You Set Off Avalanches In My Heart
Part 3/6
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"Ok baby girl, here we are" Sam said softly as he carried Amy into their house the following afternoon "Home"
"Finally" Addison smiled, coming to stand behind him, she rested her chin on his shoulder and wrapped her arms around his waist, peering over at the baby in his arms "She's so beautiful Sam" she whispered "I can't get over it"
"Me either" he said with a small smile "I can't, I can't believe I almost gave this up"
"That was a long time ago" Addison said kissing his neck gently "None of that matters anymore"
"I guess" he said quietly "Why don't you go and have a shower? She's not hungry or anything so, have some you time, you deserve it" he turned around and kissed her gently.
"You sure?"
"I'm sure" Sam smiled "We're gonna have some Daddy daughter time aren't we Amy" he said softly.
"Ok" Addison said with a small smile "I won't be long" she kissed him again before heading up the stairs, Sam walked out onto the deck and sat down with Amy on the lounger.
"This is where I first kissed your Mommy" he said quietly "Right here, it, it was the start of so much Amy, so much, and we might have fought a lot since then, but, it doesn't matter anymore because without that kiss, we wouldn't be here, and we wouldn't have you, I love you baby girl" he smiled, he lay back on the lounger and rested Amy against his chest, one of his hands on her back, without realising it he drifted off to sleep listening to the sounds of the waves.
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"Wake up sleepyhead" Addison said quietly as she stroked Sam's cheek.
"Hmmm, what?" he mumbled "Oh uh, I didn't…"
"Don't worry" she said with a slight laugh "Sleep when you can right?"
"Yeah" he said with a quiet laugh "I can't believe she's sleeping again" he said looking down at Amy.
"You're comfortable to sleep on" Addison smiled "Come inside, put her in the moses basket, I'll make us some food"
"I can do it" Sam said as he slowly stood up "I'll cook us something, you need a good substantial meal Addie"
"I can't cook, I get it" Addison said rolling her eyes, Sam chuckled and followed her into the house.
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1 week later.
Addison woke up on the sofa with a jump as the doorbell rang, she yawned and flattened down her hair, peaking briefly into the moses basket to see Amy still soundly sleeping, she walked to the front door and opened it.
"Oh, Naomi, hey" she stuttered.
"Hi" Naomi said quietly "Sorry uh, I should've called and um…"
"No, no come in" Addison said opening the door more and letting her step inside "Sam's out grocery shopping"
"Right" Naomi nodded "I just uh, brought you this" she said holding out the large gift bag in her hand.
"Thanks, you, you didn't have to do that" Addison said with a small smile "Do you want a drink of anything?"
"No thanks, I'm ok" Naomi said quietly, Addison nodded a little and they moved through to the sofas, Addison sat down on the sofa next to the moses basket and Naomi sat in the chair "She's beautiful Addison" she said softly as she peered in "I saw a picture but, it really doesn't do her justice"
"She looks like Sam, don't you think? The shape of her eyes I think will be like mine but the rest of her, all Sam"
"Which he will never let anyone forget" Naomi said with a slight laugh.
"Probably not" Addison laughed back, she took a second before picking up the gift bag and opening it up "Naomi there's, there's too much in here"
"It's mostly for you" Naomi said quietly "It's, it's what you did for me when I had Maya so I, I thought I'd do the same for you"
Addison took out a small pink teddy bear with Amy's name on it and smiled softly, she put it in the corner of the moses basket.
"I know you won't be able to use the bubble bath for a while yet but I know it's your favourite kind, and when you get the all clear you're going to make Sam run you a bath, light those candles and lock the door behind him so you can put a face mask on and fall asleep in the tub" she said with a slight laugh.
"Ok" Addison laughed "Goodnight Moon" she said softly as she pulled out the book "I was going to buy this one myself"
"You read that to Maya, she used to love it when you came over and put her to bed, her favourite Aunt Addie, she wouldn't let anyone else read that book to her" Naomi said softly.
"I remember" Addison said with a small smile "Brownies and cookies, now we both know these are for you" she teased.
"Shut up" Naomi smirked.
"And my favourite tea" Addison said quietly as she pulled out a 'World's Best Mom' mug that was filled with tea bags "Oh Nae this is beautiful" she said taking out the Mommy & Me photo frame and baby journal.
"I know you've probably got something similar already but…"
"No, no this is, perfect" Addison smiled, she pulled out the last item which was an envelope and opened it, the card inside had a black and white picture of two young girls laughing together, she opened it and a piece of paper fell out, a gift certificate to a restaurant.
