The next morning Sirius woke feeling warm and secure, it took him several minutes to find the source of the warmth. Remus had curled into Sirius as the night passed, He had settled his head onto Sirius' chest with his arms wrapping around Sirius' frame and legs entirtwined. Sirius smiled sleepily as he looked at Remus sleeping soundly on his chest, Sirius noted how his hair shone different colours as the morning sun streamed through the window, brown, honey, blonde, gold and grey hairs fell off Remus' face onto Sirius' chest mixed with his own dark curled chest hairs. Sirius closed his eyes and willed himself to go back to sleep as he was concerned that his franticly beating heart would wake Remus. Sirius drifted off into a state of almost sleep as Remus stirred quietly. Remus also woke feeling warmth around him and he nuzzled closer to the source rubbing his face gently against his pillow before he realized his pillow was a warm chest scattered with dark hair. Remus opened one eye before wincing at the brightness of the morning, he closed it quickly thinking that he would just quickly go down stairs before Sirius woke and realized Remus had nuzzled as close as possible to him while he slept. Remus cursed himself silently, wishing he could remove his memories of last night as they came flooding back. Remus loved Sirius so deeply and shaking his head gently stopping his thoughts going into overdrive inhaled slowly absorbing Sirius's smell and allowing himself to enjoy the position he found himself in for a few minutes in a stupid foolish love sick way. He smiled to himself as he listened to Sirius' heart beat under his ear before a contented sigh exited Sirius' mouth as Sirius nuzzled his head into Remus' hair and tightening his grip of remus. Remus panicked when he realized he would not be able to untangle himself from Sirius before he woke, he tapped his hand onto Sirius' chest gently called "Sirius". Sirius moaning softly "hmmm".

Remus was trying to untangle himself from Sirius but each move he made only caused Sirius to hold him tighter before Sirius muttered quietly "Remy" before slowly waking and opening his eyes suddenly. Sirius opened his eyes with a sudden fear and need to identify who exactly he was curled up around, he looked down and seeing Remus' amber orbs looking back to him Sirius get out a husky chuckle "Morning Rem" Remus smiled weakly at his friend before pushing himself off of Sirius' chest "Morning Sirius" Remus replied neutrally as he put as much distance he could between them while still being in the same bed, he could not however not notice the look of longing and pain that his movements caused Sirius who sighed rejected before getting out of the bed

"I'm going to shower and I'll see you down stairs" he muttered before walking toward the door

"Sirius" Remus objected gaining another sigh out of Sirius

"I know, I know Remus, I said I would behave myself, I promised I wouldn't do anything but I didn't ya know? I mean I didn't realise I was and I know you are going to hate me for it but I'm not sorry" Sirius declared boldly

"Your not?" Remus asked

"No, I got to hold you for a little while and wake up feeling you curled up next to me. I am not sorry that happened because that is what I want to wake up feeling everyday if you let me"

Remus closed his eyes suddenly weary from all the emotions that had bubbled over the last few days.

"Pads…."

"Don't Remus, please just don't. Let me have that moment, you took back the one from last night but let me have this mornings"

"Pads" Remus stated again

"I'll be down stairs Moony, Harry will be back any minute, we slept the day away. Its already 4pm" Sirius added before walking down stairs.

Remus huffed indignantly before showering and walking down to find Harry talking excitedly to Sirius about his time away, Remus smiled happily, he stood around the corner out of there line of sight but with a good view of the two men, watching Harry wave his arms around explaining a prank the twins had pulled on Ron and Sirius roar with laughter. It seemed nothing was off limited to his pairing as Sirius winked and asked how Ginny was before Harry blushed and continued talking animatedly about Ginny and how wonderful she was. Remus felt his heart pull at how similar Harry was to his father and James love of Lily that seemed just was passionate, Sirius smiled happily at his godson almost bursting with pride over the exact same similarity.

Harry finally stopped talking and smiling sweetly before asking, "How was your weekend with Remus"

Sirius threw Harry a dark look that did not match the colour that flushed his own cheeks. "Fine Harry, we did some work around the house and relaxed"

"Was it relaxing?" Harry smirked.

