Chapter 3

Previously….

"Hello Bella." He said to me. He was standing just a few feet away from me. I only had to take maybe 5 steps and I would be right in front of him. I knew he was waiting for me to say something back. And somehow I managed to say to words I have banded myself from saying.

"Hi Edward."

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*Flashback*

"Edward" I whispered from my bedroom window looking down at my idiot of a boyfriend that was standing in my back yard. He was throwing rocks at my window almost breaking the glass. That would have gone over well with my father. "What are you doing here?"

"'I'm trying to be romantic but your kind of killing the mood with your negativity. Just come down here please. I want to take you somewhere."

"And where are we going at 11:00 at night?"

"It's a surprise" Edward said smiling at me with his famous crooked smile. He could get me to do anything he wanted me to with just that smile. How can I deny a face like that? So going against my better judgment I grabbed the first pair of shoes I found and quietly walked down stairs, passing my parents room in the process, and going to the back door to meet Edward.

"This better be good." I said to him. He took my hand in his and led me along the trail we had in the back of our house that lead into the woods. I would be terrified of going into the woods at night alone, but something about Edward just makes me feel safe.

"Trust me your going to love this." he said placing a kiss on my forehead. Every time he kisses me my heart rate goes up and I get butterflies in my stomach. We have been dating for a few months now and it's amazing how he still has this kind of effect on me.

We walked through the woods in silence. We weren't walking fast, but if took some effort from me just to keep up with him. Edward had long legs so 2 strides for him was one step for me. Every now and then I would look at Edward to see if he was going to tell me where we were going. But he just looked straight ahead and smiling the whole time.

"Okay so do you remember how I told you that you were the most beautifulest thing I have ever seen in my life?" Edward said to me slowing down to a stop.

"Yeaaa?" I said looking confused.

"Well you still are the most beautifulest thing I have ever seen." Edward said kissing me gently on the lips. And cue heart attack. "But this comes close to being as breath taking as you." Edward said leading me out to an opened area.

I had never seen anything like it before. It was like a meadow. There were wild flowers everywhere contrasting with the green of the grass and trees all around us. The way the full moon was shinning down it looked like there was a spot light right in the middle of the meadow. I can't deny that it was a beautiful sight to see. I wonder how Edward found this place.

"Edward this is amazing." I said looking back at him. He started walking out into the open and I followed him. He sat down in the grass and pulled me down on his lap.

"I know. I was running around here the other day and found it. You should see it in the sunlight." Edward said tucking a strand of hair behind my ear and kissing my neck. I loved it when he did that.

"That feels nice." I whispered in his ear.

Edward and I hadn't gone all the way just yet being that we are both virgins. But that doesn't mean we haven't done stuff before. We just never found the right time yet. And I don't want to rush things. I know Edward is read.y I can see it in his eyes every time we get carried away in one of our make out sessions. But I want my and Edward's first time to be special and not in a moment of lust.

When we told everyone that we were together my mother just smiled and said that she was happy for me. And the next day was spent at the doctor's office getting me on the pill. I was so embarrassed. My mother tricked me into saying that she wanted me to go grocery shopping with her after school. But when we passed the store and turned into the doctor's office I turned to my mother and asked what we were doing here. Her exact words were "I don't want a grandchild anytime soon, and the way that boy looks at you makes me nervous that you two will get caught up in the moment and not think about using protection."

I was embarrassed having to walk in the house that night and have my dad ask me how was my day. My mother told me that we shouldn't tell my dad because it would get him angry and he will never let me out of the house ever again. He still thinks of me as a little girl.

Edward moved his kisses from on my neck to my lips, and before I knew it he was on top of me. But I didn't mind at all. After a few minutes we stopped to catch our breaths. We were both breathing hard at this point.

"Edward?" I said in between breaths.

"Yes love?"

"I want you to make love to me." I don't know why but something about the moment just seemed so right. Edward looked at me for a long time. I was starting to think that he didn't hear me so I opened my mouth to say it again but he put his index figure up to my mouth to stop me and spoke.

