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Chapter 3

March 8th

Cold. Damp. Dark... Destroyed. HA! Not destroyed. I may be beaten and bloody, but I'm still here. I'm still me. Am I making any sense? No? WELL GOOD! I don't have to, this is my book, and I can write whatever I want. See, Jade is still here.

March 8th (much later)

I just re-read what I wrote earlier this morning, and even I was confused. I was a bit dazed, I blacked out right after. But that's normal, it happens almost every morning. Should I explain why? Should I tell you what he does to me every morning? Nahh you probably can't handle it... well too bad. If I have to live through it, you'll have to read about it. So get ready. This is what happened this morning.

I woke up cramped, my legs chained uncomfortably to the wall, where they've been for the last 2 weeks. The skin around the chains was raw and bleeding slightly. I sighed and attempted to move the chains around so the bleeding areas would hopefully get some relief. The only problem was the whole ankle was bloody at this point. Giving up I stretched out my legs and arms, rubbing the sorest of my muscles. I ran my fingers through the tangled knots in my hair, and tried to gather it in a braid down my back. Instead of my colourful blue extensions, streaks of dirt and mud were plastered throughout my hair. I rubbed my eyes and choked back a sob that was forming in my throat. Ya even Jade West gets sad sometimes. I had just finished doing my "business" when I heard the footsteps. I tried desperately to squeeze myself into the opposite corner and find anything that may protect me from what I knew was coming, what came every morning. The door creaked open and a strip of light shone through the doorway, and then i saw his face. His disgustingly, perverted, freakish, ugly, lopsided...I think I'm getting off track. Anyway..

"Good morning sweetie," he sang mockingly to me. "You know this would be so much easier if you just told me your name. So I'll ask it again, what's your name beautiful?" He walked over closer and stroked my cheek and head with his disgusting hands.

In response I spit in his eyes.

Growling in anger he wiped his eyes and punched me right across the face. I let out a small yelp of pain and turned back to him smiling broadly.

"You hit like a girl," I shot back. I could feel the blood pounding in my eye and felt as it started to swell close. I silently cursed, knowing it would be painful for the next few days.

"Is that so," he said evilly. This time his fist connected with my jaw. The pain shot up through my head and I felt the warm blood dripping out of my mouth. I prayed inwardly that none of my teeth had been knocked out. Grabbing me by my braid he dragged me across the room to the opposite corner. I dug my fingernails into my palms to keep from screaming out loud.

I don't want to tell you what happens next, but I think I should. If I don't make it out of here alive, I want everyone to know what this sick, twisted kidnapper has done.

He tied my hands to the wall so had no choice but to stand upright. And then he beat me. Punching every square inch that he could reach while I tried unsuccessfully to protect my vital organs. He even whipped me. Ya, i know, who keeps a whip these days? The same person who kidnaps girls just so he can beat them and listen to them scream, and has a dungeon in his basement. That guy does.

I guess the only good thing was that it only lasted about 20 minutes this morning. Usually it's longer. 30, 40, 50 minutes. He unchained me from the wall letting me fall to the ground hard and then he left, kicking me in the stomach on his way out. I should have been happy that the beating was over, but the only thing I could think of was why he had stopped so early. I could only worry that he was getting bored. What would he try next? What's going to become of me?

March 9th- (this entry is for Beck`s eyes ONLY!)

Beck I'm crying. Beck it hurts. I`m trying to be brave, I`m trying so hard. But it hurts so badly. Beck I`m worried for the first time. I`m worried I might not make it back. That I may never see YOU again. I could take all of this, the pain, the darkness, all of it, if only you were here with me. But I`m glad you`re not, I`d never want to see you hurt like this.

I was thinking of us today. Do you remember the time I ate that bad chicken and got food poisoning? You told me it looked undercooked, but I ate it anyway. You took care of me the whole day, holding my hair back whenever I got sick and getting me whatever I asked for. Well more like demanded. Sometimes I wonder how you can even love me. I was never very nice, and never very giving. But I`m glad you do.

Beck there's something I want to tell you. Beck I'm dying. He's killing me. I wish I could see you one last time, kiss you once more. But I don't think I'm going to be able to. So I want you to know one thing.

Beck I love you. You're the one for me, you always have been. All those times I get jealous, it's just because I don't know what I would do without you. I hope you'll forgive me for not letting you drive me home. I don't know why I was so stubborn. I'm sorry.

This isn't a goodbye letter. I'm not giving up. I will never stop trying to get back to you. Don't worry Beck, I'm strong, I love you, and I'll be coming back.

March 9th

I miss you. I want you back. I hope you're okay. Don't worry Jade, I will never stop trying to find you, I will get you back.

A/N: so today is a no bus day and i got bored and decided to write this. REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW PLEASE! There will be a new character diary in the next chapter that might appear occasionally throughout the story. It'll be either:

Cat, Tori, OR Sikowitz. So please vote on who you would like it to be i know this chapter was mostly Jade but i wanted to give you an idea of what was going on with her. I hope you enjoyed and I almost have the next chapter finished. Ill update after i get a few reviews and votes on the new character. Let me know and thanks for reading.