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Chapter 2
Hi there everyone, I'm happy to say that I'll be continuing this story, but with no proper schedule. Since my exams are just merely 3 days away, I had, and have other things to focus on, but don't worry, I'll still update. I am actually loving this fic, and I hope all of you are as well.
I'd like to thank Witchdoctr Mashy-Gaara4life and for the review, I will continue with the story, and I'm glad I peeked your curiosity. :D And yes Mashy-Gaara4and, I am also an artist and have a dA account, you've given me an idea about that certain scene and I'll probably draw it soon. :D Enjoy this chapter.
Oh before I start! This chapter has.. a very violent and rather disturbing scene at the end, I won't spoil it but I think it'll be one of the reasons why I'll be turning this story into a rated M. People who can't handle blood, or anything related to that, should just try not reading it and I'll give a short, less violent description of what happened in the next chapter.
Anyhow.
Here you go.
Chapter 2!
"Shit!" I cursed out loud, someone was coming, and I didn't know who it was! Not that I cared who it was I didn't know how to explain what the fuck was going on!
Firstly, I'm covered in blood, and I have "Love" carved into my bloody forehead! The mirror in the bathroom was shattered and most of the pieces were covered in blood as well! How was I remotely going to explain this to ANY of my siblings without them thinking something was wrong with ME!
I slowly calmed myself down, there has to be a way out of this, there just has to be, I mean, I know if its Temari, she'll just knock and ask if I'm okay and I'll just call out making her feel at ease, and Kankurou barely even comes to my room for anything, so I doubt it would be him, so Temari it is. So I quickly ran back to the bathroom and piled up the glass into a rough pile in the corner behind the door corner, I quickly soaked my towel with water and started to slowly clean my forehead, hissing a little. When I completed that task I soaked the whole towel and started to scrub the bathroom floor. Since it was covered in white tiles, the blood had left a slight discoloration to that portion of the floor. But it'd have to do for now.
I left the bathroom once again, slowly closing the door on my way out so no one would pay it heed. I took another look at the mirror and noticed that the wound is still there, bleeding just a little, but none the less it was there. And it was clear.. I was fucked if someone saw it, but for now I had to make do. I quickly brushed my hair down with my hands so that my short bangs would fall over it. It worked, but it won't work forever. But for now, I was safe, no one would think I'm a complete maniac.
"Who're you kidding? Maniac? I hope they find everything out and throw you back into that place you love ohhh so much, eh, Gaara-chan?"
Shukaku said in a somewhat sarcastic tone.
"Oh fuck off, I will never accept the fact that your back, and I have a life now, a life I cherish, and no fucking way your going to ruin it for me now." I said with the little bit of authority that I had.
"Who are you kidding? Your meds don't seem to work anymore kiddo, and your punishment for suppressing me for this long is going to ruin everything you love, EVERYTHING Gaara, I will turn that new life of yours upside down you little brat!"
"JUST SHUT UP!" I yelled out loud again looking left and right trying to pinpoint where the voice came from, not realizing that, I was real Loud this time around and probably got whoever came upstairs attention. I hated Shukaku, he made my life miserable.. He controlled me, he made me do things that my father had to deal with and he did.. but now the old man was dead and gone and I had to deal with this twisted fuck myself..
"How to deal with something that's part of you?" I pondered for a quick moment until someone knocked at my door.
"Gaara? Are you okay? You skipped dinner and I heard some loud noises and did you just yell? Is everything alright in there?"
Shit, Temari, and out of all the days she acts like a caring sister, why did TODAY have to be one of those days.. Oh wait.. Father died.
"Yeah Tem, I'm alright, just stubbed my toe against the bedpost, its nothing, I'm just studying right now, have college tomorrow." I said a little hesitantly. I think shes the only person in the world who would realize I'm lying, cause generally I'm a very good liar, but not with her..
"Gaara are you sure? Your voice sounds a little shaky, open the door so at least I can SEE that your alright?" She said with a little concern thrown into her words, she actually wanted to see if I'm okay, what did she think? I'd try killing myself if Father out of all people died? I don't think so..
So I looked around the room once more to see if things were okay enough to let her in. I took one last glance at the mirror and slowly shuffled my way to the door, and unlocked it.
