It's been two months since I had arrived here in France. I have finally gotten to meet my Aunt Maria. Tante Maria had many things to teach me and now everyday before I get ready for work she trains me. It's not as tedious as my previous training but its quite in site full we had to start with her teaching me the history of our family, the history that my parents were trying to run from. My entire family all through history has been witches and very in tuned ones at that, but there was a bigger surprise to be as I listened to the stories of our family history. Somewhere along the lines of our history, Our entire family line are descendant's from the Arc angel Uriel and that is why we all have affinity for fire and are so in tuned with the earth and apparently wind as well. Tante Maria was sad to hear about my parents but happy to see that I was fine and grew up to be 'such a fine lady.'
My thoughts and dreams of Aaron have slowly faded I have not completely forgotten him I don't think I ever will but at least I know I no that I can probably start a relationship with someone else and wont feel bad about it. Sean has asked me out a few times but I have let him down easy because I wasn't ready yet. Maybe I am now. For the last two months Sean has been the closest friend I have ever had since my 60 year old chef and of course Aaron. Deciding that it was time to get ready for work I jump into the Shower for a quick wash after this mornings work out. Once done I blow dry my hair as straight as I can get it and decide to leave it down, which to me is weird because I always put it up. Walking into my bedroom I walk to my closet and grab low rise light flare blue jeans and my black with red stitching vest with the fishnet half sleeves. Throwing on my cloths I walk down stairs and through the door after the entrance to the bar that leads to behind the stage. Waiting there for me was the DJ to find out what I wanted to sing that Evening since it was open mic night.
"hey Mac I think I wanna sing Naturally By Selena Gomez just do me a favor add a little more 'BEAT' to it with out destroying the song k I know you can."
"Not a problem Alex anything for you Hun." With a kiss on my cheek he turned and left to get the song ready for me. Peeking out from around the corner I look at the size of the crowd tonight ever since I started the bar has been getting much more business. Sean was standing right by the front of the stage as I waved to him the lights in the bar shut off and the one single light shown on the stage. * well that's my cue* the beat started up and I walked up on stage ready to have fun.
~How you choose to express yourself
Its all your own and I can tell
It comes naturally,
it comes naturally
You follow what you feel inside,
It's intuitive; you don't have to try,
It comes naturally,
It comes naturally
And it takes my breath away
What you do, so naturally
You are the thunder and I am the lightning,
And I love the way you know who you are,
And to me it's exciting,
When you know it's meant to be,
Everything comes naturally,
It comes naturally,
When you're with me baby,
Everything comes naturally,
It comes naturally,
(Ba-Ba-Baby)
You have a way of moving me,
A force of nature, your energy,
It comes naturally,
(You know it does,)
It comes naturally,
(Oh yeah)
And it takes my breath away (Every time)
What you do, so naturally
You are the thunder and I am the lightning,
And I love the way you know who you are,
And to me it's exciting,
When you know it's meant to be,
Everything comes naturally,
It comes naturally,
When you're with me baby,
Everything comes naturally,
It comes naturally,
(Ba-Ba-Baby)
When we collide, sparks fly
When you look in my eyes,
it takes my breath away
(You are) You are the thunder and I am the lightening
And I love the way you know who you are
And to me it's exciting
When you know it's meant to be
Everything comes naturally,
it comes naturally
When you're with me, baby
Everything comes naturally,
it comes naturally
Ba-Ba-baby
Naturally (x5)
Ba-Ba-baby
Naturally (x5)
Everything baby comes naturally. ~
Taking a bow I try to slow my breathing. Its always this exciting when I perform I really don't know why I didn't decide to do this sooner. Walking off stage to the back to let next person perform grabbing a bottle of Water and started to chug it. Half way though I hear a familiar guitar that struck an old cord. Suddenly there was some yelling going on out in the bar that took me by surprise.
"Yo get the bartender off the stage, he is only good for mixing drinks." A voice joins in with the guitar solo to Bruno mars just the way you are and I get a shiver down my spine. * damn I think I might be going insane now I am start to hear things to I really need help.* walking through the backstage door out into the bar area hoping to myself that I don't have to help security with any fights again, and I found it to be surprisingly quiet with the exception of the music being played. Sitting at the bar I turned to Angela and ordered my normal.
"Soooo… Alex what this I hear that you have been intimate with our new bartender…?"
"What? Angela what are you talking about I didn't even know we had a new bartender so how could I have been intimate with him…" Angela handed over my drink and I take a sip of an almost perfect drink.
"Well he said he knew you back in japan and that you guys were … how do I say this umm close." Taking another swig off my drink I think to myself.* it's not possible. She must be mistaken*
"Angela you must be mistaken I was never close with anyone in japan at least not anyone that's around anymore. He disappeared years ago." The song that I wasn't really paying to much attention to, because of the reaction it brought out, finished and another started up not as good as the last performance but not bad. "Hey Angela Can I get another please." Putting my head on my hand to contemplate why I was feeling this way today so suddenly. A glass was placed in front of me and I grab it whispering a soft thank you. Taking a sip I recognized the difference immediately * in the two months I have worked here she has never been able to make my drink right. Even if I tell her how.* looking at the bar now afraid to look up "You're not Angela are she never makes my drinks perfect." I whispered
"No, I don't have that great a rack… although yours is better." I sigh and close my eyes downing my glass.
