Author's note: I like this one. Lots of angst. :) Also some awesome Bromance in here! :D By the way, I go by NigaHiga's definition of Bromance. Look it up on YouTube. :P

Disclaimer: I don't own anything.

Chapter 5

Getting Better

"You're going through so much. But I know that I, could be the one, to hold you."

"Oh come on!" Kendall screamed.

"Haha! Yes!" James cried.

"Wooo! Ya can't stop us!" Carlos cheered.

"No no, over there, to the left." Logan instructed.

"Right right, I think I got it now." Jo said.

Logan's shoulder had finally healed enough and he no longer needed the sling. It was still sore, and he still had be extra careful not to strain it, but it was getting better.

Now the boys were playing Halo. They had played two rounds already, but Logan got tired and his shoulder had started to hurt, so now Jo was sitting in for him.

Jo's dad was in the kitchen visiting with Mrs. Knight, and Katie was watching over on the couch beside Jo, shaking her head in disappointment everytime Jo did something wrong. Clearly she anxiously wanted to take over.

"No no no!" Kendall yelled.

"Yes!" Carlos cheered. "We win!" He said as he high-fived James.

"Sorry Kendall." Jo said.

Kendall smiled at her. "It's okay Jo."

"Yeah Jo!" James said. "It's totally okay. Just keeping doing what you're doing!" He said cheerfully.

Kendall glared at him. "Hey Logan, you feeling well enough to take ov-" Kendall stopped when he looked over to see that Logan had fallen alseep. "Let's take a break for now." Kendall said quietly. The other boys nodded and turned off the game.

James went over and gently felt his forehead. "He's getting better." He whispered. "He's not too hot anymore."

"Maybe one more day of bed rest," Kendall started. "And he'll be back to normal." He whispered happily.

"That's a relief." Carlos said. "I don't like it when he's sick."

"None of us do." James said as he sat beside Carlos and put an arm around his shoulders.

"He probably would have been better by now," Jo started quietly as she lay on his chest. "If he didn't have to go to that doctor with me." She closed her eyes and listened to the sound of Logan's heartbeat and steady breathing.

"It's not your fault Jo." Kendall said firmly. He watched as Jo layed on Logan. . .The way she should be laying on him.

Jo sat up and looked at Kendall. "Kendall I'm so sorry." She said, tears in her eyes.

"For what?" Kendall asked.

A tear slipped down her cheek. "I'm practially cheating on you." She whispered. Then she squeezed her eyes shut. "And with your best friend."

Kendall came and sat down beside Jo, then took her hand. "No Jo." He said. "You're not cheating on me. Maybe it feels like it sometimes, but this isn't a normal situation. You can't help it. You're hurt and scared and broken. You're traumatized. But you're going to get better Jo."

Jo stared at him with teary eyes, and Kendall watched her with strong and determined, but soft eyes. "You still love me, right Jo?" He asked suddenly, his eyes grew scared, and Jo's grew hurt.

"Of course Kendall! More than anything! I love you." She reassured.

Relief washed over Kendall and he nodded. "Then you're not cheating on me." He finished with a smile. He reached around and hugged Jo, while she hugged him back one-handedly, still holding firmly onto Logan's arm.

She was getting better. She wasn't able to hug Kendall like this before without shaking, or without Logan's help. Now she felt safe in Kendall's embrace, and without Logan even being awake. She was proud of herself. Maybe she could get better.

"Whooooa, that's pretty sweet dude." Guitar Dude said.

"Yep! And he got both of them to safety!" Carlos said proudly, while Logan blushed and ducked his head.

Wow! I wish I could do that!" Tyler said. "Oh my mom! Gotta go guys! Cool story!" He yelled back as he ran away.

"Must you tell everyone?" Logan asked. The boys and Jo sat by the pool, with Carlos telling everyone that passed by, 'The Story of Logan'.

"Of course! You're a hero Logie!" Carlos said brightly. "The people have to know!"

"No they don't!" Logan protested.

"He just doesn't like the attention." Kendall said.

"Which is ridiculous!" James said. "If I were you, I'd be living it up! That is the perfect story to pick up girls!"

Logan rolled his eyes and let out an annoyed sigh before plopping his head back on the chair. "You okay?" Jo asked.