"You rarely lock your door, you know.." She said, with her voice almost full of concern now, and she was slowly reaching for my forehead to check my temperature. I almost freaked out, but then quickly thought of a way to fix the situation.
"Ahh Onee-chaann" I grabbed her hands and slowly pulled them down, "Trust me, I'm alright, just a little sad that Dad's not going to be around, thats it, don't worry about me too much." and I slowly pulled her into a hug, just to reassure her. She leaned in on my chest and I could tell she might start crying again.
"Not to be rude but.. why now!" I thought inwardly.
"Gaara.. I feel like Dad not being around is going to be really hard for me.. He helped me through everything, and when Mom was alive we were so inseparable.. I was his first child and first children always feel the most hurt when someone they love leaves them. For instance, when Mother died, I felt horrible.. But remember Gaara, I never EVER will blame you for what happened, you weren't even conscious!"
I sighed, I've heard this lecture before. She always liked the state how this whole charade of Mother dying wasn't my fault, and I've also learned the accept that, though there is a part of me that still believes somehow I caused it.
But honestly, I couldn't, or more like didn't want to have this conversation right now with her, if she lingers around for too long, she'll figure out something, and that won't be very good for me. Because after all those years of making myself look like a normal child, I can't let her suddenly be afraid of me, and get rid of me.
"You're over thinking things again Gaara, just calm down, its nothing to freak out about." I thought calmly. The thought was rather comforting. But in reality, I was shit scared, who was I fooling? If Shukaku manages to take a hold of me again like when I was a kid, he'll make me do things that I don't even want to imagine. He could make me hurt Temari and Kankurou, and no way in hell I want that to happen.
"Gaara.. your doing it again.. spacing out." Temari said, with the concern rising to a whole new level! I'M FINE WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO TO PROVE IT?
"Onee-chan, I'm fine, just a lot on my mind, need to collect my thoughts. So, you just go and get some sleep, you've had a real rough day, and I'll finish off this damn home work and call it a night as well okay? Just stop worrying." I stuck my tongue out at her playfully.
She giggled a little through sobs, I knew I could at least make her smile if nothing else.
"Alright then Otouto, I'll leave you alone, I have to clean up the dishes too, so I'll be up for a while if you want to talk about something, anything." She said with a soft smile on her face. I knew I shouldn't let her do the dishes, in her condition, and I knew Kankurou wouldn't care less, so I offered to clean the dishes for her, regretting it a bit, after pushing forward the offer.
"No its alright, I'll do it, you have work to do." She said softly.
"No, I insist, you need to get some rest, you need to face the company as the head now, remember? You need a good nights sleep, and also a piece of mind." I said rather blankly.
She nodded, and agreed, and then gave me a kiss on my forehead, not moving the hair. I froze, because I didn't see that coming at ALL! But since she didn't brush the hair aside, it was okay. Though I did hide a winch of pain. With that, she walked off to her room, saying good night and I waved to her and said the same with a small smile.
She went in her room, and closed the door, I ran back into my own and locked the door again.
"What a close call.." I whispered to myself, back against the door.
"Close call? I wished she stopped being such an oblivious bitch and saw right through you! How useless!"
"I bare shit you say about me, all the time, but don't you dare, even DARE say anything about my sister! If you were real I'd make sure you never stayed alive."
I said, looking into the mirror, trying not to pay too much attention to him, thinking that giving him less attention would make him go away, or at least stay away for now. But I knew that wouldn't work.
"Just hoping to keep me away won't work Gaara, I'll always be here! And the first one to die this time, is that pretty little sister of yours! I wonder how it'd be to ring that pretty little neck of hers."
"DON'T YOU FUCKING TALK ABOUT MY SISTER YOU MOTHERFUCKER! DON'T YOU DARE TOUCH HER! OR SO HELP ME I WILL GET RID OF YOU!" I yelled almost louder then the last time, but no one noticed.
"What can you possibly do to keep me away? Remember how we killed that nurse at that hospital your daddy sent you to? It was a MARVALOUS sight, and don't tell me you didn't enjoy it." He said in a rather evil tone.
"What does that have to do wit-" He cut me off.
"DO YOU REMEMBER?" Shukaku yelled.
"... I do". I whispered.