"I'm gonna need another one first … please." Within a minute another drink was placed in front of me. Downing this one just as quickly I wiped my mouth and looked at the man that had haunted me for years now. "When did you get back? And how did you find me?"
"just last night, and by sheer luck." He said smirking at me.
"well first you need to keep them coming cause … I'm gonna need them second you have to come back around when I was finally starting to get ov…" suddenly I felt an arm wrap around my shoulder and a kiss on the cheek. I look over and I see Sean standing there.
"Hey Alex you did wonderful tonight as usual, but you reek of rum how many have you had." Waving a hand around.
"I don't know… Sean I would like you to meet Aaron… Aaron this is Sean."
"Nice to meet you Sean" Aaron stuck out his hand in greeting. Grabbing it Sean shook his hand in welcome.
"Nice to meet you to Aaron, I didn't know they hired a new bartender. Is that how you two know each other?" Sean asked curiously.
"Actually, I just started today and no we knew each other from a few years back." Aaron smirked at me again and placed another glass in front of me even though i didn't ask for one, taking another sip to check I found the drink perfect as always. Feeling Sean's arm wrap tighter around my shoulders I chug my drink down again and stand shrugging his arm off of me.
"Well boys have a wonderful conversation I have to get back up on stage it maybe open mic night but I still have a job to do." With a quick nod I walked off over to where Mac was spinning again and made my request. Walking to the stairs of the stage again all lights were cut off but this time it was one light beam from the back of stage instead of the front. Listening to the music to year without rain by Selena Gomez I walked up to have my body silhouetted by the light. *Why did he come back now? Why is my mind so confused and dizzy? I was ready to give up on him and move on. Why?* hearing my cue I begin to sing the lyrics with more emotion then I ever have before.
~Oooooh
Can you feel me when I think about you?
With every breath I take
Every minute, no matter what I do
My world is an empty place
Like I've been wondering the desert
For a thousand days
Don't know if it's a mirage
But I always see your face, baby
I'm missing you so much
Can't help it, I'm in love
A day without you is like a year without rain
I need you by my side
Don't know how I'll survive
A day without you is like a year without rain
Ooh, woooaaahh woaahh
Looking over at the bar I see Sean and Aaron neither one talking but staring at my performance. Looking at Aaron specifically my chest begins to hurt, and I place a hand on my heart to calm it as I continue with the song.
The stars are burning
I hear your voice in my mind
Can't you hear me calling?
My heart is yearning
Like the ocean that's running dry
Catch me I'm falling
It's like the ground is crumbling underneath my feet
(Won't you save me?)
There's gonna be a monsoon
When you get back to me
Oh, baby
I'm missing you so much
Can't help it, I'm in love
A day without you is like a year without rain
I need you by my side
Don't know how I'll survive
A day without you is like a year without rain
Ooh, woooaaahh woaahh
So let this drought come to an end
And make this desert flower again
I'm so glad you found me
Stick around me
Baby, baby, baby, oh
It's a world of wonder with you in my life
So hurry, baby
Don't waste no more time
And I need you here
I can't explain
But day without you
is like a year without rain
Ooh
I'm missing you so much
Can't help it, I'm in love
A day without you is like a year without rain
I need you by my side
Don't know how I'll survive
A day without you is like a year without rain
Ooh, woooaaahh woaahh~
Once the song was complete I did another quick bow and walked off stage. Heading for the bathroom I lock myself up inside for a few minutes to let silent tears run down my face. *I just need to go home* Wiping the tear away quickly I ran out without anyone seeing me and out the entrance to the club. Getting up to my apartment as quickly as I can I don't even bother with turn on the lights but brought the images of the candles in the living room and kitchen to light. Opening my eyes I my apartment was lit in a warm glow. Walking into the kitchen I grab my bottle of rum out of the fridge and a cup and proceeded to perch myself on the couch in the living room to finish off the bottle.
Fresh tears began to pour down my face and I took another swig of the straight rum while singing to myself the lyrics of Selena Gomez ghost of you. Slowly feeling started to fade and the room started to spin a little. Seeing movement out of the corner of my eye I turned to see Aaron standing there looking at me with some untold look. Not thinking straight I stand up and start to yell at him. "What are you doing here? How did you get into my Apartment? What do you wa…?" the room started to spin faster from the quick stand up. My knees gave out and the darkness was creep up in the corners of my vision. With a sense of falling I start to prepare myself for impact onto the floor, which never came. At the last second a pair of strong arms wrap around me and cradle me to an equally strong chest with an instant sense of home in his warmth. Before the darkness could completely claim me I was lifted in to his arms and heard him whisper. "I thought I finally broke you of this fainting stuff." With a finger pushing my bangs to the side I finally gave up and fell in to the encroaching darkness.