A/N: Originally going to be about how crazy Shepard is, but then it just turned out being a meltdown rather than crazy. Unless you think having a meltdown is being crazy than yeah...she's totally crazy.
"For the last time Javik. I will not throw Legion out of the air lock. Ask me one more time, and it will be you that I will be throwing out the air lock. Understood?" The Prothean gave his commander a weak nod. "Anything else you want to get out off your mind?"
"Yes. The creature who was in this quarter before me..."
"Grunt? What about him?"
"His smell still lingers..."
"Then clean the damn place, you have hands. And they're constantly in the water..." She mumbled the last sentence.
"Humans. Sensitive. Commander, one more question."
"Yes. What is it?"
"Are you injured?"
"No...why?"
"Then why do I smell blood from you?"
Anastasia's eyes widened, her fists clenched. "I'll take my leave now."
"You have-" His Prothean eyes looked at the glare that the commander was giving him. "As you wish..."
The doors closed behind her, she closed her eyes and sighed. Once she opened them, she quickly put her hair into a pony tail and walked to the elevator. Pressing the button to go to her cabin, she leaned against the wall. She was having a long day, she didn't get enough sleep due to the recurring nightmare of the little boy she tried to save back on Earth.
The doors opened, but not to the loft of the cabin, but to the CIC floor. Confused, she looked between the room and the button she had pressed. The cabin button was still glowing.
"Sorry commander. Joker says he needs a word with you." Traynor said turning around from her station. Doesn't she ever get tired from standing there 24/7? "He would have commed you, but apparently the coms are down. EDI's trying to fix it."
"Apparently everyone needs a word with me..."
"Commander?" Traynor asked with concern clearly written over her face.
Ana shook her head. "It's nothing." Sighing once more she headed towards the cockpit. "What is it Joker?"
"I know that you... I mean we need to save the Earth... but um. We've been flying around for a couple of weeks...and well..uhh..." Joker noticed his friend's tension.
"Spit it out Joker." Shepard said pinching the tip of her nose (near the eyes).
"The crew was wondering when will our next shore leave will be?" Silence.
Shepard looked down at him with a dead look of seriousness. "You're kidding right?"
"Well...no... But um, we...EDI thinks you need it." Joker said obviously putting all the blame to EDI.
"Shepard, Mr. Monroe, is right. You are stressed out, you need at least one day of shore leave."
"EDI... I do want a shore leave. But I want my shore leave on Earth, and I can't do that now, can I? You know with the Reapers on it killing everyone on it. And yes of course I'm stressed out. This whole saving Earth and the rest of the galaxy is on my shoulders. So if you excuse me, I am now going to my cabin."
Instead of going to her cabin, she went to go see Garrus in the gun battery room. Well, she wanted to see Liara but she was busy doing Shadow Broker stuff.
"Garrus you have a moment?"
"Oh Shepard," He said looking between her and the gun battery. "Can it wait for a -"
"No Garrus! It can not wait!" She hissed. Garrus' eyes widened in surprise by his commander's anger. He's seen her angry, but he hasn't seen her snap at him before.
She saw the shock in his eyes, and sighed. "Never mind. Forget it. Apparently calibrating the damn gun is more important."
She turned around only to bump into Kaiden Alenko.
"Ana? You okay?"
"No! I am NOT okay! I have to play mediator for aliens who are too damn selfish to help others! I have to play mediator for aliens who can't get out of the freakin' past! On top of that, I have to deal with stupid jelly fishes!"
Kaiden opened his mouth to speak but was cut off by Anastasia, who by now was throwing her arms up in the air.
"Oh! I'm not finished yet!" She said pointing her index finger at him. "I also have to deal with the people who revived me and now want me dead! And I have to deal with that god damn bastard Kai Lang!"
By now she was yelling and everyone was staring. Even Liara and Dr. Chakwas came out of their rooms.
"I've already lost two friends who tried to save everyone! And everyone expects me to do the right thing! Everyone is expecting me to save the whole damn galaxy! I can't take it anymore! The more weight on these freaking shoulders and I'll be six feet under!" She dropped to her knees and covered her crying eyes with her hands. Kaiden bent down and picked her up, saying nothing, only kissing her forehead as he laid her down on her bed.
~A Few Hours Later~
The doors of Shepard's cabin opened, causing Shepard to see who it was. Standing in off duty clothing was her mother. She looked like an older version of Ana, but her with a pixie hair cut and a few grays here and there.
Kaiden got out of the bed and bent down to kiss Ana's forehead once more. "I'll give you some time. Admiral." He saluted at the Admiral and took his leave.
"Mom? What are you doing here?" Ana's eyes were red from crying, her bed covered with tissues, her giant cow plushie held tightly in her arms.
"Liara told me what happened," Hannah Shepard said giving her daughter a small smile. Joining her daughter, Ana gently placed her head on her mother's stomach. Hannah began to to comb her daughter's long hair -which was no longer in a pony tail, with her hands. "Even a commander may cry, Ana."
"It's not the crying...it's the-"
"Saving the galaxy. I know, and your father and I are very proud of you. But Ana, honey. You're not alone in this. You have your friends, your crew and everyone else. Your human, Anastasia, and humans along with other species, can break down, and that's okay. You'll do what you can, and that's okay. It's okay, Ana. It's okay."
A/N: Boo yeah! Two chapters in a day! :D Anyway... I'm currently attempting to change the lyrics of My Favorite Things from The Sound of Music to Shepard's favorite things, and lets just say i don't think I can do that... It's hard... :(
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