AN: HI! Oh god, I'm sorry. I said it won't take me too long to update and I'm truly sorry about that.
Anyway. I'm giving you guise a long, fluffly chapter. I really couldn't cut it. I didn't know where, why or what to cut so this is it.
About the chapter I usually talk too much so I'm not saying anything (Just that I wanted to exploit this relationship) Okay, that's it. Nothing else. Enjoy the fluff and I'm really sorry if you get tired while reading it but I don't think it's like that. I think it's very "light". I don't know. You'll be the judges.
Jules,
you're right. I'm sorry.
Goodbye.
Logan.
Yeah, that was okay. He didn't need to say much after what happened last night –he didn't know what else to say anyway. Logan had never been good with words, this wasn't an exception.
And this was… clear, short, straight to the point. In fact, he didn't need to see Julian to do it.
He just needed to stand up in front of the Larson's chalet and slid the note under the door. Then he will leave for good.
But why was it so difficult?
Why was he already standing in front of the door with the envelope in his hands and his body couldn't move?
The blond stood still. Just one move, Logan, one move. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath. Shit. Logan fisted the piece of paper and put it into his pocket. Fuck…Just…f-
And, suddenly, he felt a light tug on his coat, pulling it down a couple of times. The guy, in shock, looked down and gasped in horror.
Ugh. Double fuck.
Big green eyes were staring at him curiously. A little fist kept grabbing the edge of his coat. His other arm was hugging his new favorite stuffed animal.
"Uhm…hello?"
"Who are you?"
Logan blinked puzzled. Great, just… great. He hadn't considered this in his plans.
Besides, he was awful with kids. Awful "I'm –I'm Logan"
The little boy's eyes opened widely "Like me?" he grinned. Logan scratched the back of his head and furrowed his brow amused by how easily excited the boy got with little things.
Just like Jules back in school.
"Uhm… yeah. Yeah, like you" The little one chuckled, hugging his lion with both arms; never taking his dreamy eyes off of the blond.
"Yeah, but you're old!" he bit his lip trying to hide his Cheshire cat smile (god, he looked so much like his father). Logan frowned and replied annoyed.
"I'm not old! I practically have the same age as your dad!"
"Daddy is old too!" the little boy balanced from heel to toes, smiling. Logan narrowed his eyes and tilted his head a little.
And then he smiled.
"Maybe we're a bit too old…" The brunet chuckled, staring at Logan amused. The older one loosened up a little and put his hands on his pockets "Is your… dad here?"
Little Logan shook his head and began playing with his lion while talking "Dad went out. Mommy is buying me nice things" he quoted the last words his mom told him in the morning.
"And you are alone?" he frowned upset. Stupid Marianne, leaving his son alone in the woods. He hated her. He would never do that to his son.
The boy shook his head laughing "No! I'm with Dana! We're playing hide and seek!" But he suddenly seemed worried. Oh no… Logan thought. Shit, what did I do now? "I need to hide!" the brunet said in a rush while running towards the futon on the terrace and hiding under it. He put his little fluffy lion in a way that he could cover his face with it.
Logan frowned, not knowing what to do next "I should go then…" he was walking down the stairs when he heard a loud whisper coming from under the furniture.
"No! You should hide before Dana finds you!"
The blond smiled at the innocent boy "Uhm…I'm kinda old for hide and seek, don't you think?" Little Logan popped out his head and frowned. Why was he not willing to play with him?
"But daddy plays with me all the time!" He sneaked out from his hideout and brushed his clothes before speaking "Oh!" he exclaimed "You should meet Dana!" Logan froze for a second, which made easier to little Logan to grab his hand and drag him towards the chalet's backyard "Dana!" he yelled grinning.
A girl with black curly hair turned around in relief at the familiar voice calling her name. "Oh Logan, thank god!" She ran towards him and bend over, grabbing him by the shoulders "We said we're just gonna play in the backyard!" Logan chuckled innocently and looked up to the blond guy standing behind him.
"This is Old Logan!" his excited tone made Logan smiled, but it became uncomfortable when Dana straightened up and frowned at him.
"Logan, you shouldn't talk to strangers" she reproached.
The brunet frowned and pressed his lips upset "But he's my friend! He's gonna play with us!"
"Uhm…actually" Logan cleared his throat to catch their attention "I was just leaving"
The five year old stared at him disappointed and pulled his lion even closer to him. His eyes got teary, his pink lips became a thin line and then he lowered his head.
Oh crap.
Oh this is just fucking wonderful.
"Okay, no, uhm –No, don't cry" Logan bent on his knees to be at the same level than the little guy "I'll play. I'll play but –No. No. Stop crying, please!"
