For All I Couldn't Do Chapter 7
Lee Sungmin (28) is blind and is the sole owner and CEO of Lee Industries. He lives with his brothers, twins Hyukjae and Donghae (20). But, when Cho Kyuhyun, a 16 year old boy with a troubled past, is adopted by Sungmin, how far will things go for a boy with a troubled past and a man just troubled?
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KYUHYUN POV
The office that I am now sitting in looks more like an office for a business man rather than… well I'm not too sure Sungmin is. Even so, his desk has more of a modern look than the classical wooden desk but instead of the brown color of wood his desk is black. His chair is black leather as well and a large white book shelf completely covers the wall off to my right. The only light in the room is from a lamp that is sitting on Sungmin's desk as there are no windows.
Looking at Sungmin, he is still looking directly at me although he almost has a look of annoyance on his face that he can't see my expressions.
"Why the hell would you try to care for someone when it's obvious that you can't even care for yourself?" I nearly yelled at him while forcing myself to remain in the seat.
Sungmin smiled and leaned back carefully in his chair. "It is not that I meant for this to happen. I was expecting my condition to be better than this but things took a turn for the worse. And besides, I have been raising Hyukjae and Donghae by myself since I was eight and they were born. It is not like I am completely incompetent; I'm just having a harder time doing things now."
I stared at him in disbelief. Since he was eight? "Why? Did your mommy and daddy not care about you?"
"My mother was a prostitute who slept all day and was out selling herself all night," Sungmin said, his face straight and serious, "I never knew my father Hyukjae and Donghae do not know their fathers as well. When I was eight and the twins were only two months old my mother overdosed on meth and I was left to care for my brothers."
"Fathers…" I asked. Shouldn't it have been father?
"Hyukjae and Donghae, although twins, have different fathers. I'm sure you can imagine how that happened," Sungmin said raising one finger on one hand and two fingers on the other then bringing them together repeatedly. "Two eggs and two men, really are a problem especially when the protection fails."
"But now they kind of care for you," I ask but it come out as more of a statement.
"Yes, that's true. When I was 25 and the twins were 17 I became very sick. When I went to the hospital they found I had cancer of my eyes and so they removed by eyes but it was too late and the cancer spread to my bones. Ever since, the twins have been helping me with things that I need to do."
"You have cancer?" I asked my voice suddenly a lot softer than before.
Sungmin just nodded then let his head go limp as he let out an audible sigh.
"Why me?" I ask softly not really wanting to know the answer but still curious at the same time.
"A little more than a year ago there was a very serious accident and you lost quite a lot."
After hearing that my eyes went wide and I look at Sungmin. He had a serious expression but sorrow flashed across his face like he could tell what my expression was.
"Sure my mother was a prostitute but I still loved her and I still do. When I heard that you had lost everything your family had worked for, I could not stand to watch as someone so young lost everything that he had. No one deserves to have that happen to them."
Still staring at Sungmin I felt a tear slowly slide down my cheek. This man, who has and still has, so much going wrong in his life decided to help me. No one since the accident had been that nice to me.
"Kyuhyun," Sungmin says snapping me out thoughts, "you're crying."
Suddenly I stiffen and quickly brush my tears away. Cautiously I look at Sungmin.
"Are you scared about something?" Sungmin asks me like he can read my mind.
"I treated all of you like jerks before. I didn't know anything about you and I just assumed that you were using me to boost your image," I say, my voice quivering with the emotions that were ricocheting around in my body.
"You did not know," Sungmin states leaning a little bit closer to me.
I nod and mumble a small 'u-huh,' and as I am about to stand up to leave Sungmin stops me in my tracks.
"Something is still bothering you,' he says, his face looking at me like he can see into me.
"N- No," I stammer as he continues to look at me. "It's nothing."
"Is it the twins?"
'U-huh," I mumble sitting back down defeated. Sure Sungmin is blind but he is not stupid.
"They are only looking out for you. There are some things that my company deals with that are best not seen by people who are ordinary citizens." Sungmin says, ending his sentence in such a way that gave me the impression that I should not ask any more questions. "I will tell Hyukjae to go easier on you. You are right in the fact that he does not have any reason to treat you like that but he does care for you deeply and only wishes for your safety."
Slowly I nod and as I look up at Sungmin he smiles. I almost wonder if he is actually blind but the lack of eyes makes it kind of hard to pretend.
"You are free to go," he says feeling around his desk for something.
3:07 am a voice calls out.
"Well, since it is still early why don't you go back to bed and get some sleep. I'm sure that you are tired."
"I'll take my leave then," I say as I stand up and walk to the door.
"Kyuhyun-sshi," Sungmin says as I gently place my hand on the door know and pull the handle down, "Please don't feel like a stranger in this house anymore."
"Thank you," I say as I walk out the door and back down the stairs towards my room.
