She saw him and Ron sat opposite each other heads close together planning

"Hey guys"

"Hey" they said returning to their whispering she looked to the staff table to see Snape whispering to Dumbledore then urged Hermione with his eyes and left

"Can I talk to you guys?"

"Yeah we'll go out there" Ron said gesturing to the entrance hall

"Are you okay?"

"Fine" Harry replied

"What's up"

"Why do you care?" he snapped

"Because you're my friends and I care about you"

"Really? Well do you care about the future of our world?"

"Yeah of course I do, what are you on about?"

"I think it's obvious"

"No I don't think it is" growled Hermione

"You obviously don't want to fight this war anymore Hermione" Harry said disappointed

"MY PARENTS GOT MURDERED IN FRONT OF ME AND THEN LUCIUS MALFOY RAPED ME" she shouted "SO I'M SORRY FOR NOT BEING MYSELF" several heads turned to look at her as she basically ran down the hallway tears of anger streaming down her face Severus saw her and quietly followed

"Hermione what's wrong?" he asked as she jumped onto her bed and buried her head in her pillow

"Harry said I obviously don't want to fight this war, I lost it, I shouted it at him, everyone heard, but I don't care, how could he say that" she wept Severus' hand placed comfortingly at the small of her back

"He's stressed; he doesn't know what he's saying he'll come around"

"You said I should tell him, you didn't mention it would end like this"

"I said you should tell him, I didn't know how he would react but if I was him I would want to know, wouldn't you?" she nodded

"Why are you crying then?"

"Because I'm angry"

"Hermione, you do amaze me, you really do, Harry Potter would be doomed without you" he given up being horrible around her and had just started being honest but as soon as it was more than the two of them in a room he went back to his snide, malicious self

She rolled over sat up and crossed her legs facing him who was sat the same and he pulled his hand back "Why are you nice to me?"

"Not nice, honest"

"I think it's nice"

"Yes well if anyone finds out I'll know who to murder" his brow furrowed causing Hermione to chuckle

"What?"

"Nothing" she lied smirking

"You know lying isn't a good habit" he smirked back

"No it's not but it's a handy skill to have"

"Yes I suppose, but I much prefer it when people tell the truth"

"Who doesn't? Some people say it's better to tell a small lie then to deliver a devastating truth but if it was that bad you would want to know wouldn't you? If it will change your life that much, I know I would"

"It's always hard but its better you just have to find the right moment"

"You know what?"

"What?"

"I prefer this Snape"

"So do I"

"Why do you act differently then?"

"Because I have to" he said standing up

"Don't hide from me Severus, I can tell your going to"

"You don't know anything" he growled

"I know more than you think" she growled back standing she wasn't as tall as him so she had to look up slightly

He walked towards her and she didn't move partly because of the fact there was a wall behind her. He brushed her jaw with the back of his hand and she shivered as the memories came flooding back, he knew they would and used that too his advantage. Pushing them away she looked him dead in the eye not backing down at all

"You don't scare me" her cheek muscle clenched

"You want to know why I'm hiding from you."

"Yes"

"Because I'm scared you won't like what you find"

"Severus, I know what you've done and I don't care because I've got a lot to say to you, I noticed your eyes are always glued to me, keeping me here, and it makes no sense at all. Why can't I look way, why every time you look at me, talk to me, brush past me I turn to jelly, why I miss you when I'm not with you, why I'm lost for words, why it hurts when you make your little snide comments and it never used to, why I feel like nothing else in the world matters as long as I've got you, so, please, hold me when I'm here, Love me when I'm wrong, hug me when I'm scared, I don't want to lose you" Hermione was shocked that she had just admitted that she loved her potions master "I sorry Professor, I…" and she was cut off as his lips were on hers gentle, but passionate, she hadn't expected her reaction as her arms wrapped round his neck and got tangled in his hair and his wrapped round her waist pulling her close, they both pulled back to catch their breath.

"I didn't know you had it in you" he chuckled

"That's the first time I've wanted to be kissed like that, with Ron it kind of just happened" she admitted blushing as they split apart

"Well I'm glad you wanted it"

"I'm sorry I didn't expect to react like that"

"Shh…" he said placing a finger against her lips gently

"Sorry" she mumbled against it looking into his eyes

"Hermione…"

"Sorry"

"If you say sorry more one more time, I swear…"

"Sorry, I mean… I want you" she admitted blushing he kissed her hungrily unlike Lucius he was still gentle, his body pushing her closer against the wall

"Wait…" she sighed

"I thought you wanted this?"

"No, don't get me wrong I do, but I've never done this before. I just need time to process everything and you're going to hate me for saying this but I'm sorry"

"Hermione, I could never hate you no matter how much you unneedingly apologize." He smirked pecking her on the lips

"Oh no!"

"What?" he asked freezing

"I completely forgot about that essay you set us it's in for tomorrow"

"I'll let you off"

"No!" she exclaimed hitting his arm "You can't treat me any differently 1. How suspicious would that be and 2. I want to know I have earned my grades"

"Did you just hit me?"

"Yes I did get over it"

"Excuse me Miss Granger" slightly annoyed and shocked

"If I start now I should be able to get it done by dinner leaving time to practice my duelling which you can help me with" she listed off walking past him as arms wrapped around her waist "Would you mind telling me what you are going on about?" he whispered into her ear as he kissed down her neck

"Umm… I would but… your rather distracting" she laughed breathlessly

His breath hot against her neck and her back hands stroking the small of her stomach gently unlike Lucius. Nothing about this man was like Lucius. She pulled away physically shaking her head so she could concentrate "That's unfair"

He just chuckled "Life's not fair, you should know that by now, your how old 16?"

"17" She corrected in a matter of fact tone

Knuckling down she managed to get here essay done before dinner and was sat cuddled up to Snape on the sofa head heavy on his chest

"You're tired aren't you?" he said and she nodded

"Go to sleep then"

"I don't want to because I know what I'll see when I do"

"Nothing will hurt you, I promise"

"Will you stay with me?" she asked

"Yes, if you want me to" he said taking her hand, she pulled her jeans off because she already had her pj top on Snape pulled his shirt off over his head and settled next to her spooning her he kissed her head "Sweet Dreams"

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