"Are you sure?" Edward asked. I just nodded my head 'yes' and looked deep into his green eyes.

"Okay." He said getting up off of me and pulling me up with him. We were both sitting face to face with each other. Then Edward started to remove his jacket and shirt. I had seen Edward shirtless before, but this was different from all the other times.

"You know this isn't what I had planned for when I brought you here right?" Edward said looking a little nervous now.

"I know. This just feels right. I want you right here right now." I said getting up to straddle him. He was taken aback from my boldness. I usually don't make the first move he always starts things off.

"Bella." Edward gasped. I managed to pull my shirt over my head not remembering that I had just taken a shower and didn't put on a bra. So there I was with my chest fully exposed to Edward for the first time. He had only seen me with my bra on before this.

"I love you." I said to him placing a kiss on his lips.

"I love you too." And that was the last words we said before we both made love for the first time in our meadow under the moon light.

*End of Flashback*

I don't know why that particular memory invaded my head at a moment like this. It has been so long since I thought about Edward and my relationship. It made my heart hurt to know that it would never be like that between us again. I almost started to cry again with all the painful memories of the past, but I didn't want to show any weakness in front of him. So I held my head high and ignored him and directed my attention to Emmett.

"Do you know where mom is?" I asked, but my voice went against me by cracking at the end.

"Yea she and dad went run to the store and grab some more food and stuff. Why do you ask?" Emmett said while moving around the garage picking up random things. He picked up an old beach towel that we use to put our shoes on when it starts to rain, a baseball, a screwdriver, and he took his gym bag our of his jeep.

"I just needed to…What are you doing?" I said watching Emmett walking around the garage.

"It's a secrete. Now go inside and do the girly things that you were doing before you interrupted me and Edward's bonding time." Emmett said handing the stuff in his hand to Edward and picking up more stuff. This time he picked up a baseball bat and tennis racket. What on earth was he doing?

"Emmett you aren't doing anything stupid that would embarrass me are you?" I put my arms around myself because I felt a sudden chill up my spin. I really tried not looking at Edward, but it was very hard. I saw that he was staring at me from the corner of my eye. It was making me a little nervous. Then I wondered why I was still standing here. I should be running away from him. But I still couldn't make my feet move. Why won't my feet move away from him?

"Don't worry Bella I won't do anything stupid at your little party. Me and Edward will just be in the back yard doing grown up things that pretty little girls shouldn't worry about." Emmett said.

"Wait I thought you were DJing?"

"It's a CD Bella just pop it in and your good to go." Emmett said walking out the door. Leaving Edward and I alone.

I didn't know if I was supposed to say anything. But he wasn't saying anything either so I turned around finally getting my feet to move and walking back into the house.

"Bella?" I heard from behind me. I told myself to just close the door and pretend that I didn't hear him, but I turned around anyway. I didn't say anything. I just looked at him waiting for him to say something. But he never did. He just looked at me for a few seconds then turned away and walked out the door.

If I wasn't angry before I was now. How can he be so rude? He shows up unannounced at my house. Then began to talk to me then just walks away without a word. The nerve he has. I swear to god if I knew it would do damage I would walk right up to him and punch him right in the face. But I would just be damaging my own hand in the process.

I ran up the stairs two at a time and ran right into my room slaming the door behind me. Rose and Alice both looked up at me with a puzzled look on their faces.

"What's wrong?" Alice asked.

"Look out the window." I said with venom. Rose and Alice looked out my window that looked right out to the back yard. And there they had the perfect view of my bad mood.

"OH My God!" They both yelled at the same time.

"Is that who I think it is?" Rose asked turning to face me. I just nodded my head and walked into my bathroom and locked the door behind me. my night was ruined. It had taken me a 1 year to finally start living my life again. I started going out with my friends again and talking to people. I could fall asleep without crying and I didn't find the need to ball up and try to hold myself together. I could smile and be happy. It only took 5 minutes for all my progress to come crashing down.

