Sorry I haven't updated in a while, I've been busy with school and homework. I also have been having a bit of a writer's block so if this chapter isn't as good as the others I apologize for this now.
~NiteMareB4XMAS
Lately I have been thinking about what Mephisto and Shura have told me last week during one of my training sessions. It was about my current situation on how fast I was progressing and how others were noticing a change in me; they both said I was pretty much ready to get my Meister in Knight but I was still haven't decided if I was ready for it or not. By this point I didn't really care anymore if people found out about the real me, and Izumo and Paku were behind me 100% when I will finally just drop my act. I was just so tired of pretending to be something I'm not, and I could tell already that what glimpses my friends caught of the true me they didn't like. Izumo said she could already see me subconsciously build up walls to protect myself from the result that we both knew was going to happen from our friends. It didn't help that my frustration level has been steadily rising all week either.
When I got home last Saturday night after putting all my rock star stuff away, I was definitely surprised when my brother slammed opened the door of our room and gave me the most solemn expression I have ever seen. "Nii-san, what's wrong with you? You haven't been acting like yourself lately." I knew he was only asking this because of Shiemi threatening not to talk to him ever again so just to spite him, I ignored his question and went back to reading the book Izumo got me: Angels and Demons by Dan Brown. However, my twin decided to rip it out of my hands before glaring at me. "Now that I got your stupid manga, will you listen to me?" He seethed as I rolled my eyes. "Hey dumbass, it's not a manga." I said before I could catch myself, yet I still felt a bit smug when he stare angrily at the book only to look back at me in surprise. "Since when did you read American novels?" "Since elementary school, now can you give it back? I was just getting to the good part." I asked calmly as he continued to gawk at me. When he didn't hand it to me, I just let out a sigh before grabbing it myself, only to find he had a strong grip on it. "Yukio do you mind?" I asked with an arched eyebrow when he wouldn't give it up. "Yes I do mind Rin, because you are not telling me anything! Now tell me!"
"It's none of your business Yukio. Why are you even worried about me anyway? All my grades are up and I'm actually throwing myself into my exorcist training."
"It is when you are blocking not only me but all of your friends out! Rin, you have barely spoken to anyone for the past week! We're worried for you!" I couldn't help but let out a dry laugh at this, completely throwing my brother off with how cold it sounded. "Worried for me? Yeah fucking right Yukio! The only time you worry is when I about to do something stupid, am I right? And let me guess, Shiemi put you up to this too." I said using the words he spoke earlier that night and Shiemi's response to it against him; each word I spat out making his aqua green eyes grow wider in bewilderment. "What, are you afraid that she would be angry with you if you didn't make me better?" I pressed as I took a challenging step forward, my anger slowly beginning to build up. Half of me was really enjoying making him uncomfortable while the other half wanted to deck him from his earlier comment at the café. Yet, before I could let my anger get the best of me, I took a deep breath and released it as a tired sigh. "Are we done here? I'm tired as hell and I got shit to do tomorrow." I almost laughed again at his flabbergasted expression as if I were talking to him in Latin or something. However, he quickly snapped out of it. "What are you doing tomorrow? Actually scratch that, what have you been doing all day today? I've been trying to reach you all day!" Obviously we're not done. I thought with annoyance. "What are you my caretaker? It's none of your God damn business Yukio. Now if you excuse me, I am going to bed unless you want to ask me more retarded questions?" I glared, but it turned into a look of surprise when he slapped me across the face. It was then silent between the two of us as we both mirrored each others' look of shock; my brother's smack reminding me of the day Dad did and Yukio for losing his temper like that. "Rin I'm so sor-" "No I don't want to hear it Yukio! I'm fucking done!" I snapped while grabbing my book, my Cram School key and cell phone. "Where are you going? Rin!" Yukio called out to me as I left the room and stormed out of the building, angrily pushing buttons on my cell; a very worried Kuro following me as well.
Can you and Paku meet me at the Cram School? I need to ask you two something.
