~Shiroi~Shinigami~ [Death Note]

Time does not stop even with her plea.

Thus, the hands of clock have begun to move

Tampering with the rules of world will bring chaos.

Third Chapter

Yesterday I came back late at night, as I was shopping the whole day trying to forget that disgusting presence I had felt earlier that day but I couldn't forget it. Though it wasn't presence similar to that shinigami at all but the fact of it being shinigami's presence made you uneasy. One thing you hated was Death gods; they took everything near you away just to make you suffer. Your memories were blurry as they had been erased once but you could still remember most important points. Although you didn't want remember but the blood mixed in your own kept reminding you.

Your mother was from peculiar family. Thought generations they made contact with Death gods and quarter of their blood was that of Death gods but sometimes their body didn't accept it and they went insane and killed themselves. If the blood accepted someone that person could life long live aging slower than others and in contact shinigami was allowed to collect half of that person's life as its own when they were about to die. Your mother was one of those that the blood didn't accept completely. When she received contact and accepted shinigami's blood she went insane but recovered year later. After that she met my father and they fell in love and I was born but for some reason two years later of my birth my mother become crazed again ending up killing herself, leaving me with my father.

Years passed normally, until something unexpected happened... My father, who is curious type, picked up unusual white notebook with black pages. Words ''डेथ नोट'' were written on front with black. Your father didn't understand them as they were in language, which he didn't know but his curiosity won over taking the notebook with him. That's when everything changed...

Not knowing, if it was fate or disaster as those two met again. My mother who I knew in past was no longer alive as human but as a Death god. Her becoming one may have been because of the quarter of shinigami blood or like they say in stories that person dying from suicide will become death god. Either way she become one and the death note my father picked was her's.

When person becomes death god their memories disappear but after meeting my father and me again she started to remember. Death god must never regain their memories; if they do they are to be executed. What's more she broke death god rules by saving my life with the shinigami blood. Before dying she made me drink her black shinigami blood and gave me her shinigami eyes, ripping my own eyes out and placing red shinigami eyes in their places. That may have seemed cruel but back then I was weak child with life threatening sickness, what also devoured my eyesight so as a mother she didn't have choice but to do it knowing that she would die soon anyway. The blood could have killed me but it didn't and I survived but my father died protecting me, because I was being that couldn't be meant to life as I had much more than quarter of death god's blood. Maybe even more than half of my blood was black now. Because of the shinigami's blood my hair turned white and my skin pale and thanks to the shinigami eyes I was able to see again but I also saw lot of things, I didn't want to see.

I often wondered why I wasn't killed but I soon came to know. Shinigami couldn't kill without death note and I was never given real name so killing me would be impossible without name. That is why some tried to drive me into despair and kill myself but I didn't fall into that remembering my mother who killed herself and suffered even more.

After my parents death I picked up that Death note that once belonged to my mother and sealed my memories within it. Locking it away in that mansion and making me forget things that were most painful, that's why my memories were blurry as I was still half human.

Slowly you opened old diary, it was your mothers. In middle of its pages was picture of them together. You picked it up and looked it with sad smile on your face.

They both died young but your father was an actor when he still lived and this picture was taken when your father asked your mother to act as his pair in one movie once to show her how fun acting can be.

The movie was about Young vampire and heiress of rich family, that fell in love with each other but love between human and vampire was not allowed and girl's parents ordered her to kill the vampire but she couldn't do it and they ended up running away together but vampires life was much longer than girl's so in promise of their eternal love he turned her into vampire and so they lived loving each other for long.

You smiled thinking back, when you had loved this movie very much and watched it many times. Now days you didn't watch it anymore, because you would only think your parents if you watched it. You didn't want to remember anymore sorrowful memories as you were already about to cry and that's when someone entered your room surprising you and letting one teardrop slowly fall from your eye. L was the one who entered your room.

''I found someone who is... Wait, why are you crying ?'' L was about to say something but noticed your tears.

''No i'm not, just some dust got into my eye, go on with what you were about to say.'' You quickly answered wiping your tears and looked away from L.

''...Oh okay. I found someone who may be Kira.'' He answered quietly knowing that you lied but saw that you didn't want to speak about whatever for you were crying.

''He's here, come out to look when you feel better.'' Saying that L left your room leaving you alone sitting on your bed. You washed your face in bathroom, which was linked to your room, erasing the fact that you were crying little while ago. Looking at the mirror you were satisfied and went to the room where L and everyone else were but stopped before you got anywhere near others, noticing familiar figure.

''...Raito ?'' You shouted pointing at the familiar figure you had met yesterday.

He turned his head to your direction with eyes widening as he noticed you, ''Gina, what are you doing here ?'' He asked in confusion.

''That's what I want to ask from you.'' You answered in confusion yourself too but then remembered, what L had said and asked, ''...Wait is he the one you suspect L ?''

'' You already know each other, if so then that makes things easier.'' L pointed out ignoring your question so you took that as a yes. Light just nodded at L. Now looking at Raito you noticed something, what you hadn't noticed earlier... You didn't see his lifetime like you usually saw on people. Suddenly you took more interest in the kira case thinking back, what others had told you about this case. Your eyes widened in horror as you suddenly realized something...

On that day, my heart crumbled away soundlessly

With memories that I can't erase even if I broke down and screamed

The darkness flows into my eyes

I sink into the tomorrow where I can't even see colors anymore

~Tyragosa