chapter eight;
( he's going to hate me. His only daughter is a slut. It brings shame on the family. )
I bit my lower lip as my eyes connected with my fathers. A single tear rolled down my cheek and as he stepped forward to wipe it away. I flinched and I noticed the look of hurt in his eyes and I couldn't stay in the room any longer.
I opened the door and ran out of the staff room but not before I whispered sorry to him. As I ran towards the girls bathroom, I collided with Adam sending his patient files flying across the floor.
"Lauren?" He said but I ignored him. I couldn't stop and help tidy them up, I couldn't let anyone see me cry. I reached the bathroom and ran into a cubicle, locking the door behind me.
I slid down the wall and tucked my knees to my chest before bursting into tears. Perhaps it wasn't a good idea for me to come into work today, maybe it was best if I stayed at home and phoned in sick.
As I was crying, I heard the bathroom door open and I tried to stop myself from crying but I couldn't. There was a silence for a minute before I heard a gentle voice call my name, "Lauren?"
I wiped away the tears down my cheeks before I answered, "I'm fine! Just leave me alone, please."
"Lauren, what's wrong?"
"Nothing!" I lied. The truth was, everything was the matter and I desperately wanted to tell someone but I couldn't. They'd judge me and tell me it was my fault for going off with him.
"I'm having a bad day." I elaborated, "But other than that, I'm fine!"
I heard her sigh and I stood up before unlocking the door. I opened it slowly and my eyes fell upon Zoe. Concern was etched in her face and I bit my lower lip as I walked towards the sinks.
"Don't look at me like that." I told her as I sighed.
"Lauren-" She tried again but I cut her off, "Just leave it Zoe! I'm fine."
There was an awkward silence between us and I sighed deeply before apologizing for snapping at her. She told me it was fine and then told me if I ever needed to talk to someone, I could go to her.
I smiled a little and thanked her before she left me alone in the bathroom. I turned on the cold tap, cupped some water in my hands and splashed it on my face, trying to get rid of my mascara lines that had settled on my cheeks.
When I had sorted myself out and made myself look a bit more presentable, I decided to go out there with a smile.
Everything was fine, well almost. I couldn't help but notice how everyone kept watching me, wondering if I was going to "break" again. They didn't need too. I was fine. I wasn't going to break again.
Until that one patient arrived.
"This is Matthew Craddington, twenty-seven years old. He's got a slight head wound, three broken ribs and a fracture to his left leg. Pulse is a hundred and twenty, blood pressure is ninety over fifty and GCS is thirteen."
We were in Resus and I was putting a IV line in when Dixie whispered in my ear that he was a convicted sex offender. When I heard those words, I dropped the line and stepped back.
"I'm not treating him." I said before I even thought about what I was saying, "I refuse too."
"Doctor Henderson, we're not here to judge!" Mr Jordan told me and I looked at him and laughed.
"It's easy for you to say. He didn't rape or abuse your child did he? There should be a policy, not to treat scumbags like him and let the bastard die."
"Get out Doctor Henderson!" I made eye contact with him and I turned around, "I'll be glad too."
As I walked out of Resus, Charlie grabbed my wrist, "Lauren, what an earth are you playing at?"
I shook my wrist free and stepped back; "Leave me alone before I do something I'll regret."
He didn't say anything and I walked towards the bathroom again. When I was inside, I stared at my reflection in the mirror before punching the mirror. As it shattered and the glass shards cut my skin, I found myself feeling calmer.
Looking down at my bloodied hand, I started laughing.
I'd make the bastard pay for what he did. It was just waiting for the right moment to strike.
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right - i'm off on holiday on saturday so this is probably the last update until i get back.
don't be worried though because hopefully, when i'm on holiday, i'll write some more chapters.