A/N- Hey, fellow fanfic readers! I got a review, so I shall continue my story (hands cookie to degrassiluver15 and Degrassi14) enjoy!

Eli's POV

Wow. I never thought I'd be here. Waking up with my arms wrapped around Clare. The girl I am in love with, the girl I am so lucky to have met. The girl who can be unpredictable, yet grounded. Sexy, yet sweet. She's there when I need her, and I'm there when she needs me. We've laughed together. Cried together. I can't imagine myself with anyone but her right now.

I smiled at here as I watched her sleep. God, she was adorable. I kissed her wild, messy auburn curls. She stirred.

"Eli?" she said sleepily.

"Good morning, Blue Eyes."

"Morning," she said, looking at me with those big, crystal blue eyes. "This is nice. Being here in your arms."

"This isn't nice." I said, and she frowned. I kissed her softly on her full lips, and said, "This is amazing." she blushed and smiled.

She pushed my bangs off of my forehead, and said, "Yes it is. Can we just do nothing today? This is great."

"We can do whatever your cute little heart desires." She snuggled closer to me, closing her eyes. I looked at her. Her wild curls, her long eyelashes, her perfect nose, her full pink lips. She was so beautiful. I kissed her forehead, and she opened her eyes and smiled at me. "So what do you want for breakfast? I can make whatever you want." I said.

"Do you want pancakes?" She asked.

"Sure, but only if you kiss the cook." I smirked.

"I'd love to."

I hopped out of bed and picked Clare up, bridal style. She giggled and said, "Eli, what are you doing?" I walked out of my now clean room, and started to walk downstairs. "I'm carrying you." I said.

"Well, I knew that, Captain Obvious." She said. I responded, "I won't let you lift a finger today. I will cater to your every need. So I will carry you everywhere." She looked into my eyes. "Eli, you don't have to do that-" I cut her off with a kiss. "I want to, Baby." We were in the kitchen, and I sat her on the counter. I kissed her forehead, and then got out all the ingredients for pancakes. Clare started singing softly to herself, and I smiled at her. Her voice was soft and sweet, like her. She smiled back.

"You have a beautiful voice, Clare." I said. She blushed and said, "Really?" "Really."

I had the pancake batter, and was ready to cook them. She said, "So, Christmas is in two weeks. I was wondering if you wanted to spend Christmas Eve at my house? You don't have to, since you don't believe in that stuff." She bit her lip.

"Clare, if it means I get to be with you, then I'd love to." I said.

She said, "Good, because I already have your Christmas present." I smirked and said, "Well, can I get a hint for what it is? Or can I shake the box?"

She smirked back. "You have to wait, Eli."

I pouted. "I bet I can get it out of you."

"And how would you do that?"

"Well, I can either tickle or kiss it out of you, whichever you prefer." I walked towards her. She giggled and said, "I won't tell you anything, but I will kiss you." She crushed her lips to mine. I kissed her back, pushing my tongue into her mouth. Our tongues wrestled, and suddenly I smelled pancakes. "Oh, shit, I forgot about the pancakes!"

"Language, Eli!" she said, catching her breath. "Sorry." I said as I quickly turned off the stove and put the perfectly cooked pancakes on a plate. I placed the plate on the table, and I picked Clare up, brining her to one of the chairs. She giggled and said, "Eli, I can walk, you know." "Oh, I know, but you are too perfect to have to walk." I said.

"Well, I'd have to disagree with that, but thank you." she kissed me on the cheek, and I quickly turned my head so I caught her lips. She was surprised for a second, then she kissed me back. She pulled away, saying, "Let's eat, I'm starving." I smirked and sat down next to her. I started to serve Clare, and she said, "Mmm, These look really good. I didn't know you could cook, Eli!"

"Wait, you thought I was a bad cook? Ouch, I'm hurt, Blue Eyes." I pretended to frown.

"I never said that, Goldsworthy. To make it up to you, I'll feed you." she said, grinning.

