Chapter 10

Edward's POV

A date with Bella. How I missed these days. I was in my car on my way to her house to pick her up. She decided she wanted to go to the movies on our date. I couldn't help but smile when I thought about it. It was going to be just like old times. I was really excited. My heart was racing, my hands were sweating, and Jasper told me that my eyes were shining when I left the house. I think I might be in love again.

I pulled into her drive way and turned my car off. I looked in my mirror to make sure my hair was okay and walked to her door. Her mother answered with a smile.

"Hello Edward how are you?"

"I'm good. How are you Renee?"

"I'm great thank you for asking." She said blushing. That's were Bella gets it from. I said to myself.

"Edward." Charlie said from his chair. I saw he was watching a game on TV.

"Charlie." I said.

"Here's a 20 for gas." He said not even looking up from the TV. He was holding out the money for me to take.

"No sir I got it, but thanks anyway." I said.

"Okay." Charlie said putting the money back in his pocket.

"Charlie. Give the boy some money." Renee said walking over to him and talking the money from him and giving it to me. "Here Edward we insist you take It." she said.

"No really I have enough." I said giving it back to her.

"You better. Remember the one time we ran out of gas and we had to hike 3 miles to get to the nearest gas station. Then you locked the keys in the car with the cell phones so we had to use the payphone for my dad to come and get us." Bella said.

I turned around to face her. She was walking down the stairs in a short baby blue dress that showed off her sexy legs rather well. Her hair was down and curled. She had on a little make up, but that was okay because she was beautiful without it. she was the kind of girl that rolled out of bed beautiful. I remember how I would dream of waking up next to her every day of my life. How I would kiss her every morning, fix her coffee, and maybe even a quickie before I left for work.

I have to make tonight worth her wild if I want that. I just have to get her back.

"Yes so here take the money." Renee said giving it to Bella knowing that I wouldn't take it.

"Thanks. We won't be out for long." Bella said kissing her mother on the cheek.

"Have fun you two. Be careful the roads are wet." Charlie added.

"We will." Bella and I said at the same time and walked out the door to my car.

I guess since me and Emmett had been friends for so long I never had to worry about making a good impression on Bella's parents. They knew me and I knew them. I was never nervous around them like other guys said they were when they had to meet their girlfriends' parents for the first time. I guess I just got lucky on that one.

"So do you want to get something to eat before the movie?" I asked opening her door for her.

"Yea that's fine." she said.

Was it just me or did it seem like she didn't want to go out. Her cheerful expression she had in the house was gone now. She was just there. Not smiling. Her mood swings were killing me. Then I remembered the tampons I saw in her bag. Maybe she's on her period. That's it. Bella is always cranky when she's on her period. I hated that time of the month with her. She has a really bad case of PMS. I tried to stay away from her as long as I could until she was finished, but then she got mad at me and accused me of not wanting to be with her. Then when I would try to kiss her she would say she wasn't in the mood and say I should go home.

I walked over to my side of the car and took a deep breath before I got in. I heard a knocking coming from somewhere. I looked around and saw that Emmett was in the upstairs window. He was smiling and giving me thumbs up. I just waved at him and got in my car.

"Emmett." I said rolling my eyes.

"Yea I know. He came into my room and picked out outfits for me. He even went as far as wanting to do my hair." She said still not smiling. Okay maybe Emmett pissed her off earlier. I'm going to kill him for giving her to me like this.

"I worry about him sometimes. He really needs a girlfriend."

"I thought he had a girlfriend? What's her name? Melanie or something."

"Melissa you mean?"

"Yea what happened to her?"

"They've been over. He just got board he said."

"Typical Emmett."

She looked at me and finally gave me a small smiled. I smiled back with all I had in me. that made her smile even more and give me a little laugh. She was so beautiful. Why did I ever let her go?

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We pulled into a Burger King and ate. Then headed to the movies. We talked about random things keeping the conversation light. Nothing to serious and that's how I liked it. It wasn't awkward between us. It felt like just another date with Bella. It was nice. She got more and more energetic as the conversation went on. She wasn't all moody now witch I liked.

I bought our tickets and the popcorn and we headed into the theater. Bella picked the seats on the very top row away from all the people. It was where we usually sit, but that was mainly because we would be making out the entire time. But I don't think that was the case tonight. It was really sad that I paid $ 10 for tickets, 15 for popcorn, that we didn't eat, all so we could make out in a dark room with other people. Something we could have done for free in my bedroom alone. But I was in love and I would have done anything for her.

