Last wish 3
A/N I'm just crying over some Harry Potter pictures, because I love it so much and I can't believe that Pottermore isn't open and I just want to hug JK Rowling and RAWR.
GOD I LOVE HER SO MUCH.
I don't own anything I don't own, because the people that own the things own the things, obviously.
- The marauders map is amazing -
Zara POV
And so I spent the next week as part of team 8, training, fighting and laughing with them. But the entire time, I felt as though I was betraying them. Ai sent me letters regularly, and I was starting to get good with my katana. I suppose the person I've gotten closest to is probably Kiba, but I still don't know what his most prized possession is, even if I wanted to steal it. I don't think I want to leave…
I woke up one morning and switched on the radio while I made breakfast and coffee. I was living in the same apartment building as Naruto was, even though I knew that it'd been over a year since he left with Jiraya. I sipped my coffee and listened to the morning forecast.
"It's going to be a warm day for Konoha with a top of 23 and they should be expecting late showers. Keep listening for this morning's 'Ko-Juu' top ten songs from Konoha! It's the 14th of April, and you're listening to 'Hana FM'!" I smiled at the goofy presenter's voice and ate my toast listening to an amazing song called 'Chu chu lovely muni muni mura'. There was a knock at my door as I finished my coffee. I looked down at myself, still wearing my pyjamas and wondered if I should get dressed, as I don't think the person at the door would like to see my wearing short-shorts and an insulting T-shirt. I threw my hoddie and answered the door; it was my team mates, Hinata, Shino, Kurenai and Kiba.
"Good mooooorning." I said cheerfully. Kurenai raised her eyebrow.
"You do realise what time it is, don't you? We're leaving in 10 minutes." She told me with concealed annoyance. I blinked and looked at my watch.
"CRAP!" I yelled and ran back inside. I dressed and grabbed my backpack quickly, and came back to find my team mates lounging on my couch.
"Nice place you got here." Kurenai said appreciatively. I blushed awkwardly.
"Sorry, I forgot we had a mission!" I bowed and everyone else laughed.
"You're an air-head, Zara." Shino said breezily. I pouted and we left for Suna. Our mission was to escort an important elder from Konoha to Suna, and we picked them up before leaving the village. The elder was stoic, but nice. Her name was Chizuru Ibara. We completed the mission and the Kazekage insisted on us staying the night.
"Hey Zara." Kiba greeted. Hinata and Shino had already gone to bed, and Kurenai was in the shower.
"Sup Kiba? Hey there, Akamaru!" I petted the dog, who had taken a strong liking to me. I have always loved animals. Kiba frowned.
"How come he gets a warmer greeting than me?" He pouted and I laughed at his childishness.
"Because I like him more, duh." I said jokingly.
"Wow, thanks."
"Don't mention it. Do you want to play a game?" I asked. He nodded. "It's called the alphabetic insult game. We take it in turns to insult each other starting with the letter we're up to. So we first do A, then B C D E F G, you know. I'll start. You are an animal." He caught on.
"You are an ass."
"You're a bastard."
"Well, you're a bitch."
"Clitoris."
"… I'm a what now?"
"Part of a chick's bits."
"Right, well you're a… Cunt. Ew, I hate that word."
"Me too. Douche burger."
"Ditz."
"Egotistical."
"Elephant ass."
"Oi! Faggot."
"So now I'm a bundle of small sticks? Well you're a flirt."
"SCREW YOU, GIRLY-MAN!"
"Granny."
"I'M ONE YEAR OLDER THAN YOU, HETEROSEXUAL!"
"Hooker."
"WHY ARE YOU BETTER THAN ME AT THIS!"
"Because I'm amazing." We played this game for a while before Kurenai yelled at us for waking her up. "Sorry Sensei." Kiba grumbled.
"Hey Kiba?" He grunted. "What's your most prized possession?" He looked at me for a moment, thinking.
"My most prized possession is my life. Without it, I would have nothing, and a life without you would just be plain boring." I smiled. "What about you, then?" I thought for a moment too. What was my most prized possession? Not my life, certainly not, nor is it my headband, or back pack.
"I guess… I guess it would be my heart. I can't live without it, and I'm proud that it still works after being broken so often." He nodded.
"Well then, I'm going to sleep. Good night, Zara."
"Sweet dreams." I muttered softly, as a realisation dawned on me. I would have to take Kiba's life in order to move forward again. A sick feeling twisted inside my stomach. Why does this have to happen to me? I moved to my bedroom and flopped onto the bed. I saw out the corner of my eye that Ai had sent me another note.
Zara,
You may think you can escape me, but fate has you in her hold. If you do not follow your own wish, then she will destroy you. Take my words into consideration before making your decision. I give you three more days to complete the task given to you before you die. Use this time wisely, Zara, because you are never going back there again.
Ai
I stared at the note she had written and tore it up into little pieces. I wanted to see more, to feel more, and to be more before I truly died. I know I have to leave this world, but can I really do it? Can I really kill him? Even after I've fallen so hopelessly in love with him? I honestly don't think I can. I'm not strong enough to do something like that. I can't just turn my emotions off like a tap, like Sai can. I'm weak.
"Hey, Zara? What's wrong?" A voice asked from the door. It was Kurenai. I whipped my eyes, because I had started crying. She sat down next to me.
"I don't know what to do, Sensei…" I whispered. "I don't know what's the right decision anymore."
"Whatever you want, you, not anybody else, will be the right decision, Zara. Only you can decide what's right."
"But what if that makes me a horrible person?"
"You're not a bad person, Zara. You are kind, and friendly, and you're smart and strong too. You'll never be a bad person, Zara. Never regret the decisions we make, good or bad, because they shape who we are as people." She was right; you have to make the wrong decisions to know what to do next time. Learn from your mistakes. I nodded and she left the room.
"You have such a twisted sense of humour, Ai." I muttered. I think I might have snapped at that point, but I don't think you can really tell if you have. I laughed a little, cried a little, and fell into a happy kind of nightmare, where the monsters are really tap-dancing tarantulas that attack you with rainbows. That's when I realised that I probably had gone insane.
With the morning came calm, and with the calm came dullness. I gained new perspective on matters, and made a promise to myself that I would never stop moving forward, no matter what.
And I've never broken a promise my whole life.
- I just like crazy people, I think -
A/N Do I literally make all my characters insane? Yeah don't answer that… Review, please.
Love always,
The 5th ARISU