Logan looked back up at her and smiled softly. "Yeah I'm fine. It's just what Kendall said. I don't exactly like all the stares people keep throwing my way."

Jo smiled at him. "Well I think Carlos is right. You are a hero Logan." Logan blushed again.

Then Camille came up. Her expression was happy, but fell once she saw Logan and Jo together. It killed her everytime she saw them hugging and Logan comforting her. She still liked Logan. A lot. But being the actress she was, she quickly masked her feelings with a phony smile. "Hey guys! What are you doing out here?"

"Hanging out." James said simply. "What's it look like?"

Camille rolled her eyes. "I mean, shouldn't Logan be in bed?"

"Actually," Logan started. "I am getting better. And the fresh air and sunshine feel really good."

"Well I'm glad to hear it!" Camille said with a smile.

"Thanks." Logan blushed some more.

"So what are you up to Camille?" Kendall asked, seeing how uncomfortable Logan was under all the attention.

"Oh, well I'm rehearsing for a part right now." Camille said. "I play the damsel in distress for that new movie 'Grasshopperman'. A boy gets bitten by a radio-active grasshopper and gains all of its abilities and becomes a superhero! The scene I'm doing right now is where Jane-Marie, that's me, gets thrown off a building by the bad guy, and Grasshopperman has to make the choice to either catch me, or stop him!"

All eyes shoot to Logan and everyone had smirks on their faces. "See Logie?" Carlos said quietly. "Superhero!" He sang somewhat subtlely.

Logan blushed again. "Shut up." He said playfully.

"Are you ready?" Logan asked.

Jo was shaking slightly, but she nodded. "Yeah, I'm ready."

"Okay." Logan said. They stood in the middle of the apartment, and they were starting the exercises. The others had left so that all the people wouldn't upset Jo. Logan and Jo stood facing each other, both of them holding each other's arms. "Slow and steady." Logan said.

Jo nodded and started to pull a hand away from Logan's arms, then bring it to her side, while Logan still held hers. Then, she took a deep, shaky breath, and slowly tried to take her other hand.

She took her hand off of Logan and held it above his arm for at least 20 seconds. "N-no." She said and quickly refastened her grip on him. "I'm sorry." She said.

"It's okay." Logan said and pulled her into a hug. "We'll try again tomorrow. You did good Jo. You did good."

"How do you think it's going?" Carlos asked.

"I don't know Carlos." Kendall answered.

"Do you think it's going good?" Carlos asked.

"I don't know Carlos." Kendall answered, annoyance rising.

"Do you think she's getting better?" Carlos asked.

"I. Don't. Know Carlos!" Kendall said through clenched teeth. Annoyance turning into rage.

"Do you think she'll ever get better?" Carlos asked. "What if she doesn't? Then she'll have to have Logan go everywhere she goes. It must be awkward trying to kiss her when she's hugging Logan instead. Is it awkward Kendall?"

"Carlos!" Kendall and James yelled, startling Carlos. "Enough!" Kendall said, and plopped his head back down on the pool chair with a heavy sigh, staring up at the sky.

The boys stayed and laid down in the pool chairs by the pool to give Jo and Logan some privacy while they tried out the exercises to help Jo. The pool was relatively empty and quiet, giving the boys some peace for the time being. But so far it wasn't going so well.

Kendall was anxious. He wanted to be there to help his girlfriend. He hated that she couldn't go to him. He hated that she would rather go to Logan. And he hated that there was nothing he could do about it. He was angry, but not at Jo. He knew that she couldn't help it. He wasn't sure what he was mad at.

Maybe he was mad at himself for not being a better boyfriend to Jo, or for knocking her off the roof in the first place. Maybe he was mad at Jett for also knocking her off the roof. Maybe he was mad at the railing that didn't support Jo and that let her fall. Maybe he was mad at the people who made it so flimsy, or the people who never had it checked and secured.

Or maybe, just maybe, he was mad at Logan, for saving Jo. For being the one she needed instead of Kendall. For being everything for Jo when it should be him. Frustrated tears stung Kendall's eyes and he pressed his palms down on them as if to push them back in. He hated thinking like this, especially about his friends.

"Are you okay?" James asked. Kendall looked over to see James and Carlos staring at him with worried eyes.

