The pain

Its clear my dear

The pain has taken me

I let it take me

for one last ride

maybe i'll make it

maybe i won't

but I think now

is the time

to tell you

I love you

Always

and

Forever

I am in so much shit. What am I going to do. What am I going to do? Mom good mom, I'll tell mom.

"Max you ok? Who was it?"

"No one just a a person trying to sell." Sell drugs. Damn Max you've sold your heart to the wrong man. Several times. Damn I made a deal with the devil and now I can't get out I'm trapped and I'm not even in a cage. Max calm and collected. Come on calm and collected. I'm broke and I owe him 7 thousand. What am I going to do. Mom took my card away, and barley lets me out of her sight. Won't let me work because of what happened last time.

The memory came to me like it was happening right then.

I was working in bar over on silver brook Island. It was a hot cool sexual tension in the air kind of club. I was serving this man a drink when two strong big large hands snaked around my waist. Turning me roughly around they gripped my hair and twisted my face to look into those bright brown eyes. I dropped my trey and fear, and why you ask me why I am scared of this little scrawney human well because he held my life in his hands. Still does. The mans drink that I had been ready to serve spilled all over the man and well he jumped up and tried to fight devil. Devil broght out a knife and put it to my neck and smiled against my skin. His lips and arms were freezing cold as if they didn't have any heat anymore.

Then he whispeard that if I came with him and did as he said he wouldn't hurt me. So I agread and he dragged me out of the bar with everyone following out of the bar with no complications. Then before anyone could say or do anything he ran with me into the moonless night. The next morning I found myself in the hospital. My lungs burned as well as my body from head to toe. Then in exgrushiating waves of increasing pain I was put under. It still didn't work later on I found myself on a cold hard bed and a white cover over my head and body. All I remember was the strange sensation of sensational bliss and a pair of red dialated set of pupils and a pair of fangs.

After that I became thirsty hungry and extremly irritable. I was always hungry even though I had already eaten. My eyes had changed to the color of a bright exotic blue and green. My left eye was green and my right blue. My eyes also became anima. Big doe sad bright eyes. My hair I died black and had strips of silver. I became unhealthly addictated to vampires and werewolf stories. I bacame quiet emotionless so called "depressed" and a cutter. I knmow I hate needles but I found a way to get the hunger to stop. Drugs. Drugs put the ringing and the hunger and pain out of my mind. Its like for one second in my life I feel at peace. After a while I became hooked and then right at the time that I needed it the most my dealer had left and I was stranded for a week with out any thing. So I tried alcohol. It worked some but left me still able to hear the world and there happi lives around me. The laughing singing the joy. Everyone says that people are scared of things because they don't know what they are. But I think they're scared because they do know what these monsters are and what they can do.

Finnaly after about 3 days of living off of alcohol not being able to swallow anything with out it comming back up I found a dealer. His name was Devil. Th man who I had unintentially sighned my soal to. The man who's made my life living hell until a month ago when I got busted selling drugs to people by the police for a week I was interrogated but I didn't say a thing I also went to rehab and that lasted al but a day before the month was over. I've been out of that place and home for all but a day and the devil is back. He's back to collect my soal and I owe him big time.

Mom can I get some money for the days that you are gone?"

"Max I'll give you your cedit card but I still don't trust you and neither does your father so you'' only be able to take out 30 dollars every two weeks. Don't try to use more bacause your father has already put itr so that you can only take out 30. Oh and Ella's going to be checking on you. Don't bother her and her husband you hear. They've only been married for 2 months and they don't need you depressing spirits to exstinguish that love. Just because you've lost all hope on yourseld don't let people's hope for you die to. And I want you to clean yourself up I won't have you dirt and spoiled smelling. You smell like a dead carcass." Not even smiling I glared at her and stomped all the way upstairs. I haven't seen my mother since she dropped me home yesterday. She then went to the bar. You see me and mother aren't cool anymore. She doesn't trust me. Slamming my bedroom door I heard her slam the front door. She had been trying to sneak out of the house and leave me. So I confronted her. Her bags were already packed in the car.

Though it kind of hurt me to see that everyone had moved on and almost forgotten about me. Hey the world does't revolve around me I guess. As the saying goes. Mother doesn't really care any more. and she can go and love whoever the hell she wants and when and if she dies before me I won't even care. Ella wasn't at all excited to see me. She ran to the house from her house about a block away and ran up ths stairs and when she reached and found me she screamed at me. She wished that I had died and that I would never come back and that I had hurt all of them and that she would kill me herself if she could but sionce its against the law she wouldn't want to go to jail because or for me and that I wasn't worth the time. But yet she was screaming at me. Itold her so and she took a sharp object off the my desk and then screamed that I deserved to be alon and that it was might falt the flock had left me. I was rude and selfish and I was nothing but a girl a stranger. She through the object at me and then ran out the door. I picked it up as the front door slamed closed and saw that it was the last picture I had ever and would ever take of the flock.

Who needs a loving caring family that when times get rough the fall apart. Who needs a fanily that isn't ther for you and moves on. Who need s a family at all not me

The lights once bright are now dark

The love I had is now gone

My heart once restless

Is now silent

My faith once young

is old and fragile

My being once everything

Is now gone

(aka : Deceased Angel

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