Chapter 5
Jacob Black was one of my childhood friends. Our dads were best friends so it just made since that we would be best friends too. We would spend summers together playing on first beach and going fishing with our dads.
I was always a tom boy growing up. I wanted to do what the boys did.
Emmett and Edward have been best friends since birth. So Edward would come and play at the house everyday during the summer. I wanted to play with them, but they never let me. They told me that I was a girl and girls weren't allowed to play with boys.
My mother got tired of me crying to her about how Emmett was being mean to me so she sent me with my farther to La Push to keep me entertained. That's when I meet Jacob. And we have been friends ever since.
We are both the same age, but he goes to school on the Reservation. So we really don't get to see a lot of each other when school starts up. When Edward and I had started dating I kind of ignored Jacob. I never went to see him. Our only connection was our dad's. Charlie would tell me what Jake was up to and Billy would tell Jake what I was doing. But we seemed to get closer when Edward broke things off.
I remember he came to the house to watch a game only a few days after the break up. When he asked me what was wrong I just blurted the whole thing out to him. He comforted me. It felt good to talk about it and get it off my chest. But I was still upset by the whole thing. But every time I was with Jacob he made things a little better. Even if it was just for a few hours.
I pulled up to the little house and parked my truck in the little drive way. That's when I saw that there were no lights on in the house. And Jacob's car was gone.
I felt stupid coming here. What was I thinking? I was just about to start up my truck again when I saw Jacob's shed door swing open and the light come on. I looked and saw that Jacob was standing there wheeling his bike out. I didn't think twice when I jumped out the truck and walked over to him.
On my way he saw me and waved with a confused look on his face. That's when I noticed that I still wasn't wearing any shoes. The ground was wet and I kept stepping in mud puddles. Just great! I said to myself.
"Bells what are you doing here? And why don't you have any shoes on?" Jake said.
"Well I kind of ran out the house without thinking to put any on."
"What's wrong?"
"Why do you assume something is wrong?"
"Because you come to my house at 10:00 at night not wearing any shoes and your eyes are all puffy so you must have been crying."
Jacob always said that I was like an open book. That I was easy to read.
"I just needed someone to talk to." I said.
"Come on inside. I'll get you something to eat and drink. You look a little pale."
"Okay." I said. Jacob put the kick stand on his bike down and led me to the house. Jacob's house was small but comforting. It was only him and his dad that lived there so I guess they really didn't need a big house. Jacob's mom died when Jacob was 5 years old. I remember that was the first funeral I went to. Jacob cried and so did I.
We walked into the kitchen and I sat down at the small table while Jacob turned on some lights and walked over to the fridge and took out some milk. Then he brought two glasses and a bag of cookies over to me. I smiled at him while he was pouring me a glass. I loved cookies and milk. It made me feel better. The fact the Jacob remembered that shocked me.
"So tell me all about it." Jacob said opening the bag of cookies and sitting down across from me.
I began telling him everything. He was a good listener. He always had been. He never once interrupted me. He just let me rant. I was proud of myself. I didn't once cry. Maybe I was getting better. Maybe just the shock of things earlier made me freak out.
"So that' how I ended up here without any shoes on." I finished. I took a deep breath not realizing that I was holding it in. I looked up at Jacob and he just looked down at his glass of milk.
"Why do you let him bother you so much Bella? I mean I'm glad you finally put him in his place, but you shouldn't have locked yourself in the bathroom. You should have just gone to the party and act like he didn't exist."
"Jake I tried. I wanted to do that. But I don't know something came over me, and I just didn't want to try. I just wanted to stay there in all my misery."
"Well I think that was a stupid thing for you to do. You just showed him that you're not over him."
I was shocked at what Jacob was telling me. He never acted this way to me before.
"Jake what's gotten into you?"
"I'm just saying that now that he's back you're just going to go running back to him. You are going to drop everything and forgive him. I know you Bella."
"Well you must not know me well enough because I will never forgive him and I'm not running back to him." I was starting to get mad now. This wasn't how I wanted things to go.
"Really?" Jacob asked in a softer voice.
"Yes really. I don't love him anymore." I was surprised at how easy it was for me to say that. But there was a part of me that knew no matter how hard I tried I will always have a spot for him in my heart. The saying that you never get over your first love really is a true statement.
"Bella I have to tell you something." Jacob said standing up and coming kneel in front of me. I got really nervous all of a sudden. He wasn't going to propose was he?
"Jake what are you doing?"
"Bella I love you."
"What?" Did I just hear him correctly? Did he say he loved me?
"I love you. I have for a very long time now. But Edward was always in the way of us. Now that you admitted that you don't love him we can finally be together." Jacob said taking my hands in his pressing them to his chest.