"So what's this movie about anyway?" I asked her while taking a hand full of popcorn.

"It's about a teenage girl falling in love with a 108 year old vampire, but he wants to kill her because her blood smells so good to him. And then there's this Indian looking dude with like an 8 pack that turns into a wolf and he loves her, too but she doesn't realize that she loves him back. So she has to decide who she wants to be with. Oh and then she has a half vampire half human baby that the wolf boy falls in love with. Oh and at the end she gets turned into a vampire too." She said.

"Wow wake me up when it's over." I said closing my eyes and taking deep breath.

"Come on it's suppose to be a really good movie." She said.

"All vampire movies are the same. It movie will never make it. People will forget about it as soon as it comes out on DVD. I feel bad for the actors who have their name attached to this piece of crap." I said.

"Whatever." She said rolling her eyes.

I will never admit this but the movie was amazing. It wasn't at all what I expected. I was planning on looking at Bella the entire time and maybe try to kiss her but I was so into the movie I forgot about everything else. I even forgot I was with Bella for a little while. Now you know that's a good movie.

"So what did you think?" Bella said as we were walking out of the theater and to my car. it was getting colder outside and the wind was blowing. I wanted so bad to put my arms around her to keep her warm. All she had on was this tiny dress and a small jacket. But I didn't do anything because everything was going so good. I didn't want to ruin it.

"To be honest it wasn't that bad" I said shrugging it off.

"See I told you it was a good movie."

"I didn't say it was good, but it was okay." I said. We walked the rest of the way to the car in silence. I stayed close to her and even brushed her arm with mine a few time. I was right she was cold. Her arms were crossed in front of her body and she was staring to shiver. I couldn't take it anymore she was cold. So I took off my jacket and pulled it around her.

She looked at me but I just kept my eyes looking straight ahead. I think she even smiled, but I wasn't sure.

I opened the door for her and let her in. As I got into the driver's side my phone started ringing. I was going to turn it off but I saw that it was Jasper calling.

"Um its Jasper do you mind?" I asked

"Sure go ahead." She said playing with the temperature and turning the heater up. I loved how she was so comfortable in my car.

"What?" I said to Jasper.

"Dude where's the condoms?" Jasper said. He sounded out of breath.

"And why would you need that?" I asked.

"Because dude ,come on help a guy out. I was quiet all those times Bella was over at the house without mom and dad knowing. Paybacks a bitch. Now where's your stash." Jasper yelled.

"In my bathroom on the top shelf in a brown paper bag." I said. Bella looked at me then. She knew exactly what I was talking about. She was the only person other than me to know where I kept my personal items.

"Thanks man. Oh and don't come home too quickly if you know what I mean." He said then hung up the phone.

I started the car without another word. Bella didn't say anything either. I think I just ruined the night. She went back to her quiet self just looking out the window. I don't know why it bothered her. Maybe she was remembering the past. I knew I screwed up with her. What I wouldn't give to just go back and do everything over again.

We made our way back to her house not saying a word. I parked the car but neither one of us got out. all of the lights were off in her house the only light we had was coming from the street lamp on the corner. I felt the need to say something. Maybe 'I had a nice time.' or 'this was fun.' But the words didn't come out. I thought she would say something but she just kept looking out the window. I could barely make out her reflection in the window.

"Do you remember that fourth of July when we went to the park with everyone and popped fireworks? You and Emmett were 15 and just discovering girls I think. We went to the pool party and there was a girl there in an American Flag two piece bathing suit with blonde hair. You and Emmett tried so hard to get her attention. Then when she came over to talk to you guys you spent the rest of the day with her and her friends leaving me with my mother." Bella said. I remembered the day but I wasn't sure where she was getting at.

"Yea I remember." I said.

"Well I don't think I ever told you this, but that was the day I think I really started liking you. And I went home and tried to bleach my hair because I thought you liked blondes. My mother came into the bathroom and stopped me with the peroxide before I did any damage." She laughed.

"Then when she asked me why I wanted to bleach my hair I told her because Edward likes blondes."

We both laughed. It was ridiculous to me of what she was going to do to herself to try to get me to like her.

"Well I prefer brunettes for future reference." I said pushing her hair behind her ear. She blushed just like clockwork. Then I did something stupid.

I rubbed her check with my thumb and pulled her close to me. I didn't kiss her. I wanted her to want me just as much as I wanted her. I could feel her breath on my face. She put her forehead against mine. Just when I thought I had her she started to cry and pull away. Damnit Edward. I said to myself.