"That's still your favourite restaurant here right?" Naomi asked, Addison nodded with a smile "There's no expiry date so when you and Sam are ready to leave her with someone, you can use it"
"This is all, this is too much Naomi" Addison said with a slight whisper.
"Just read the card"
Addison looked down at the card in her hand which was full on both sides with writing.
'Addie, I can't believe the day is finally here, the day you become a mother, there has never been any doubt in my mind that you'll be great at it, better than me. I'll never forget the day I had a hormonal new Mommy freak out when Maya was 3 weeks old and I tried to make you take her, literally put her in your arms and told you I couldn't do it, I honestly could never have gotten through that time without you, I couldn't have gotten through a lot without you.
We both messed things up. We both made mistakes. We both hurt each other. The difference between you and me is you never did it on purpose, I know you didn't, and I did, some of the things I said, I said them to hurt you and I hate that, I hate that I took all of my anger out on you, the person who has been there for me no matter what I've done. The person who has never judged me.
I know things might not ever be the same again, but I hope, really hope we can be friends again. I want to watch your daughter grow up, I want to be in her life like you were in Maya's, which I have never said thank you for, you were there for her when I wasn't and that means the world to me Addison, and I never really said thank you.
I love you Addison, I will always be here for you, even if we're miles apart, I will always be there, for you, for Sam and for Amy. You're my best friend and I am sorry, for everything.
Congratulations on your miracle, you deserve it.
Love your friend, Naomi xxxx'
"Nae" Addison whispered, tears flowing down her cheeks "I am so sorry, for everything, I'm so so sorry"
"Sshh I know" Naomi whispered, moving to sit next to her and wrapping her arms around her, both of them crying "I know you are, I'm sorry too"
"I miss you" Addison sniffled "I want, I want you to be in Amy's life, I really do"
"And I'll be there" Naomi said sitting back to wipe the tears from Addison's cheeks "For all of you, I promise and I will never, ever throw the past in your face again, ever"
"We need a clean slate" Addison sighed "Completely clean"
"I agree" Naomi nodded "Now why I don't I make us some tea, and we sit and eat all of those brownies and cookies before Sam gets home"
"Ok" Addison laughed.
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Sam walked into the house an hour later, curious to see why Naomi's car was parked outside, to the sounds of laughter coming from the living room.
"What's all this?" he asked with surprise when his eyes fell on Addison and Naomi laughing together on the sofa.
"Hey" Addison smiled "Did you get everything at the store?"
"Yeah" he said slowly as he put the grocery bags on the table, eyeing them both carefully.
"Well, I should actually get going" Naomi said as she stood up "I have work this afternoon and need to stop by and see Maya before so…I'll see you soon little one" she cooed to Amy in her moses basket.
"Thank you for coming" Addison said standing up and hugging her tightly "Thank you" she whispered.
"I'll come by soon ok?"
"Ok" Addison smiled as they pulled apart.
"She's beautiful Sam" Naomi said with a small smile as she turned to him "Congratulations"
"Thanks" he said quietly.
"I'll show you out" Addison said following Naomi to the front door, after waving her off she moved back into the living room.
"What was that?" Sam asked with a surprised laugh.
"She brought some things over for me and the baby, well and for you" she smiled "How cute is this?" she said showing Sam the pink bear.
"She brought some things over?" he said slowly.
"Yeah, gifts and stuff" she shrugged "My favourite tea and a new mug, some stuff for when I can have a bath again, Goodnight Moon, a photo frame and baby journal, brownies and cookies which we pretty much already ate and a gift certificate to my favourite restaurant that we can use whenever we're ready for a night away from Amy" she smiled, wrapping her arms around his neck.
"I feel like I've walked into an alternative universe or something" Sam mumbled with confusion.
"We made up, that's all you need to know" she said pecking his lips gently "Why don't you go and have some time with Amy and I'll put the groceries away"
"Ok" he smiled "Y'know, you make me more proud every single day"
"I'm proud of you too" Addison said with a slight whisper "I'm not the only one who's been through the bad stuff Sam, you have too, and on top of that you've helped me through my craziness, which has only made me love you more"
"I wouldn't have got through my bad stuff without you" he said quietly "I love you Addie"
"I love you too" she smiled "Now go, be Daddy"
"Ok" he laughed, he pecked her lips again before moving over to the moses basket and taking Amy out.
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Part 4/6 to follow…