Chapter 6

2 weeks without my truck, cell phone, and internet access.

That was my punishment, and surprisingly I was okay with it. I really didn't use my phone too much. And I'm not one to waste countless hours every day on Facebook or other websites were I write down everything that I'm going to be doing that day. No offence to those who do.

But my truck I was going to die without. It is my only way to escape from this house. It's more of a punishment to Emmett because now he is the one who has to drive me around where ever I want to go for 2 weeks. Sucker! Yesterday I made him take me to the drug store to buy tampons.

It's been exactly 5 days since graduation, Edward coming over, Jacob confessing that he loves me, the car ride with Edward, Edward apologizing, and getting grounded for 2 weeks.

Wow some summer this will be if all of that happened in one day.

Edward surprised me that night though. I never in a million years would have thought he would apologize. I really thought that I would end up apologizing to him.

Edward was always the type of guy that in his eyes he never did any wrong. He was perfect. And for some time I actually believe it. But I was young and everything he said to me was like the bible and he was God.

I thought he would never change. He would always be the same Edward. Never admitting he was in the wrong or that it was his fault. But that night something in his eyes scared me. Maybe he had changed. I wasn't comfortable with change. I have been stuck in this small town with the same group of friends all my life. I have no clue what the world is like outside of Forks. Going away to college is going to be a big change for me, but the fact that Emmett will be there helps a little bit. But it's not like we will be seeing each other all the time. So it's kind of like living on my own. UCLA has a big campus. And I'm sure all the football players get special treatment.

I know for a fact that I don't want to get back together with Edward. I've been there and done that. I can't go through another break up. But I do miss him. And I miss us. The way we use to hang out and act around each other when we were together. But I don't miss it enough to go back to him.

He was just my first love, and my first heartbreak let's not forget that.

It was Wednesday morning around 6:20. My body was still on school time so I woke up like I normally would on a regular school day. I got out of bed and walked over to my bathroom and pulled the sheet on the other side of the door frame and hooking it on the nail I put there.

My door was still broken. Emmett swore he would fix it but just hasn't had the time yet. So until then I'm using a sheet. It's my own personal bathroom that's inside my room so it's not like I really need the privacy. My bedroom door was closed and locked so no one was going to come barging in. but I still felt the need for some type of door.

I washed my face and tried to untangle the mess that was my hair. I gave up after a while and just put it up in a pony tail for the day. I changed out of my pajamas and into an old t shirt and sweats. It's not like I was going anywhere anytime soon. I'm still grounded for another 9 days. Yea I was counting.

I walked down stairs and saw my dad leaving for the police station giving my mother a kiss on the cheek and giving me a 'see you later Bella' as he walked out the front door. Charlie was the police chief here in Forks. But nothing exciting ever happens here. I picture him sitting in his office watching TV and eating greasy hamburgers and fries from the local diner all day long.

My mom works at the local fitness center here in Forks. My mother is a little on the ADD side. She always needs something to do. She was a stay at home mom, but when I started driving she really didn't have anything to do with herself all day. She took up hobbies but she managed to never finish them because she would get board. One of her hobbies was taking yoga classes 3 times a week. She fell in love with it and the yoga instructor offered her a job at the fitness center as a personal trainer. She said yes and has been doing it ever since. She really enjoys it and it keeps her busy. And she gets all the gossip form around town.

"Bye Bella. Have a good day. And no truck." My mother said to me grabbing her yoga mat and her shoes from the closet.

"I know." I said going into the kitchen and getting something to eat. I was starving.

My mother managed to burn dinner last night causing us to order pizza. I went take a bath while waiting for it to arrive and when I came down there was one piece left. And it was already half eaten. Turns out Emmett, being the pig he is, ate most of the pizza by himself not thinking about me while doing it.

So I ate an apple and some left over hot dogs from lunch. But we were out of bread so I had to eat just the hot dog.

Having Emmett home was nice but he sure knew how to eat us out of the house. I was usually the one who did the grocery shopping but with me not being able to drive I haven't made a trip over to the grocery store yet. Maybe my mom and dad will get frustrated with no food in the house and let me off my punishment early.

