"So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep and I'll feel you forget me like I used to feel you breath. And I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are. Hope it's nice where you are. And I hope the sun shines and it's a beautiful day and something reminds you, you wish you had stayed. You can plan for a change in the weather and time, but I never planned on you changing your mind."

-Taylor Swift, Last Kiss

Disclaimer: I don't own (and sadly never will) House of Anubis. Fortunately, I do own the plotline of this story! See, I own it! DO NOT COPY ME!

July 5th, 2012

Nina glanced around the crowded room, silently wondering where Mick had gone too. Turns out Mick was drunk out of his brains and was probably puking his guts out right about now. The last she'd seen him he was running around shirtless.

"NINA! GET OVER HERE YOU LITTLE BALLARINA!"

Found him.

"Yeah Mick?" Nina called walking over to him.

"I wannanananana yous to meety my besty." Mick slurred, pointing to the guy next to him.

"Fabian Rutter." Nina sighed, "I remember you. You dated Joy."

"Joy? Is she here?"

"No she had to work tonight." Nina said.

"Well, you're certainly are looking well." Fabian commented with a small smile.

"Thanks, uh… same to you."

Nina had met Fabian once before. He and Joy dated for about a month, then it was over. Nina had met him on April 5th (she remembered because it was her mother's [birthmother] birthday). He seemed sweet, but she only talked to him for a brief moment. She didn't even make eye contact. But, now that she has… she can see that he has the most amazing eyes. It was so easy for her to get lost in them.

August 15th, 2012

Yeah, so I was immediately attracted to the guy. That doesn't mean anything about how I feel now though! Everything was amazing until all that crap went down. I can't say that I don't love him though. I hate him. But I can't say that I don't love him.

That would be a complete lie.

August 15th, 2012

"Can't you just… get her to pick up the damn phone?" Fabian said to Mick as they sat in his apartment.

Fabian's place was a disaster.

When Nina found out what he did she threw everything she could at him. There was a lamp crushed on the ground, pots surrounded by dirt cracked against the walls, and two shoes on opposite sides of the room. They were high heels, which both Eddie and Mick hoped Fabian didn't wear.

"I can't she hates me as much as she hates you right now." Mick sighed, "Are those Nina's shoes?"

"What about you dude?" Fabian asked, ignoring Mick's question.

"Are you guys serious? I'm risking my life just talking to you two." Eddie said, putting his hands up. "If I even tell her, she'll totally kill me." Eddie took a swig of beer, "How did she find out anyway? I thought you said that you really loved her."

"I told her." Fabian sighed, "I just… couldn't stand keeping secrets from her. I felt like, if I told her, she'd be cool with it. But she didn't give me a chance to explain and thought I was going to break it off with her. So she started screaming at me and threw everything she could get her hands on at me. Even her shoes, which she left without."

"Why they hell haven't you cleaned this place?" Mick asked, "It smells like a bloody sewer from all that dirt."

"Haven't gotten to it." Fabian muttered, downing his beer and taking another one from the fridge, "Been too busy moping and calling Nina's place a hundred thousand times. She deletes my messages the second she sees them though. Read it on her blog. She's a good writer have you noticed?" Eddie and Mick watched silently as Fabian downed another beer. He began to slur his words and mumbled many incoherent sentences. Most involved Nina, shoes, and idiot.

"Uh… dude? Maybe you should cool it on the beer." Eddie recommended, grabbing the beer from Fabian's hand and dumping down the sink so he couldn't get to it. Meanwhile Mick grabbed the last two beers and threw them out the window. A huge waste of beer and money but it was necessary. Otherwise Fabian would end up drunk dialing Nina or something.

July 5th, 2012

The party was rocking and Fabian and Nina where totally hitting it off.

Fabian and her had been dancing all night. Songs that were upbeat and slow and some that weren't exactly slow, but not upbeat either.

Fabian felt so strange. He felt something for Nina, but then there was that thing…

He just couldn't.

But then again…

"Dude!" Mick shrieked, pulling Fabian from Nina.

"Yeah?"

"You know how you don't want to get with a girl because of that thing?"

"Yeah…"

"I've got a brilliant idea." Mick smiled. When Fabian heard the plan, he was in.

Later on that night, Nina was dozing off on Mick's couch.

"Need a ride home?"

Nina turned to the source of the voice and smiled, "No thanks Fabian. I live just a floor up."

"Then allow me to walk you to your apartment." Fabian said, "You know, just in case you get lost in the elevator. Or something."

"Thanks Fabian," Nina smiled, "I'd like that."

After saying goodbye to everybody Fabian and Nina left. As they approached the door to the elevator, there was an uncomfortable silence. Nina sighed, wondering what the hell to say. She came up with the ever-so-brilliant, "So, what happened between you and Joy?"

Fabian shrugged, "We had our differences. But, I guess it just wasn't meant to be, you know?"

"Yeah," Nina sighed. Lie. Nina had no idea what he meant. She'd never been in love before. She had no idea what people where going on about when they told her that they were completely in love, didn't feel it anymore, or something was just missing. She just nodded her head and smiled, pretending that she had a clue what they were talking about.

