Lilliana POV

The Bonfire was nothing like I expected!I could feel the heat waves radiating from a distance or maybe that was Embry's own heat but it felt wonderful.

The whole walk here was settle in comfortable silence to make us appercaite the surrounds of us together. Being so close to each other after a very long time we've been apart. Embry's hands were always cold when he was holding mine but now they're slightly warm one, but this time it was over the time hot but I can stand it this time.

I just wish my heart would stop beating this lightly in my chest, so lightly that kinda hurt a little in some way. I could make it stop by pulling away but the more I tried the more tighter I hang on to the mere thought so I KINDA gave up and just held on. He seemed he didn't mind it at all since he didn't act like it matter. The strangest thing though was my pulse and his pulse were beating against one another that it seems like they were fighting for dominance of a feverish kiss.. I gotta stop thinking now!

My ears perked up as I heard the sounds of manly laughter and grunting noises as I spotted the blazing glowing and only grew brighter as we closed the distance between us. I tried to hold back the laugh as I heard the voices of one of the guys saying ,'Dude, there she is' or 'Damn Embry's holding the girl's hand without give us a chance'. But too late, I stifled my laughter and soon broke into a fit.

"Why are you laughing about?" Embry asked.

We stopped as I tried to control it, "O-oh n-nothing."

He looked at me with a perked eyebrows and a suspicious smiles, "Riiiight. NOTHING."

I shook my head and started to laugh a little till I felt the nauseating feeling in the pit of my stomach. I knew something is about to happen and I know I'm not going to like it. Keeping my livid thoughts hidden behind close doors were easy as pie but somehow ever since I got here, its becoming more difficult that I break out into sweat. I have to endure the nagging pain in the make of my mind and face Embry with a (slightly trembling) force smile, "I'll race ya to the fire, one, two, three."

I couldn't wait longer for his reaction but I had to seem like I cheated to make him run over while I slowed down.

"That wasn't fair!" he shouted as he gained speed. He gave a me a cocky smile and put at full speed as I started to slow down a notch.

He was almost a feet away from the fire which from this distance I good time to get control. I stopped as I tried to catch my breath which was raspy against my throat, the sweat dripped down my closed eye lids as I thought of dragging the images back in the darkest part of my mind and lock it up but as I tried to put them away, more slip by. The pounding in my head becoming more like a very nasty hang over that even the sound of ONE drop of water with make me buckle to the ground.

You can never fight it.

My eyes shot open as I heard the velvet voice. I know no one's near me but I can hear it... slowly fading in and out like breathing air around us-in fear.

Let your guard down... open your heart... and kill... or be killed.

The throbbing increased that I wanted to scream out in agony at the pain in my gut but I'm in public and I know it wont make good impression. What ever it was, it kept repeating it over the same words that hanged in the air like humid fog. Weighing down, that it took my strength to take long strides to the glowing fire without wobbling. I pushed and pushed and slowly it disappeared and I got my nervous under control. Everything was slowly subsiding in the ocean. Just in time to give a fake smile to Embry, lightly punching him on the arm, "I guess I'm out of shape!"

I tried using his light laughter to drown out the voice that still lingered in my mind. Wiping the sweat of fear that was escaping my futile body.

Why is everything getting more harder and weirder by the minutes I'm here?

Embry POV

I watched Lilliana from the corner of my eyes ever since she got here. She looked a little pale and every time she smiled, her lips trembled like she is on the verge of crying or something. From time to time I asked if something was wrong but she gave me a nudge in the ribs and said, 'stop being a worrier-wort.' I'm only asking you cause every time you answer you lie, I thought as we tried to laugh and have fun.

The whole gang was here and it was actually hard trying to introduce her to the pack if all the guys could stop shoving one another out of the way to shake her hand. I was on the verge of punching one into the ocean but seeing her laughing at the scene before us was all that took to stop me.

But there was two faces that I thought I wouldn't see tonight was Jacob's and his dad. His dad was talking up a storm with Sam about (from what I can hear) pack history while Jacob was with Paul arm wrestling with each other.

I left Lilly with Quil and Emily, striding over to Jacob, I patted his shoulder sending him to elbow shift and losing against Paul. While Paul was doing the happy dance, Jacob turned around and gave me a death glare. Laughter erupted from my chest as I stuck out my hand to him. At first he didn't budge, but he shook his head and gave a wicked smile and gave in, pulling him to his feet.