"I'm sorry." I quickly said.

"It's not your fault. I just can't be close to you anymore Edward. Every time I try I just think about everything and…."

She didn't finish her sentence but she didn't have to. I knew what she was feeling. Hell I was feeling it too.

"I'm just trying to get back to what we use to be Bella. I thought you wanted that."

"Edward things will never be the same again. We both changed so much. Emmett came and talked to me today and told me to keep an open mind about you, and that you were trying. And I believe him. but I can't trust myself with you. I can't let myself be close to you one minute and the next thing I know I'm crying in my room over you."

"Bella I swear to you. I will never hurt you again. I know what I did and I wont to it again. I promise."

"Edward don't make promises you can't keep. I have to know that you wont give up on me. i have to be able to trust you again."

"Just tell me what to do, and I'll do it. Bella I'll do anything for you."

"Edward, I can't tell you what to do because I don't know myself. you just have to prove to me that yokur willing to make it work out for the best."

"I'll try." I said.

"Thank you for tonight. I had a good time." she said getting out of the car. I would have walked her to her door but she practically ran up the steps and was in her house before I had time to blink.

I had a lot to think about on the way home. How can I prove to her that I'm committed to this as I was before? Nothing came to my mind. I can't just keep taking her out to the movies. Obviously that wasn't enough. I needed to think of something that will blow her mind. Something that says I love you and I want you forever and ever.

As I pulled into my drive way the perfect plain came to mind.

I was going to ask Bella to marry me.

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Bella's POV

I ran inside and quickly went up to my room. I didn't think I had it in me but somehow I made myself cry. It was genius. I guess it was just the timing. It couldn't have worked out better if I tried. I had him hanging on my every word. All that crap about 'proving himself to me' was all Rose's idea. She sent me a text with a script of what to say in the car ride home. God I loved her. I hope he didn't see me looking down trying to read it in the car.

But he did surprise me with that almost kiss. I was even going to let him do it, but I chickened out at the last minute. I was telling the truth when I said I could be close to him anymore. Rose would be proud of me that I added that in.

I quickly grabbed my phone to call Rose but she didn't answer. So I just sent her a text.

I took a shower then went straight to bed. All of this BTR stuff wears me out like you wouldn't believe.

Just when I was about to go to sleep I saw my phone light up. I thought it was Rose so I went to grab it off the night stand but I was surprised to see it was a text from Edward.

Wt do you mean by BTR?

"Oh my God!" I said to myself. I quickly looked over my text and saw that I didn't just send it to Rose I sent it to Edward as well. HOLY SHIT. well thank god it was in code. The text said:

BTR 2night went so good I should win an Oscar;)

As I read over the message I tried to come up with a good excuse to what it could mean. Maybe ill just say that I didn't mean to send it to him. just when I was about to do that Edward was calling me. what do I do? I thought to myself.

Against my better judgment I answered it.

"Hello?" I said.

"So you didn't answer my text?"

"Sorry I didn't mean to send that to you. I meant to send it to Rose." Okay maybe that will work.

"Um do you mind if I keep you on the phone for a little while?"

"Why?" I asked.

"Because my parents are in Seattle this weekend and Jasper is fucking a girl and I really don't want to go inside right now if you know what I mean."

"Well he had to be in the house with us while we did it so I guess far is far." I said.

"Yea but that's different. This is my little brother."

"And? He's not so little anymore. Any idea on who the girl is?"

"No. he didn't say anything. I didn't even know he was seeing someone."

"Edward you don't have to be dating someone to..well you know."

"Bella that's my brother! He can't be fucking someone that he doesn't even know. Its just wrong."

"Well Eddward I hate to break it to you but that the way the world is now a days. People just do it with anyone. I know its pretty sad."

"Yea it is sad. Why can't everyone just wait until their married so they can save it for someone they love."

"Well we didn't wait."

"Yea that's because I loved….." Edward didn't say anything after that. but he didn't have to. I knew what he was going to say.

"Me too." I said not wanting to admit it.

"Yea. Well I'll just let you go. I'll just sit here in my car and wait."

"No I could stay on the phone with you it doesn't bother me."

"Okay. So what do you want to talk about?"

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The next morning I woke up with the phone attached to my ear. I was still on the phone with Edward. I could hear him snoring. I didn't want to hang up. Edward and I had a very good conversation last night. We didn't talk about us. Just normal stuff like the weather and school.