"Harry" Sirius warned

"What?" Harry asked "You love him, he loves you, why are you making it so hard?" He challenged

"Harry its not quite that simple but I am trying"

"Try harder" Harry stated, "Eddie told me that Remus loves you more than anything and if you refuse to give up he will let you love him"

"I will never give up Harry but I don't want to lose him by pushing too hard"

"Maybe he likes it rough" Harry laughed before getting up quickly and making to run from a horrified Sirius who quickly stood and started after Harry who ran out the kitchen door and crashing into Remus who steadied Harry before Sirius came around the corner and ran into both of them.

Remus easily steadied them all from falling and laughed looking down at a squashed Harry who was looking up at him "Okay Harry" He asked concerned

"Fine" Harry answered "hmm how long have you been down here" he asked

"Long enough to know why your godfather wanted to chase you"

Remus smiled as Harry face coloured and Sirius made a small choking sound. Remus stepped around the embarrassed pair and looking into the kitchen curiously where Eddie was before a small paper aeroplane flew out of the kitchen towards him.

Remus opened the letter before frowning and looking up at Sirius and Harry.

"Eddie is out for the day with Charlie she said not to wait up" He continued frowned at Harry and Sirius' matching smiles

"We are going to have breakfast and you both are going to tell me everything I apparently don't know about my Eddie and Charlie," He stated firmly

"One condition" Sirius stated to which Remus nodded sharply

"I'll cook, you are a horrible cook" Sirius smiled

Remus shrugged his shoulders indifferently and walked into the kitchen sitting down heavily running his fingers through his hair tiredly

"Tired?" Harry asked

"Yeah, I'm not as young as I once was and late nights on the booze take a lot more out of me" Remus smiled

"Sirius said you guys just relaxed all weekend"

"He lied" Remus stated bluntly

"I sing in a band that was playing in town last night, Sirius and Charlie snuck in and well I drank enough that would of probably killed a normal man"

"Werewolf's don't get drunk?" Harry asked confused

"No we do, we just need to drink a lot more to get that way and we have a high tolerance for it but our metabolisms work through it quicker so we also sober up every quickly unless…." Remus trailed off

"You keep drinking insanely large amounts of alcohol which in turn ruin your body " Sirius finished

"Oh" Harry smiled " I can barely handle 2 fire whiskeys when Sirius lets me have them" Harry stated

"He lets you drink" Remus asked staring at Sirius disapprovingly

"Occasionally" Harry answered honestly "Special occasions or bad days"

"Hmm" Remus answered

"Come on Rem, we drank an awful lot when we were that age, I'm being responsible by teaching him moderation and taking the excitement or appeal away by it not being off limits"

Remus continued to stare blankly

"Come on!" Sirius muttered "Me and harry are going just fine, aren't we harry"

"Sure" Harry beamed

"See" Sirius smiled triumphantly at Remus

Remus didn't answer but was staring at Sirius' hand that was holding the fry pan with the bacon, mushrooms, friend eggs and tomato's. Sirius chuckled before placing everything on the table and quickly serving himself and harry before gently pushing the fry pan in Remus' direction. Remus nodded gratefully at Sirius before eating out of the fry pan ignoring the plate in the centre of the table. Remus ate then sat back in his chair looking at Sirius and Harry again questioningly

"How long has Charlie been trying to seduce my Eddie?" He demanded gruffly clearly not impressed with Eddie's explatation in the note.

Sirius smirked at Remus' fatherly behaviour and disapproving tone.

"Rem, Charlie is a nice boy, all the Weasley's are" Sirius started with sensing that this would be a long discussion before Harry jumped in

"Charlie is great Remus, he always has been so friendly and helpful to me. He loves his work as well, talks about it all the time!"

"Eddie does love that field of work as well, I can see the connection"

"I don't" Remus stated, "They have nothing in common"

"Love of Romania, love of dragons, hmm they both speak several different languages, appreciation of the same type of music, both members of the order and have over protective parents"

"Over protective my ass" Remus argued

"Come off it Remus! You're over protective and you know it! You have done nothing but try to separate Eddie from Charlie since day one"

"I have not interfered, I haven't encouraged it either"

"Why not?"

"Because he could hurt her! He could break her heart and leave her alone without anyone to support her or live for. He could die in this war and leave her with nothing!"