I looked in the fridge and saw a few eggs left. So I made the most of it and made scrambled eggs. I went to poor me a glass of milk to go with my eggs but we were out of milk too. So I settled for water out the tap.

I was walking into the living room with my plate and glass wanting to watch TV while I ate when the front door swung open.

"Edward go long." I heard Emmett yell. Edward? Edward was here again. Haven't I suffered enough?

Right when I was turning around to see what was going I caught a glimpse of Emmett throwing the football straight to Edward who was running backwards toward me. I tried to get out of the way but I was too late. I was knocked down and had the wind taken out of me. My plate and glass flew out of my hands and broke into a million pieces on the floor. Not to mention that the eggs flew in my hair and water soaked my t shirt. I picked the wrong day to wear white.

I was lying on the ground with my eyes closed because I knew exactly who the body that was on top of me belonged to. Reluctantly I opened my eyes and was met with a pair of green ones.

His face was red, there were beads of sweat starting to drip down his face, and he was breathing heavy through his mouth, that was open I might add. In that moment neither one of us said a word. We were just trapped in each other's eyes. Like we were in our own little bubble. And the feeling of his chest contracting on mine with every breath he took made my lady parts take notice. Why must he be so sexy and turn me on when he doesn't even try? Remember you're mad at him. You don't love him. You don't love him.

"Dude what was that? Didn't your mom ever teach you not to hit a girl?" I heard Emmett from somewhere off to the side. I was still looking at Edward so I couldn't exactly pin point where Emmett was.

"Are you okay?" Edward asked me.

"Mmmy head." I stuttered. Wow great job Bella. Get yourself under control.

His hand went straight to the back of my head and he started rubbing it. I had to admit it felt kind of nice. No Bella stop. You hate him.

"Does it hurt here?" he asked.

"Yes." I managed to get out clearly.

"Shit what if she has a concussion. I'm not bringing her to the hospital again. I got my ass chewed out last time. Something about not watching her carefully." Emmett said coming kneel by my side.

"Try to get up Bella, but slowly." Edward said getting off of me and helping me sit up. The back of my head hurt a little but I don't think it's enough to do damage. I was just about to tell them that I was fine when 3 more guys walked into the house. One of them I recognized as Edwards brother Jasper.

"Hey what….oh…um… we'll just wait outside." Jasper said turning around.

"Dude, no I'm staying." One of the other boys said looking straight at me. I was kind of confused as to why he was looking at me so hard. I knew I must look like a mess but it's not really nice to stare.

"Oh My God I love coming here!" the other guy said giving the other dude a high five.

That's when I noticed that they weren't looking at me. They were looking more at my chest. That's when I looked down and saw my white fitted t shirt was completely soaked with my water. And I wasn't wearing a bra. Great. Free show for everybody. I started to use my hands to cover myself up when I felt Edward move from my side to in front of me.

"Everyone has 2 seconds to get out of here or else." Edward said in a very serious voice. I couldn't see his face, but he must have looked very terrifying because Jasper and the two other guys ran out of the house without looking back. Edward pulled his shirt off of himself and gave it to me. Whoa there buddy let's not get crazy. Emmett is still in the room.

"Put this on we'll take you to see my dad just to make sure your okay." Edward said.

"No I'm fine. I don't even feel it anymore. I don't want your shirt." I said getting up and throwing his shirt at him. But I got up too fast making my head spin and my legs give out. Edward caught me. Of course.

"Bella you hit your head pretty hard and it's my fault. Let me take you to my dad." He said handing me back his shirt. Yet again it's all Edward's fault.

"Yea Bells going see Mr. C is better than having to go to the hospital."Emmett said. I gave him a look as if to say 'you're not helping'.

"No I'm fine." I said pushing Edward's hand with the t shirt away from me. I didn't want to accept anything from him.

"Bella don't be difficult." Edward said handing me the shirt again.

"I'm not being difficult. I don't need to get checked out. I'm fine. Now leave it alone." I said pushing his hand away.