"Nuh-uh. I get to feed you." I picked up her fork, stabbed a piece of pancake, and held it up to her mouth. "Open wide, Edwards." she giggled and let me feed her, blushing the whole time. I smirked at her. She was so cute when she was embarrassed!

She swallowed the pancake, and said, "I'm full. And you haven't eaten anything yet." she frowned. I kissed her forehead, and said, "Don't worry, Blue Eyes. You are my first priority." I started to eat, and she started playing with my hair. She smiled at me and said, "So, what do you want to do today?" When I was finished eating, I said, "Well, I do have something in mind," I smirked and winked at her playfully. She giggled and said, "Oh, and what would that be?"

I inched toward her and said in a sexy tone, "I think you know." And with that, I crushed my lips to hers passionately, and she immediately kissed back. I tugged on her bottom lip with my teeth, and she moaned. I picked her up and brought her over to the couch, and I laid on top of her, straddling her. Her tongue pushed into my mouth, and our tongues wrestled. She put her small hands under my shirt, and ran her fingers down my chest. I lifted my arms so she could pull off my shirt. I started to kiss down her neck, sucking and nibbling. She wrapped her legs around my waist, and grabbed my hair and pulled me closer to her. I cupped her breast through her shirt while she lifted her hips to mine, and we both groaned. Through all this passion, I hadn't heard my parents come downstairs.

"Well, well, well. I guess someone's having fun down here?" Bullfrog said, chuckling. Cece said, "Bullfrog! Be nice to Eli and Clare. They can't help it!"

"Ugh, Mom, Dad, if you catch me and Clare making out, please just pretend like nothing happened and walk away, instead of commentating on it?" Clare's face was beet red, and her hair was messy and tangled. I could feel the blood rising in my face.

Clare looked horrifed. "I... uh, I guess we should go upstairs, shouldn't we, Eli? And good morning, Mr. and Mrs. Goldsworthy." she smiled sheepishly at my parents, and Cece said, "Oh Sweetiepie, you can call us Cece and Bullfrog, you know." I said, "Yeah, let's go upstairs."

As we got up off the couch, Cece said, "Have fun, you two! Be safe!" Clare blushed in embarrassment, and I said, "MOM! we're not going to do that. Geez, why are you guys so invasive?" I groaned, picked Clare up, and walked upstairs. "And yes Clare, even though I'm severely embarrassed right now, I am still going to carry you." her face was still a deep red color as we walked out of sight of my parents.

"Oh my, that was... embarrassing." she said, still out of breath. "Yes it was. My parents are excellent cockblockers." I said. She walked over to my bed, sat down and patted next to her, with a cute smile on her face. I walked over and jumped on the bed. She giggled and sat on my lap. I played with her messy auburn curls while she looked at the book on my night stand. "Reading Palahniuk again, I see." she said, studying the cover. I chuckled and kissed the top of her head. "What can I say? The dude's a master at writing."

She put the book back on my nightstand, and said, "I can agree to that." she pushed me onto my back, and snuggled against me. "I love you." she said softly.

"I know." I said, and she playfully hit me on the chest. I kissed her softly on the lips, and said, "I'm kidding. I love you too, Blue Eyes." I started to sing softly. After awhile, she turned and looked up at me.

She said, "Eli, I've heard you sing to your heavy metal songs before, but never like this. I didn't know you could sing like that." I blushed. She smiled at me and said, "You have a really nice voice."

"Thanks, Edwards. That's not true, but thanks." I said as I pressed my face into her hair.

