Hey guys! FINALLY updating this fic! Sorry it took so long, I got busy then kinda forgot, but I am finishing it! Anyways, I thought this might be a cute confession so I hope it's not too OOC and I hope you like it!
Dear Tohru,
This is really hard for me to say… I've tried and failed many times already… All those times I've tried and just lost my words… Listen, before I tell you what I've tried to tell you so many times, I need to make sure you realize a few things.
I don't have money, and I can't buy you nice things. Remember what I got you for Christmas? You know the quilt with the rice ball on it? I know it looked really bad and you probably didn't like it, but I actually made it. Most people find it stupid if a guy sews or knits or anything but I used to have to on the mountains during training, it got really cold at night and some of the blankets Shishou and I had were ripped and torn beyond repair, so we made our own. I just couldn't buy you anything, and wanted to give you something you can use. Not that you'd use that… I always see it folded up neatly, sitting on the same shelf every time I pass your room. You still seemed so happy and excited when you got it. You know why I sewed the rice ball picture on? Because of that day we were talking about plums. Do you remember? You said everyone was a different rice ball with a unique flavor, they just couldn't see it because it was like a plum on their back. If you've looked at the other side of the quilt you'd have noticed the back of the rice ball with a big plum on it. That's what you have. You're so unique, and it's wonderful.
I also can't change the fact that I'm a monster… I wish I could, really I do… but I'm a monster. You've seen it with your own eyes. It may not matter to you, but it's dangerous for me to be around you. If this bracelet ever breaks or comes off I could really hurt you… when I become my true form it's hard to control my strength. That day that I scratched you, I was just trying to push you away, but I did much worse. I don't want to hurt you Tohru.
Another thing about me that might hurt you is my temper… I try to control it but… at times I lash out and say things I don't mean. I don't want to make you cry again. I know I did when we first met and you hugged me. I called you a stupid little girl. I'm still sorry about that.
Now what I've tried to tell you over and over is… I love you Tohru. It surprised me when I realized it because I didn't know a monster could love. But you don't see me as a monster… that's incredible. You're an incredible girl who deserves more than I can ever give. I love you Tohru Honda, and I can't change that. If this freaks you out, my only request is that you burn this or bury it, or just crumple it up and forget you saw it, just please don't avoid me. You're the only one who's never run away from me, and I'm hoping I'm not ruining anything by telling you this now. Just know that every word of this letter is true. You're beautiful inside and out, never forget that.
Sincerely,
Kyo Sohma
Tohru held the note to her chest, smiling softly, lovingly. She sat on her soft bed, wrapped up in the warm Onigiri quilt Kyo had made her, as it protected her from the chilly night. Though the house did have heating obviously, the quilt provided her with a little extra warmth. She had used it every night since she had received it, and folded it up in the morning, putting it away neatly. She peered out her window and looked up at the stars, the same stars that Kyo-kun was seeing now from his usual spot on the roof.
"Oh mom," thought Tohru, "I'm so lucky to know Kyo-kun… I love him too, you know? I just need to let him know now". Folding up the quilt, she got out a piece of paper, wrote for a couple minutes, and folding it. She held the quilt in one arm, and Kyo's letter and the paper she had written in her other hand. Her destination: the roof.
Kay guys, the next chapter shouldn't take too long and will likely be REALLY cute! You like? R&R!