"We are talking about Eddie Remus, not what I did to you!" Sirius answered hotly

"I'm scared she will leave me" Remus sighed

"She was my everything Sirius, she saved me from my despair. She depended on me and as she grew she healed my pain, my suffering and taught me to live again"

"You are not going to lose her Moons, she will always be your daughter"

"I'm scared"

"Of what"

"Of who I will be without her here, of being alone again"

"You're not alone Remus" Harry answered bravely interrupting Sirius and Remus' conversation.

"You have Sirius, Sirius loves you and will be with you always if you let him"

"Harry" Sirius warned before Remus' spoke over him

"Harry, it's complicated"

"No its not" Harry yelled frustrated

"He loves you deeper than I have ever seen anyone love someone and I refuse to see you hurt him anymore. He would do anything for you to give him a chance and if I have to pick up the pieces one more time when he falls apart from your rejection"

"Harry please" Sirius pleaded

"No!" Harry continued his voice rising louder as he got angrier " I love Sirius, he is my godfather and he is the closest thing I have to a father figure. I love you Remus as an uncle I actually like, I want to see you both happy and I think that would be if you were together"

Sirius placed a hand on Harry's shoulder firmly but kindly silencing him before Remus spoke with his voice raw and guttural

"Your right Harry, completely bloody right" He turned and walked away up the stairs leaving Harry teary eyed staring his back.

Harry turned to face Sirius with a look of shame and fear; concerned Sirius would be upset with Harry for his heated words.

"Thank you for saying those things Harry, I love you too and I am trying to be the best godfather I can"

"Why does Remus push us away" harry asked

"He is use to it, werewolves aren't treated well Harry. He is just doing what he always has, keeping his distance so people wont hurt him"

"We won't hurt him," Harry stated firmly

"I did, a long time ago without even knowing it and I am still paying for it" Sirius sighed before adding "I will go talk to him, why don't you start cleaning up for me"

Sirius walked upstairs with a sense of forbearing, fearful of Remus' likely rejection. He found Remus standing in his bedroom, sitting on his bed with the old poloroid photo he had had pinned up above his bedside in his hands staring intensively at the old worn photo.

"Oh Rem" he stated sadly

Remus laughed bitterly in response before running his arm though his hair and rubbing the back of his neck to which Sirius asked

"Rem? Are you embarrassed" Sirius asked "you only rub the back of your neck when your embarrassed and shy"

Remus nodded once agreeing with his friend.

"You don't have to be shy with me Rem" Sirius answered honestly "I'm sorry, Remy Harry just…." Sirius continued before being cut off by Remus who suddenly forcefully kissed Sirius, placing a hand in Sirius hair and roughly pulling him closer. Remus' other hand had a tight grip on Sirius t-shirt holding it firmly. He demanded entrance into Sirius' mouth, realizing a soft moan when Sirius opened his lips. He kissed Sirius with passion that almost suffocated him; Remus' smell and hands engulfed him making everything around spin with the passion, desire, love and desperation of Remus' kisses. Remus pulled back sharply gasping for air but continued to slowly stroke Sirius's cheek with his thumb in small circles staring in Sirius's eyes unblinkingly. Sirius held Remus' gaze but after several moments broke into a large grin before pulling Remus into another sizzling kiss by his shirt. Sirius poured his soul and all his love into the kiss, giving it his all knowing that if Remus rejected him again it would be the last time as he just did not have anything left to give. But Sirius was startled when Remus deepened the kiss as he ran his hand under Sirius' t-shirt and pushing Sirius gently backwards until he laid down in the centre of the bed and supportive himself on arms either side of Sirius shoulders before breaking the kiss and returning Sirius' earlier grin. Sirius returned to smile, not quite believing what was happening before gasping loudly as Remus placed wet kisses down his neck then nibbling gently on his earlobe. Sirius ran his hand through Remus' hair lovingly and tracing the scar that sliced his eyebrow and eye, Remus closed his eyes with a small smile on his face sighing happily as Sirius continued to place soft kisses on each of his scars on his face. Remus opened his eyes, staring into Sirius dark eyes and quietly muttered "I love you", Sirius heart soared at the words before kissing Remus in a deliberately slow and sweet kiss before answering

"Thank Merlin for that! I was starting to think you would never say it. I love you too Remy so so so much and I will never stop"

Remus smiled happily, revealing all his sharp teeth in a smile that many would see as threatening but Sirius felt honoured to see the real Remus and his smiles.