After jamming my key into a random, I soon found myself in the dark corridor of the Cram School. Not even three minutes later did another door open to reveal a concerned Paku and Izumo; they're eyes only widen when they saw me. "Rin! What happened to your face?" Paku gasped as she gently placed her hand on the cheek my twin hit. "It looks like you hit a wall or something!" "It was Yukio; we pissed each other off and he slapped me. I was wondering if Kuro and I could just stay with you guys for now, I really don't want to go back there." I said quietly. "All right, but you will have to be quiet and hide when Paku and I tell you to; boys aren't suppose to be at the girls dorm." Izumo warned as I gave her a thankful smile. "Don't worry, it's just for tonight. Tomorrow I'll ask Mr. and Mrs. Laurens if it would be okay if I could crash at the café for a while if Mephisto doesn't mind me staying there." I assured the two. And that's what I did. After spending the night there, we woke up at 6:00 A.M. and snuck over to the old dorm building-we had to stop and hide from Bon, who was hot as hell when doing his morning jog- and had to wait a bit as my twin left to go on his mission he had that day. Once we made sure Yukio was out of sight, the three of us ran into the building; Izumo and Paku went and got my guitar and stage outfit for me as I packed all my belongings in a duffle bag after getting dressed. When I had all my crap together, Ukobach and I made breakfast for the three of us (Plus some for Kuro and the demon familiar chef); as we finished it was 7:00 A.M. so we head over to Mephisto's office where he was doing paperwork. "Going somewhere Rin?" The demon principal asked me with amusement as he eyed my belongings that I was carrying around.
"Actually I wanted to know if it would be okay if I could crash at Lost Souls Café for a week or two. I'll still come to school and Cram classes."
"Does this have to do with the fight you and your brother had?"
"Yukio told you didn't he? Well yes it has to do with it, so is the answer yes or no, because either way I am not going back to that dorm for awhile." I stated as my older half-brother's smirk widen with glee. "Oh I have no problem with that, but what am I going to tell your little brother when he sees you're not back at the dorm~?" "Nothing, don't tell him where I'm staying or anything. Also tell him he can't force it out of me at the Cram School and that he's not allowed to follow me back to where I'm staying either. Threaten to take away his rank if he decides not to listen." I said bluntly as the purple haired demon's eyebrows rose with mirth. "Ooohhhh~! He really got on your bad side didn't he? Well no problem, I'll make sure to tell him, and Rin?" He asked with sudden seriousness, as I made a noise in acknowledgement. "Don't forget to think about what we discussed the other day. That is all." "Don't worry, I'm still thinking about it." I muttered to myself as our small group headed out. After we got there, I immediately asked if I could stay there once I was done explaining to Mr. and Mrs. Laurens what happened, and thankfully they said I could. So after spending most of the morning moving into their guest room upstairs, Izumo, Paku and I headed downstairs and began our day of practice with the other bands.
Just to make Shiemi happy and to save my brother's non-existent love life, the next day I got back into the act of being my goofy self, yet I would still ignore my brother and only talked to him if he asked me a question that was regarded to the class. I could tell he was upset but to be honest, I truly didn't give a flying fuck. And once class was over, I would gather my things and get out of there as fast as I could to avoid him. This pattern continued all week which brought my stress levels up, but what really pissed me off was what Bon said on Thursday. When I walked into the Cram School class that day, I noticed he looked frustrated about something. "What's up with him?" I asked Shima who looked about fed up. "He's been trying to find out who Dusk is all week and still hasn't found him. I keep telling him Dusk's probably right under his nose, but he won't listen." The pink haired monk explained as my heart fluttered a bit. "Isn't Dusk that guy who kissed him? I thought he wasn't going for him." I commented as he nodded. "Yeah, but I guess Dusk changed Bon's mind." Shima chuckled a bit. "He's already tried to narrow it down to guys that are in his classes but so far he has had no luck." "He hasn't?" I asked with fake surprise. "No, most of the guys in my other classes are either too tall, too short, too tan, too pale, nor did they have the right color hair." Bon replied with an aggravated sigh. "What the hell does this guy look like? Maybe I've seen him if he's at the academy." I offered as Bon and Konekomaru gave me disbelieving looks, Shima however, took out his phone and showed me a picture of him and I dressed as Dusk smiling at the camera like idiots. Oh yeah, I forgot he took that Saturday. I thought as I "studied" the picture. "Hmmm…He looks familiar but I can't remember where I've seen him before…" I said innocently but I could barely keep the smirk that wanted to show from my face. "You know you're right, I think I have seen him around too…"Shima added with a wink. Yeah, my pink haired friend told me he knew I was Dusk on Monday and said he wanted to help get Bon and I together, in return I set him up on a date with Izumo. "Really? Where?" Bon asked his fellow monk, completely blowing me off.