Quickly, Kendall put on his brave face and nodded with a small, fake smile. "I'm fine." He said.

"No you're not." James said seriously. He sat up fully to look at Kendall, Carlos mimicking.

Kendall let out a heavy sigh and sat up too. "I'm fine. Let's just drop it, okay?" He said, trying to keep down the anger and frustration.

"Kendall," James started. "You can't just hide everything like that. You need to deal with your feelings too. You can tell us anything, you know that right?"

"Yeah," Carlos said. "That's what friends are for."

"What is this, Dr. Phil?" Kendall asked angrily. "Look, I said I was fine! Just drop it!"

"Kendall-" James started.

"No!" Kendall cut him off, raising to his feet. "Just stop! You don't know everything, okay? You don't know what I'm going through! You couldn't possibly understand!"

"Well help us understand." Carlos said pleadingly.

"How?" Kendall asked bitterly. "By talking about it? By spilling my guts out like some emotional mother on Opera or something? You think that'll help Carlos? You think that'll make things better? Make things normal again?"

"It'll help a lot more than if you just bottle everything up and not tell anyone." James retorted, raising to his feet to meet Kendall. "That's not healthy Kendall."

"Oh, and you know all about what's healthy. You're a doctor now, is that it?" Kendall yelled.

"That's not what I me-" James tried.

"No no I get it. You know everything. The great 'James Diamond' is king of the world right?" Kendall screamed.

"Kendall, that's enough." James said forcefully. "I'm just trying to help you!" He yelled.

"Yeah well stop trying!" Kendall yelled back. "I don't need your help. Or anyone else's!" He yelled, and stormed out the front doors of the Palm Woods.

"Kendall!" James and Carlos called, but they didn't reach him in time, and he disappeared from their sights. Tears blurring their vision.

Kendall stormed down the streets. He didn't know where he was going, just so long as he was going away from the Palm Woods, where all his problems reside. He huffed along in a rage, frustrated tears streaking his face.

He kept walking, almost running, down the busy streets of L.A., bumping into businessmen and women trying to get to work in a rush. He didn't care. He just wanted away. His legs burned but he kept walking.

Finally, he came across a little park. It was small; a slide, a swingset, and a teeter tauter occupying the small sanded area. There were no kids playing in it, so Kendall decided to take refuge here. He found a large tree somewhat away from the actual playground that provided plenty of shade from the beating sun.

Kendall laid up against the strong trunk and closed his eyes, trying to catch his breath. He listened to the sounds of the birds and the faint city noises around him. It was very peaceful. But at the same time, it also gave him the time to think, and right now, Kendall didn't want to think. He hated the thoughts that bombarded his mind, and he hated himself for thinking them.

'What if she loves him?' His mind thought. 'What if she wants to be with him instead of me? What if he loves her back? What if I lose her?' More tears burned his eyes and he pressed his palms against them tightly.

'Why do I keep messing up? Why can't I just be a good friend, and a good boyfriend? Why do I feel so angry all the time? Why do I feel angry at them? They're my friends! They didn't do anything! Why. . .'

'Why am I mad at him?' He thought. 'He's done nothing but help, that's all he ever does. He's helping her when I can't. I should be grateful! God! Why am I so selfish? Why can't I just be there for them when they need me instead of whining about the fact that I can't fully hug my girlfriend without Logan being there? I'm a horrible person!'

He hit the back of his head against the tree in frustration. "I must be the worst friend ever." He said aloud.

"You're not the worst friend ever." The sudden voice startled Kendall and he turned around.

"How can you say that?" Kendall asked, tears falling down his cheeks. "How can you of all people say that? You don't even know what-"

"I think I do." He said, and walked over to sit by Kendall. "You're mad at me, aren't you?" He asked quietly.

"Logan-" Kendall fumbled.

"You're mad at me for being the one that's there for Jo instead of you, right?" Logan looked up at Kendall with tears hovering in his eyes.

"Logan, I. . ." Kendall trailed off. He wanted so badly to disagree. To tell Logan that he couldn't be more wrong. That Logan couldn't possibly do anything to anger Kendall. He wished so badly that all of that was true.

Logan looked down at the ground. "I'm so sorry Kendall." He said. "I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could change this. I wish you could be with Jo again, I really do. I'm glad I can help her and everything, but I just feel horrible about what it's doing to you. I hate this!" He said as he gripped angrily at his hair.