As the pair approached her door, the silence grew again. Nina unlocked her door and stepped inside, but turned in her doorframe, "Thanks Fabian."

"Anytime Nina." He smiled.

Nina was about to walk inside when Fabian grabbed her arm and turned her around again. "What are you doing this weekend?"

"Nothing."

"Do you want to catch a movie?" Fabian asked.

Nina looked at him. She was positive she felt something for him. She just didn't know what yet. So she sighed and answered "No" than shut her door for the night.

August 15th, 2012

"Why can't I do it?" Nina cried, slamming on her keys, "I can't write it! But I want to so bad!"

"Nina, Nina, be calm." Joy said, holding back her crying friend, "If you can't write it, maybe it's a sign."

"There is no sign!" Nina sobbed, "I can write that I hate him, but I just can't say that I don't love him. Why?"

"Because you do still love him." Joy said.

"I hate him!"

"Nina, listen." Joy said, "It's a fine line between hate and love. You can hate him all you want, but real love doesn't just go away when a relationship does. It stays in your heart, waiting until you're ready to forgive. Because, love is all of that. It's forgiveness and lust and even at times it's hatred for the other."

"Joy, don't give me that shit right now." Nina muttered, "Because it's crap."

"No, Nina, it's not crap." Joy said, "It's the truth. You just aren't ready to hear it yet."

August 15th, 2012

So, yes, when I first met Fabian I didn't agree to date him. If only Joy wasn't so persistent.

So my friend Joy started to make think that I still love him, but I took her off that path immediately. Because, no. I don't still- And I still cannot type that sentence. It's so strange. I just can't type it. I want to say it, I really do. But I can't. That's why Joy thinks I'm still in love with him, but I'm just not ready to forgive or whatever. But I'll tell you something, forgiving is hard, especially when the person did something as bad as what Fabian did. Something that you'll find out later on.

I've heard that giving someone a second chance, is like providing them another bullet to shoot you with. I've been drilling that into my head forever and I avoided falling in love, because I was afraid of what could happen if I got hurt. I mean, giving all your trust to someone and not knowing if they really loved you or not. So, I'm not giving Fabian a second bullet. And I'm not going to fall in love anymore.

July 6th, 2012

"I'm sorry, who?" Joy asked Nina the day after Mick's party.

"Fabian Rutter." Nina answered.

"I thought you said I knew him, who is he?" Joy questioned, drying the dishes. Nina looked at her hard as she handed her another dish to dry. Joy looked back at Nina, silently wondering who the hell Fabian Rutter-

"Oh!" Joy shouted, "I remember him! We dated for like a month in April. He wasn't my type, but he really is more yours. You're both into like, history and whatever."

"Well, he asked me out." Nina shrugged.

"And!" Joy squealed, "Where is he taking you? Have you told Amber yet? Oh my god, let's call her! We have to get you ready-"

"Joy!" Nina stopped her rant, "You don't have to do anything. I said no."

"Why?" Joy whined, "He's perfect for you."

"I don't know," Nina shrugged, washing off a few forks and handing them to Joy to dry, "I just… you know how I am about falling in love Joy. I'm… waiting."

"Waiting for what?" Joy asked, putting the forks away, "You're eightieth birthday?"

Nina sighed, "If he asks me out again, I'll say yes. But that'll never happen."

"Why not?" Joy asked, "He's Mick's friend. You'll see him again, no doubt."

"Yes, doubt Joy!" Nina sighed, "I said no, what guy is that persistent?"

"The one." Joy sighed.

August 15th, 2012

Joy was always the one who believe in true love. The one who would remind everyone after a break-up that there's still the one out there, waiting for you to find them. Joy would remind me that even though I don't believe in love as strongly as she does (I barely believe in it) there's still going to be someone who will sweep me off my feet and make all my disbelief go down the toilet.

July 6th, 2012

Nina ran a hand through her hair and looked down at her split ends as she walked into a small coffee shop. She really wanted a muffin and she had time before her hair and nail appointment. Sighing, Nina got on the semi-long line and waited.

Until that voice interrupted her waiting.

"Nina." Fabian smiled, "Fancy seeing you here."

"Yeah, fancy." Nina muttered suddenly nervous. What if Joy was right? Nina's mind raced. What if he if (god I'll say it) the one?

"Since we're both here, you want to get some coffee together?" Fabian asked, gesturing to the tables behind them.

Nina didn't know what to say…

"Uh… just a second." Nina said, holding up a finger and quickly texting Eddie.

Fabian wants to get coffee. What do I do?

You mean the guy from Mick's party? Go for it Neens. He seemed great.

Nina looked up at Fabian, "Sorry my cousin just wanted to know how much to feed Rex… uh… I'd love to have coffee together."

Fabian smiled, "Great."

As the two got seated together, Nina texted Amber.

Push my appointment up for later, I'm gonna be late.

There's chapter three for you! Review and here's a preview!

"Nina! What the hell? Where have you been?"

"Out."

"Look at you! You're hair's a mess! Sit down now!"

Nina neglected to tell them the reason her hair was so bad was because Fabian had been running his hands through it for an hour.

See you next time!