"Yeah I see him about every day now that I think about it. Actually everyone in this class, including you Bon, sees him about every day."
At this Bon looked truly confused as he thought it over. For the briefest moment I thought he figured it out when he looked at me with a slight blush but that illusion was shattered once he shook his with a frown. "Shima, if you're playing with me it's not funny man. Now seriously, have you really seen him?" As soon as he said that I wanted to rip my hair out and scream in frustration. He is supposed to be the smartest guy in the class but yet he can't use his fucking eyes to see that the guy he is looking for is right in front of him! But I guess I had this coming though, I mean he still believes I'm an idiot who's only good at getting in trouble. I thought dejectedly as I sat down at my desk as the Yukio walked in; it took all my will power not to cry during Cram School that day. Now it was the day of the reopening of Mepphy Land, and I was still depressed about it, and the worst part of it was that the bands and I aren't playing till tonight and we decided to hang out with all my friends from the Cram School for the day at the park. Of course once again, Shiemi was sad that "Rin" couldn't be here to have fun. "If the idiot didn't want to come we can't make him." Bon growled once he got sick of hearing about it, but yet I could still see he was worried about "Rin" too. Once he saw "Dusk" though he started to blush. "Hello handsome, I've heard you been looking for me all week." I purred while slowly running my fingers up his arm to the back of his head. My smirk grew as his face turned a darker shade of red. "Y-yeah, I've been try-trying to find out who you are." He stuttered. "So I noticed; I've been watching you all week but you kept overlooking me. Honestly I'm disappointed in you Ryuji." I said with a sad smile as his eyes widen in horror. "However, I'll forgive you if you can find out who I am by today. You have until the fireworks go off after tonight's show, it's 2:00 P.M. now and the fireworks don't start until 11:00 P.M. tonight. Do you think you can figure me out in nine hours?" My usual smirk returned in place once I saw the determined look in his brown eyes. "Of course, but first," He then kissed me passionately, effectively making my knees turn to jelly from the sudden onslaught of ecstasy that pulsed through my veins. It should be illegal for what he does to me. I thought as I kissed him back as our friends wolf-whistled in the background. "Care to get me a hint Dusk?" He murmured in my ear, practically groaning my stage name throatily. Now if he could only say my real name like that. "You've been hanging out with me too long." I chuckled breathily as we both grinned. "Okay, you've known me for little over a year now." As Bon pondered this statement, our large group decided to head to our first attraction: The Pirate Ship.
~BlueExorcist~
Wow Izumo looks pretty today. Shima thought as he glazed longingly at his crush. The byakko tamer was wearing purple skinny jeans that hugged her hips and a black v-neck t-shirt; her long purple hair was pulled back in a loose braid. The monk just wanted to take her in his arms and kiss her like there was no tomorrow. Yet, he knew if he did that she would probably beat the living shit out of him. Suddenly he felt a slight nudge on his left pushing him closer to Izumo. "Go for it." Dusk/Rin hissed so only he could hear before going back to talking to Kenji and Tsukiko; a deeply in thought Bon following right behind. Taking a deep breath, he quickly took the seat next to his crush after giving Paku a pleading look to do so. "Hey Izumo-chan~, mind if I sit here?" He asked with a grin as she gave him a crossed look, a slight pink hue staining her cheeks. "Whatever." She muttered as she looked away from him. However when the giant ship started to rock back and forth, she clung onto the metal bar in front of them, unintentionally grabbing Shima's hand that was also on there in the process. Well it's a start. He thought with a smile before switching the positions of their hands so the he could give her hand a reassuring squeeze. Once the ride was over, the group of teens got off and Izumo started to blush when she realized that she and Shima were still holding hands. The blush only continued to darken throughout the day with each ride she went on with the pink haired monk. With each ride that she became scared on he would either hold her hand or pull her close to him if possible. What really surprised her was the fact that he hadn't looked at another single girl the whole time; instead his warm brown eyes were trained on her. Maybe Rin was right, maybe Renzo does like me. She thought with a small smile while she snuggled against him, her heart quivering with joy as he wrapped an arm around her waist. "It seems like Paku and that Arata guy are pretty close." Shima said with a chuckle as the two watched the redhead drummer pulled Paku close to him as they entered the first passenger car for the Ferris wheel. "Believe it or not this is Arata's first time dating." Kenji laughed behind them as his girlfriend Tsukiko giggled. "Usually Arata is such a shy boy around girls but it seems that Paku has made him comfortable. I'm so glad." The piano player said softly as Izumo nodded her head in agreement.
