Beck's POV: While I was walking down the hall of the hospital, I realized I had some time to think about what I'll say to Jade if I see her anytime soon. I am so happy I told Tori how I feel. It feels exactly as people have described it as: an enormous weight being lifted off my shoulders. I put my heart on the line, and now I see where it has gotten me. I now get to call the most beautiful girl in the world my girlfriend.

I'll be the envy of the male population. To me, this is the equivalent to having a supermodel, movie star, or Swedish girl as my girlfriend. It was terrible looking at Tori everyday before this, because it's just so hard looking at a "friend" and seeing nothing less or more than everything you've ever wanted. And if I were caught by Jade staring at Tori a little too long, I'd face the worst possible punishment.

The silent treatment is what I got at first, or a series of angry looks, or a push in the gut… Then when she caught me constantly, it would be even worse. Thinking about it now, I feel like less of a man for being so intimidated by her. I mean, she's obviously different, but now that I'm with Tori I don't know how I was able to see past Jade's baggage.

She is obsessed with all pointy objects, especially scissors, and loves inflicting pain or fear on someone, mostly Tori or Sinjin. When I thought I saw how crazy she could get, she goes and attacks Tori and lands her in the hospital. Just as I finished that thought, I pushed through the hospital exit doors. I looked around then the thought dawned on me: I came here in an ambulance.

How am I going to get to school? "Beck! Hey Beck, over here!" I looked over and saw Lane and Sikowitz waving towards me from Sikowitz's van. "Coming!" I yelled across the busy parking lot. I jogged over there, hopped in, and prepared for the ride. Most, if not all, of Sikowitz's students know you are to expect a very bumpy ride when you ride in his van.

While it's a fairly new vehicle, there were several factors to have that beat out. Mainly the fact that while Sikowitz is an excellent teacher, he is a terrible driver, combined with the fact that, since he sees 'visions' from the milk in coconuts, he swerves a lot to avoid things he thinks he sees, are what contribute to the bumpy ride I'm enjoying right now.

I was half thankful and half worrisome when Lane decided to break the silence by starting conversation. "So Beck, I heard from the police officers that came to question Tori, that there is a known reason for Jade's seemingly random act of violence against Tori," Lane mentioned nonchalantly.

I looked at him, "Yea, there is." He looked like he was trying to get an explanation out of me, so I decided to provide it before it got awkwardly obvious. "I broke up with Jade a few minutes before the attack happened. She was already on edge, and when I told her why and who I was leaving her for it pushed her over the edge and she attacked Tori," I finished the story.

For some reason it seemed much easier now that I've already told it twice. Lane looked almost pleased that his nonchalant probing had gotten something out of me. I saw Sikowitz glance back at me from the rear view mirror after I finished explaining. "Well, at least it wasn't your fault. I mean, sure Jade was upset, most girls would be if their boyfriend of almost 2 years,"

Lane paused, "or so I've heard," he continued, "for a girl she doesn't really like. But that does not give her the right to take it out on Tori." I looked back down and used my phone to go to . I could see that Jade had already unfriended me. That would mean that she's either, not in police custody, or must have done that pretty fast.

I was about to change my relationship status just to spite her when we pulled into the parking lot of the school. Lane helped me get out and, after I thanked them for going along for Tori, I walked through the doors of the school and walked down the hall to the improv class that would have to go on without Tori.

I don't know why I did, but before I headed into improv class, I decided to go get a drink. For whatever reason I chose to do that, I'll never know. Maybe it was some invisible force telling me to go, or maybe it was something else. All I know is that I'm glad I did, because I wouldn't have gotten to take this opportunity and use it. A few feet from the water fountain was Jade.

She saw me first, so I suppose that gave me the confidence to talk to her. I made eye contact, then began, "Jade, I'd like to talk to you." She just looked at me with the same look she'd give Tori: distaste and disgust. I realized that, after what I told her and everything that went down today, I really should get used to it. "What," she replied blandly. I gave her the same look and figured I should start before we got caught.

"Look Jade, I'm not going to yell or scream at you. All I want to know is why?" She gave me an angry and irritated look, "Why are you picking a fight, Beck? It's over and done with. There's nothing more to say." "I'm not picking a fight, Jade! And no, it's definitely not over and done with. There is definitely something more to say. Like I said already, all I want to know, is why?"

"Why do you want to know why?" she questioned me like she had the right. "Because I want to know what the hell you were thinking when you unleashed the beast on Tori!" She looked at me with a cocky smile. "I thought you said you weren't going to yell at me?" I felt so much anger and hate towards her at this very moment, I didn't care if she knew it or not.

"I have every right to," I changed my tone to one that shows calmness, "you put my girlfriend in the hospital! I'm not going to ask again, Jade. Why did you attack Tori?" She broke down at my question, "Because I still love you!" she dropped to the floor and leaned back against the lockers with her head in her hands and it almost sounded like she was crying as she continued.

"I still love you Beck, even if I don't show it. I don't like putting my emotions on display, even when I'm acting. I don't know why, but if I let my emotions show when I'm acting it still feels like I'm being weak," while she remained on the ground she looked quite pitiful, though I felt like I shouldn't care after what she did.

"Do you even understand how much I care about you? Do you have any idea how hard it's going to be walking around with my heart completely smashed and burned to ashes while you're making out with Tori? It's going to be hell for me. And I don't know if you care, but I just want you to know."

After she was finished with her little speech I almost felt like a bad person for saying what I was about to say. Then again, she did put my girlfriend in the hospital. I looked at her, "Look. I want to forgive you. I want for us to at least try to be friends. I want us to stay in contact.

But how can I feel right about that when you purposely put my girlfriend in the hospital! I'm going to try to forgive you, because that's just how I am. But I hope you understand that it will take some time." She looked up at me with tears in her eyes, "About how long will it take for you to forgive me?" I rubbed her arm and tried my hardest to give her a worthy answer.

I looked her in the eye, defeated, "I'm sorry Jade, but I just don't know. It could be months or even years before I learn to forgive you for this. Usually you take things to the max and then some, but this time you've just gone too far. And it's up to you how long it takes to come back."

I turned away from her and walked to class.