Falling onto my bed and pulling the covers up over my head I think about the conversation that Sungmin and I just had.
It was not like I was planning on being a complete jerk to a man who was suffering just as much as I was but I was angry. I was mad about the accident, the lawyers, the cops, everyone, and I had no reason to take that out on Sungmin.
"I'm sorry," I mumble out to no one although I know who it is intended for.
As I am about to fall asleep I think I hear from the other side of my door.
"It's okay."
SUNGMIN POV
It's was not like I wanted to lie to Kyuhyun but I really had no other choice… and besides it was only a partial lie.
The part about my mother and the twins was all true and the part about Hyukjae and Donghae watching out for Kyuhyun is true but sometimes, with all of the pain that I have to go through, sometimes I wish it was cancer instead of this reality.
Sighing, I lean back in my chair, my hand folded across my stomach, my head leaning back against the head rest on the chair.
Sounds of sirens and screaming play in my head like a broken record player stuck on the same bad soundtrack that has become my life.
Thinking back, I try to remember that moment what I could have hear something.
Maybe I did hear his scream and his please but the amount of pain that was coursing through my veins had deafened me.
Slowly I feel my mind pull into a soft slumber and I only smile as I think of the reactions that Hyukjae and Donghae will have when they find me sleeping at my desk.
It started off as a normal day. I woke up at my normal time of 5:30, showered, got dressed, went down stairs and joined the twins for breakfast. Hyukjae was just finishing up cooking the eggs while Donghae was toweling off the last bit of grease from the bacon. I popped 3 pieces of toast into the toaster and proceeded to get the plates out from the cabinet.
"Hyung," Hyukjae called to me as I finished setting the table of the utensils and placing the plates on the counter so food could be put on them, "do you want cheese on your eggs?"
"I do!" screamed Donghae as he places two pieces of bacon on each of the three plates.
"I DIDN'T ASK YOU!" Hyukjae yelled as he places a handful of shredded cheese on two of the plates, one for him the other for Donghae.
"Yeah," I nodded as he put a generous amount of cheese on my eggs.
Grabbing two of the plates off of the counter I walked over to the table and place one plate in front of a bouncing Donghae and the other at my spot then as Hyukjae sat down with his plate I poured three glasses of milk and put them next to every plate.
We talked as we ate, mostly about work and what we all had planned for the day. Donghae and Hyukjae were going to go to the gym then were going to come into work and I was just going to go straight to work but afterwards I was going to go grocery shopping.
After finishing breakfast and putting the dishes into the dishwasher I grabbed my jacked and threw it over my suit. Walking out through the kitchen I headed out through the den and past the pantry. Opening the garage door I walked over to my car.
Climbing into my black 2012 Corvette ZR1, I put my briefcase on the seat next to me and buckled myself in. Turning my car on and opening the garage door I reversed out and began on my half hour drive to work.
Turning on the radio once I got onto the highway I began singing along with one of my favorite songs.
하루가일년 같아 계속 내려앉는 내 가슴이
(Each day is like a year, my heart keeps sinking)
네 흔적만 찾고 있으니까 몇 일째
(Because I keep finding traces of you for many days now)
모래알 같아 밥 한 숟갈 억지로 삼켜봐도
(When I forcefully swallow a bite of food it feels like a grain of sand)
너 없는 하루는 멈춰있어 지금 이대로
(The day without you has stopped just like this now)
I turned my turn signal on to switch into the other lane and carefully looked around me making sure that there were no other cars that I might hit. Carefully I began to switch lanes and suddenly I was broadsided and thrown into my window.
My Love, My Kiss, My Heart
모두 묻어둘게 가슴속 깊은 곳 Yeah~
(I'll bury them all in a place deep inside my heart Yeah-)
One Love, One Kiss, To My Heart
모두 잊어볼게 모두 다 지울게
(I'll try to forget everything, I'll erase everything)
I could feel my car and the car that hit me spinning across the lanes of traffic hitting other cars along the way. Sounds of screeching and crunching filled the air and the sounds of breaking glass reverberated all around my car.
I slammed my eyes shut thinking about Hyukjae and Donghae, not wanting to leave them alone and praying that no one else would be injured in this accident.
Suddenly I felt my car flipping over along with the other car and then everything stopped. The world became so still and silent that I thought that I had died.
Opening my eyes I noticed that I was hanging upside down from my seatbelt, glass splayed all around me and smoke rising from an unknown places.
Then suddenly everything hit me. The pain, the cries, the scream, the sirens, everything. It all hit me. I screamed out in pain and slammed my eyes shut as even my screaming and crying hurt me more.
I there was a strange taste in my mouth that burned as I swallowed and caused even more tears to come to my eyes.
Trying to calm down I listened to the voices around me. Many of them sounded professional, coming from paramedics and rescue personnel who were trying to assess the situation.