"Fell my heart. It only beats for you Bella. I love you. I want you to pick me over him. I want to be with you forever."
Okay so that was very corny for him to say. I mean here's this big guy standing in front of me spitting out crappy lines. Edward was never the romantic type. And I was okay with that because I really wasn't into the whole romantic thing either. We didn't need to say stupid things like 'my heart only beats for you' who does that? Apparently Jacob thinks it's romantic. Maybe it is to him. But me not so much. I tried very hard not to laugh, but a smile appeared on my face. I worried that he might take that smile the wrong way. I quickly composed myself and tried to act serious.
"Jake I…." but I was caught off by his lips on mine. It didn't feel right. I tried to pull away but he moved his hands to my head pulling me closer to him. I tried to push him off and away from me but he didn't budge. It took all the strength I had to pull him away, and when he finally got the idea he stopped.
"What the fuck was that?" I yelled at him standing up and kicking my chair back.
"Bella what's wrong?" Jacob asked confused. Was he serious? Did he not realize that I wasn't kissing him back? I was trying to get him off of me the entire time.
"Jacob I never once asked you to kiss me. And I think it was a pretty shitty thing for you to do. I'm leaving."
"Bella wait don't you love me too?" he yelled at me while I was walking out the door to my truck.
"No Jacob I don't love you. Not like that at least. You're more like a brother to me." I said getting into my truck. I needed to get out of here.
"But you just said that you were over Edward."
"But that doesn't mean that I'm just going to run to you Jacob."
"Bella come back please we can talk about this. I know you have feelings for me. I can feel it."
"Good bye Jacob." I said before I started my truck and drove away.
This is just great. My ex boyfriend shows up at my house. Then I try to talk to my best friend about it and he kisses me telling me that he loves me. Can my night get any worse?
I was half way back to my house when my truck made a really weird noise and came to a complete stop. I looked and saw that I was out of gas.
"Mother fucker!" I yelled hitting the steering wheel and jumping out of the truck. I hit the tires with my barefoot and that cause me more pain than the truck.
I let out a few more screams and a few choice words and asked why god hates me.
That's when I saw two head lights come on a little ways down the road and a silver car approach me.
I couldn't be. Could it?
The car parked itself across the road from me. And a tall figure stepped out and walk slowly towards me.
I should be scared for my life. I mean this could have been some serial killer or a rapist. But of course it was much worse than that. I would have gladly taken the rapist.
"Out of gas?" he asked.
"Yes." I responded.
"Same old Bella I see. Nothing has changed." He smiled. How can he smile at a time like this? His mood swings was giving me whip lash. I was pissed. And mad out of my mind. I was like a ticking time bomb just waiting to explode! And here he is smiling away like nothing happened.
"Just give me a ride back to my house." I said taking my keys out of the ignition and walking across the street to his car.
"Are you sure that's a good idea?" he asked.
"NO it's not a good idea. But it's the only one I got. If you have something to share or a better idea then it would be much appreciated."
"Well I lied. You did change."
"Just drive me home Edward!"
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The car ride was silent. Not that I was in the mood to talk anyway. I can't believe I'm in this situation. God must really have it in for me tonight.
I tried to keep my eyes out the window and not look at him. But he made it very hard. You know when you stare at the sun. You know it's a bad idea and it starts to hurt your eyes after a while, but you just can't seem to look away. Well that's what this felt like.
"So?" Edward asked.
"So what?" I answered with venom.
"You aren't going to say sorry?"
"Sorry for what?"
"For hitting me."
Are you fucking kidding me? This man wants an apology? He better be glad I just hit him across the face and not punch him in the stomach and kneed him in the balls.
"No because I'm not sorry."
"Well I guess I deserved it then."
"Yes!" I laughed. "You did deserve it. And I let you off easy with just hitting your pretty face. I could have done more damage if I wanted to."
"Oh really like what?"
"Plenty of things." I said turning my head and looked out the window again.
"But you didn't. I have a theory on that." oh here we go with Edward and his theories. We use to play this all the time. We would pick a topic and we would each give our theories on it. We would usually debate on it. Most of the time it ended in a fight. But making up with Edward after was very rewarding. It was worth the fight if you ask me.
"And what's the theory?" I asked. I had to admit I was curious.
"You still love me, and can't really hurt me if you tried."
I was shocked by his words. He thinks I still love him? Well I got news for you Edward Cullen I don't want anything to do with you. Is he really serious about this? I could have hit him harder if I tried. I was just upset that's all. Right?
"I'm done talking just drive." I said.
"Suit yourself." He said.
