Chapter 13
Bella's POV
Through the entire meal I sat quiet in my seat. I only moved my hands to bring the fork to my mouth and take sips of water. I kept my head down not wanting to look at anyone. After the first few minutes of Tanya talking I'm sure everyone hated her just as much as I did at this moment. No one talked for the longest time. That is until Tanya started talking making me jump a little by the sound. She just kept going on and on about herself. Was she really that stupid? No one wanted her here. Any sane person would have gotten the bad vibe at the table and left. But no Ms. "I'm a model, and Edward and I fucked" still sat there.
When I was finished with my food I stole a glance at my phone and saw I had a text from every one sitting at the table. It's funny because I didn't even feel it vibrate.
Emmett: It's not what it looks like give him a chance to explain.
Rosalie: that dumb bitch! I swear the nerve she has. If you want me too I can cut her with my knife and won't feel sorry. Edward is dumb, stupid, and he are not even worth your time. Let's forget the plan and move on.
Alice: Okay so don't worry about it. You promised you won't cry over him again. I won't let this bring you down. You have all of us who love you. You don't need him anymore. The plan is off. But it was fun for a little while. And Tanya is crazy. Did you see her outfit? So last season. If she thinks she's going to be successful with that face and figure she's got a rude awakening. Let's move on and forget about all of this.
Jacob: so I was going to bang Tanya but I don't want Edward's sloppy seconds. But she is hot!
Leave it up to Jacob to only worry about himself at a time like this. If I didn't already hate him that would have done it.
Emmett called for the check and everyone paid there half. I quickly got up and walked to the car by myself then I realized that Emmett had the keys so the door was locked. So I just stood there, in the cold, waiting for Emmett to open the door for me. A few seconds passed and no one showed up. I turned around and saw Edward walking toward me alone. I turned back around not wanting to look at him.
"Bella please let me explain." Edward said trying to spin me around to face him.
"Edward you just love pissing me off, don't you?" I screamed at him. That got a few looks from people getting out of their cars in the parking lot. I walked away from him going around to the other side of the Jeep, but of course he followed me.
"NO Bella! Just listen, please. Believe me I wanted to hit her just as much as you probably wanted to." That made me turn around. Now he has my attention.
"Then why didn't you?"
"Because my father taught me to never hit a girl."
"Well your father should have taught you that breaking up with your girlfriend, then dating her again, then bring your fuck buddy to sit with us at the table hurts worst than actually getting hit!"
"Wait wait wait. We were dating?"
"Oh my god Edward you are just as stupid as her! Yes I considered us as dating!" I said hitting him on the shoulder. But he didn't flinch.
"Why didn't you tell me?" Edward screamed. He looked mad.
"Well I didn't really think I needed to tell you! I thought it was obvious. What did you think we were doing?"
"I don't know, Bella. I need you to tell me. I don't know what the fuck I'm doing. You got me so screwed up in the head right now. One minute we're yelling at each other, then the next your grinding yourself against me."
"It's called flirting, Edward. Look it up!" I screamed at him. I started to go around the Jeep again just to get away from him, but Edward kept following me. I bet we looked like some dumb asses walking around the Jeep yelling at each other. If only someone was filming this. I could sure use a laugh later.
"Bella stop walking away from me when I'm talking to you!" Edward said. He sounded like my dad the way he said that. He used his deep voice that had a hint of dominance in it. Of course that made me stop and turn to face him. I was so turned on at the sound of his voice. But at the same time I was kind of grossed out because I was thinking about my dad.
"Why should I? If you haven't noticed, Edward I'm going out of my fucking mind right now. You have some nerve." I yelled.
"Bella, it's not what you think."
"What am I suppose to think, Edward!" I was getting really mad now.
"Well to clear up a few things we did not have sex. Because I know that's where your perverted little mind is going! Tanya and I were lab partners."
"Well now days the term 'hooking up' means sleeping with someone. So how was I suppose to know what she meant?" I said making air quotes.
"Well we made out a few times, but Bella I swear that was it."
"You son of a bitch!" I yelled hitting him, but he caught my arms and put them on my sides making me stop.
"You are really starting to annoy me, Bella." He said.
"Join the club!"
"Look I was coming out of the bathroom, and she spotted me. I was going to just smile and wave but she ran toward me. She said her date stood her up. And I just mentioned that I was here with my friends. She practically invited herself and sat down. What was I suppose to do? Make her leave?" Edward said.