We both fell asleep. I was dreaming about Clare and I in a park, but suddenly, Clare changed into her. Julia. She looked different, almost ghostlike. I held out my hand, wanting to touch her face. It had been so long since I'd done that. But when I tried to, She faded into the bright afternoon sun. I heard her laughter all around me, and I called her name. "Julia? Are you there?" I looked around for some sign of her. I felt someone tap my shoulder, and Julia was there again. "Did you miss me, Eli?" She smiled, her warm brown eyes piercing into mine. "Julia, you're not really here, are you?" I said. She frowned. "I'm still dead, Eli. Nothing's going to change that. And it's all. Your. Fault. You are the reason I died. And now you've just forgotten me, like the rest of your past. Clare has changed you. You love her, don't you? Did you love me, Eli?" I gulped and said, "Yes, I did." She looked deep into my eyes, saying, "But you don't anymore, do you? I'm just a piece of your memory that's drifting away, aren't I?" "No, I will never forget you, Julia! You were a part of me. I miss you so much. I was hurting, and Clare saved me. My heart doesn't ache, anymore." I said softly. She started to raise her voice. "Yeah, and I'm happy for you, Eli. But what if I never died? Would you be with Clare? No, you'd be with me." I started to raise my voice, too, saying, "Well, that night, we were fighting. We never fought, Julia. But I caught you flirting with Mike. Remember him? He was my elementary school bully. And you flirted with him. So I don't know. Maybe would have broken up anyway. I wish you didn't leave me. Not like this." She frowned and started to fade away. "Well, Eli, it seems like you're over me. Have fun with Clare. And by the way, I never liked Mike. You're just a jealous asshole." she said.I started to shout as she became more translucent. I said, "Julia, that's bullshit. I caught you kissing him. You know what, though? I'm happy with Clare. sure, I'll always miss you, but I'm over you." Julia started to shout at me, saying, "Well, then I guess this is goodbye. Forever. Just know that I would still be alive if it weren't for you. You killed someone Eli. Me. Goodbye, Elijah." I tried to reach out to her, but I was just running my hand through air. "Wait, Julia! Come back! I'm sorry!" I was shouting to the sky now. She was gone.

"Eli? Wake up. Eli?" I heard Clare's sweet voice as she pushed my sweaty hair off my forehead. "Eli, I think you had a nightmare."

"Julia... Come back." I mumbled, still partly in the dream. "Don't leave."

I felt Clare's lips on my forehead, and I opened my eyes slowly. She was leaning over me on the bed. Her eyes were filled with worry. She kissed my forehead and said, "Hey, sweetie, it was just a dream. It's okay." I felt hot tears running down my face.

"She... She's gone." I sobbed as Clare rested my head on her lap. She started to stroke my hair as she whispered comforting things to me.

The guilt I felt had overwhelmed me. We stayed like that for about an hour, until my tears ran dry. I was tired and wanted to go to sleep, but i didn't want to have any more dreams. I could hear Clare sniffling above me. She said softly, "Eli. I'm so sorry about Julia. So sorry. It wasn't your fault. If I can do anything to make you feel better, I will. I hate seeing you like this. It breaks my heart to see you upset, and there's nothing I can do. I wish Julia had never died, even if it means I would have never met you. I love you Eli, And I'm so... so sorry." I felt her wet tears fall on me, and I felt even worse. Now I was making Clare sad.

"Clare," I whispered, "Don't be sad. It's not your fault. It's my fault." I turned and sat up, pulling her into my arms. I pressed my face into her hair. "I love you. I'm so glad I have you."

"I love you too, Eli." She snuggled closer to me. "Look, now you're comforting me." I smiled, saying, "It's okay, Blue Eyes."

She smiled back at me and said, "Are you okay, Eli?" I said, "I'm better, because you're here with me." She blushed.

Clare said, "Do you want to talk about it?"

"Not right now... Maybe later." I replied. "So... Would you like another free stay at Hotel Eli?"

She giggled and said, "I'd love to. I have to get out of bed tomorrow, though, for Church."

"Well, maybe I could come with you." she looked at me seriously. "Really? Eli, you don't have to. I know you don't believe in that stuff."

"That's true, but I don't want you to leave. I'm afraid I'll break down again." she kissed me softly. "It's okay, Eli. I'm here until you get sick of me."

I smiled. "Well don't hold your breath. I don't think I'll ever get sick of you. And thank you, for being here and not giving up on me."

"Eli, I will never give up on you. As long as you never give up on me." She said.

"Never." I replied.

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