This story is set in season 1 and runs its own course from there using bits and pieces from the show in desperate need of beta if anyone knows of one .This story well slowly reveal its secrets it well mostly be in Lily's POV but may change that later

STUCK IN THE PAST BUT WANTING OUT

It turned out I didn't need to follow him as he was in nearly all of my classes it seems like I'm not the only one chasing a normal life.

I had never personally meet Stefan but he's reputation proceeded him he actually seemed pretty nice besides I hadn't killed a vamp just for the sake of being one in years these days I researched a little deeper learning that vampires were just like us some were ok they just drank to survive but some the ones I took care of were pure evil and took pleasure in the kill I couldn't see Stefan as fitting into that category so I would do what I always did I would just watch see how things played out.

The day was over and before I knew it I was heading to the parking lot to meet Tyler .When I got there Tyler was MIA and so was his car great.

"He bailed after 6th period I said I would take you home."

"Ah my knight in shining armour whatever would I do without you Matt."

He just laughed I loved making him smile I don't know when It started but Matt was quickly becoming important to me It was becoming really hard to convince myself that I only liked being round him because he looked like Jacob.

"So are you coming to the grill tonight? I hear Elena well be there you might get a chance to talk to her."

"I don't know lil didn't you see the way she was mooning all over the new guy I'm pretty sure she hasn't got anything to say she's moving on even though she said she just needed time."

"Come on you need to talk this out with her I know you still love her Matt you need to talk it out."

"Fine your right we do need to talk but I just don't know anymore Lil, I don't know if Elena is what I want anymore."

"Don't be silly Matt she's all you have wanted since you were 5 that doesn't just change overnight. You can just drop me here I can walk the rest of the way up I'll see you tonight."

I could see that he wanted to say more but I just couldn't go there I knew were this conversation was going and I couldn't let it no matter how much I wanted it too he deserved better he deserved someone not twisted by their past. I guess I should have known things between Matt and I would head in this direction especially with Elena out of the picture.

When I first met him I tried to avoid him it kind of hurt being around someone that looked just like Jacob it brought up to many memories of the past but in the end I couldn't stay away and when I left we continued to talk on the phone almost every day and it wasn't long before we became close friends.

Then there was the summer before last that's when we became a little bit more than friends Tyler and Matt had come for a surprise visit and we had all spent the night drinking it wasn't long before Tyler passed out and I don't know how but Matt and I ended up in the bedroom and one thing led to another. He had felt so guilty in the morning saying how he loved Elena and it shouldn't have happened and I felt guilty too because I let it happen I wasn't drunk I just got lost in his touch it had been so long. I should have stopped it there but he still called everyday and I still let him I was just too lonely to let him go but I should have I'm not good for him I can't give him what he wants.

"You look lost in thought."

"Well if it isn't my MIA cousin thanks for ditching me at school"

"I didn't ditch you! I left you in Matt's capable hands I didn't think you would mind it being him and all."

"Oh shut up Tyler"

"What come on Lily you pair so have something going on no matter how much you both deny it?"

"Let it go Ty I don't want to talk about it."

"So how did you get my dad to let you have the pool house? I've been trying to convince them to let me move out here for months"

"Well I get the impression your parents don't really want me in the house so what else could they do they couldn't turn me away it would look bad"

"Why didn't you come sooner your parents have been gone for a long time"

"I wanted to try and make it on my own but it wasn't working so here I am."

"I'm glad you are you seem to be the only person in this family I actually like.

"So you coming to the Grill?"

"In a little bit got to change first I'll see you there"

When I got to the Grill I quickly bypassed Tyler and Matt at the pool tables and headed over to Bonnie and Caroline. I knew it was wrong to avoid Matt but I wasn't ready for that conversation.

We were hearing all about Stefan the new boy from Caroline when said boy walked in with Elena to say that Caroline was pissed would be a understatement and she wasn't the only one Matt had that same look written all over his face and he thinks Elena isn't what he wants anymore could have fooled me. It wasn't long before I got bored hearing all about Stefan and headed over to the boys dragging Caroline with me insisting I needed a doubles partner if I was to kick my cousins butt.

The nite didn't go to bad actually Caroline had soon came out of her sulk after eying off some hot guy and Matt didn't bring up our conversation from earlier obviously to distracted by Elena so all in all it was a fun night pity it ended with waking to find a strange vamp in my bed things were good till then.

Hope you enjoyed pls review good or bad just tell me what you think. ...Stardust