Unexpectedly, I caught myself grinning a very demented and twisted grin. I did remember it, and I know I hate all this killing and Shukaku, but that woman had it coming to her. But I realized that letting that happen, just showed that I was weak, and I let Shukaku take over my body. I couldn't let that happen to my sister and brother though.
- FLASHBACK -
The head Nurse at that institution was alone in her office, she had a large window area, where the patients usually took their medication. But at this time of night, all the other patients had already gone to sleep, or more like the meds put them to sleep. But I didn't take my meds that night, what a naughty boy I was.
I looked at the Nurse from the darkness of the social room, where people usually played some games, or something.. I didn't pay too much attention to them during the day.
Anyhow, the Nurse seemed to be writing the days report down into her clipboard.
She said she would help me, she said she was going to make things better, she said she'd make him go away, but he was still here, and he was still very much active and it was very hard to deal with him, but tonight.. tonight I want to do something in my own interest, of couse Shukaku brought it up, and of course I didn't want to agree with him, but all those days of just staying constantly awake and listening to him had driven me to the extent of madness (not that I admitted that I wasn't insane). I had developed dark circle, very dark circles under each of my eyes. Insomnia, they say its another form of decease, and if I had to blame anyone for that, it'd be Nurse Haruno. Only because she never really paid attention to anyone in this damn place, just getting paid and paid and just living off our suffering.
"She deserves it, brat. Remember all the shit she put you through, and I swear if your not going to do it now, I will make your life hell forever." Shukaku said.
In an odd way, he was right again. Ever since I'd been at this place, I'd been put in the solitary cells 4 times, and I'd be forcefully sedated on many occasions, even if I was arguing over little things, I'd be put under. This place was not going to fix me, it would be my own will power to put Shukaku out. But moving on to the more pressing matter in my mind. Nurse Haruno. I was 16 now, and I was very capable of anything, as they like to say.
I moved out of the shadows, but still was not trying to be discovered. I slowly walked my way towards the door to the office. I checked to see if it was unlocked.
"Click.."
How careless Nurse. The door was unlocked, and I quickly walked in. She was sitting where the meds were distributed, and so I grabbed a sedative needle that was on her desk, and along with that, a scalpel that was also there. How convenient. All these goodies here on the night I pick to do this? God must have been looking down at me today.
I walked into clear view of her, and she STILL didn't notice me. What kind of nurse was this? Was she retarded? How could they even let her be a nurse for not noticing a deadly patient in front of her. She was in room which had NO security what so ever, I knew, I had been observant. Then.. only then did she notice me. She looked somewhat confident when she say me, like I wouldn't harm her, she thought I was a good patient, with a good heart. I did, but not when I was completely driven by Shukaku. Now, she was in a lot of trouble, and she wasn't even aware of it.
"Hello Nurse Haruno." I said in my raspy voice, with a hint, of madness.
"Gaara.. why are you awake..? and why aren't you asleep? Please just leave and nothing will happen, we'll forget this confrontation even took place."
She was such a fucking idiot, acting tough in front of ME? NOW? She was going to die.
"Nurse Haruno, I didn't take my medication all day, I know what it does to me, and I know it knocks everyone out. I'm crazy, I'm mad, but I'm not an idiot. And also trying to re-assure me that you'd claim this confrontation never took place? Your just a lying whore."
I think that last part of my sentence set her off, she got off her chair and was about to walk right PAST me, but I wouldn't LET her.
I grabbed her by the throat, and pushed her roughly back into the chair, which creaked a little on impact. She looked up at me, and could see I wasn't joking, and then, only then, did the fear set in for her. I grinned widely.
"Gaara, don't do whatever your thinking, its Shukaku isn't it? Its him whose forcing you to do this isn't it? Don't give in into him, he's just a figment of your imagination."
"Kill her." Shukaku said darkly.
"Gladly." I said out loud.
Her eyes widened. She knew this wasn't a joke anymore.
"You know Nurse Haruno, I actually thought you were going to help me through this, but you didn't, you always put me through hell is what you did instead." I said, with a voice full of malice and poison. I moved closer to her and we were face to face. "If it was Shukaku who told me to do this, AND HE DID tell me to do this, but I never listened to him for 2 years, but now, now I'm doing this out of my own free will. This person who stands before you is Mayurama Gaara." I smiled like a psychopath.
