared at him. Was he going to say that he loved me? 'That's the _ I know and love.' That's the phrase. It's been used for decades. There's no way he couldn't have known that was how it ended. He must mean platonic love. Friendship love. Of course. I was getting too caught up in the possibility that our friends were gay. Not every friend I had had to be gay just cause two of them are. I smiled and shook my head. I could be stupid sometimes.

"Who knew Gustavo would have all this food," he mumbled looking at all the junk food. "I mean, this is more kid food than anything." His eyes widened as he turned back to me. "You think he has one?"

I laughed and shook my head. "I hope not! Imagine a little Gustavo running around! And an even scarier thought…what woman would sleep with Gustavo?"

He cracked up, holding his stomach as he bent over laughing. I couldn't help the huge grin that came to my face. I loved when he laughed like this. So carefree and just a normal teen. When he didn't let all the stresses he had take over and cloud him just enough for me to notice but not the others. I doubt he even realized I noticed. But I saw the way he'd check the bills his mom left on the table when he thought Carlos, James and I were sleeping when we spent the night. I saw the way he took care of Katie like a father. I saw the way his frown would deepen when we would add another bill to his mother's growing stack with our hijinks. I wanted more than anything to be able to take at least a bit of the burden off his shoulders, I just didn't know how.

"Popcorn's ready," I chuckled as I moved next to him, grabbing the food and putting it in their proper tubs. As my hands worked efficiently moving the popcorn I wondered what I could possibly do to help Kendall relax.