The brunet rubbed his eyes to clean his tears and asked with a broken voice to the blond in front of him "You gon' play?" Logan nodded desperately. The little one sniffed his running nose and then grinned widely "Yeay!" he jumped in excitement.
WHAT? Is he freaking bipolar? Ugh, kids…
"Dana!" he turned around at his nanny who seemed extremely confused "Dana you should go to sleep now!" he took Dana's hand and walked her to the backdoor "I'll play with Old Logan"
I am not Old!
Dana hesitated but then she saw how Logan approached them with a warm smile "Its fine. I'm friend with his parents. Julian and I –We –I…-"
"Dana!" Little Logan pulled down her hand to caught her attention with a pleading tone.
She sighed "Okay, I'll…" she fulminated Logan with her eyes as a warning "I'll go to sleep"
When she entered the chalet, she went straight to hide behind the curtains. Staring at them.
The hell she was leaving Logan with that guy alone.
Marianne was furious at her husband. And when she was furious at him she liked to drive to the nearest mall and buy everything she wanted to for hours.
She was furious because in the morning she woke up feeling emptiness on the other side of the bed.
"Wr'you goin'?"
Julian looked at her uninterested and kept buttoning his shirt "I have a meeting with LA and I can't get wi-fi here"
"Jul, we're on vacations" She grumped with her eyes still closed "Stop working"
Oh, come on, he didn't need this from Marianne. Not right now.
Besides, he couldn't sleep at all last night. Logan's eyes were staring at him every time he tried to close his.
"I'll be here by noon" he said dryly and grabbed his coat.
And he left the room.
Without kissing her goodbye.
That'll cost him two Marchesa dresses.
Logan stared awkwardly at the little boy –who was also staring at him in silence. They stayed there for a couple of minutes.
"So…" the blond man coughed "What kind of games do you play with your dad?"
The brunet considered the question for a moment and then he answered elated "We play cowboys! And with my trains! Oh!" he started bouncing. God, this kid had energy "And daddy tells me stories!" Logan laughed in delight at the image of Jules acting the whole story to his son's pleasure.
"Tell me a story!" Little Logan raised his arms thrilled about his idea. Still jumping, he was always jumping. Logan looked at him in horror.
"Uhm… a story?" he stuttered. This is why he wasn't good with kids. They ask for too much "Sure. Okay. Uhm-" Okay, a freaking story now "Okay, this is the tale of two cities –"
"Can one of the cities be named Logan?" the boy interrupted expectantly.
"Uhm, no. No, it's London and Paris" the brunet frowned in confusion "Okay. It was the best of times, it was the worst of times –" Great. Was he actually telling a five-year old a Dickens' story? Just great. What do kids read nowadays? What had he read at his age? Never again "It was the age of wisdom…" the little boy raised his eyebrows and turned around to play with his toys "No!" Logan shouted in desperation "Okay, this is a story about dinosaurs!"
Little Logan turned his head curious.
What the fuck do I know about dinosaurs?
"Scratch that, no" he laughed awkwardly and looked around trying to find some inspiration "ASTRONAUTS!" he shouted excited. He'd succeeded "It's a story about an astronaut!"
"And his name was Logan?" The boy turned around completely, eyes wide open at the blond. His grin became wider.
"Oh yes! Absolutely! Yes, Logan the astronaut. And he –uhm…" don't lose it, don't lose it, don't lose it "AND HE HAD TO KILL SPACE MONSTERS!"
The boy remained silent, glancing at Logan without even blinking. Fuck. This is impossible, I'm done. I don't know how Jules can handle it.
"What else?"
Logan frowned –so he was interested? –and smirked.
Julian parked the car and sighed. The meeting went well. Marianne and he hadn't fought since yesterday –actually, they'd barely spoke in the morning. And he believed that he made his point with Logan last night.
So why did he feel so miserable?
Ugh.
He walked silently towards the chalet and opened the door changing entirely his expression into a warm smile "Logan? Logan, daddy's here!" he took a deep breath and left his scarf on the couch "Logan?"
"Mr. Larson?" Dana's voice came from the other room. Julian walked towards her and smiled.
"Hi Dana, where's Logan?" he looked around without finding his son. Dana was seated on a chair staring through the window.
"He's outside, playing. He sent me to sleep" Dana rolled her eyes. All three of them found absolutely adorable when Logan acted as a grown up.
Julian also rolled his eyes "So he's playing outside all by himself?" he asked marveled. That was odd… Logan loved to play with his beloved nanny.
Dana bit her lip while shaking her head. How could she explain this? "That's why I'm here. He-" Julian frowned and walked to the window "Uhm-"
"Preparing to launch in three, two…ONE!"
He didn't need to see them. He could recognize that voice everywhere. How couldn't he?
The loud laugh that came after the countdown made him freeze.
