Arnold reached his apartment and after walking inside finally felt the guilt of what happened hit him full force.

He had cheated on his fiancee' he had cheated on the girl of his dreams with the girl from his nightmares.

He picked up the phone and dialed Geralds number.

"Arnold?" Gerald picked up on the second ring.

"Gerald I screwed up..."

"I'll say...Helga is on the house phone right now with Phoebe I've never heard her sound so happy"

"I...I don't know...what I'm going to do"

"Do you love her?"

It was a simple question so simple Arnold froze up.

"ARNOLD!" Gerald yelled on the other end of the line.

"What?"

"DO YOU LOVE HER!"

Helga was stretched out on the couch in her hotel room reading over the script for her book when there was a soft knock.

When she opened the door Arnold was there and she smiled moving to let him inside.

"Hey" She shut the door and he turned to face her.

As soon as she shut the door and turned in his direction he was there. Hands in her hair kissing her like it was the last time.

She kissed him back but could tell something was different and when he broke away she spoke.

"What was that about? Is something wrong?"

"I need to tell you something" He told her honestly.

"Ok? What is it?"

"You never know how long you'll have with someone time is...a complicated thing and I want you to know no matter what happens between us...no matter how you feel about me later in life...Last night...I wanted it more then anything and I don't regret it I never will"

"Arnold...is something wrong? why are you telling me this?"

"Because...I wanted to tell you...I don't want you to ever think that this is all about sex for me I really enjoy being with you and I haven't felt this way about anyone in a very long time"

"Ok..." She smiled and went to walk past him to the couch he caught her arm on the way by spinning her into his arms and kissing her again.

She melted he was and always would be her only weakness he arms wound around his neck and he lifted her so she could wrap her legs around his waist.

He carried her into the bedroom and dropped onto the bed keeping his weight on his arms so he wouldn't crush her he broke the kiss.

"What were you doing before I came?"

"Reading the script for my movie deal" He kissed his way down her neck.

"Do you need to get back to it?"

"No...it can wait" She pulled him back for another kiss.

Gerald was right this whole thing was screwed up and snowballing out of control.

Arnold was staring up at the fan spinning around on the ceiling above the bed Helga was curled up asleep beside him.

He needed to do something break ties with one of them he didn't want to lose Lila he had worked too hard for too long to get her but...she wasn't and never would be Helga the woman who drove him crazy throughout childhood and even now just in a different way.

She was intoxicating she always had been a mystery and kept him on his toes but as the years went by and he looked closer at the mystery he had found the real Helga the one nobody else ever got to see and he liked that one.

Now, She was everything he had ever wanted in a woman and in a wife it was everything Lila wasn't and she couldn't have came along at a worst time...or a better one ironically.

Did he love Lila? Or was he just afraid to give up on something that he worked so hard to get?

Lila was breathtakingly beautiful and always had been that was true but Helga was the ugly duckling turned swan and Lila even on her best day could no longer compete .

He wasn't shallow enough to make his decision on looks but in personality Lila wasn't a very strong competetor either there was one side to Lila and it was the same personality she had always had and Helga just like always had so many layers he would never find them all.

He looked over at her sleeping so peacefully, Maybe he should leave just get up and leave and never come back never call or talk to her again walk away now while he still had the strength.

Instead he pulled her close kissed the top of her head and went to sleep.

Author Note: Sorry for the short chapters next one will be longer.

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