Reid sat on his bed, his mind running over everything that had happened this morning. Was it true what Tyler told him? Was he using while unconscious? Was he using to see Melli?

He sighed. He had to try it again. He let his eyes flash black and thought of his baby, his angel. He closed his eyes.

" You shouldn't be doing this..' Melli whispered to him as she took his hand in hers.

He opened his eyes and looked at her beautiful face. " I have to… it's the only way."

She looked down. " you're killing yourself…." She stated, tracing patterns on his palm.

" One step closer to you." He smiled at her.

" It doesn't work like that Reid.." she sighed

" what do you mean? How does it work…." He started becoming curious. Was she in heaven? Did it exist? So many questions ran through his mind.

" I can't tell you…. I wish I could,… but.. I'm forbidden." A sad smile played her lips and she looked at him threw her lashes.

" Forbidden? By who? God?" he asked curiously.

She shook her head. " it's not that simple."

"… have you seen josh?" her face brightened.

" yes and no."

" what do you mean?" I ran my fingers through her hair, she leaned into my touch before looking towards the door of my room.

" we can't talk about this anymore Reid. They won't let me see you if we do..."

" they? Whose they?" he questioned, growing concerned and as kept glancing at the door.

She sighed. " I can't talk about it Reid. Can we just… talk about something else?" she pleaded with her eyes.

Reid sighed, defeated. He could never resist her eyes. He pulled her onto his lap and tucked her head beneath his chin. " I miss you" he whispered into her hair.

She sighed. " I miss you too. Probably not as much though… I'm always here… after my " accident" " She used her fingers to emphasize the word " they told me I could chose… I chose to come to you." He tried to interrupt her, to ask what she had to chose between, but she silenced him with her finger. " After I chose you… when I first saw you… how much pain you were in… it was worse then dying. I sat here on this bed and held you…. I cried with you. Even though I knew you couldn't see me, of hear me or even feel me. I just … I couldn't see you like that. It broke my heart… even though its not beating anymore… I could feel it being torn in half. At first I tried screaming at you… telling you that you didn't have to cry anymore… that I was right here… that I was always going to be here. Sometimes… people…even … people without powers, can see us, feel us. I thought maybe you could too. I'd catch you staring at me every once in a while. " She let out a low chuckle. " One time… you even smiled at me. I thought you could see me. But when you looked away… I knew." she plucked his hand from her lap and pulled it up to her cheek. She leaned into his hand and let out a long ragged breath.

" I don't want you to hurt anymore….." she whispered.

He sighed.

" I don't know how not too…. Without you here… everything is gray and blurry.i've forgotten what colors look like. The only color I ever see is the color of your eyes… or the light shade of pink of your lips. The only thing I smell is your perfume. The only thing I hear is the sound of your voice. I don't know how to smile without you."

She pressed her lips gently against his. " I love you " she whispered. " now will you do something for me?"

His eyes locked with hers. " Anything."

" I need you to stop for now…. I'm not saying don't do this ever again… if you need it… if you need me.. come back here… but I don't want you killing yourself over me. "

He scoffed. " If I need you.. I'll always need you."

She hit him playfully in the chest. " you know what I ment. I want you to call Tyler. I want you to go out with the boys. Smile. Have fun. I'll be right beside you the entire time. I'll be holding your hand. No reason for you to miss me if I'm right beside you. And if you need proof that I'm there, because I KNOW how stubborn you are, you can come back to me later and I'll recap the night for you." She smiled jokingly.

He laughed at her. " Fine. I'll go out. And I WILL come back here later… I want to fall asleep with you in my arms." He nuzzled his face against hers before kissing her on the cheek.

" I love you." He told her before retracting his powers, letting his eyes go back to their normal color.