"Three car pile-up," I heard a man with a deep voice call out to someone, "two other cars on the side."
울려대는 심장소리 거짓말 같아 이 아픔도
(The sound of my heart ringing it feels like a lie this pain too)
씻겨진 번진 글씨처럼 너와 난 흐려졌어 지워졌어
(Like the writing that has been washed away and smudged you and I have been blurred and erased)
세상은 그대론데 둘러보면 너만 내 곁에 없는걸
(The world is the same but when I look around, it is only you who is not by my side)
너를 잃은 걸 전부 잃은 걸 되돌릴 수도 없는걸 Yeah~
(I lost you. I lost everything. I can't even turn back time)
Suddenly though the world came crashing down, literally. The cars that were on top of mine suddenly tumbled down around me and the screams that filled the air covered the sounds of crunching metal and breaking glass that surrounded me.
Opening my eyes again the pain blinded me and I cried out in pain and something burned its way across my body and face.
People were screaming pleas of help and fear at the rescue squad but the only voice I could head were those of Hyukjae and Donghae screaming in my head to stay alive. I had to for them.
Suddenly a small explosion shook me from my mind and as I opened my eyes I noted the blurry colors of the orange, red, and yellow flames that were licking everything around me.
I tried to move away but my body screamed at me to stop moving and I complied by going limp in my seat, the pain too much for my body to tolerate and the heat too much for me to remain conscious.
My Love, My Kiss, My Heart
모두 묻어둘게 가슴속 깊은 곳 Yeah~
(I'll bury them all in a place deep inside my heart Yeah-)
One Love, One Kiss, To My Heart
모두 잊어볼게 모두 다 지울게
(I'll try to forget everything, I'll erase everything)
As I dangled there, my skin burning along with the rest of my body I did not even bother to scream. My throat was on fire and screaming would have done nothing other than cause more pain in return for nothing.
I could feel cool droplets of water splashing my body causing even more pain as it either put out the burning sensations I was feeling or helped them to burn further through me.
I was able to make out the sound of more glass breaking and more metal crunching as the rescue people called out to each other saying, "hurry and support that side," "this one's gone," or "hurry," but what I didn't hear were those sounds around me. They were all coming from other places, near other cars, and near other people who were in need but not near me.
깨져버린 조각같은 추억들만 박혀 있는 것 같아
(It feels as if only the memories that are like broken pieces are stuck in it)
내 심장 깊이 내 심장 깊이 내 심장 깊이 깊은 곳에 Oh- Oh-
(Deep in my heart deep in my heart in a place deep in my heart Oh- Oh-))
눈물로 범벅이 된 네 얼굴만 아른거리며 맴돌고 있어
(The image of your face covered in tears haunts me it hovers)
맴돌고 있어 내 모든걸 가져간 너
(It hovers, you who took everything.)
Suddenly the heat that had been licking my face from the flames surrounding me were extinguished and replaced by a stream of water hitting my body and settling the smoke that had filled my car.
A scream of pain escaped from my lips and I heard a voice yell out, "we have one more!"
I can hear voice in the back ground scream and crying while others are shouting orders out to people who I can't even see.
I try to listen harder but all I hear is screaming from one person.
"NO! NO! NO!" the voice scream over the sirens and people, "PLEASE!"
Last Love, Last Kiss, Last Dream
너를 아는 가슴이 너만을 기억해
(My heart that knows you only remembers you)
Goodbye My Love My Kiss
멈춰 있을 것 같아 너 없이 이대로
(Without you it seemed like it all stopped)
A single tear rolled down my cheek from my burning eyes as I listened to the last lines of my favorite song coming from the radios of the other cars that had stopped to watch the scene in front of them unfold.
Suddenly I heard my phone go off with the ring tone for Donghae when he texts me.
My phone, set up so that it automatically read the text out loud when I was driving, began to read the message to me.
"Friday June eighteenth two thousand eleven, seven fourteen AM. Message from Donghae," the automated voice read out to me from somewhere in the car, "Hyung, I forgot to tell you this morning to have a good day. Be safe! Donghae."
"Donghae… Hyukjae…" I whispered as I felt hands begin to try and help me, "I'm sorry."
모두 잊어볼게 모두 다 지울게
(I'll try to forget everything, I'll erase everything)
*The song is 'My love, my kiss, my heart," by Super Junior K.R.Y.
Now I feel terrible for not updating at all this weekend. From now on I'm just going to update when I have the time which probably won't be too often. I have a lot going on with school. One of my friends got into a Korean speech contest so I am helping her to learn her speech and work on her pronunciation. Good luck to her!
Well, I hope this chapter answers some questions but doesn't give the whole things away because that would just be terrible of me.
What's a girl without her secrets?
Well until next chapter!
.:Ji:.