"I don't believe you. " I was leaning against the window, my arms crossed over my chest. "This is bullshit." C'mon! Me getting drunk? I'm a fucking vampire.

Bonnie rolled her eyes adn sat on the edge of her bed. "You're right, Damon. I'm just kidding. I told you to come over, we watched tv together and then I did a spell, for you to forget everything that happened yesterday."

"I knew it." I told her, my lips curved upwards. "You were using me. I feel dirty Bonnie."

The witch made a face and crossed her legs, that hang on the floor."You know I'm serious. Why would I lie to you?" She asked.

"I don't know." I told her. "But I don't trust you." I whispered as I walked towards her.

She smirked. "Yeah, you can't trust me." She remembered this conversation, we had once, too, I could tell.

"Yes, you're a pretty little liar." She just nodded her head, looking away from me. I knew it

"How far did we go?" I asked her, chuckling. Her eyes snapped to mine, wide in shock. "What?" She pressed.

"You heard me Bons. How far did we go?" I shook my head. Who knew she had such a dirty mind, huh? I stood before her now. Bonnie uncrossed her legs and pulled them more towards her. I chuckled again and knelled before her.

"Damon." She warned me. I loved that. "What the hell are you doing?"

Locking my eyes with hers I invited her personal space. "Stop it." She hissed and backed away from me, crawled backwards her bed. I follwed, not looking away from her, staring intensly into her green shining eyes, till my body practically was hovering over hers. Our faces were just inches apart and I could hear how her breath quickened.

My hands were on either sides of her head now. I leaned forward, so my nose was touching hers. Why haven't I ever done this before?
She looked so helpless lying under me. She let out a shaky breath, that was tickeling my lips. "Damon, please." She swallowed.

"I like hearing you begging, Judgey." I whispered into her ear. I brushed my nose along her neck and jaw.

"Don't call me that." Yeah, have I expected something else for her to say? Not really.

"What do you want me to call you, Bons?" When I looked up, seeing her eyes flutter closed, I knew I had her where I wanted.

"My dad is home, Damon. Just -" I was watching her soft lips, moving, but I wasn't listening to her.

What do you have to lose anyway? I leaned down and captured her lips into a gentle kiss and moved my hands to her cheeks, stroking them lightly.. Every woman would melt. Of course I knew this one wasn't just any. This was Bonnie freaking Bennett. A witch, that would risk her life to safe everyone else. That's how we knew her. Her strong and powerful side. But then there was a weak and soft side, not everyone new, she had. Where she could break down and cry her soul out. She would just show it her close ones, not everybody.

I don't know what came over me, but I wanted to be one of those people, who would see her like this. Hurt and totally down. I wanted to be someone, who was able to see her cry and comfort her. Someone, who she could talk to. But did I really could make this happen? Damn we weren't even close and here I was kissing the only witch in Mystic Falls. What was I thinking? Oh yeah, wait, I wasn't thinking at all. But damn her body felt so good under mine. It was so warm.

When I remebered, that she needed to breathe I pulled away opening my eyes, looking down and taking in the beautiful sighn right under me. Wow.

Her cheeks were flushed now. With her eyes still closed and her lips open into a gasp, she tryed to catch her breathe, making soft noices.
Looking at her chest that was moving up and down, then back at her face, I realized what I've just done.

Yes, I'm an ass.

xxx

Nope, I didn't push him away. Don't even ask why, I don't know myself. Yeah I enjoyed that damn kiss he gave me.
I didn't feel his weigh on me and opened my eyes. No way. That stupid vampire just left me here, lying on my bed after he kissed and sucked the life out of me. Who did he think he was? Some hot actor like Ian Somerhalder? I slowly sat up and looked over to the open window. Yeah he left.

When I heard a phone rang I jumped up from my bed. What the hell was that? It wasn't mine. Looking around I found a phone lying beside my bed. I took it and looked at the ID. It was Alaric calling and without thinking that it was Damon's phone, who lost it here and about the fact, what Alaric would think if he heard my voice, I just answered it.