".. And this is your last day of making me suffer." I said to her. "I will make your feel everything you put me through." I grabbed her and put her arms behind her, tore of a bit of her coat and tied her hands together, and did the same with her mouth, I covered that lying mouth of hers.
I pushed her in front of me and lead her into one of the open, empty, solitary cells. Amazing, how I could get around this facility with such ease.
I pushed her in, and she fell onto the padding of the cell.
"How do you like to be in this cell for hours on end? Days? Months? Probably can't imagine it can you, eh, Nurse Haruno?"
She looked genuinely scared. Wanting to scream from help, knowing she couldn't. I closed the cell door behind me, knowing it wouldn't lock. I stretched and got comfortable. I began to walk around the cell, in circles, observing the nurse, like a lion circling its pray.
"Oh Nurse, its such a shame that a pretty woman like you will just end up as a pretty stain instead." I said.
I knelled down next to her whispering into her ears, my mouth right next to her ear, my warm breath sending goosebumps down her skin.
"You are truly beautiful you know that? But, its just the exterior that's like that." I breathed onto her neck and she began to shiver. "If you weren't a Nurse, and I was sane, I think things would have worked out rather well, don't you?" She was in too much shock to even nod.
Ahhhh this was a moment to savor. I was overwhelmed by excitement. I took out the sedative and scalpel from my pockets. She was rather amazed to see both. I took the cap off the needle and violently shoved it into her forearm, she wanted to scream, but the cloth prevented it, instead it only came out as whimpers. I only emptied half of the sedative into her arm, that way, she'll still be conscious, but she won't be able to move. I put her down onto the padding of the cell and stood there pondering what to do with her.
And without emotion, I kissed her forehead and said "I'm sorry it had to come to this Sakura, but you were a major annoyance." and I removed her coat and pulled her top till her chest, revealing her stomach. I slid the scalpel down her stomach harshly, not giving an incision but rather delivering a slash. It wasn't very professional, but I didn't care. I looked up at her face, there were tears, she could see what was going on, and she could defiantly feel it. Good, I wanted it to be that way. I looked back down on the wound I delivered, and there was just simply blood everywhere, dripping down onto the padding, onto my hands, and cloths. It was simply.. satisfying.
I raised the blade with both hands and started the hack insanely, laughing. I knew after the first two hacks, she probably died, but it didn't stop me from continuously bringing the blade down,
Again,
Again,
and
Again.
After the time when my rage had settled aside, I observed my work. There was bits and pieces of flesh everywhere, and almost everything was dismembered. The whole cell was a bloody mess. And the body, well lets say it was beyond mutilated, I couldn't even tell who it was anymore. I achieved what I wanted to do "Whats ugly from the inside, has to be ugly from the outside." I spat.
Though I'll just leave everything here, except the materials I used, but since I was clinically insane according to them, I would have to just stay there a little longer more, but I can simply blame Shukaku for everything, it was his fault after all. Life would go back to normal in,
This
Wonderful
Looney
Bin.
–- END FLASHBACK -
Remembering everything, I ran to the bathroom once more and threw up my guts. I didn't want to remember that.. No one, not eve father knew about that. I'm going to get rid of Shukaku, but does that mean everyones going to stay safe from.. me?
"I'm not going to let this madness happen." I said, then hurling again.
Things are going to change soon..
– END –
= Authors notes =
Well to be honest, this chapter was just.. a spur of the moment thing. I wrote it, am happy with it, but I like the character twist I've given to Gaara, some of you might not feel the same way however, and I'm open to suggestions.
Gaara's past at the Institution will be revealed in flashbacks through out the story, and this story will probably be long anyhow. And if anyone who had a has a weak stomach and read this, I apologize, but the corse of the story will take some twisted turns, that why this story was or probably will be rated M now. Not sure really. You people tell me. :)
And sorry for the long Flashbacks, but there kind of necessary to the plot I have in mind.
Again, I'm open to any criticism, and reviews would be appreciated. :)
I will probably update the next chapter much faster then I did this one, because I began to write it during my exams, but I finished writing it today, that probably a 2 to 3 weeks gap. But now Schools over, and I have all the time to write now. So stay tuned. :)
~Fari.