Hate is all I know

A Twilight Saga fan fiction

By NERRD-VampireLoverXxx

Disclaimer:

Stephanie Meyer owns all rights to the characters use in this story.

I own none of these.

It will all be in BPOV

Chapter 7 – Truth will out

I kissed Edward Cullen.

I kissed Edward freaking Cullen! I couldn't believe it and I'd told him my story, it felt so good to get it off my chest after years of telling nobody. I felt as though the ice around my heart had melted a little more by telling Edward and every time Edward touched me now the ice trickled away. I was happier than I had been in years and Edward was no longer an arrogant asshole, after knowing hate for years and years I was now nice to most people. I still had some trust issues but for the first time after a while I knew my life was going forward towards something better and new.

"Isabella? Hello Earth to Miss Swan? Are you receiving us?" Edward knocked gently on the side of my head, his crooked smile a permanent fixture on his face nowadays. I loved his smile, it made him look sexy as hell and my stomach flip-flopped whenever he did it.

"Shut up" I shoved him, effectively making him fall off the sofa. We were sat in my house; we left Forks last week after talking more about my story. Edward and I had been hanging out ever since and Edward had asked me out right after he had kissed me, at this moment my life was semi perfect.

I didn't know that in that moment fate was going to show me that it was still pissed at me for finding happiness...

"What do you want to do today?" Edward's hands were playing with my fingers, he seemed to like my fingers but then I could say the same about my lips and neck.

"Stay inside all day and not get dressed" I suggested whilst channel surfing, there was always crap on the TV but never anything interesting.

"Sounds good, I'm making hot chocolate want any?"

I rolled my eyes. "Is the sky blue? Does Santa come at Christmas?" My voice laced with sarcasm.

"Well technically Santa doesn't exist so he doesn't come at Christmas so..." The rest of his sentence was cut short by the pillow which hit him in the face; I shook my head and turned back to the TV.

"EEEEEEEEK!" I squealed, I sat up so fast I got head rush and sat Indian style facing the TV, Edward came running into the room holding a marshmallow in his hand.

What's the matter?" He glanced at me then around me searching for the reason to my scream, I couldn't formulate words so I just pointed to the TV screen where 'The Jeremy Kyle Show' was just starting. Edward's expression turned from worried to amused, he smirked at me shaking his head at the people on the screen.

"I can't believe you dragged me anyway from the hot chocolate and marshmallows to tell me that Jeremy Kyle was on the TV." He turned around and hurried back into the kitchen to get the drinks.

I watched the drama unfurl on the screen from the different couples going on there wanting to sort out there problems, I was getting drawn in to the story where a couple had broken up because the guys mother didn't like his girlfriend and had apparently bad mouthed her, when Edward walked into with the yummy goodies. He had hot chocolate with marshmallows and chocolate bars, he knew exactly what I liked and how to smooth talk me.

"There you go," I accepted my steaming mug.

"Thanks"

"I don't understand how you can like this programme. These people are a little silly, they say they didn't want to talk to each other about their problems yet they're quite prepared to go on TV and bare all for the public to judge them. It's crazy!" Edward shook his head breaking the chocolate bars into squares; I rolled my eyes at his ignorance.

"It is great entertainment and I'm really nosey so it's fun."

I sat and watched whilst Edward tried to pretend he wasn't interested in the programme, but I could see his lips twitching all the way through it. I smiled, he was now addicted to Jeremy Kyle.

I started sipping my hot chocolate and eating my marshmallows when the programme ended, Edward had gotten up and was pulling movies out of my cupboard for us to watch.

"Isabella you have some crap movies you know that?" He muttered flicking through the DVDs, I giggled.

"Yep, but there is some good ones in there somewhere, maybe at the back? I don't know!" I sighed and lay back on the sofa again; well if we were going to stay in all day I was going to do it properly.

Pyjamas + chocolate + Edward = bloody fantastic!

"Well its okay I have found a couple of movies which are...watchable." He grimaced and flopped down on the sofa next to me. He held up the two movies for my inspection; 'the walking dead' and 'Shaun of the dead', I raised my eyebrows at him, I knew his game. Those were scary movies and I couldn't watch them without screaming or getting scared.

"What?" He said innocently but unfortunately his smirk gave him away, I just huffed and crossed my arms over my chest.

I would not get scared.

I would not get scared.

I got scared.

But crap these films were scary, we watched...oh I've no flipping idea which one we watched first they were both as bad as each other.

I managed to stop from screaming and freaking until about 20 minutes in when the person on the screen screamed and I in turn screamed. It ended with my head hidden in Edward's chest while his arms were wrapped around me, I could feel his warmth surround me keeping me safe. At first he had laughed softly when I had thrown myself at his chest, but now he was stroking my hair. I could feel him flinch slightly at something on the TV so I kept my head down, I so did not want to look at that screen right now.