"Izumo, may I ask you something?" Shima asked once the two got into a passenger car of their own. "Hmmm?" She acknowledged while looking up at him. He hesitated a bit before cupping the side of her slowly heating face as he looked into her reddish-brown eyes. "I wanted to say that even though I tend to flirt a lot with girls, I really, really like you and I wanted to know if well…" "Well…?" She prompted with a hopeful tone. "Will you be my girlfriend?" He asked as both of their faces turned a bright red. "Yes Renzo." She breathed before he leaned in and gently kissed her. "About fucking time!" Dusk yelled from the car behind them, completely ruining the moment. Shima and Izumo glared at the grinning guitarist. "Bon control your boyfriend!" Shima yelled while attracting some attention from the crowd of people waiting below as the giant wheel rotated. The other monk though just blushed while the teen beside him laughed. "Those two are really cute though, I'm happy that Izumo finally got together with the guy she likes." At this Bon gave him a puzzling look. "How did you become friends with her? She's usually cold towards everyone except Paku." "She's not always cold; it's just that she doesn't easily trust people, but once she warms up to you she's really a kick ass chick. Anyway, we became friends because she understands me and I understand her." Dusk explained calmly as Bon thought this over. "So I've known you for over a year, I often overlook you when we're at school, and you're great friends with Kamiki and Paku." The two-tone haired monk surmised as his partner nodded after they got off the Ferris wheel. "Have you figured who I am yet?" The mysterious guitarist asked but frowned when the Exwire next to him shook his head. "Dusk, c'mon man it's time to head to the stage!" Kenji called out while pointing to his watch. Letting out a sigh, the fedora-wearing boy gave Bon an apologetic smile as he left with the other bands and soloists. "Don't forget you still have until the fireworks!" He called over his shoulder before catching up with his fellow performers.
"You still haven't figured who he is yet Suguro-san?" Okumura-sensei asked with an amazed tone as the group of exorcists got good seats by the stage. "No he's just too dense." Kamiki commented with a smirk as Shima laughed while Paku giggled. "Why the hell are you laughing Shima?" Bon growled at his friend. "Because like Izumo and Paku here, I already know who Dusk really is." He replied as the group (minus Izumo and Paku) stared at him in shock. "Since when?" Konekomaru managed to ask after getting over his surprise. "Since we first saw him perform." "Well who is he?" Asked a truly interested Yukio. "Sorry, I have been sworn to secrecy, but I will give you a clue: He is someone you will least expect." Someone I least expect? Bon thought with wonder as Yesterday's News opened up the show. So far his most important clues are that he's known the guitarist for little over a year, he sees Dusk at school every day but doesn't know it, and that he's someone that he least expects. There's something else you're missing. His conscious whispered at the back of his mind, but for the love of him he couldn't figure out what. He was brought out of his thoughts though when Shima nudged him as Dusk and Final Hope came out to play. Wait, aren't they the last band to play? How long have I been out of it? Bon didn't think about it too long as the band began to play; instead he focused on his mysterious guitarist as slender fingers moved rapidly as he strummed his black Fender guitar. Long slender fingers that have more than one talent…He instantly regretted that thought as heat pooled at his groin as he remembered the heavy make out session last Saturday. To take his mind out of the gutter, Bon refocused on figuring out who Dusk really was. To Bon, the teen was the very definition of mysterious; he was so laid back yet serious at the same time and he could be sinfully seductive one moment but shy the next; just who was this guy? Before he knew it, the teen of his very thoughts was up at the mike along with Kenji. "Thanks everyone for coming out here, we really appreciate it! All of us are honored that we got to play for the reopening of Mepphy Land, and we would like to thank Mr. Faust of True Cross Academy for letting us! Unfortunately the show is almost over but we have one more song in store for you! Take it