A/N Okay so I haven't died or anything. I just lost my muse for this fic. Now I am back and I want to continue it as long as I have my muse.

Lazy Days

Derek had decided to let Addison's revelation sit with him for a few days but truthfully he was still stunned that Mark had managed to get Addison pregnant and that Addison had terminated the pregnancy. Derek felt as though he deserved answers as to why Addison had aborted the baby. It wasn't his baby but it was his wife that had been pregnant. Derek couldn't help but wonder if he really could have handled it if Addison had kept the baby knowing that the baby wasn't his. He knew that Addison had done what she felt was necessary but Derek did wish that a baby hadn't had to die.

Addison was doing some reading in the living room and Derek hated to disrupt her relaxing time, but honestly Derek felt like they needed to discuss the abortion. He needed to know that his wife wouldn't be killing his baby when she got pregnant by him. Not that Derek wanted Mark to have to go through what he went through, but Mark had slept with his wife. Derek was completely over that. What he wasn't over was the fact that his best friend had gotten his wife pregnant. Having children with Addison was something that Derek had wanted for a very long time.

Derek walked down the stairs from the master bathroom where he had been showering. He stepped into the living room and smiled at Addison who was engrossed in a book. He was really glad that they both had the weekend off. He never wanted to go back to the hectic schedules they both had in New York before Addison had cheated. He planned on spending more time with his wife and less time at the hospital.

"What are you reading?" Derek asked as he leaned against the doorframe. Addison looked up from her book when she heard her husband's voice. She definitely could get used to being home with her husband all day. If Derek had been home this much before, there was no way she would have gotten naked with Mark in her and Derek's bed.

"Crime and Punishment." Addison answered. She had read it once before but it had been a long time since then.

"I wouldn't call that light reading Addie." Derek pointed out as he crossed the room and sat down on the couch beside his wife.

"It's fascinating." Addison answered instantly. The only thing that Derek red was Neurosurgery stuff and that had always driven Addison nuts. She enjoyed reading when she had no charts to look at or no surgeries to plan. Reading was cathartic for her. It allowed her to focus on something else entirely and for her that was a good thing.

"Can we talk Addie?" Derek asked. He was cautious because he really didn't want to upset her but he felt as though they needed to discuss this. Derek would not let Addison brush it off this time. They were alone in their house and he wanted to talk about it. Addison knew that this probably had to do with how she had brushed off the abortion revelation at dinner with Mark and Brianna a few nights ago. She had planned to tell Derek about it, but it had come out earlier than she had intended it to. She put a bookmark in her book and then turned her body toward Derek's body. Derek whished that he knew how to ask the questions that were running through his mind. Finally he opened his mouth and asked the first question that had come to him.

"How soon after did you find out you were pregnant?"

"A month after you left." Addison confessed.

"When did you tell him you were pregnant?" Derek asked.

"I had accidentally left the pregnancy test on the bathroom counter and he found it." Addison told Derek. She remembered what a conversation that had been. Mark had been much more excited than she had thought he would be. Derek had to chuckle at that. He could picture the shock on his best friend's face when he found out he had knocked Addison up.

"How did he react?" Derek asked. He knew that Mark had never really wanted to be a father so this answer intrigued him.

"He was happy and really excited. He was feeling guilty knowing that it should have been you who had gotten me pregnant, but he was over that guilt fairly fast." Addison told Derek.

"Nancy told you both that I was seeing someone, didn't she?" Derek asked. That would be the only reason that Mark would no longer feel guilt for getting Addison pregnant.

"Yes. She actually told Mark and Mark told me." Addison told Derek quietly.

"When did you decide to terminate the pregnancy?" Derek asked. Now he was stepping into delicate territory here and he knew that he had to tread lightly on this. He had a feeling that Addison still felt horrible for doing it and he knew that Mark had hated Addison for awhile because of what she had done.

"After I caught Mark with a peds nurse in his office. I knew he was cheating on me before we found out about the baby but I had no idea it had continued after we found out. I thought impending fatherhood would make him stop screwing around." Addison explained. She had found him in his office with Charlene and she had turned around and slammed his office door behind her.

"Did you tell him before you did it?" Derek asked as he reached out for her hand. Addison was shaking her head as she took Derek's hand and held it tightly.

"No. After it was over I went back to his place and packed my stuff and left him a note telling him that I had terminated the pregnancy and I was going to Seattle to fight for my marriage." Addison told Derek as she rested her head on his shoulder.

"And fight you did." Derek told her with a smile. He had known from the beginning that Addison was not going to let him go without a fight.

"I had to. I loved you and I wanted us to be Derek and Addison again." Addison told him quietly. There had been times that she had been sure that Derek would not come back to her. She was so glad that he had picked her.

"Oh Addie." Derek breathed as he pulled her into his arms and hugged her tightly. He was so glad that Addison was being so open and honest with him. He was glad that he had decided to bring the subject up again at home.

"You wouldn't have taken me back." Addison murmured. She was sure that Derek would never have taken her back if she was pregnant with Mark's child.

"You don't know that Addie." Derek told her seriously.

"Yes I do. No way would you have wanted to be with me when the child I was carrying would grow up to call Mark Daddy." Addison insisted.