FUCK! He opened the backdoor frantically and stared at them for a couple of seconds:
A blond man was lifting his son up to the air, spinning. The little boy spread his arms pretending to fly, he couldn't stop laughing.
And Logan, his Lo, he was smiling.
He was laughing.
He was playing with his son.
Julian stayed paralyzed just…looking.
But once his son saw him he got rid of Logan's grip and ran towards him "Daddy come play!" Julian snapped out and looked down to his son who was trying to drag him across the yard.
Boy, this was awkward.
Logan couldn't take his eyes off of Julian and vice versa. When he was close enough to him, Julian clenched his jaw and mumbled intensely.
"What the hell are you doing here?"
Before he could say anything, the other Logan answered bouncing "Daddy, I'm an astronaut!" he grinned "You have to help me fight the monster! I'm a prisenter!
The blond looked away from Julian's glare and smiled miserably at the boy "Prisoner, Logan. Is prisoner, not prisenter"
The five year old shrugged "Daddy, play with us! Help me!" Julian made a fist, closing his eyes. He was doing this for his son. He didn't want to see him upset. He took a deep breath and smiled back to him "Ok Lo. I'm gonna help you!"
He stared back at Logan who had a cocky look on his face "Lo?" he smirked at the actor.
Julian narrowed his eyes and swallowed hard "So, can I get a weapon?" he asked his son. Little Logan laughed sitting on a huge rock next to a tree, nodding "Good" he smiled mischievous at the blond and then started to look around.
"You can have a weapon?" Logan asked in disbelief, his jaw dropped when Julian came back with a long branch in his hands "WHAT? No, you can't have a weapon. Logan, he can't have a weapon!" he demanded to the little boy.
"No, I think I can Wright" he smiled mischievously and hit Logan in the arm.
"Ow!" he jumped back, frowning "Julian, what the hell are you doing!"
"Language, Logan" he hit him again with the stick "I don't want my son learning those words"
"Ow! Jules! Stop it!" he grabbed the branch at which the actor frowned and started punching him on the arm "Yes! That's mature, Larson!" The only noise in the background was little Logan's laugh and the wind blowing.
"Well…you-are-a-monster" Julian retorted, every word was another punch "I'm helping astronaut Logan" And at his name, the little boy stood up on the huge rock and started jumping, arms raised "Yeay! Go Daddy!" Julian looked for a moment at his son and stopped hitting the taller guy "Logan, careful. Don't step on the –Ow! WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?"
"Language, Jules" he furrowed his brow, smiling with the branch twirling in his fingers.
"Wait, you can't have a weapon" Logan frowned and Julian nodded arrogantly "You are a beast. Beasts don't know how to handle weapons" he said as-a-matter-of-factly.
"It's a stupid branch Julian. It's not a lightsaber…"
"Oh no, that's exactly what it is" he grinned taking the branch off Logan's hands and hitting him repeatedly on the torso "Logan and I are astronauts and Jedis, just so you know. So go away monster! Leave me alone! Leave my son alone! Go!"
"Well, then I need my own lightsaber" he took another branch by little Logan's side and waved it on the air. Julian frowned and yelled "You are a monster. You can't handle a lightsaber!"
"Why not?" Logan frowned. Then, he turned to look at the little boy who had both hands covering his mouth to control his laugh "Logan, I can have a lightsaber, right?"
The little boy was still giggling, seated on top of the rock. He stared at the blond with innocent eyes and uncovered his mouth with a grin "NO!" Logan's jaw dropped at the answer.
And, in a split of a second, he felt some force tackling him down. Julian began to punch him furiously on the ribs "Julian!" Logan tried to stop him "Ow! That hurts!" He wasn't willing to stop. Not after all the suffering that he provoked him. Not after all those years wasted in school. Not after coming here and began to ruin his life like he always did.
Not after seeing that they could've been a happy family if only Logan hadn't ruined them.
And Logan? He could tell. He could tell they weren't playing anymore. He could tell that Julian was actually trying to hurt him but his son was there, looking at them, cheering him up. He could tell and, for a moment, he let him punch him. Just for a little moment. He deserved it after all "Larson, stop it" he said calmly after a while. Julian didn't listen and continued, he tried to control his angry tears "Julian" Julian's son continued jumping "Go daddy, go!" It all seemed like a game to him, luckily. Yes, he wasn't good with kids but he liked Logan. He really liked him, he wanted to keep playing with him "LARSON!" Julian accidentally hit him on the jaw and that's when Logan lost it.
His pupils were dilated and he leaned forward to grab Julian by the arms and threw him to the ground. Again. "Get off me Logan!" Unlike last night, they weren't so passive. Julian was actually trying to hit Logan back and Logan wanted to do the same but Julian's arms were getting on his way.
"No, don't hurt daddy astronaut!" the little brunet got off the immense rock excited about their adventure "Bad monster, don't hurt daddy!"