"Where have you been Jakey boy! We haven't heard from you in a while ya know." I said.

He broke out into a pearly white smile, "Billy got me close eye since my grades are SLIGHTLY sliding down to the usual so now after patrolling I get studies to do and you know how I get when I study."

"Oh, how I know." I pretend to sleep. That's what we all do when we STUDY.

"But I'm glad to be out again!" he said stretching his arm out to the midnight sky.

"It feels good to b-" he smacked his arm across my chest to stop me mid-way. I was about to ask him why when I saw him pointing his fingers towards... LILLY?

"W-who is she?" he asked as the corner of his lips twitched upwards.

I had to cut my tongue for saying this, "That's Lilliana... my childhood friend."

Before I could comprehend anything and everything, Jacob was closing the distance between him and her. She was busy laughing at something Quil said which from my eyes, burn a hole in my mind. I speed walk after Jacob and grabbed him by the wrist-hard.

"OUCH! Em's WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?" The only way I can possible response was a animalistic growl, it wiped of the angry look off Jacob's face as he stared back in disbelieve.

Once I saw Lilly looking over at me with a lost look on her face, her eye containing concern, I automatically let go of his wrist and apologized. I turned around and walked back towards the fire were Paul and Jared where chugging down on the sodas. I don't know what got over me, but all I knew that the animal in me was ready to tear anyone in site that made her laugh the way she laughed and I know... Jacob is the one with the witty- charming smile.

Lilliana POV

I watch as a very serious and scary looking Embry walk away from the person towards Paul and Jared. I couldn't shake the feeling of being tugged towards him till a much taller and buffer looking guy was in front of me. I had to tilt my whole head back just to look into his solid black eyes. "Hi," I said weakly.

"Hi, I'm Jacob." he took a little step back and stuck out his hands. I shooked it and I couldn't help but blush. I only hoped the orange light from the fire made my blush camouflage. "My name is Lilliana."

"That's a beautiful name by the way." I looked away from his eyes so I can let half of the darkness cover the smile that is breaking through the barrier. "Thanks."

"I hear that your Embry's childhood friend who is here to stay." he said breaking the short silence.

"Ya... ya I am and I got to say is WOW!"

He held back his laughter, "Wow what?"

"All his friends are freakishly big and tall and,"

"Handsome" he interjected. He let a laugh rip through the night while I stood there smile like a complete idiot at how good looking he is which ended up proving his point. I shook my head to get out of the daze and smack him lightly in the chest.

We sat down on one of the logs and we chatted up a storm. We talked almost bout everything and he made me cry in laughter at some stories he had. I tugged at the end of my sleeved and wiped away the tears and trying to catch my breathe.

"You know you laugh a lot very easily," he said putting his chin in his hand as he looked at me with those black orbs. I let my finger in the moist sand and said, "I was born with a weird sense of humor."

And that's not all your born with,Lilliana.

I went paralyzed when I heard the voice again but somehow it didn't sound like its in my head... it was more like the person right next to me. I turned to my left only to be facing the forest which was darker than normal. I can feel something there in the shadows of the rustling leaves and branches.

I shot up and looked down at Jacob who had a worried look on his face, "What's wrong?" He asked.

I gave a force some and rubbed the back of my head in nervousity under his concerning gaze, "Oh nothing its just I have to go now."

I started walking away, but stopped abruptly when a warm shock wave rocked my frame. I looked back to see him holding my hand. I knew something was going to happen right now when I felt the nauseating feeling kick into high gear. I pulled away and said, "Tell Embry I said bye and I will call him tomorrow kay."

I ignored the sound of him telling me to come back and speed walked my way out of there before anyone notice. When I was good feet into the dark I ran with all the vampire speed I had in me. I ran into the forest, deep where the moonlight was block from the towering trees.

As the breeze was dying off, I fell to the floor and let go, I let the memories of my past go and there was no point of holding back any longer! I clutched the earth like I was floating away, my heart beat became like a sledge hammer making contact to a concrete wall.

I dare not breathe as I watched exasperation drop to the ground like rain drops. The image the weaved its way out was not a memory of the past but black. Like the shadows ganging up on me as I'm weak and defenseless. I don't know why but all I know is the voice came back and it was mocking me with its devilish laughter as I was clutching my heart so tight that I couldn't stop suddenly.

Like the moonlight blinded my vision as the excruciating pain dissolved into the darkness of...

ME...

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