"Well then will you please at least put on my shirt?" Edward said.

"Why I have my own shirts upstairs to put on I don't need yours." I spat.

"Well until you do that I would appreciate not have your breast staring at me while I talk to you." He yelled handing me his shirt. This time I took it.

I was more embarrassed that he was looking at my chest than the others were. And a little pissed that he didn't want to look. I mean I still thought he was attractive. Didn't he think I was too? I wasn't exactly the prettiest girl when I was 16. I was still going through my awkward years. But Edward didn't seem to mind about the mild acne I had or my small breast, and I was a little on the chubby side.

I don't want to sound conceited but I do think that I did get prettier. My acne went away thanks to the birth control pill my mother put me on. I guess it was good for one thing. And my breast went up 2 cup sizes. And my face wasn't so round. I developed curves in all the right places and cheering really kept me in shape. Didn't he think I was pretty? What does it matter anyway Bella you don't love him anymore. None of this stuff matters. You hate him.

"Sorry." I whispered putting his shirt over my head. It was 2 sizes too big on me. And he had been sweating so the shirt was a little damp. That was gross. I was wearing his dirty sweaty shirt.

"Now can I please take you to my dad?" Edward asked.

"Yes." I said not looking at him. "But now you have to put on a shirt." I said trying not to smile. I was trying to be funny, but I didn't think it worked.

He smiled back which surprised me. "I have one in my car." he said.

"Okay let's go then before the parentals find out." Emmett said pushing us out the door. Edward guided me to his car with one hand lightly on my back. He even opened my door for me. Why was he being so nice to me? And most importantly why isn't he putting on a shirt? I looked around and didn't see Jasper or the other two guys. They must have left. And thank god for that. I really didn't want to face them after this.

Edward was in perfect shape. He was well built and had the most amazing 6 pack I have ever seen. I just wanted to run my hands over them. Whoa Bella come back you hate him. Thinking about his abs doesn't help. It was like he was made of marble and he was perfectly sculpted. I looked up at him before he closed my door. He was beautiful. Even though he was all hot and sweaty, and his hair was all over the place and sticking to his forehead he was still beautiful. I couldn't help myself I just had to look. He stopped for a second and just looked at me. That's when I noticed it.

There was something black on Edwards's right arm. When he turned I saw that it was a tattoo. When did he get a tattoo? Oh I don't know Bella maybe the 2 years he was off at college. That scared me. The Edward I knew would never do something like that. He had changed. But come to think of it so have I. we both changed.

Edward noticed me staring at his tattoo. He looked away and put his hand through his hair looking like he was nervous. He quickly closed my door. Was he embarrassed?

Emmett sat in the front seat and closed the door.

"Why'd you have to go and get yourself hurt Bella? And why did you have to go flashing your boobs to my friends? Mom and dad won't find out about this you hear me." Emmett said to me.

"Um Emmett first of all it wasn't my fault that Edward ran into me, and what were you two doing throwing the football inside the house anyway. Second I don't even want to go get checked out because I'm fine. And third I wasn't flashing my boobs at anyone. And fourth what were you all doing up this early anyway."

"We went to the football field to practice for tryouts. Jasper wanted to tag along so we called Peter and Bobby to come too. And what were you doing up this early little missy?" Emmett said. Edward got into the car with a long sleeved shirt on.

"I don't know I just woke up and couldn't go back to sleep. And I was hungry because someone ate all the pizza last night not thinking about anyone but himself asusual." I said.

"See if you were a normal teenager and slept until 12 this wouldn't be a problem."

"Well if you would follow the rules then this wouldn't be a problem." I yelled.

"What rules are you talking about? You must have really hit your head."

"The rule that says no throwing the ball in the house or did you forget?" I said. That got a laugh out of Edward that made me laugh too. Wait wait wait hold up. Laughing with the enemy? Wow I really did hit my head hard. Why was I laughing with him? You hate him Bella.

"Just shut up." Emmett said.

Edward turned the music up and we made our way to the Cullen house.