"Yes. She was unwelcome! No one wanted her there, and she ruined everything."
"Well I'm sorry for trying to be a nice person. Next time I see someone I know I'll tell them to fuck off!" Edward yelled.
"No one likes a smart ass." I said rolling my eyes at him, turning around, and walking to the other side of the Jeep. I was sure getting my exercise tonight going around the Jeep several times.
"Bella stop it. You're acting like a child!" Edward said not following me this time. I had to admit it was childish to keep walking around the Jeep. I felt embarrassed. There Edward was trying to talk to me, and here I was walking away from him.
"Sorry." I said. I walked to the front of the car and stood in front of him. My cheeks started to turn red and I could barely stand to look up at him. Now I really felt like a child. I felt like my dad was about to give me my punishment for doing what ever.
"Tell me right now what you want out of this relationship because I cannot keep doing this." Edward said stepping closer to me. He spoke in a calm voice.
"Edward about an hour ago I wanted to kiss you and hold your hand and just be 'Edward and Bella' again, but now I'm not so sure what I want." I told him honestly. Right now I was just as screwed up as him.
"Marry me, Bella." Edward said in almost a whisper. I'm not really sure if I heard him right.
"What?" I asked worried that I might have heard him wrong.
"Marry me, Bella. It's the only way we are going to fix this mess. We would be together and no one will come in our way. It will be perfect. 'WE'would be perfect."
Nope I guess I heard him right. What was this man thinking? I can't get married! I'm way too young to be married. I didn't even start college yet.
Well it would be perfect because we are going to the same college, but that doesn't mean that we should get married.
We still have a lot of stuff to work out. There is no way we could get married. Well I mean we could, but it would be a very bad idea.
Would it? Like Edward said. It would be perfect. We would have proof that he will be forever mine. No one would stand in our way. We could finally be happy. But I can't get married!
All I could do is stare at Edward, and he stared right back. We didn't move.
"Time to go kids. I got to wake up early tomorrow morning." Emmett said from somewhere behind me, but I was so focused on Edward that I didn't look at him.
"Edward, Bella, come on get in the car!" Emmett yelled out of the window of the Jeep. It made me jump when he started the engine and the head lights came on. It was like there was a spotlight directly on us. But I didn't care. Edward took a tiny step toward me and I to him. Then he picked me up off the ground and kissed me. Like really kissed me! With tongue and everything. I couldn't make myself stop. I was so in the moment that everything around me just didn't matter.
I pulled myself up a little higher, and wrapped my legs around his waist. I'm sure we really looked like dumb asses now, kissing like this in public, but we were dumb asses together. And I loved it.
Emmett honked the horn one more time making Edward pull away, but he never took his eyes off of me. Edward started walking then. He carried me from in front the car to the back seat where he gently placed me down and climbed on in after me. He wrapped his arm around me and I held onto him. I could feel everyone looking at us, but I didn't care. I finally had My Edward back!
I don't know how it happened but somehow we were in front of my house in no time and everyone was getting out. Then the inside lights went off in the Jeep and Edward and I were alone in the darkness. Edward started kissing me again and shortly after I ended up straddling him in the back seat kissing him with as much passion as I could muster up. He moved his hands up and down my back and cupping my breast every now and then. I ran my hands through his hair and pulled on it every time he touched me in a place I liked.
"Bella!" Edward said pulling away from my lips but kissing me on my neck.
"What?" I said breathing hard.
"We should stop."
"Why?"
"Because we're in Emmett's car." Edward said stopping all movements and bringing my face to look at his. I just smiled and he smiled back.
"Then let's go in your car." I started kissing him again, but he put his hands on my shoulders and pushed me away.
"Well I was thinking more on the lines of your bed." he said with a devilish smirk. Praise the Lord! I really got my Edward back.
"You have to go through the window because mom and dad are home." I said getting off of him and opening the door to leave.
"Are you really going to make me climb the tree?"
I looked at him and gave him a sultry smile. I looked around to make sure no one was looking. Everyone seemed to have either left or was inside. I made a quick movement of removing the thong I was wearing and threw it at Edward.
"Does that give you motivation?" I asked.
"Baby you have no idea!" Edward said jumping out the car and running toward the side of the house to climb the tree. At this rate he might make it in my room before me. So I quickly ran inside the house, but I was stopped by Emmett grabbing me and pulling me into the kitchen. I was met with 6 pairs of eyes looking at me. Rose, Alice, and Emmett.