He finally went inside after about an hour and he said he could hear Jasper and whoever the girl was still going at it. Edward was so grossed out. I could hear it in his voice.

He went to his room and turned the music up as background noise. An hour later I asked if things had settled down. Edward walked outside to the hall and went up to Jaspers door and I was grossed out as well when I heard screaming coming through the phone.

I yelled at Edward for opening the door, and I told him to give Jasper his privacy.

"Bella I didn't even open the door. That's how loud the whore is." Edward said laughing.

"Don't call her a whore. You don't even know who it is."

"Well I know one thing. All those movie nights with Emmett paid off. Sounds like he's getting the job done."

"What do you mean by movie nights?" I asked.

"Well I hope you don't think low of me but when Emmett would come over we would sneak into my dad's office and steel tape from his porn stash."

"Eww Edward that's gross. Your dad probably master bates to that."

"Yea and so did me, Emmett, and Jasper." He was laughing but I didn't think it was funny.

"Oh my god I hope you weren't in the same room while you all did that."

"Oh god no. We all had bathroom breaks. I remember one time my mom came in my room and asked why we were going to the bathroom so much. I lied and said we drank a lot of water and coke. So we weren't allowed to have anymore that night."

"Oh god. And I think how I would have given anything to be able to hang out with you all. Now I'm thankful I stayed home and helped my mom bake cookies for you nasty little boys."

"Oh come on Bella we would have let you in on the fun too. Hell you might have learned a thing or two."

"What is that suppose to mean."

"Honey, let's just say that the term 'blow job' doesn't really mean to blow into it okay." Edward starting laughing hysterically.

"Oh my god Edward it was my first time doing that. How was I supposed to know that it doesn't blow up like a balloon?"

Edward started laughing harder now.

"OH my god Bella tell me you are joking! That is priceless."

"Well you weren't so informed the first time either Edward. Remember 'where's the hole at I can't find it'? Or did you forget about that." This time he stopped laughing.

"Okay so let's agree that we both sucked at the beginning."

"Yea then I taught you a thing or two and you started getting good."

"Oh the contrary Ms. Swan. I believe I was the one who taught you, and that's when you started getting good."

"No I have Rosalie. And she taught me how to give a blow job correctly and how to make you scream my name."

"Okay that was one time I let my guard down and said your name."

"No it was more like yelling my name at the top of your lungs and begging for more if I remember correctly."

"Okay fine you win. But if you were in my position you would have screamed my name too."

"No I'm not that lame. I would have kept it in."

"No you wouldn't have. Just say it Bella I was good and you liked every minute of it."

"Yes you were good to some extent. And no I didn't enjoy myself."

"Oh come on not even a little."

"Nope I was waiting for it to be over with as soon as you started." Of course I was lying through my teeth, and I think Edward knew that. But it was still fun to play along.

"Well then maybe I should come over there and prove to you how much I have improved over the years. I bet I can get you to say my name within the first 30 seconds."

"Keep dreaming Edward."

"You think I'm kidding but I'm serious."

"Yea I know you are, but I know you won't live up to it."

"Oh yea watch me. One day I'll prove it to you."

"Okay I'll be waiting with my legs open." I said with a laugh. When I didn't hear Edward laugh back I got worried. "I'm kidding Edward." I said.

"Would you really let me prove it to you?" he was serious now.

"Edward you don't have to prove it to me. I know how good you are I was just messing with you."

"I know, but would you?"

I was trying to wrap my head around what he was asking. Was Edward asking to have sex with me? Of course I wouldn't allow that. Not now anyway. My plan is just starting to work. And I still don't think I trust myself with him.

"Yea." I said. I really don't know why I said that. it wasn't true. Was it?

"I know not right now. But when you're ready you let me know okay?"

"Okay. You still have to earn my trust Edward."

"I know. And I have the perfect way to win you over."

"Oh really what is it?"

"Well I can't tell you now it would ruin the surprise." we were back to laughing again. All the seriousness went away in a matter of seconds.

"Edward you know I don't like surprises." I winned.

"Yea I know, but this one you will love. I promise."

I sat in my bed listening to Edward snore on the other end thinking about everything we talked about last night. I really think he's trying. And that scares me.

It also scares me how easy it was for me to let my guard down with him. Maybe it was because we talked over the phone instead of in person. Yea that's it.

Edward slept for another 30 minutes until I heard him wake up. I got scared and hung up the phone.

Sorry about the long update. I swear it wont happen again. I just got busy with real life. I don't even think I have all of my readers anymore. But that's the price I get for taking months to update.

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