Who honours those we love with the very life we live? Who sends monsters to kill us, and at the same time, sings that we'll never die?
I read and re-read the note. This can't be possible. They wouldn't do that. To me, the whole world turned in slow motion. Even the clock stood still.
"Nessie, are you ok?" Seth asked, sitting beside me
I shook my head and put my head on his shoulder "He's gone, Seth. They killed him" I sobbed
Seth put my face in his hands and kissed my forehead. I knew he was trying hard not to cry. Seth never cries in front of me. Ever. Even when mum and dad died.
After a few moments of holding each other, I came out of the hug and smiled lightly at him "We're going to be fine, Seth. I promise"
Seth smirked "Sure Nessie, I still have to leave you. It's important and I promise I will come back"
I nodded my head and gave him one final hug before he got up.
A little while later, I was leaning against the open door and smiling lightly
"I'll see you around, kid" Seth kissed my forehead
"You better" I muttered
"Alec, look after her, she's your responsibility now" Seth muttered in Alec's ear "Don't let anyone hurt her"
"Will do, she's safe with me" Alec reassured him
Seth stepped out to his car "I'll be back before you know it. I'll bring you news from London as soon as I can" Then, he got into his car and left. I waved until I couldn't see his car anymore
I sighed and turned to Alec
"Are you ready to go back to London?" He asked
I nodded my head. Time to face the music
I swallowed hard, trying to keep in the tears as I twisted the red rose I held in my hands "Goodbye Em" I whispered and dropped the flower on his grave "We only said goodbye with words. I never gave you a reason why I walked out and didn't come home" I looked over at Alec, who was leaning against a tree, opposite me. I couldn't stop the tears then; I let them pour down my face. I felt arms around my shoulders, guiding me away from the graveyard
"Renesmee, it's going to be fine. I promise" Alec whispered
"It hurts, Alec" I sobbed
"I know it does. You have to stay strong. We have each other, that's all that matters" Alec was stroking my hair softly
When we got out of the graveyard, Alec let go of me and I could hardly bear it. I wiped away the fresh tears that were falling down my cheeks. My fingers were black from my mascara and eye shadow. My face probably looked worse "Is it time?" I asked
Alec nodded his head and opened the car door open for me "Milady" He said in an old London accent, holding his hand out
"Thank you" I joked, taking his hand
"Nessie, wait!" A voice said
I narrowed my eyes and turned around, and there standing in front of me was Jacob "Jacob" I hiccupped "You can't be here. It's not safe"
"Didn't stop you" Jacob grumbled
"Jake, this was a personal affair. It had nothing to do with this mess that we're all in" I told him
"Personal enough to bring him here" Jacob spat
"Alec was here for my protection and support. You had that opportunity, but you never showed up"
"Nessie, do you honestly trust this guy? You don't know everything about him" Jacob grabbed my arm
I pulled my arm out of his grip and gave him a death glare "We all have our dark side, Jacob. Keep that in mind"
"Nessie please, stay. We'll survive somehow. I promise" Jacob whispered
"I'm sorry, Jacob. I can't stay here" I hung my head and got into the car. I locked the door behind me. I looked in the rear mirror.
Something was wrong
I sighed, took off my jacket and hat and got out the other side of the car
"Nessie, get back in the car" Alec growled
"No, you get in the fucking car!" I shouted back, getting out my gun
"What are you doing?" Jake asked
"Saving your butt. Again" I stormed towards a group of guys "You have about 5 seconds to drop your weapons"
"What are you going to do about it, sweetheart? Call your mummy?" One sneered. I looked at his face.
No fucking way.
Riley Biers. Riley fucking Biers. Wow, he had grown up in three years. I sucked in a breath and tried to contain my anger. But I failed epically
"Hey Riley, you're full of shit" I spat, aiming my gun at his forehead "Who the fuck sent you here?"
"Victoria. It was Victoria" Riley stuttered
"Just as I thought" I muttered, putting my gun down
"Wait, Renesmee? Renesmee Cullen? I can't believe it's you" Riley looked genuinely surprised to see me
"A lot can change in three years, Riley. I thought you would realize that now" I answered
"I'm shocked that you're actually still alive. I would have thought they would have killed you off by now"
"Ah, I'm smart and I live by my own rules. Adapt or die. Not like you, complete twats who have no clue on what they're doing. Completely useless"
Riley smirked "Well, I wouldn't say completely useless" He took a step closer to me as I took a step back
"Two can play at that game, Riley. Keep in mind; I am London's most wanted"
"Looking at you now, Renesmee Carlie Cullen, not as a killer, but as a young girl. I see you don't just want revenge; you want your life back. The way I see it, you want a new life, away from all this hate and all this pain. You'll do anything to get away from it, to escape"
I fussed my eyebrows together "What are you saying?"
"I'm saying that, I'm willing to help you get out of here safely"
"So, after three years of not wanting to see me, now you're suddenly acting like the break-up and everything never happened. Three fucking years too late, Riley" I turned away from him and started walking back to the car
Riley grabbed my arm and pulled me back to face him "Don't you fucking walk away from me, Renesmee Cullen. Don't act like all the things we did together never happened"
I yanked my arm out of his grip "I'm not yours anymore, Riley! You did this to me. You got me on drugs, you made me start smoking, you taught me how to fight, it was all you; it was always you. I don't want anything to do with you anymore. I don't want to see you; I don't want to be with you. I want you out of my life" I felt my cheeks warm up, tears were spilling down my cheeks "Just leave me alone" I whispered, I walked away after that.
I walked back to the car and got in. a salty tear fell down my face, it dripped down my cheek and fell on to my hands. I felt Alec's warm, comforting hands clasp mine
"Is everything ok, Nessie?" He whispered
I shook my head; I didn't have the strength to answer his question. A huge sob escaped my lips. Alec put his arm around me and I leaned into him "Why is this happening to me?" I sobbed "Why? What have I done to them?"
Alec kissed the top of my head, countless times "Nessie, I'm here. I'm not leaving you. I promise" He whispered
I'm tired.
No, forget that.
I'm numb. I have no feelings left inside me; I feel so cold and alone that no matter how much hot water I'm surrounded in, I still feel like I'm in the middle of the arctic in a bikini.
A/N: Sorry for the wait. If you haven't read 101 Ways to Annoy Your Parents, I've had depression for the past couple months so I haven't been writing. Sorry! Here's a question for you: Who do you think Renesmee should be with?
A) Riley
B) Alec
C) Jacob