away Dusk!" Kenji said before he and his girlfriend went back stage. "Well damn, if this isn't a huge crowd I don't know what is." The fedora-wearing teen commented as some people laughed. "To be honest, I was, and still am, scared out of my mind right now. You see the guy I like-"He started when one guy and his friends began booing along with some other people in the crowd while others yelled out fag or something similar. However, Dusk just flipped them the bird with the hand that had the rainbow wristband before continuing. "Anyway, he's here along with some friends. The problem is that he doesn't know who I really am so I decided to give him a hint with this next song that mostly describes how my life has been recently. 1, 2, 3!" He called out before playing a fast solo on his guitar soon followed by Mariko's Bass guitar and Arata's drums.
~When I was a boy, I didn't care 'bout a thing
It was me and this world and a broken dream
I was blaming myself for all that was going wrong
I was way out there on the wrong side of town
And the ones that I loved I started pushing 'em out
Then I realized it was all my fault
I've been looking for a lifeline
For what seems like a lifetime
I'm drowning in the pain, breaking down again
Looking for a lifeline~
When Dusk sang that he was staring right at the exorcist group; sad pained-filled eyes staring at the group hopelessly. Yukio and Konekomaru seemed to be perplexed while a confused Shiemi sat beside them. Shima, Izumo, and Paku were singing along with their friend.
~So I put out my hand and I asked for some help
We tore down the walls I built around myself
I was struck by the light and I fell to the ground
I've been looking for a lifeline
For what seems like a lifetime
I'm drowning in the pain, breaking down again
Looking for a lifeline
Is there anybody out there?
Can you pull me from this ocean of despair?
I'm drowning in the pain, breaking down again
Looking for a life line~
As he was singing his eyes roamed to Paku and Izumo as a true smile lit up his face but it ended up turning to a pleading look as his sunglasses covered eyes landed on Bon. The expression in those eyes seemed to scream to accept him.
~You know a heart of gold won't take you all the way
And in a world so cold, it's hard to keep the faith
I'm never gonna fade awaaaaaaay!
Yeeeaaahhhhhhhh!
I've been looking for a lifeline
For what seems like a lifetime
I'm drowning in the pain, breaking down again
Looking for a lifeline
Is there anybody out there?
Can you pull me from this ocean of despair?
I'm drowning in the pain, breaking down again
Looking for a lifeline (1)
The crowd erupted in cheers as Mariko and Dusk played back-to-back as they finished the song with the closing guitar solos. Once they were done the rest of the crew from Lost Souls Café came out as they all lined up to take a bow as the crowd applauded. Bon's mind was reeling though as he replayed the song in his head over and over again, carefully dissecting each line of lyrics and their possible meanings. The only line that stuck out the most to him reminded him on how his half demon friend has been blocking out him and the rest of the Exwire group lately. Then he thought how every time the group went to either see Dusk and the bands play or to hang out with them, Rin would always refused to come with. But there was no way that the older Okumura twin was like this! Dusk was smooth and knew what he was doing while Rin was clumsy and charged headfirst into things without a second thought. But I guess there is only one way to find out. The monk thought as him and his group went to the back parking lot where the bands just finished packing up all their instruments. "Heads up Dusk, you got company." Nori informed the guitarist when she spotted the group of exorcists heading their way; the other bands then left along with the moving truck leaving the guitarist all alone. Even though the music talented teen's back was to them and had his guitar case strapped to it, Bon immediately noticed him tense up. "Have you figured out who I am yet Ryuji?" He asked without even turning around. "I think so…Rin." Bon finally said after a moment of silence. Dusk then turned slowly around, first removing his fedora to show his messy blue-black hair, and finally the sunglasses with the orange lenses to reveal his electric-blue eyes; a heartbreaking smile on his lips. Holy shit, I fell for the Son of Satan.
