Here you guys go! I hope you enjoy this! Don't worry these first few chapters will almost go along with the older ones! I don't own twilight.

BPOV

I woke up crying.

And I woke up in fear. Again.

I sat up quietly, careful not to disturb Edward who was sound asleep next to me. Slipping out of bed I grabbed one of his hoodies hanging on the door to keep me warm on this chilly September morning. I tip toed through the still apartment to the kitchen where I shakily made a French Vanilla coffee with our Keurig coffee maker. With my Winnie The Pooh cup in hand, I walked to the balcony that over looked the busy New York City streets. I took a seat in one of our cozy arm chairs and just enjoyed the bustle of the cars and people.

Holding my cup in both my hands, it stopped them from shaking. It's been four years and I still can't shake the nightmares that come at night. I try hard to keep a positive mind set and I try hard not to let Edward see but sometimes he is just too observant. Every morning when I wake up I see his scars and I wish I could take them away. I wish I could take away his nightmares and fears. Sometimes when we're out just walking around I can feel him grow tense, or hold me close as he'll lose me.

I set my cup down and played with my hair absent subconsciously feeling how long it was getting. It's almost as long as it used to be before my leukemia treatments, and now that's its long I can't help but find is a nuisance. I took a deep breath of the chilled air and thought of our wedding, happier times. Edward and I decided to hold the wedding after graduation because we couldn't wait any longer than that. It was truly the happiest day of my life and he became my life. I think it's every girl's dream to find someone who excepts her for who she is and love her deeply and despite all her flaws. Edward is that person for me. He took a big risk marrying me, our uncertain future alongs lingers ahead.

Suddenly I heard the door slide open and Edward walked around to sit on the foot rest in front of me. He smiled softly while his soft hands brought my legs into his lap. "Good morning," He murmured as his lips traveled up my leg.

I smiled with a giggle, his breath tickling me. "Morning."

"I missed you in bed this morning," he said as he reached over to take a sip of my coffee. I smiled as he made a face, he didn't like French Vanilla. I leaned forward and kissed him deeply, moving forward to sit in his lap. His strong hands moved up my back, crushing me to him as my fingers moved into his hair. He groaned as I bit his lip softly and tugged his hair harder when his tongue entered my mouth. He stood with me in his arms before placing me on the floor against the glass door. His fingers moved to the hoodie where he unzipped it painfully slow and ogled my chest through my practically see through white tank top, noting that I wore no bra. I pulled his lips back to mine quickly, missing them too much already, and moved so that I could slowly slide the door open to bring us inside.

Edward walked me to the bedroom as we kissed and clung to each other in a passionate embrace. In our master suit his hoodie was cast aside quickly as he tossed me on the bed. I giggled as he crawled on top of me and kissed his way down my neck to the collar of my shirt. I stared up at the ceiling just trying to keep breathing normally as his hands explored my body. I moaned loudly and tugged at his hair, my toes curling in the process. Then suddenly, bam bam bam! Echoed through the apartment and Emmett's voice boomed in the hallway.

Edward groaned into my breasts before he rose up on his arms and turned his head toward our door.

"Shut the fuck up Emmett!" He yelled before going back to kissing me. I giggled as he chuckled into my neck with a sigh. Of course this wasn't going to end. The phone on my bedside table began to ring and we both groaned in annoyance. I answered it, "What?"

"Bellaaaa!" My brother whined on the other end of the phone.

"Emmett shut the fuck up," I heard Rose mumble to him.

Then Edward grabbed the phone out of my hands, "Emmett, I swear to God man. If you don't leave us alone right now I'll make sure your dick won't function for a week."

I giggled as he handed the phone back to me. Without even checking back, I hung up and wrapped my arms around Edward's neck. "Where were we?"

Edward laughed softly before kissing me again. "I love you Baby."

Thank you guys so much reading! Please review and please read the long AN under here (I've posted it to all my updated stories so sorry if it looks repeated)

FIRST, sorry for any mistakes I've made I wanted to get this done and posted! :S

SECOND! Please check out my Promise series (Make Me a Promise and Promise I Can't Keep)

THIRD, for those of you who have known me for a while or who have read any of my stories you know that I had taken a longer hiatus in February of last year with a family death. So anyways I am posting a very personal story that I have had in my head. PLEASE read it but I'm not looking for flames because it is close to me but I feel like since I wrote I might as well put it up. I'm posting under the name Little Blue Sky that title will be explained in the story.

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