"Hello?" But it seemed like he didn't notice t first and started to talk.

"Hey it's me, I just talked to Liz and Carol ... ." A small pause. "Bonnie is that you?"

Taking a deep breathe I answered him. "Yeah, it's me."

"Oh." I heard him clear his thoat. "Where is Damon?"

"I have no idea." But I'd love to know, to kick his ass, I thought to my self.

"But you asnwered his phone..." Yep, seems like stupid me confused him. I didn't want to tell him, Damon was at my home and kind of forgot his phone, lost it or whatever here, so I decided to just hang up. "You know, I have to go Ric, homework is calling. " I tried to joke. Of course I knew it didn't work, but I had to say something.

"Wait, Bonnie-" Nope, I thought and hang up.

I sighed and went to my window and closed it. Running a hand through my hair I went into the bathroom to take a shower. I stood there, enjoying the feeling of the warm water running down my body. I always did this when I had to think about something. No kidding.
And yes, I am aware, that it sounds stupid, but it helps me to clear my head.

So my life was a complete mess. Everything seemed so difficult, like I coulnd't do anything about it, no matter how bad I wanted it.
I wanted to help my friends. Ok, when I compered everything to Elena, my life actually seemed pretty easy. But it didn't stop me from wishing I had something better.

So I wake up every morning, wanting what I can't have. A normal life. Normal friends. Normal Family. What's more, I fear what I want, it feels like I'm dreaming from the impossible. So all I do right now, is hiding my dreams behind my smile.

When I finally stepped out of the shower, I heard the front door open. Knowing I wouldn't hear who it was, I walked to the window in the bathroom, while drying myself.
All I saw, where the people walking along the street, kids playing in gardens and some cars driving by. I waited till I could see someone walking away from our porch, but there was nobody, so I guessed dad let ther person inside.

I walked back into my room picking the outfit for tonight. It was Elena's birthday. She actually didn't want to celebrate it with everything going on right now. But we all know the blond, blue eyed crazy vampire Caroline aka our best friend, who wanted a huge birthday party, wouldn't let that happen.

"You're going to be 18, Elena! We are going to have fun!" She smiled excited. It was a stupid idea, but we decited to do it anyway.
Nevertheless the party had to be amazing. We wanted to see our best friend happy again, so I thought go for it.
I promised Caroline to help her, so I had to be there ealier.

I picked a dark purpil dress and black heels. I wore my loose on my shoulders.
Taking my small bag I went downstairs. I looked for dad, to tell him good bye. I found him in the living room with some blond chick making out. It's so disgusting seeing your dad sitting on the couch with a blonde straddling his lap and kissing him. His hands were on her hips as he kissed her neck. When she looked up, giving him more access to her neck, I saw how young she was. She was not much older than me! What was he thinking?

That bitch smirked when she saw me, then tried to play surprised. "You must be Bonnie." She pushed herself away from dad. He turned around to look at me and stood up as well. "You're so lucky, you have such an amazing dad. " She smiled at me.

"You have no idea." I told her tidly.

"Bonnie, this is Rebekah, my new girlfriend." I nodded. "Really nice to meet you, Rebekah."

"The pleasure is mine, Bonnie." Yeah, this isn't going to last long anyway. I'll give it a month. Not longer.

"I'd love to talk to you, but I have to be somewhere else right now." Turning to dad "Elena's birthday party." I reminded him. He nodded his head.

"I'm sure, you two are going to talk later, since Rebekah is going to move in here this week." Dad seemed really happy about it. Well, I felt like I'd set the house on fire, but didn't say anything.

"Sure." I tried to sound happy." I'll see you later."

"Have fun Bonnie." I turned around and left the house. Once I was outside I sighed in relief. Everything was just great. But I had the chance to forget it for the day, and I'm so going to take it.

I'm so going to have fun, Daddy.

xxx

Thank you guys for the review. Please keep telling me what you think about this story and what you'd like to read next. It shows me that there still are people reading it. Sorry for any mistakes, I wrote it in the evening, really tired. Thank you again.

Ella