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Dr. Carlisle Cullen was a good looking man. I see where Edward gets it from. It must be hard for all those nurses to work so close to him all day long. He's so handsome that it almost hurts to look at him.

He works at the hospital here in Forks and he's very good at what he does. When we arrived at Edward's house we just caught Carlisle before he left for the hospital. He had me go up to the office he had in the house and checked to make sure I didn't have brain damage.

And like I told Edward and Emmett I was fine. Not even a bruise. But as a precaution he told me to take it easy for the rest of the day and take some Tylenol if my head starts to hurt. I thanked him and got out of there as fast as I could. There were too many memories in that house. Edward and I had too many memories in that house.

His mom Esme Cullen is an interior designer and she opened a shop here in Forks, but business here was slow. So she expanded to other towns around the area. She even has a bigger store in Seattle where she spends most of her time. They have a small town house that Esme lives in while she stays in Seattle taking care of things over there. Carlisle would take a few days off of work to go spend time with her in Seattle. So with Edward's parents gone we would have the house to ourselves. Well except for Jasper but he was always up in his room or out with friends.

We weren't allowed to be alone at my house. Someone always had to be there. And if we went up to my room the door had to stay open. But what my parents didn't know didn't hurt them.

We really didn't do anything we weren't suppose to. Okay well that's a lie. We did have sex in the kitchen that one time and we would fool around on the couch or Edward's bedroom, but other than that it was more like playing house.

Edward would cook dinner and we would watch movies. Then we would go up to the music room as Edward calls it, just because it had his piano in it, and he would play for me until I was tired and he took me home.

Oh yea there was another time when we had sex on the piano. Edward said it was always a fantasy of his. And how was I going to say no when he pushed me on top of the thing and spread my legs?

Edward drove Emmett and me home and I went straight to my room to change clothes. My wet T shirt was sticking to me in an uncomfortable way and I still had eggs in my hair. I just decided to take a shower.

When I was done I took the pile of my dirty clothes threw them in the hamper separating the colors from the whites when I stopped and looked at Edward's shirt.

I should give it back to him.

But it was dirty.

I could wash it first.

But I don't think I owe him the favor of washing his clothes.

I could keep it. I'm sure he won't miss it.

No you don't love him anymore. You hate him. Everything is his fault.

But it did smell like him.

Not a dirty smell. But like his deodorant and just like him. I couldn't explain it but Edward had a certain smell to him. Like he just got out of the shower smell. He always smelled fresh and clean. I couldn't help but put his shirt to my nose and take a whiff. Just like I remembered. Maybe things didn't change too much. He still smelled the same. That's when I remember the tattoo. I wondered what made him get one. And what was it of. I really couldn't tell. I thought about ways to bring up the topic to him without seeming nosy when I heard a knock at my door. Wow I was making plans on talking to Edward about what was imprinted on his body. I really did hit my head.

I was walking to open it when I noticed I still had Edward's shirt in my hands. I quickly threw it on my bed and opened the door. And I was met with the devil himself.

"Take this because I know you didn't earlier and you won't do it later on." Edward said handing me a glass of water and some Tylenol. I rolled my eyes at him and took the water and pills from him. I made a big show of me swallowing it and lifting up my tounge to show him that I wasn't going to spit it out. I gave him back the water when I was finished.

"Happy?" I asked putting my hands on my hips.

"Ecstatic." He said leaning against my door frame.

"Um you can go now." I said.

"But you don't want me to go."

"And wouldn't I want you to go?"

"Because you want me to stay here and take care of you."

"Um no you are clearly mistaken. I don't want you anywhere near me."

"It's funny you keep saying that, but we always seem to be in close proximity. Don't you think?" Edward said walking towards me and into my room.

"What are you doing?" I asked him backing away from him. I had no clue what he was planning to do to me.

"Relax Bella I'm just setting the water down." He said walking over to my bedside table. Then he proceeded to sit on my bed."

"Okay that's enough you need to go." I said pointing out the door.

"No I think I'll stay and take care of you." Then he had the nerve to lie on MY bed with his arms around his head looking up at me with that stupid grin of his. Was he trying to make me angry? Wait Bella you already are angry at him don't forget that.