When that film had finished as Edward got the next film ready the doorbell went so I left him after grabbing my dressing gown to answer to door.

The doorbell rang again.

"Alright I'm coming, hold on would you?" I wrenched back the door and felt all the breath go out of me and tears fill me eyes...

There on my doorstep was Jacob Black with an evil smile on his face.

My eyes were wide with terror, I could feel anger and hate swirling around my body but tears were still streaming down my face. I heard Edward moving around in the living room and that gave me a little bit of strength, he was only a shout away and Jacob didn't know that seeing as it was only my car in the drive.

"Bella you really shouldn't have run away from me at the wedding?" He whispered.

"Do you know what I do to girls who are bad?" He leant forward so that his lips were right next to my ear,

"I punish them, hard!" I screamed and he laughed loudly, his eyes filled with pleasure at my terror.

"You scream girl there's no one here who can help you, Bella you are mine and I will take you as mine as many times as I want. And nobody can stop me!"

"Wrong" came the reply from behind me in the shadows of the door. Edward stepped out into the light, his eyes furious and his jaw clenched with anger.

"You made a mistake coming here Jacob, Isabella's not alone anymore. I've heard all about you and what you've done, you've pissed me off more than I can tell you. You are going to wish you'd never been born." He whispered, deadly and threatening I stepped back so that I was slightly behind Edward, Jacob looked slightly shocked and more than slightly scared of Edward, that gave me a little bit of pleasure but that didn't last for long.

"You think you can threaten me? No one will ever believe you if you tell them that I raped and beat Bella here, you've got no proof or witnesses to testify against me. Bella is mine and she is coming home with me now!" He shouted making me flinch, but not Edward. He took step forward glaring at Jacob who automatically took a step back.

"Isabella has a brain and can decide for herself exactly what she wants to do, and I don't think so wants to see you ever again!" Edward moved to close the door but Jacob shoved his foot in the way and glared at him then turned his eyes on me, he was furious.

"If you ever go to the police about what happened, I will hunt you down. I will kill your little boyfriend here in front of you slowly, and then I will punish you until the day you die for ever doing something against me. Do you hear me?" He yelled the last part and I flinched, he turned and walked calmly to his car and we watched as he drove away. Edward slammed the door shut and pulled me into a hug; I broke down and sobbed loudly into his chest.

"Sssh Isabella, it's going to be okay he's gone. Sssh we can get through this, together we can get through this Isabella." He sat down with me on his lap in front of the TV, I heard the TV shut down as the film was turned off, I continued to sob with tears of anguish and fear.

Why hadn't I slammed the door in his face? Slapped him and kicked him before calling Edward? What if Jacob hurt the people I cared about until I agreed to go back to him? He knew that if he hurt someone I was close to, like Edward or Charlie and Sue, that I would go running back to him just so that he wouldn't hurt them anymore.

He was playing his game perfectly.

I was scared and felt like protecting everybody I knew from him and his evils ways.

I couldn't go to the police, he'd kill Edward then hurt me, use me for the rest of my life; but then I wasn't really that worried about myself it was the people around me.

Since meeting Edward I had started to grow close to lots of different people; Alice my publicist and Jasper, who got my fabric, had become my friends and I had started communicating with Rosalie, the hairdresser, and Emmett, the vicar, they were my friends. Charlie had Sue and Leah; Jacob could hurt any of them at any time her wanted.

As I worried, Edward rocked me stroking my hair whispering calming things, trying to get me to stop worrying and sobbing.

"Isabella you have to go to the police." Edward said once I had stopped sobbing.

"Didn't you hear him? He'll kill you and then hurt everybody I care about until I agree to go back to him. I can't go to the police." I shook my head at him and saw that he was determined and set, he was going to try and keep me safe no matter what the costs were for him.

"Yes you can; Charlie's the chief of police in Forks, tell him then we can stay in Washington while the police search for Jacob. Charlie would believe you, I know some police officers wouldn't because of how long ago it was but Isabella your dad cares about you a lot and would do anything to keep you safe. Isabella let's go to Washington!" Edward looked into my eyes and I nodded seeing his point, if I told Charlie then he would be able to catch Jacob and I could stay close to Sue, Leah and Edward protecting them against Jacob.

That was how I found myself in a taxi going to Charlie's house twice in one month from the airport. We had caught the first flight out to Seattle and had packed a large suitcase with any clothes we could get our hands on. I had told Alice and Jasper that if anyone called or asked about Isabella Swan and he looked like the man in the photo I had given them, to lie and say that I had gone away to Europe on a tour with my boyfriend Edward. Rosalie and Emmett had been warned about Jacob but they knew him and after telling Rosalie my story she had promised that she would watch out for him, we were going to stay at their house seeing as there wasn't enough room at Charlie's. Rosalie told me that she had almost been raped once on the way home, luckily Emmett had come along on his round and stopped them single handed, they had been going out ever since then.