~BlueExorcist~
I am pretty sure I just royally fucked with Konekomaru, Yukio, and Shiemi's minds because they were so shocked that they just stood there with bewildered looks. And right now, I was absolutely terrified to even look Bon in the eye at the moment. "R-Rin? You're Dusk?" Shiemi gasped once she snapped out of her bafflement as I shyly nodded my head, not trusting my voice currently at all. "And you're bi." Konekomaru added with uncertainty. "Yes, and I'm also not the idiot you people think I am either, I actually know what is going on and I'm not oblivious at all, it was all just an act." I stated with dead seriousness, figuring I might as well tell them everything. "Really?" My eyes then shifted to Yukio as the fireworks started to go off above our group; he was looking down with both his fists clenched as his body subtly shook. "So I've been looking up to a fraud the entire time as a brother?" He grounded out with fury in his eyes as I scoffed. "This coming from the ass who talks bad about his brother behind his own back!" I snapped back.
"What kind of brother says that to his own twin?"
"Oh yeah? What kind of brother lies about who he is for most of his life? Face it Rin, you're just a coward!"
"Says the guy who followed me like a lost puppy when we were little, crying "Nii-san!" every time he got scared!"
"At least I'm not the one who inflicted his twin with a Spirit Wound that made him see demons all his life!"
"Yeah, because I could definitely control what happened when we were in Mom's womb!" I said sarcastically. "At least I didn't tell my own brother to go drop dead after he had to watch his own father kill himself to save him from Satan!" "YOU'RE THE REASON WHY HE GOT POSSESSED IN THE FIRST PLACE!" My twin roared; his face red with anger. Silence then fell upon our group as the two of us stared each other down; my blue eyes clashing with his aqua ones, I had to look away once I saw so much hatred in his eyes. "You think I don't know that Yukio? I know I was the reason why he got possessed, I know I was the reason that he had to kill himself, I live with that every fucking day and I'm haunted by it every time I close my damn eyes to sleep. Trust me if I could, I would kill myself just to bring Dad back." I said softly. "I'll just leave all of you alone now." As I put my hat and sunglasses back on, I took one last glance at the monk I come to love. He had a shocked look in his eyes and when I began to walk away and he didn't come after me, tears slowly started to trickle down my face as my heart shattered into pieces. "Rin!" I heard the familiar cry of Izumo, as her, Paku and Shima ran to catch up to me after I walked out of the parking lot and down the street towards the café. A bitter smile made an appearance on my lips as I felt the girls engulf me in a hug while Shima placed a comforting hand on my shoulder. "Why can't I be normal? Why does life hate me so much?" I asked no one in particular, my voice cracking as another onslaught of grief wracked my body. I then let out a sob of agony as my excruciating sorrow finally broke me. "Oh God why?" I cried out to the night sky as my legs gave in and I fell to my knees, a panicked Izumo, Paku, and Shima following me to the ground. "Rin, stop it you're hurting yourself!" Cried Izumo as she tried to pry my hands off of my arms as I hugged myself hoping to protect me from more pain; she tried to stop me from digging into my skin with my sharp nails, my demonic blood starting to bloom to the surface wherever my nails pierced. Finally she managed to do it with the help of Shima and Paku and once they did that they just simply held me as tears ran down their faces. After a while my mind started to come back around from its mental breakdown. "I can't do this anymore guys, I can't deal with any of them, I'll just break down again." I said hoarsely as my throat throbbed from my sobbing. "I can fix that you know~! Remember what we discussed before?" Mephisto said after appearing out of thin air, a sly smile on his lips. "I'll do it." I said without a second of hesitation. "Make me an Exorcist." This seemed to amuse the older demon to no end as he helped me up. "All right then. Your testing will begin tomorrow. Good luck Rin~" With that said Mephisto left. Now I just have to wait…
Again if this chapter wasn't as good as the others, I apologize.
Lifeline by Papa Roach