"EMMETT come get your MOTHER FUCKING Friend out of my bed!" I yelled out the door.

"Yea EMMETT, and while you're out of the house at the store why don't you tell your MOTHER FUCKING sister to chill OUT!" Edward yelled back.

"You piece of shit. Why am I here alone with YOU?" I was really angry now.

"Because Emmett ran to the store and we didn't want you to be alone in case you pass out."

"GET THE HELL OUT." I screamed. I'm sure the neighbors heard me.

"NO."

"NO?"

"NO you're not getting rid of me whether you like it or not."

"YOU ARE….are…..youuu….ugh I can't even think of a word that describes what you are to me." I said.

"Sexy, beautiful, smart, shall I go on or would you like to complete the list?"

"Oh you think you're so funny don't you."

"I do tend to amuse people every now and then so yes we can add funny to the list."

"Edward just leave please." I yelled

"Are you begging?"A smile appeared on his face then. Oh I'm going to let you have it Edward.

"Oh you would like that wouldn't you. Just to see me beg so you can feel all good about yourself how you have control of me. But you know what Edward I might have been naïve when I was 16 but not anymore. I know what you use to do to me. You would make me think you were god and you had me hanging on your every word. You couldn't control someone who was your own age so you had to pick Emmett's poor little sister." I got in his face when I told him all of this. I wanted him to hear me loud and clear.

"Is that what you think I did to you Bella? You think I manipulated you into thinking I was god?" Edward's tone changed. He wasn't yelling anymore.

"That's what I know Edward."

"You don't know me at all do you? Did you even love me? Or was I all part of your plan. Ms. 'I'm dating the head football player and now I think I'm superior to everyone.'"

"I never thought I was above anyone Edward. And Yes I did love you. That's more than you can say."

"Bella I loved you more than you will ever know." He was back to screaming again.

"Then why did YOU break up with me then? Why couldn't we stay together? We could have made it work Edward. But you threw in the towel only 5 months into it." Tears were starting to form in my eyes, but it was okay I needed to get this all out.

"I have my reasons Bella."

"Then let's hear them. I've always wanted to know why the great Edward Cullen broke up with me poor little Isabella Swan." I was yelling again.

"YOU wouldn't understand. No one understands." He yelled putting his hands through his hair and tugging at the ends.

"How do you know if I would understand or not? Maybe I could understand better than anyone. Have you ever thought of that? You use to always tell me everything Edward. Why did it all stop?"

"Because it had to okay. Just leave it alone."

"Oh so we can talk about me and my problems but when I want to know something about you you want to stop talking about it." Something clicked on inside of Edward. His face was livid now. It was just angry he was furious. Well that's good for you Edward. Finally get what you deserve.

"You know I don't even know what I ever saw in you. I don't know why I kept you around" Edward said getting up off the bed and walking out of the door, but before he left he had one more thing to say.

"Oh yea I remember you were a good fuck. An easy little freshman that let me into her pants. That's why I kept you around."

Then he left. The tears really started to come now. I can't believe he just said that to me. God I was so stupid. How did I ever think we could work? He's an ass who should build a bridge and jump over it.

I walked over to my bed and lied down letting the emptiness and tears take over me. I was broken once again by Edward Cullen. I reached out to find something to whip my face with. And when I opened my eyes I saw that I was holding his T shirt. I really wanted to hate him. I wanted him to get out of my life. I didn't want him to exist. But I held on to his shirt like my life depended on it.

No matter what he said to me.

No matter what he did to me.

No matter how hard I tried.

I was never going to get over EDWARD CULLEN. And that pissed me off.

AN: I bet a lot of you hate me.

I'm sure some of you were on Edward's side last chapter cheering him on with winning Bella back. Then you read this and are back to hating him.

Review and let me know what you think!

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My Generation by danceballet21

It's about a film crew following 8 people on their last few days of high school and they talk about where they think they want to be in 10 years. 10 years later we see exactly where they ended up.

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Until next time…

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