"Wasn't that my decision to make?" Derek asked. He honestly was not sure if he would have taken her back if she had kept Mark's child. He did know that she should not have taken that decision away from him Addison sighed when she heard Derek. She knew that Derek was against abortion so to know that his wife had had one, must have been rough for him.

"I did what I thought was best. Mark clearly was not ready to be a father and I was still in love with you and that would have been a fucked up situation to bring a child into." Addison told Derek. She was starting to get upset now. She hated talking about this because she knew that she had hurt one of her oldest friends in Mark. She knew that Derek deserved to know the truth but it didn't make it any easier telling him about it.

"Addie are we going to ever have a baby?" Derek asked. Of course what he was really asking was if Addison was going to abort his baby too.

"Yes we will have a baby Derek and no I will never kill our baby." Addison reassured Derek. She knew that Derek wanted kids and she knew that Carolyn Shepherd wanted her son to give her grandkids. Addison knew that Carolyn never liked her but Addison hoped that Carolyn would put that aside for her grandchildren's sake.

"Do you regret it? Killing his baby I mean?" Derek asked as he looked questioningly at his wife.

"I regret it because I hurt him, but if I hadn't killed the baby you and I would probably not be here together and Mark would likely not have Brianna." Addison told Derek. She knew that Mark had wanted the baby and she was glad that he had finally forgiven her for killing their child.

"Can we focus on something else now?" Addison asked as she chewed on her lip. She wanted to change the subject into a happier one that talked about their future together. She didn't want to dwell on what could have been. Derek smiled at her and nodded. He was done talking about this. He wanted to focus on what their future held. A stronger marriage and a lot of little Shepherds running around.

"I was thinking that we should take a trip. Just you and I in the Hamptons." Derek suggested as he wrapped his arms around his wife to hold her closer to him. He knew that they would eventually have to go back to work but he was glad that they had this weekend all to themselves. He knew that they needed a lot of husband and wife time to make up for the time that they had lost when he was in Seattle and she was here with Mark.

"I think that would be perfect. Just the two of us alone together." Addison agreed. She loved the Hamptons and she missed their house that they had there. She had always felt peaceful there and she was looking forward to being there with Derek again.

"We have a weekend to ourselves in three weekends. How about then?" Derek suggested to his wife. He was sure that Mark was working that weekend and even if he wasn't he had Brianna to keep him company.

"Sounds just perfect." Addison confirmed as she looked at her husband. She reached up and brushed a piece of his dark curls out of his eyes.

Derek looked at her and he leaned in and brushed his lips across hers. He had to go in twenty minutes to meet Mark at Madison Square Garden for the Knicks game. So he knew that he either had to be really quick or just not have sex with her at all. Derek knew that if he had sex with Addison right now, that he would not want to leave her to go to a basketball game. Derek knew that the Knicks vs. Lakers game was something that Mark had been looking forward to and Derek didn't want to disappoint his best friend when they were nearly back to where they had been before Mark and Addison's affair. So reluctantly pulled his lips off of Addison's. Addison looked at him confusedly when he pulled away. Derek smiled apologetically at her and said,

"Sorry Addie but I knew if I started something that I can't finish you'd hate me more."

Then Addison recalled where Derek and Mark were going this afternoon. She remembered that she had wanted to do something with Brianna but then Mark told her that Brianna was working today. Addison had then decided that she would go do some shopping by herself after Derek left.

"Right you boys are going to go watch a ball go into a hoop ten thousand times." Addison teased Derek with a smirk on her face. Derek pretended to glare at her before he started tickling her. Addison burst out into giggles as she tried to swat her husband's tickling hand away.

"Derek stop…"Addison whined as she stuck out her lip in a pout that she hoped would work on her husband. As soon as Addison asked him to stop, Derek did that. He kissed her softly on the lips again as his hands traveled down her clothed body.

"Don't start something you can't finish." Addison warned in a mumble. Derek immediately removed his hand and sat up on the couch with a sigh. He was sort of annoyed that he had promised Mark that they would go to the first Knicks game that was on a day that they were both off. He wanted to stay home and ravish his wife.

"Damn it. Sometimes I hate Mark." Derek admitted with a frown.

"When you get home tonight you can ravish me all you want. I am going shopping while you are gone and maybe I'll pick up something a little sexy to wear for you." Addison told him.

"Lingerie shopping without your husband?" Derek accused with a frown. Before they had gotten busy Derek used to accompany her on those trips.

"It's a surprise Derek. Enjoy sexy surprises." Addison insisted with a sexy smile. Derek sighed knowing that Addison loved to surprise him. He had missed her sexy surprises. He would just have to be patient. He checked his watch and realized that he had five minutes before he had to leave. He stood up and pulled his wife up with him so he could say goodbye to her. His wallet and keys were by the front door so he would grab them on his way out.

"Goodbye Addie." Derek told her as he stared into her beautiful blue eyes.

"Bye Derek. Be safe." Addison told him. She was hoping that he didn't drink too much at the game. She knew how Mark got at sporting events and she wanted at least one of them sober enough to drive home after the game was over.

"I will Addie." Derek told her before he leaned in and brushed his lips across hers. He always kissed his wife before he left the house now and she always kissed him before she left the house. He let go of her lips slowly and then he grabbed his keys and wallet and left their house. Addison left the house shortly after him so that she could go get some shopping done and that included some new lingerie to drive Derek absolutely wild.