A/N: Feel free to drop a note with constructive criticism or any other comments you may have. Flash backs are bolded, thoughts are italicized.
"Ian, I don't love you anymore"
The gut wrenching feeling jolted Ian awake. His clothes were sticky, drenched with his sweat from the almost daily occurring nightmare. As he reached over to turn his bed light on, he caught sight of the picture that he had set only a week before; a picture showing Teddy and he kissing on the Beach in Tallinn. Seeing the picture, Ian could not help but think back to the wonderful memories that he shared with Teddy in Tallinn.
"We will be arriving at the Tallinn National Airport shortly, please buckle your seatbelts and secure any carry-on items that you may have. Thank you for flying with European Airlines," boomed the loud speakers.
"Hey big guy," Ian whispered into Teddy's ear as he nudged his sleeping boyfriend awake.
"Wha-huh?" mumbled Teddy still half dazed from the long flight. Teddy's eyes opened slowly only to have him shield his eyes with his hand to block from the glaring sunlight streaming through the window.
God, he is so cute when he is sleepy. Thank God I recommended that we go to Tallinn; two whole weeks of freedom, away from the judgmental glares of West Beverly. Two whole weeks in a glorious resort to spend time with Teddy just relaxing and enjoying each other's company.
Teddy suddenly moved to clasp his hand over Ian's, bringing Ian out of his daydream.
"We are finally here Ian!"
"Yeah I can hardly believe it! "
"This is going to be the time of our lives," Teddy said while looking into Ian's deep blue eyes.
"Yeah it will be," mumbled Ian and he slowly pulled in Teddy for a kiss.
The pain of the one memory dragged Ian into the present, filling his very soul with guilt and remorse.
"I love him so much," cried Ian as he broke down into tears, weeping into his pillow.