"Hi dad," I gave him a half smile as he opened the door and saw Edward and I stood on his doorstep, we had already been to drop of our stuff at Rosalie's.

"Isabella, Edward, what are you doing here?" I watched Charlie narrow his eyes at Edward slightly but I ignored it, he still thought of me as a little girl with pigtails.

"Dad I need to talk to you about something important, about why I left here and why I broke up with Jacob." He looked confused but let us in and led us into the living room, Sue was in there watching a film on TV and Leah was curled up on her phone. They both looked up as we entered and both their faces lit up; Sue turned off her film and rushed to hug both of us, Leah flung her phone on the chair and hugged me hard before holding her hand out to Edward, it made me laugh slightly but didn't take away the truth of why we had come here.

"What are you two doing here?" Sue asked gesturing for us both to sit down, we took the love seat, and Leah the armchair, Sue and Charlie sat on the sofa. Edward squeezed my hand; every eye in the room was on me.

I couldn't see to find my voice.

"You said it was about Jacob, about why you left?" Charlie said helping me out, I breathed out.

"Yeah well this is hard for me to tell you all because well...because you all like Jacob and think he is a good guy. First whatever I tell you, you cannot tell anyone else especially not Jacob unless I tell you okay?" I glanced as everyone nodded, Edward gave me another squeeze and I found the strength to carry on.

"I'll start from the beginning. After Jacob and I got engaged, you all remember we were going to have a long engagement, Jacob saw me talking to one of the guys in the local bookstore about their new books. Unfortunately he couldn't hear what we were talking about, it didn't really help that when I left he gave me a hug, and when I got home he accused me of cheating. It was because I wouldn't have sex with him –."

"Eww Isabella didn't need to know that bit!" Charlie had gone a slight pink colour and had flinched.

"As I was saying so he was angry and he beat me. The beatings continued for two months afterwards, it was always the same he saw me walking down the street with a guy behind me and he thought I was cheating. Anyway it all changed when he came home drunk and I smelled a woman's perfume on him, I accused him of cheating and he beat me again this time worse than before and he raped me. He raped me continuously for months until I went for my regular check up, the doctor told me I was pregnant. I went home and told Jacob, if I hadn't he would have killed the child but as it happens I needn't have bothered. When he found out he made me get rid of it, he went with me to that clinic in Seattle, and he even held my hand as I swallowed those pills hating myself more than anything in the world. But I still managed to hate him but not enough I still loved him in a weird way." Tears were flowing down my cheeks now, they were also flowing down Sue and Leah's, Charlie was red with rage and Edward's jaw was clenched with anger but I could also see the tears in his eyes about to spill over.

"The final straw came when I came home one night and found him in bed with another woman, when I walked in he turned around and started telling the woman that he wasn't getting any from me. I grabbed my car keys, my secret bank card and passport. After leaving Jacob a note telling him what he was to say when you asked about the break-up and I left you a note telling you where I was going. Edward already knows this story, I told him the night of your wedding when I left early; Jacob had begun harassing me while we were dancing and I couldn't handle it anymore I left and Edward brought me here."

"That's where you went, I wanted to talk to you about Embry but couldn't find you anywhere." Leah said and I nodded.

"Then yesterday Jacob turned up at my house in Florida, he threatened me and only left after Edward came out from the living room and started threatening him and protecting me. Jacob said that if I told the police about what he did he would kill Edward and hurt the people I loved until I came back to him. And now you know everything." I sat back and Edward's arm came to encircle my shoulders, I looked around the living room. Sue still had tears streaming down her face and there was anger in her face, it was almost the same as Leah's and Charlie was livid, which matched Edward's face to a tee except that Edward had a tear streak down his left cheek.

"Isabella," Leah sobbed and flew at me I hugged her close as she cried which made me start crying, then Sue started and we all stood in a big group hug crying, Edward and Charlie just looked at each other before getting up and prying us apart.

"Isabella, I believe you but do you have any evidence? Witnesses? People who can say that they saw something was off with the pair of you?" I shook my head- no. I had no evidence; the bruises he had given me had long since gone, there was no evidence of my baby anymore-.

"YES! I have evidence!" I yelled making everybody jump.

"The clinic in Seattle would have down on my records that I had an abortion at 3 weeks and my doctor saw all my bruises when I went for my check up and he could tell I had been raped but I told him not to say anything. I still have all of his contact information and know his telephone number if he still has the same one."