When I got into the bathroom everything came flooding back. the memories, the touches, the kisses. Everything that we shared came back to the surface. The time when he first said 'I love you'. The way he would look at me when I said something funny. The way I would feel when he put his arms around me. the time we got caught down by the lake making out in Edward's truck by my father. the time we spent together before he had to leave to go to college. The 'goodbyes' that were said at the airport. The weekend trips seeing each other. Then finally the phone call that ended it all.

Everything came back to me and hit me hard. I cried so hard that I threw up whatever was in my stomach. Witch wasn't a lot so I was just dry heaving.

I heard Rose and Alice on the other side of the door asking for me to open it. I know they just wanted to comfort me and make me feel better, but I just wanted to be alone.

I knew people would be arriving soon for the party, and I had to go down stairs for at least a minute to show my face. I could do that. I said to myself. I tried very hard to stand up but my legs failed me making me fall. Then I just gave up and let the tears come once more not being able to stop them.

I don't remember but I must have fell asleep while I was on the bathroom floor because I heard a loud banging noise and I saw Emmett coming through the bathroom door with My parents and Alice and Rose behind him.

"Bella what the hell is wrong with you? You scared Rose and Alice half to death when you didn't unlock the door." My dad said walking in front of Emmett and picking me up off the ground. I didn't realize it but I was still crying. There were tears coming out of my eyes making thing blurry.

"Are you okay? What happened?" My mom said whipping my tears away from me while my dad placed me on my bed.

"I don't know." I said. My voice was cracking from all the crying I have been doing.

"Did you fall?" my dad asked me.

"No I just fell asleep." I said

Everyone in the room was looking at me. But there was one pair of eyes that caught my attention when I could finally see clearly. There he was standing in the door way with a looking at me. I could hear the music from down stairs and people yelling. I guess the party started without me. But right now I could care less about the stupid party.

"Get him out." I whispered turning my head so I didn't have to look at anyone anymore.

"What?" I my mother asked. I don't think she heard me with all the noise downstairs. I didn't want to repeat myself. I just wanted him out of my house and as far away from me as possible. I was angry and I blame him for the mess I have become.

"Bella honey talk to us. Tell us what the problem is so we can make it better." My mother said. I don't know what came over me. But I turned my head and looked at everyone. There was something inside of me that just exploded and now everyone will hear what I have to say.

"You want to know what the problem is. HE is my problem." I said standing up and pointing to Edward. Everyone just stood there not moving.

"HE is the reason why I locked myself in the bathroom. HE is the reason why I was crying to the point of throwing up. HE is the reason why I am the way I am. I have spent and year of my life crying over him and not living my life. And just when things start to get back to normal and I don't feel the need to cry every time something reminds me of him, he comes to my house and dares to show his face after what he did to me." I yelled. Then I started to cry again. And the worst part was that I had nowhere to run. Emmett kicked down the bathroom door, and Edward was blocking the doorway.

"Get out!" I yelled. "Everyone just get the hell out!"

No one moved. I don't even think they were breathing. So I took it upon myself to leave the room. I walked right up to Edward. If I didn't know better I would say that he was crying too. But right now I didn't feel sorry for him. So I hit him across the face with a loud 'smack'. But it didn't do much damage. He just put his hand up to his face rubbing the spot where I hit him. I wanted him to be on the floor in pain. I wanted him to feel the pain that I'm feeling right now.

"You ruined my life." I said to him walking passed him out the door.

I don't know where I was going but I ran down the stairs passing people on the way. Some of them stopped me to ask what was wrong but I didn't have time for a play by play of what just happened. So I just kept walking making my way to the front door and out to my truck. I remember I had left the keys in there earlier when I moved it earlier.

I jumped in my old beat up Chevy truck and peeled out as I drove away from my house, my family, and my friends. I still didn't have a clue where to go. So I just kept driving until I figured it out.

But when I got to the sign that said 'Welcome to La Push' I knew exactly were to go. And I knew exactly who I wanted to talk to.

Jacob Black.