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Chapter 4

I looked around everywhere, the whole entire school and no Edward. I tracked his sent to the edge of the forest that wrapped around the school. I knew that I couldn't just mysteriously disappear and I had no doubt that Edward made up some excuse to leave the campus. Well I guess he thought he could escape me, but it isn't that easy, we can all lie.

"Bella what the hell was that?" I heard Alex say behind me, but I couldn't look at her. I didn't feel like speaking to anyone, but Edward right now. "We looked foolish just on the stage with none to sing. People were expecting another song. I told them that you were feeling sick and told the nurse you had to go home. You have been up and down with your emotions lately and you need to work them out. I will always be here for you, but right now I am not sure how I can do that."

I then turned around only to tell her this one last thing before I went. "I am sorry, but you saw what happened this morning and I bet you are really confused. I am to. Something big just happened something I have been hiding from you. Just please I need some peace stop expecting something from me because you will be disappointed." I turned towards the forest to where Edward was. "I will see you at home later."

The sent seemed Farley fresh, but I also knew that Edward was really fast so it might be awhile before I caught up to him. He had to stop somewhere… I hope.

Green and yellow colors flashed by me so fast I think this was the fastest I have ever ran. Still following the trail I saw a small clearing up ahead and in it was Edward sprawled out in the middle. I slowly walked up to him standing about three feet away from his right side.

"Hello." I said to him not really knowing how to start.

"Hello." Edward spoke, hands still covering his eyes.

"So I wanted to talk to you." I was fumbling with my fingers.

"I kind of guessed so… I wanted to talk to you also. There are many questions that need to be answered from both of us. Mostly me." He removed his right hand from his eye so he could look at me.

"May I go first."

"Oh yes of course." He said as he patted the empty space next to him.

I sat down half facing him half staring out into the quite forest only hearing a few chipmunks in the trees.

"I don't really know how to start with my questions there are so many… can you give me a moment to figure it out?" I said looking towards him being very careful to not look in his eyes.

He nodded. After about two minutes I knew pretty much what I wanted to say.

"You can read minds." I began, "You might have all ready found out from Rickey's mind just what he can do so I apologize if I am repeating old news." I chuckled. "When he comes in contact with anyone's skin he can search your mind for answers to a question he had. He can only see the answer to his question, but it comes to him in vision form. One day I was… depressed you could say. This one day was just yesterday evening. I was remembering the day you left me. The emotions were more clear then the memory itself." I looked over to him to make sure he was still listening. When he nodded his head for me to continue I looked back into the forest as I spoke.

"I promise there is a point to this and a reason I have mentioned this. It will all come together, just bare with me. So anyway he is like a big brother to me. A best friend. Like my friend Jacob in forks. I know that your family has history with them. The wolves, but this isn't what this is about. Rickey has always been trying to bring me out of the sadness I was in after you left. Some times he succeeded, but only for just moments. So of course when he saw me that depressed he was tired of trying to get it out of me why I was that way so he sat me down and convinced me to tell him. I told him everything that had happened between us and he look through the memory of you leaving me while I was telling him.

"He said 'What? Bells no that is horrible I don't know what to say except that he made a big mistake. Also I looked through your memories to see the leaving part. Usually I only see how that person saw it and their perspective, but this time I saw everything he went through. It is like you life is his and his your and your memories or in you and you in his it is fascinating, but I can tell you this. He didn't leave you because he didn't love you. To his you were his life. He left for another reason. A great reason, but this reason did not work.' After Rickey said this I was so confused. What does he mean you still loved me and had a reason for leaving that was great but not work or not possible? 'I couldn't tell what the reason was exactly just that I could feel it. And I could also feel that he felt horrible when he was telling you goodbye. Just don't give up on his okay Bella? He seems great.' and that… that gave me hope, but I still have to know I have to hear it from you. Would you care to explain?" I was so desperate to hear his voice.

"Bella look at me." Edward spoke.

I turned to look at him. Again not looking into his eyes. He was propped up on his elbow.

"Bella please look into my eye when I tell you this I need you to understand something."

I looked up into his eyes and gasped. Now that I was seeing him with knew eyes he was more perfect then I remembered.

"Bella leaving you was not the best choice I have made by far or the easiest. At the time I thought it was right." His eyes looked sincere and heartbroken.

"What?" I yelled standing up. "YOU thought it was right? What about me don't I get a say? Not everything is about you!" I was now very pissed.

"Bella listen to me. Let me try to explain you did ask me the question remember?" He was now sitting straight up.

I knew he was right. So I pouted and sat back down. This time facing him. I looked into his eyes again.

"So when I left I thought I was protecting you. Every second I was around you I was putting you in danger and what happened at your birthday party proved it. After that I could not believe what I had done. So I force my family to get up and pack so we could leave. It isn't their fault they left. I made Alice stop looking for your future and everything, but I thought it was what was best. After that I didn't hunt very much only when absolutely necessary-" I cut him off.

"Edward! You can't just starve yourself because of me. That's horrible!" I was now lecturing him.

"Bella it didn't even effect me. Without you I feel nothing. I need you to understand that me leaving you was not just because of some distraction. You were never that to me. I couldn't understand how you believed me so easily in the forest after the so many times I told you that I loved you. How could you doubt my love for you so easily? I love you Isabella and nothing you ever do or say will change that. I can understand if you hate me now."

"Edward I could never hate you. What you did was stupid yes it was, but I now know it was just you caring so much for me. I thank you for that, but I am angry. Angry that you made a decision so huge without me. It effected my whole life because you were my whole life. Hell you still are and no matter what you do, no matter how many horrible things you do, I love you." I smiled. "I understand I forgive you for everything!"

"That's all I needed to hear." Edward whispered and put a crooked smile on his face.

He took my face and kissed me. My lips melted into his and we were once again finally together.

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