"What?" I asked out of breath from all the excitement.
"Um what the hell is wrong with you?" Rose yells.
"Seriouly Bella. What the fuck!" Alice yelled
"What are you guys talking about?" I said.
"So you're just going to forgive him now?"
I was puzzled by this question. Yes I guess I did forgive Edward, but I was still mad at him. I guess I got all caught up and forgot about why I was mad.
"No not completely." I said looking at everyone. "And if I did forgive him it's none of your business." I yelled.
"None of our business! Bella we are the people who had to drag you out of bed because you were crying over him. We are the ones who have been with you through everything. You are just going to get hurt. Forget about Edward and move on!" Rose yelled.
"It's not like that anymore. Everything is different. We're getting….." I stopped before I said the word 'married'. I wanted to keep that to myself. Edward and I really needed to talk about things before we went public with that shit.
"You're getting what?" Emmett asked.
I didn't know what to say. Everyone was waiting for an answer, but I didn't have a good enough one to give.
"Umm.. Better…yea..We're getting better at being in a relationship. This time it's going to be different. You'll see!" I said matter of factly. I really did believe that Edward and I were going to be okay.
"Well I can't just sit here and watch you throw your life away. When he breaks your heart, again, don't come crying to me." Rose said. She stormed out and slammed the front door.
"Bella I'm sorry, but she's right. I can't do this anymore. If you want to be with him you can, but I'm not supporting it." Alice said. She also walked out of the door leaving me and Emmett in the kitchen.
"Bella." Emmett started to say.
"What you hate me now too? Everyone just wants me to be unhappy for the rest of my life!" I yelled. I stormed upstairs to my room and slammed the door. I walked over to my wall of pictures and started taking off every signal one of Me, Rose and Alice. They don't deserve to be on the best friend wall.
"Oh yea when Rose thought it would be so awesome to drive to Seattle for the weekend and sneak into clubs I thought it was a bad idea, but I went along with it anyway!" I said to myself still taking down my pictures.
"And what about Alice? She's dating someone and I don't even know who it is yet, and I'm not forcing her to tell either. I didn't even want to buy new clothes, but no I had to look 'sexy' for Edward and I just couldn't do it in clothes I already owned. I should take all the shit back and spend the money on something I can actually use.
"Please don't take the clothes back." I screamed and jumped at the sound of Edward's voice. I turned around and he was sitting on my bed. I had forgotten that he was up here.
"You scared me!" I said.
"Sorry you told me to come up here. What's wrong?" he asked coming stand by me.
I don't know why, but today's events started crashing down on me. The tears I had been holding in since the restaurant are now flooding my face. Edward grabbed me in a hug and brought me to my bed. He lay down beside me and held me as I cried. He would whisper words like 'it's okay' and 'tell me what's wrong' but every time I tried to talk more tears would come. It was comforting that Edward was here holding me while I cried. And for the first time in a long time I wasn't crying over him. That made me feel a little better.
I was crying because of Tanya ruining my night.
I was crying because I just lost my two best friends in the entire world.
I was crying because I yelled at Emmett earlier that night, and again in the kitchen.
I was crying because I was still made at Jacob.
I was crying because for the last month I was trying to make Edward fall in love with me, then I was going to break up with him.
I was crying because I was a bad person. I don't deserve Edward.
The tears never stopped, but I did manage to fall asleep. I woke up in the early morning to hearing my dad's cruiser come to life. He must be going into work. I looked up and saw a peaceful looking Edward sleeping next to me. He still had his arms around me and our legs were intertwined. I snuggled closer to him and put my head in the crook of his neck. He pulled me closer to him and kissed the top of my head. We both fell back asleep and didn't wake up until sometime that afternoon.
AN: Thank you, Thank you, Thank you to everyone that reviewed! Your thoughts and comments put a smile on my face and encourage me to write more and more.
So a lot of you hated Edward last chapter. I don't blame you I actually hated him too. But I hope you kind of have a sweet spot for him now.
So getting married huh? What do you think?
Alice and Rosalie not supporting the relationship? What do you think?
Was Bella acting like a child? Do you think she needs to grow up a little more?
Let me know. I would love to hear everyone's opinion.
Next chapter will be up soon!
~Until next time~
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