I am not…hurting your fucking daddy! When tiny hands began slapping him on the back he frowned and looked at him. Logan was still laughing pleasantly; it was a game after all. Then he turned back to the guy under him. No, he wasn't hurting him…Was he? No, he hadn't even hit Julian; he'd never intended to do that. Not too hard at least.
But, yet again, he was on top of him; Julian was panting in rage; and the little boy next to him did say 'stop hurting my daddy'. Was he? Was he really trying to hurt him?
Logan calmed himself down and stood up. Julian's puzzled look stared at him until the blond stretched a hand to help the actor to stand up.
And after a moment of hesitation, Julian took Logan's hand and stood up. The blond didn't measure his strength when he pulled him up, and Julian's sudden proximity made him shiver. Quickly, he took a step back and stared awkwardly to the ground.
"Yeay! We won!" Logan started jumping like a pet bunny everywhere. He grabbed his little lion from the ground and hugged him tightly. He wasn't aware that his daddy was staring at the blonde man in confusion all that time "Go daddy!" he screamed running towards him and hugging his legs "I'm not a prisenter!" the boy said in a mocking tone, grinning.
Logan drew a small smile on his face at the little boy and then raised his gaze to meet Julian's brown eyes. And they seemed…so…confused. He could only study them for a second before Julian cleared his throat and looked at his son who was still hugging his legs "Okay Lo, time for you to take a bath" he smiled and little Logan frowned "Astronauts do takes baths, you know?" Logan wasn't buying it. He narrowed his big green eyes and then looked at the blond guy who blinked a couple of times before answering.
"Yeah, uhm…" he rubbed the back of his neck "Winners have to take baths for…" Fuck, I can't keep making things up "good luck?" The little boy grinned and grabbed his father by the hand walking with him towards the backdoor.
That was the first time in five years that Logan didn't put up a fight to take a shower.
Julian tucked his son in bed and kissed him on the head when he heard a soft knock on the door. He turned around and smiled politely "Come in"
Logan, as silent as possible, let himself in and closed the door behind him. He stood there watching the love of his life seated on the bed of his son watching him, loving him "He likes to sleep too?" He asked smiling without taking his eyes off of the little child. It was the first time that he could take a good look of him. It was kind of difficult with all the jumping and running.
"Heavier sleeper than me, can you believe that?" the actor sighed smiling and then he look at Logan "Sorry about that punch"
Logan began to rub his jaw and nodded "I think I deserved that"
"Yeah, you did"
They stared at each other for a moment, smirking –flirting?.
"Jules"
Julian stood up and took a deep breath, he crossed his arms "Logan, I'm still hoping you leave me and my family alone" his eyes never hesitated on where to look at.
"Yeah, that's what I was going to say" Julian raised an eyebrow, suspiciously. Logan sighed and explained "I was leaving. I came here to say goodbye. I was really leaving, and then Logan" he looked at the little guy who seemed so angelical in his sleep "well…your kid is really something" he chuckled.
Julian dropped his arms and nodded "Yeah, he is… he is awesome" his eyes showed Logan a huge love to the boy asleep. That was something he couldn't have with him. Not anymore.
"I am really sorry" he was looking for his eyes "for everything" and he found ones that were willing to heard him at last "And I won't say anymore because you'll think is bullshit" Logan realized his curse and mouthed a sorry, Julian rolled his eyes "But I love you" Julian's heart skipped a bit "I love you and…" he laughed softly shaking his head with his eyes closed "I can't believe that I'm saying this but…" when he opened them Julian saw the most beautiful tone of green that he had ever seen in ten years "I'll leave you alone"
"Well, I'm glad" Julian swallowed and tried to keep his coolness while talking. That was it. Logan Wright had entered in his life once again and, once again, he was leaving.
Leaving him.
"I just…" the blond frowned slightly. He had to get that out of his chest before he go "I just thought that…you and me…" he smiled "we could…-"
"You thought wrong, Lo" he cut him off with apathy.
'Lo…'
Logan took a step closer towards the actor and, no matter how much he wanted to shove him away, Julian's body wasn't responding. He stood there, face to face with the blond. The tips of their shoes were touching. Logan, carefully, moved a hand towards Julian's chin and lifted his head a little. Their eyes were locked on each other. The soft, warm touch of Logan made Julian felt chills everywhere. Just like he remembered it felt…
Logan leaned even closer.
He could feel his hot breath caressing his lips.
AN: haha. So? What do you guys think? Apparently little Logan likes Old Logan (and vice versa).
And yeah, that's the last part when...uhm...
I swear I'll update as soon as I have the time to type all down! (Oh my god, I just realized that this is twice longer so this thing might have even MORE grammar mistakes. So sorry about that :S)