We had reached my house and I breathed a sigh of relief. I could finally get away from him and out of this tiny space we are forced to be in.
I saw that all the cars were gone and there weren't any people hanging around. Mom and dad must have sent everyone home. Great. I'll never hear the end of that one.
Edward pulled into my drive way and turned off the car. I quickly unbuckled my seat belt and got out of there. When I was rounding the front of it I saw that Edward was getting out as well.
"What are you doing?" I asked as he walked up beside me.
"I'm walking you to the door." He said like it was the most obvious thing in the world.
"Why?" I asked. He was really starting to confuse me.
"Because it's the right thing to do. The guy always walks the girl to her door." He said.
"Well I don't want you to. Just get back in your car and leave." I said turning around. I made it to the front door and saw that he was right behind me.
"What don't you get that I don't want you anywhere near me Edward. Do I have to write it across my forehead? Just get away from me." I said turning the door knob just when I was about to walk inside Edward said something.
"Bella I'm sorry."
"For what?"
"Everything. I never wanted things to be like this. I'm sorry."
Edward's face turned serious. I could always tell if he was telling the truth. When he lied he could never look me in the eyes. But now standing just a few inches from him I could look deep into his dark green eyes. There was nothing but truth in his words. He really looked like he was sorry.
"I'm never going to forgive you." I said.
"I know and I didn't expect you to. I just want to say it out loud."
I couldn't take this anymore. I had had enough for one day. Without another word I walked inside and closed the door. When I turned around I saw my family standing there in the foyer. They heard everything.
All their faces looked concerned. My mother walked to me and gave me a hug and a kiss. The house was still decorated but there wasn't a soul in sight. It was just the four of us.
"You okay." My mother whispered in my ear. I just nodded my head.
"My truck is out of gas. I left it down the road by the Patrick's house." I said to my father. While giving him the keys I had been holding in my hand.
"Emmett and I will go and get it. Don't worry about a thing sweet pea." My dad said to me while grabbing his keys and walking out the door with Emmett in tow.
"I'm tired. I'm just going to go to bed." I said
"Okay if you need anything just let me know."
"Okay. Goodnight." I said.
"Oh and Bella." My mother said. "We'll talk about your punishment tomorrow. You know better than to run off like that without your cell phone. Thank god Jake called to let us know where you were."
I was angry now. Not just about the punishment. I knew that was coming a mile away. But the fact the Jake called was infuriating to me. I bet he didn't even say anything about the kiss.
I didn't say anything to comment. Instead I just walked the stairs to my room and closed the door. I had no intentions of leaving my room for a very long time.
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Edward's POV- a few minutes earlier in the car-
I just stayed there in my car on the side of the road. I didn't feel like driving anyway. There was nowhere worth going. My cell phone hadn't stopped ringing since I left her hose. When I finally grabbed it off the passenger seat I looked and saw that Emmett had called 5 times and left 6 text messages.
When he called again a few seconds later I picked up.
"What."
"Man don't drive it's not safe. You're depressed I don't want you to do anything stupid."
"Emmett I'm parked on the side of the road by the Patrick's house. Don't worry I'm not going to do anything stupid. I just need some time to myself."
"I'm sorry about all this man. I take all the blame for it."
"It's not your fault Emmett. If it's anyone's fault its mine. It's always been my fault. I just don't know how to make things better."
"Do you still love her?" Emmett asked.
Did I? Did I still love her? I never stopped thinking about her. She still managed to take my breath away just seeing her for the first time in 2 years tonight. I care for her. I want nothing more than to take all her pain and suffering away. She is still the only person I think about when I picture my life 10 years down the line. I guess I did still love her.
"I do. But it's too late." I said.
"Come on dude don't give up. Yea you fucked up, but now might be your chance to fight for her. I know she still feels something for you. She wouldn't have locked herself in the bathroom if she didn't care. She loves you man. You just have to show her that you care and she'll be yours."
Emmett did make a good point. I almost believed him. Did he really think I could get her back?
"She hates me."
"Yea what girl wouldn't hate the guy who broke their heart? You have to show her that you changed and that you made the mistake. Apologize to her. Maybe that will soften her up."
"Emmett are you really giving me advice on how to win your sister back?"
"Yes I am. I have spent 2 years of my life watching both of you be miserable without each other, and I'm sick and tired of it. If you won't do something than I will and trust me you won't like it."
I could only imagine what Emmett had planned and it didn't look to promising. I picture me and Bella handcuffed to each other and Emmett standing over us and making us talk to each other until we made up.
On second thought the handcuffs don't sound like a bad idea. Minus Emmett being there. Focus Edward.
