Chapter 1

I could smell the musky smell that comes with a forest, I could hear the other animals in the night even though I couldn't see them. I was on all fours and running as fast as a cheetah and the wind was whipping through my fur and I was hungry for the taste of flesh. I could hear him running from me, I could hear his heart beating rapidly from the strain of running and can smell his sweat, I sped up. I clamped my teeth around his ankle and relished in the blood that spilled into my mouth. His scream was like the banging of the dinner bell. I released and jumped on his chest.

"Rose please don't do this" I stared in to Jake's blue eyes and then growled in satisfaction and went for his throat.

I woke up panting and drenched in sweat. Pale light shone through my windows and I shielded my eyes, it didn't burn me but it still bothered my eyes I always felt weaker during the day. Ever since I turned almost a year ago my life had only become that much more complicated. I didn't even think it was possible, how I could be both werewolf and vampire, it always felt like the two sides of me were waging a war inside me and only one could win.

My stomach ached, I had this hollow feeling as if my insides had been emptied it out but I know it's because I haven't had any blood in weeks. Unlike normal vampires I didn't have to be constantly drinking it, I could eat regular food but too long without it as I learned the hard way I would start getting sick and I even puked up blood for hours till I had to drink.

"Lily!" Chris banged on my door; "Hurry up we've got to go" I looked at the time not realizing how late it was. I was still underage so I had to attend The Academy for Young Nephilin, where they trained us to be warriors. The worst part of the change was hiding my nature having my tainted blood no longer allowed me to bear the marks which made my life so much more difficult but I'd managed to avoid it.

I shucked off my sheets and looked at myself in the mirror my black hair matted to my forehead with sweat and my grey eyes were dark from the dream and probably from the hunger. I ran for a quick shower and changed into jeans a camisole and my boots.

Downstairs my dad was at the table nibbling on toast his brown hair rumpled and glasses hanging on his nose, I kissed him and grabbed an apple, my stomach had stopped aching so I decided to skip the blood for another day.

"Have a good day Bella" my father was Italian and meant the world to me. Even though he was human he was the strongest man I know. My mother had been rebellious, Shadowhunters weren't allowed to marry humans but the laws have changed and they were in love she didn't care and her being one of the best shadowhunter around, the council didn't fight her much. She is always away on missions in different part of the world but I think ever since she found out she stays away on purpose.

My condition is a secret only my family and Jace and Alyssa know, if The Council were to find out I would probably be killed and my mother would be disgraced. Our people are not good with change it took centuries for them to change their laws and to create an alliance with Downworlders known as The Accords. If they knew about me they'd consider me an abomination.

My constant struggle other than the bloodlust was the animal inside that was always itching to escape, but I haven't given in. except for the full moon, I was not in control enough to resist it and when it took over I no longer knew who I was. Tomorrow there is a full moon.