"Isabella, call him while I call the station, you have to write down a statement and a report card, get evidence and this doctor as a witness before we can arrest him and take him to court." Charlie turned into the chief of police as he walked into the hall to use the phone, Leah and Sue when in the kitchen to make lunch leaving me and Edward alone to phone the doctor and clinic and arrange an appointment.

Before I did anything however I reached up and wiped the tear streak away, his eyes went really soft and he kissed the tip of my nose before handing me my mobile.

I counted the rings before someone picked up at the clinic.

"Hello Seattle Pregnancy Clinic, Mrs Hunter speaking how can I help you?" I remembered Mrs Hunter; she had provided me with tissues as I cried.

"Mrs Hunter you may not remember me, my name's Isabella Swan, Bella Swan." I grimaced as I called myself Bella that is what Jacob had called me.

"Bella? Oh little Bella with brown hair, you were 3 weeks gone and you couldn't stop crying I remember you. Are you expecting again?" She sounded happy at the thought and I felt sorry for her, she was about to be disappointed.

"No I need to get a copy of my abortion form and you to testify that you saw me get an abortion and who was present."

"Okay pop in tomorrow at ten and I can sort those out for you, and then you can tell me the reason for your request. See you tomorrow morning at 10." She hung up and I was surprised at how easy it was to get the things I needed, I called the doctors number next.

"Hello, Doctor Aro Volturi speaking how can I help you?" I heard his voice and it reminded me of how understanding he had been when I had asked him to keep it all a secret.

"Hello Doctor, you may not remember me, I'm Isabella Swan. You saw me for the last time about 5 years when I came for a check-up and you told me I was pregnant." I crossed my fingers hoping that he remembered me, it was quite a few years ago and I imagined that he had had many patients after me and I wasn't really that special.

"Oh yes I remember though I haven't heard from you in some time. What can I do for you now Isabella?" I smiled at the warmth in his voice as he recalled me.

"Yes, if you aren't too busy tomorrow could me and my boyfriend come and see you?"

"Of course Isabella, about 1:30 good for you?"

"Yes thanks Doctor Volturi, see you tomorrow." I hung up and put my mobile back in my pocket just as Charlie walked back into the room.

"Did you contact them?"

"Yes I've got meetings with both of them tomorrow, luckily the doctor didn't change his number and they both remember me. I'll explain what I want them to do when I see them." I smiled a grim smile and Charlie nodded.

"Great, I'll come with you tomorrow then." He said sitting down on the sofa.

"No"

The word reverberated around the room and Charlie looked shocked.

"Excuse me Isabella?" Charlie's face was turning redder by the minute.

"I'm going with Edward and only Edward." I was set on this, Edward could support me if I broke down whereas Charlie was frightened by emotional outbursts and only panicked, and it was what he did whenever I had cried when I was little.

Charlie seemed to realise just what I was thinking, about emotions as he nodded.

"Right well Edward and I are going for a walk we will be back for dinner, I need to clear my head and since I didn't get to last time we were here, I'm going to show Edward around our little town of Forks." I walked out of the room, poking my head into the kitchen just to tell Sue and Leah before walking out of the house with Edward in tow.

"So Isabella where are we going?" I stopped in front of Leah's car which she had let me borrow for while I was here.

"We are going to a little place I know which gave me strength when I was going through those rough stages with Jacob. Nobody knows where it is except from me, I never told Jacob I just found it one day when he had been particularly hard and mean, it was so beautiful it just made me feel better and at peace." I drove down the road to where the town stopped and the forest started, Edward looked confused when I started walking through two trees.

"Come on Edward, you'll love it. It still makes me smile and looks beautiful at this time of year."

I stepped out into the sunshine of my meadow, Edward followed and stared around stunned. It was breathtaking; in the shape of a perfectly cut circle with lush green grass, lots of wild flowers and a small brook running in a curved line through the centre of the circle.

"It's lovely," Edward breathed; I sank down into the soft grass and lay down. I felt all of the stress, fear and terror leave my body and instead it was filled with calm and love. Edward sat slowly next to me; I could see the meadow had the same affect on him as it did on me.

"But not as lovely as you are Isabella," Edward murmured and I laughed softly until he kissed me and then I found my lips were preoccupied. I kissed him like it was going out of fashion and he obviously felt the same way, his lips were oh so soft moving in time with mine. With the right amount of pressure and his fingers knotted into my hair, my hands were running over his shoulders and twisting up in his hair.

"You're so cheesy!" I breathed trying to catch my breath once we broke apart, my lips were still tingling from that kiss and Edward's hands were still in my hair and mine in his.

"But you love me that way," he teased and smiled at me his breath fanning over my face.

"Yes I do, I wouldn't have you any other way."

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