Song- Unconditional Love-Tupac
Unconditional Love
The Next Morning
After packing my bags and leaving Percy last night, I had gone to stay with his mom until I could figure something else out. She was happy to see her granddaughter even though she was passed out for the whole night. We stayed up talking over wine.
And in the morning, I felt my heart stop beating after the detective delivered the news of his death. I had fallen to my knees when he had told me. I couldn't form words to ask how but he had told me anyway. And my eyes, they couldn't stop picturing how he had done it: the gun to his temple and as he pulled the trigger and then when the bullet made impact. I felt numb still.
Luckily, my daughter was still fast asleep when the detective was here. I guess that was the only good thing right now.
"Annabeth, I remember the first time you told me that you loved me. We were at the park and I was chasing you around. I had caught up to you and grabbed you around the waist. I spun you around and this big smile graced your face. I remember thinking that now matter how bad things got in life, as long as I had you, nothing could ever be that bad. I didn't think I deserved someone so beautiful like you but there you were in my arms. And when I set you down, you turned to embrace me. Your lips went to my ear and you whispered it: I love you. I never had once heard something so pure and beautiful until then. I never had felt anything so amazing until then. And I realized that I could never let you go because I love you. I knew that I had to have you forever and always. Will you marry me?"
Something inside was eating me alive. I couldn't get his face and his voice out of my head. It was breaking my heart piece by piece. My hopes and all my wishes, so many vivid pictures, and all the currency I'll never even get to see this fast life soon shattered. Cause after all the lights and screams, there was nothing left but my dreams mattered. I was hoping for better days but everything was just starting to fall apart for us.
"Mommy where's daddy? Daddy told me that he wasn't leaving again!" My daughter was in hysterics. Tears were rolling down her face.
"Baby, he had to go work. He's on the road. He left last night because he wanted to spend just a few more hours with you before he left."
"Mommy! He promised me that he wasn't leaving me again. He said that last time was the last time he would have to leave! Mommy, he said that he'd be here for my dance recital. He said that this wasn't going to happen again."
"Mama, don't cry. Long as we try, maybe things will change. Perhaps, it's just a fantasy." The voices of his mother and my own daughter blended together. I still couldn't even look at them. I lost in memories. I was lost with him.
"I'm trying to give her the life we never had growing up! I want to make her proud…" I cut him off.
"All you do is hurt her. You always make promises that you can't keep. You want to know why I cry at night when you aren't here. Come listen to my truest thoughts and feelings. See what I see: a husband that's never there and a father that makes his daughter cry when he ain't here."
"You don't think I know that. You tell me every day that I make you cry and I hurt my daughter. How do you think I feel? It's me that caused the fighting and the hurting. That's why; I stay in my room crying because I don't want to be a burden. Why do you think I have this urge to die? You witness the tears falling free from my eyes…It ain't easy being who we are. I'm driven by my ambitions and my desire to reach higher positions. So I proceed to make Gs, eternally in my mission to be more than just a rap musician. I got make something out of nothing. No pleasure in the suffering. The struggle never stops, Annabeth."
Tears were rolling down my face. Despite, everything I had said to him, I knew that I lied. I could never stop loving him.
"Please let me die because these are strange times. In this game, the lesson's in your eyes to see. How many caskets can we witness before we see it's hard to live this life without God. So we must for forgiveness."
"What about our daughter? You want her to grow up without a father. Is that what you want?" He shook his head no.
"We must remember that tomorrow comes after the dark. So you will always be in my heart with unconditional love."
(What y'all want?)
Unconditional Love (no doubt)
Talking bout the stuff that don't wear off
It don't fade
It'll last for all these crazy days
These crazy nights
Whether you wrong or you right
I'm a still love you
Still feel you
Still there for you
No matter what (hehe)
You will always be in my heart
With unconditional love
[Verse One:]
Come listen to my truest thoughts, my truest feelings
All my peers doing years beyond drug dealing
How many caskets can we witness
Before we see it's hard to live
This life without God, so we must ask forgiveness
Ask mama why i got this urge to die
Witness the tears falling free from my eyes
Before she could reply
Though we were born without a silver spoon
My broken down TV, show cartoons in my living room (hey)
One day I hope to make it
A player in this game
Mama don't cry, long as we try
Maybe things change
Perhaps it's just a fantasy
A life where we don't need no welfare
Shit with our whole family
Maybe it's me that caused it
The fighting and the hurting
In my room crying cause I didn't want to be a burden
Watch mama open up her arms to hug me
And I ain't worried bout a damn thang, with unconditional love
[Chorus: 2x]
In this game the lesson's in your eyes to see
Though things change, the future's still inside of me
We must remember that tomorrow comes after the dark
So you will always be in my heart, with unconditional love
[Verse Two:]
Just got the message you've been calling all week
Been out here hustling on these streets, ain't had a chance to speak
But you know, with you and me it's on G
We could never be enemies, cause you been such a good friend to me
Where would I be without my dogs
No wonder why when times get hard
Cause it ain't easy being who we are
Driven by my ambitions, desire higher positions
So I proceed to make Gs, eternally in my mission
Is to be more than just a rap musician
The elevation of today's generation
If could make 'em listen
Prison ain't what we need, no longer stuck in greed
Time to play and strategize, my family's gotta eat
When we make somethin out of nothing
No pleasure in the suffering, neighborhood would be good
If they could cut out all the busting
The liquor and the weed the cussing
Sending love out to my block
The struggle never stops (unconditional love)
[Chorus]
[Verse Three:]
I'll probably never understand ya ways
With everyday I swear I hear ya
Trying to change your ways while gettin paid at the same time
Just had a baby with the same eyes
Something inside, please let me die these are strange times
How come I never made it
Maybe it's the way the played it in my heart
I knew one day I gotta be a star
My hopes and all my wishes
So many vivid pictures, and all the currency
I'll never even get to see
This fast life soon shatters
Cause after all the lights and screams
Nothing but my dreams matter
Hoping for better days
Maybe a peaceful night, baby don't cry
Cause everythang gonna be alright
Just lay your head on my shoulder
Don't worry bout a thang baby
Girl I'm a soldier (huh)
Never treated me bad, no matter who I was
You still came with that, unconditional love
[Chorus 3x until fade]