Alice PoV

Clearing the Air

"Why can't he ask me out already, I'm pretty sure that I've waited for so long!" Rose complained to me while we were in my room trying to pick out what I was going to wear to Jasper's house today.

"You haven't waited that long we've only known them for like a week." I told her coming out of my closet and setting the clothes down.

"What Rose wants, Rose gets." She told me with a serious face.

"What world do you live in?" I asked her while laughing.

"The same one you do!" She yells at me. She goes over to my laptop and starts playing some music. "God, Alice you have such horrible music!" she says to me.

"Go over to Rose's playlist and that the music you like!" I inform her. "You know you can ask Emmett out instead of him asking you out" I suggested.

"It's not that easy. I don't even think he likes me!" she tells me while spinning in my desk chair.

"You don't know that! Rose grow a pair of balls."

"You're right Ally cat, this is why I love you! Now to the fun part what should I wear when I go with you today?" she asks me.

"You aren't going to think about it?" I ask her while slipping on a pair of new underwear and bra.

"Shut up." She glares at me while going into my closet.

"I think you should wear those skinny jeans that you have in my closet, a white tank top, and then a pink cardigan!" I tell her while putting on a pair of white jeans.

"With a pair of grey toms?" she asks me. I nod my head and slip on an orange tank top. I style my hair and curl Rose's hair. After spraying myself with my perfume I go wait for Rose in the living room.

"Alice, honey?" I hear my mom.

"What are you doing home? I thought that you were on vacation." I ask her while giving her a hug.

"We came back early! I missed my babies!" she shouted out. "Is Rose here?" she asks me.

"Yeah she is, she's in my room. We are actually going over to the McCarthy's house." I inform her.

"Be careful." She tells me and heads up the step. My mother's name is Elizabeth Cullen she is perfect, well in people's eyes she's perfect. I don't see how they think she is perfect I feel like she is very fake. And how someone can be married to her is beyond me. But she is married and she is married to my father, John Cullen. He is the biggest asshole I know. I hate both of them; they annoy me to no end. They don't really care what Edward and I do ask long as I get good grades and don't get caught doing something bad. I wish I had parents like Rose or Bella. But I can only dream.

"Oh Alice, I forgot to tell you, Carlisle is moving here and is going to be staying with us. His mother just pasted away and my brother wants nothing to do with him so he will be your new friend." She screams from the top of the stairs.

Carlisle is my cousin; he is very handsome even I could see it. He is six feet and had blonde hair and has stunning blue eyes. He is very smart and wants to be a doctor. I couldn't believe how casually my mother said that his mother died. She is a cold hearted bitch. Carlisle's mother really loved him. And he really loved her to. I wonder how he is coping with his mother dying.

Rose finally came downstairs looking perfect as ever. We get into my car and drive to their house. We talk about anything that comes to mind. My mind keeps wandering, so I don't really focus on what she's saying. All I hear is the music. It's a good song.

"So anyways I don't know how I'm going to do it." she shares her worry with me.

"I think you should just shout it out to him. Be like hoe, I like you and you like me to so lets get to fucking." I tell her. She should know I don't take this shit seriously.

"Fuck off, when are you ever going to get in a new relationship?" she asks me, her eyes looking anywhere but me. Eyes on the road Ally.

"When I want to…" my voice trails off, that's when the memories hit me. Baby I will never leave you… Come on I know you want this, you just don't know what you want yet… I will never tell anyone… Baby, I love you… Then the images started him loving me, him hugging me, kissing me, abusing me.

"Alice! Watch out!" I hear Rose yell at me. I quickly get into the right lane, before any real damage is done. "Pull over, I'm driving." She tells me.

We drive in totally silence. I keep wondering why this keeps happening…

"He really scarred you." She finally breaks the silence.

"Mhmm…" I reply as I turn up the music. I only talk to give directions to the house… Now that I think about it I don't want to help him bake. I want to cry and vent. Eat chocolate and watch chick flicks. Rose drives into the driveway and parks the car. I know I have to be her best friend right now. So I forget that she mentioned my past.

"You go in there and ask that boy out. Look him in the eye and ask him out. Fuck society. Girls can ask boys out and it's not weird. Now you look fantastic go show this boy what you're all about." I tell her while giving her a one arm hug, since we are in the car still.

"Thanks Ally Cat... I'm sorry I brought him up again. I will try my hardest not to bring him up anymore."

"Go in and get them Rosebud." I use her old nickname, I know that it will give her the confidence she needs.

She knocks first and Em answers it. I guess he only expected to see me because he was in pjs with no shirt.

"Rose. What the fuck are you doing here?" He asks her. She looks at him and whispers something in his ear that I can't hear.

"Well Miss. Care to share what just happened?" Jasper comes into my vision and I vaguely see Rose and Em going up the stairs. I stay quiet until I see that Rose is all the way is all the way up the stairs. That's when I break down. I start crying and bawling. It took everything out of me to simile and give Rose the talk she wanted to hear. She couldn't even tell that I was hurting inside. Jasper scoops me in his hands and I put my face in the crook of his neck. I am still crying by the time that we get into his room.

"Do you want to talk about it?" he asks me. I shake my head no. He holds me while my sobs stopped and my hiccups started. I knew that it was weird that I'm crying on a boy that I don't even know, and I know that he won't judge me. That's the weird thing. I know that this boy right here won't judge me.

"I don't know why. I don't know what I did to deserve this." I tell him. Even though I'm pretty sure he doesn't know what I am talking about.

"Alice, what are you talking about?" he asked me.

"Last year, I was so in love with this boy name Connor. He made me smile, laugh and made me feel loved. He was my best friend. And then he asked me out, of course I said yes. We were happy until our third month of going out. That's when the hitting started; I wasn't giving him what he wanted I wasn't saying the things he wanted me to. So he hit me. I finally got the courage to break up with him, but now he won't leave me alone. He is a constant reminder of what he did to me. Sometimes I wonder what I did to deserve half of the fucking things that happen to me. I ask this question to myself all the time." I admit to him, after I get all of it out I feel better.

I finally look at Jasper and he is just staring at me. He doesn't say anything he just holds me in his hand and honestly that's all I need, from him. I just need him to hold me.

I finally picked myself up and Jasper and I got to making a cake. I laughed half of the time we were making the cake because Jasper made me feel at ease with myself. Once we were done with that. We sat down on the couch and waited for the cake to finish baking so we can enjoy it outside.

"So what do you guys normally do here in Forks?" he asks me while flipping the channel to Cartoon network.

"Bella, Edward, Rose and I normally go to raves or parties around town. The thing I like the most is to take pictures. I don't know why but I feel like I control the world when I take pictures. I feel like people will view the world like I do if through my pictures. What about you, what do you like to do?" I ask him.

"I like to paint, kind of weird I know. I have my own studio upstairs, that's where I am truly myself." He tells me.

"Cool story bro!" I tell him. He gets up from the couch to check on the cake. I stand up and check out the house, it's clear that someone decorated this for them. I went upstairs and quickly found Jasper's door. I opened it and the smell of Jasper hit my nose. I walked around the room and touched various things. I saw a picture of a girl and Jasper. The girl was beautiful she had blonde hair and brown eyes and she was on Jasper's shoulder, she looked about four years old.

"Alice! Haha, didn't expect to find you here. The girl in the picture is Mattie." He told me. I give him a questioning glance and he starts up again "She's my younger sister. She died when she was five. Car crash." He tells me smiling but it doesn't reach his eyes "Anyways ready for the cake!" he says and leads me out of his room.

I get downstairs and Rose and Emmett are there. She smiles at me and I can tell that everything went well.

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