"I'm trying so hard to help her get better," Logan said. "But everytime I comfort her I just think of how it should be you doing it! I feel like I'm stealing your girlfriend away from you and hurting you and I can't stand it!" He looked up at Kendall, the tears finally falling. "I'm so sorry! I never ever want to hurt you! I just. . .I feel stuck. I can't help Jo without it hurting you, and. . .I just. . .I hate this. You're mad at me and you have every right to be. I'm a horrible friend. I know you must hate me."

Kendall was stunned at Logan's words. He had no idea that he felt that way. Kendall's angry, irrational side had come to the conclusion that Logan was enjoying every second of being with Jo instead of Kendall. But in reality, Logan was hurting, just as much as Kendall was.

Logan was doing everything he could to try to keep everyone happy. Every time he comforted Jo, Kendall thought he was loving all of it, but Logan was hurting inside, because he knew that it was hurting Kendall.

More tears streamed down Kendall's face. He felt horrible. How could he ever be mad at Logan? "Logan. . ." Kendall started in a cracking voice.

Logan stared at the ground, tears falling down his cheeks. "Look, Kendall. I understand if you never want to talk to me again. I deserve it, after practically stealing your girlfriend. I just wanted to say that I was sorry before-" But Logan was cut off when Kendall suddenly yanked him into the tightest hug ever.

"I'm so sorry." Kendall whispered into Logan's shoulder. "I should have never doubted you. I should've had faith and trusted you. I know you would never try to hurt me on purpose. I know that." Kendall pulled Logan away so he could see his face, still holding his shoulders. "And I know that all you want is to help Jo because that's just who you are, and I never ever want you to change that. You're an amazing person Logan. No one in the world has a heart as big as yours."

"I'm so so so sorry for even feeling the least bit mad at you." Kendall said. "I guess I was just jealous is all. Jo felt more safe with you than she did with me, and that hurt, a lot." Logan looked down in shame. "But. . ." Kendall pressed on, making Logan looked back up to him. "I know that it's no one's fault, and that it won't last forever. You are going to help her and I'm going to be right there beside both of you for when you do need me."

Logan was shocked. "So. . ." He started in a cracking voice. "You. . .You don't. . ." He trailed off, afraid to ask the question because of the devastating answer it may bring.

Kendall pulled him back into the hug. "I could never hate you Logie. I'm so sorry that I haven't done a very good job at proving that."

Logan wrapped his arms around Kendall. "I'm sorry I haven't given you a reason to."

"Don't say that." Kendall said. "You've done nothing but help everyone. I was just being stupid and jealous. I'm sorry."

Logan chuckled. "I wonder how many times we've said that in the past ten minutes."

Kendall chuckled back. "More than was necessary. But it stops now." He said and pulled Logan back to see him again. "No more 'sorrys', and no more fighting." He said, and Logan nodded in response. They both smiled, then a sneeze caught Logan off guard. "We should get you back inside." Kendall said. "You're still not all better yet."

"But I'm getting there." Logan said with a smile. Kendall smiled back and stood, helping Logan to his feet. Then they both slung arms around each others shoulders and started walking back to the Palm Woods.

"Question." Kendall said as they walked.

"What is it?" Logan looked up at him, but kept his pace.

"How are you here?" Kendall asked.

"James told me about your fight."

Kendall lowered his head in shame. "They probably hate me."

"Nah, they could never hate you. They're just worried about you. We all are."

"Well you don't have to be anymore." Kendall said as he looked over to his friend with a smile. "I'm better now."

Logan nodded with a smile. "I see that." They kept walking with smiles on their faces.

"One more question." Kendall said. "How are you here. . .Without Jo?"

"She feel asleep after the exercise." Logan explained.

"Ah. How did that go?"

"As can be expected. She could let go of my arms for a little bit."

"I see." Kendall said a little disappointed.

"Just have faith Kendall. She'll get there. She's getting better."

Kendall smiled at Logan. "I think we all are."

"Every single day, I find it hard to say I, could be yours alone. Every single day, I find it hard to say I, could be yours to hold. I'm yours to hold." - 'Yours to Hold' by Skillet.