A/N – Stephanie Meyers owns the characters, I just like messing around with them. Enjoy!

Chapter 2 – Realization

ClairePOV

"I swear I can't do anything with this hair" I thought as I looked in the mirror. If Quil was here he would tell me that I was overreacting and that my hair looked just fine. That's Quil for you. He's always been that way to me. He never let me fuss over the small stuff, which I tended to do from time to time.

I set the brush down and looked out the window. I knew he was there. He always came to my window when he knew I was getting ready for bed. Ever since I moved into Aunt Emily's old house in La Push about a year and a half ago, Quil would come at about this time to sit on the small hill that was right in line with my bedroom. I smiled and shut off the light.

It never bothered me out that he was always there keeping an eye on me. He has always been in my life. Even when I went off to college, he would come and visit me for weeks on end. He would sneak me all of my favorite foods and would make sure that I was doing my homework. He's half the reason I did so well in school.

The physician's assistant school that I had attended was one of the most competitive schools in the state. I about quit my first semester in. I called Quil crying my eyes out asking him if I had made the right decision. He came right away, wiped my tears and helped me get through that week. He would come anytime I had a big test and would help me study. I got great grades and I had no body to thank other than him. On graduation day he was there to cheer me on right along with my parents.

I graduated last May and moved back to La Push to work in the hospital in Forks. There really was no other place I would want to go. This was my home and I never had the ambition to move away. Aunt Emily and Uncle Sam's old house was just sitting in La Push not being used so I offered them a price and they didn't hesitate to sell it to me. So now I have this great big house all to myself, and I was totally ok with Quil sitting outside my bedroom… I mean there could be a bear or something trying to get into my house to get me and I know he wouldn't let that happen.

As I laid down into my bed, I started thinking about life as of the present. It had been so crazy. I started in the Emergency Unit at Forks, I had this house that I had to make into a home, my mom and dad had decided to move to Oregon, Renesmee and Jake had just had their first baby, and I was getting older and hadn't met anyone yet that I could begin my life with. It wasn't like I was an old maid, I just knew that everything else had fallen into place and a significant other was the only thing missing. It wasn't like I didn't find anyone attractive. There had always been that one guy, but somehow it seemed like that was a possibility that would never happen.

Quil was always that guy that I would compare my boyfriends to. I had quite a few boyfriends but they never had seemed to work out. Quil was it for me but I knew that he would never feel the same way for me. He was part of something much bigger than I would ever be part of. He had this magic inside of him that no one would ever be able to have because it was part of our history. He would never feel the way I feel about him because I think he always thought of me as the younger sister. But I was a grown up now. I was a successful PA with a house and I knew what I wanted.

I want Quil.

I will stop at nothing to make him see me the way I wanted him to see me.

As a woman who was in love with a man.

I closed my eyes and fell off to sleep knowing that once again tonight I would dream of those dark brown eyes and that mesmerizing smile.