So this chapter is basically Blair dealing with her new realization about her love for Nate and also the proposal scene in Nate's point of view. Wow, I'm on a roll already having gotten two chapters in one sitting. Wow, special thanks to QueenBee10, my first reviewer, really appreciate it. Hope you enjoy…
Disclaimer: I do not… oh come on you guys all know what it is…
No, this could not be happening. Blair slunk down into the first chair she found at her apartment and put her head in her hands.
She could not be in love; it is just too complicated to be in love and let alone be in love with Nate, soon to be engaged Nate, she had already loved him and that had not worked; they had both gotten their hearts broken.
Then again she had loved Chuck and that hadn't worked out either; she had gotten her heart broken.
Oh great let's face it She's defective. Anyone she's loved or tried loving has basically ended with heartbreak.
But had she ever really stopped loving either. No, she would never stop loving the Dark Prince, but she had realized that they both had moved on with their lives.
But the White Prince, she thought she had gotten over him, she thought she could be fine without him. But as proven in the diner, she could not. She would always love the Nate.
But he was getting engaged, and he wanted HER to be his best man.
Great Blair was now turning into the female version of Patrick Dempsey in the film Maid of Honor, so that makes Nate the bride.
Blair sighed for the umpteenth time.
Blair could not go to work tomorrow; she could not face Epperly and pretend like she wasn't in love with her boyfriend, or that she wanted him as much as winter wants the summer.
And so she decided tonight she would read Persuasion by Jane Austen; the book was her favorite for nights like these, and then call in sick tomorrow. She would spend the rest of tomorrow preparing herself for the news and then practicing rejecting Nate's best man offer.
Yes, everything would be fine.
Blair reached up to brush a hair out of her face but instead found tears on her cheeks.
Nothing would be fine, not now… not ever.
Nate's Point of View…
It was weird how Nate Archibald had pictured the exact way he was going to propose to Epperly, the way he had wanted to propose to Blair Waldorf, in the exact form, the exact manner.
He even pictured the same ring on their fingers.
Blair…
She was the one or he had always thought she was the one.
For a long time he had only wanted her, for a long time he had needed only her to breathe but now things were different. Blair was just his friend and Epperly was his girlfriend.
Epperly was the one he was going to marry, Epperly was the one he wanted not Blair.
Then why are you thinking about me the night you are going to propose to Epperly, Blair's voice resonated through his thoughts as the one constant thing and now she was taunting him.
He shook himself and waited up on his balcony for Epperly to come.
The night was cold and in his hands he kept turning over and over the little black box?
Why did you tell me first?
He didn't know why he told Blair first, he didn't know at all. All he knew was that when he came to the decision to marry Epperly he wanted to tell Blair and only Blair.
He couldn't get Blair's face out of his mind when he asked her to be his best man; it was a look of pure shock, then a hint of something else, something deep.
He shook his head; he also didn't know why he had asked her to be his best man. It seemed so natural to have her by his side, to have her with him, to have…
"Nate?" A strong voice interrupted his thoughts.
He turned to see Epperly wearing a beautiful black dress and all thoughts about Blair cleared his mind.
He was in the moment there and then, he could only think and see the woman standing before him.
"Epperly," He whispered.
She smiled, "Nate... it's beautiful up here."
Nate walked toward as she continued to talk about the view of the city and what not, she didn't seem to notice the black box in his hands but as Nate knelt down he saw the shock and then realization in her eyes.
"Epperly I know this may sound crazy and I know that we've only been together for almost half a year but… I love you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you, will you please do me the honor of marrying me?"
He opened the box and Epperly looked even more shocked but suddenly a smile came to her face, "Did you practice that speech?"
Nate shook his head waiting for her answer, "Why? Was it awful?"
Epperly shook her head, "No, it was perfect, just perfect."
Nate raised an eyebrow, "Was that a yes or no?"
Epperly flung her arms around him, "Yes an absolute yes."
His lips met hers and the night was there's.
Blair woke up to Don't Stop Believing, again.
She groggily picked it up and sighed, "Blair Waldorf."
"Blair, she said yes!"
Blair literally dropped the phone; there had been at least some hope that she would have said no, at least some hope.
But now…
"Blair? Blair? Hello?" Nate called through the phone.
Blair picked it up quickly saying, "Sorry, sorry but Nate… wow, congratulations, really that's great."
She was trying to hide the tears and despair from her voice.
"Blair, are you alright?"
Blair shook her head; why did he have to know her so well?
"Yeah I'm fine… Nate… I need to talk to you about being… about being the Maid of Honor, "Blair managed to choke out, the tears spilling over.
"Blair, I know that I sprung it on you but I'm just so happy and I would really like you to be there, I would love for you to be there."
"Love…" Blair whispered.
She didn't want to turn him down, not when he was so happy and not when she needed him. And this would be an excuse to see him… before he gets married.
"Okay, I'll be your best man," She said, wiping away her tears.
"Thank you, thank you... what would I do without you?" Blair could literally see him smiling through the phone, making a similar grin appear on her face despite herself.
"That, Nate Archibald is exactly what everyone says," Blair said almost lightly, almost.
Blair clicked the phone off and sat down to find all lightness that could have been there, gone.
You are Blair Waldorf; get yourself together…Blair SNAP OUT OF IT!
Blair looked up and realized whose voice it was that was talking to her. It was always Nate's voice, always his voice that pulled her back to shore from the treacherous waters in the ocean of despair.
Blair saw herself across the room in a mirror.
She looked haggard and disheveled, like a walking breathing zombie.
Blair wiped the rest of her tears away; if she couldn't be happy inside she could at least fake it on the outside…
A/N: So how'd you like it? I kind of thought that Blair needed to be Blair again. I mean she usually conceals all those feelings she has to herself and pretends to be strong on the outside. Next to come is some more Blair and Nate action, you know wedding planning and everything and also a look, from Nate's perspective, into their friendship and love… Thanks for all the reviews… Ellie