"Emmett this is something have to do by myself. I don't need your help. But thanks for the support. I know I've been a shitty friend for the last 2 years."
"Don't worry about it Edward. Just focus on how you're going to get Bella back."
"Thanks Em. I'll talk to you tomorrow."
"Okay see you later man."
I hung up the phone and my mood instantly changed. I was happy almost excited. I was going to get Bella back. I will have her once again. And this time I'm never going to let her go.
I was just about to start up my car and head home when I saw 2 head lights coming my way. I was going to wait until then passed but the car came to a complete stop and a person stepped out.
God must really love me I thought to myself.
She was so cute when she was mad. She yelled and screamed and kicked her truck. And I noticed she still wasn't wearing any shoes. I laughed at that fact. Look at me I'm laughing and smiling again.
I started up my car and drove the little distance to get closer to her. She must have run out of gas. Bella never looked to see how much gas she had left. I was always the one to fill up her truck or remind her to stop on her way home from school. I really didn't mind taking care of her like that. I always felt protective of her.
I turned off my car and slowly walked over to her. I didn't need her hitting me again.
"Out of gas?" I asked.
"Yes." She said with no emotion. I could tell she really was mad. I don't know if it was because of me or the fact that she ran out of gas and I would be the one to save her. Probably both.
"Same old Bella I see. Nothing has changed." I smiled trying to lighten the mood but I could see it didn't work on her. She was still mad and not backing down.
"Just give me a ride back to my house." She said getting her keys and walking over to my car. How did she know I would even give her a ride? Well of course I will but her just assuming just kind of ticked me off.
"Are you sure that's a good idea?" I knew the answer. But I insisted on asking it anyway.
"NO it's not a good idea. But it's the only one I got. If you have something to share or a better idea then it would be much appreciated." She yelled. I said before that she was cute when she was mad, but now she was beautiful. I could see the vein in her forehead start to pop out. That only happened when she was really angry. My Bella never got angry. She was always the shy soft spoken type of girl. But this person in front of me was not the Bella I use to know. She has changed so much. How am I going to get her to fall in love with me again when I didn't even know who she was anymore?
"Well I lied. You did change."
"Just drive me home Edward!"
I tried to make conversation in the car but that blew up in my face. So I tried being a gentleman and walk her to her door. I knew she wouldn't want me too, but it was a nice gesture. My mother raised me right.
"What are you doing?" She asked me.
"I'm walking you to the door."
"Why?"
"Because it's the right thing to do. The guy always walks the girl to her door." I admit I was being an ass. I really wasn't trying to be one. I guess it's just my natural instinct. I'm going to have to work on that if I want her back. She doesn't seem to like Assward, and neither do I.
"Well I don't want you to. Just get back in your car and leave." She said turning around and walking up the steps to the front door. Now was my chance. I had to say this before she completely walked away from me.
"What don't you get that I don't want you anywhere near me Edward. Do I have to write it across my forehead? Just get away from me."
"Bella I'm sorry." There that wasn't so hard.
"For what?"
"Everything. I never wanted things to be like this. I'm sorry." Okay that was kind of hard to admit. I don't know why but I could admit to myself and Emmett that I fucked up. But when it came to her it was like cutting my fingers off.
I always wanted to be the right kind of man for Bella. I wanted to be perfect. And showing my imperfections to her was the hardest thing to do.
"I'm never going to forgive you." That killed me more than saying 'I'm sorry'.
"I know and I didn't expect you to. I just want to say it out loud." And with that she walked away like I had done so many times before. So this is what it feels like to be on the other side of a closed door.
I started walking back to my car when Emmett and Charlie came out of the house.
"What happened I thought you were going home?" Emmett asked.
"She ran out of gas and I saw her so I gave her a ride home." I said.
'Well thank you for that Edward. I was just about to go and look for her to make sure she was okay." Charlie said.
"You're welcome sir." I said. Charlie walked over to his curiser leaving me and Emmett alone.
"So did you talk to her?"
"Yes."
"And?"
"Nothing is going to happen overnight Em. Things like this take time. But now I'm not even sure my plan will work. She's like a different person from who I remember."
"Well then take the time to get to know the new Bella."
"I'll try but I can't make any promises."
"Okay man. Just try. That's all. She's worth the effort."
"I know."
Emmett and Charlie left to get Bella's truck off the side of the road while I made my way home. It was 11 pm and I had a very long day. Everyone in my house was asleep. So I went straight to my bedroom and shut the door. I passed out right when my head hit the pillow. But just before sleep took me away I wished that Bella would give me a second chance.
AN: So what do yall think? Will Bella give him a second chance?
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