"What the?" I asked, my eyes blinking slowly with my huge hangover. I remembered having too much to drink after Axel left me room, refusing to be intimate with me. I couldn't remember much else when I heard a voice.
"Scoot over."
"Kay." I did as was told before I realized that Axel was in my bed. "Where the fuck did you come from?!" I asked, completely confused to the blurry events of the night.
"My mom and dad, now shut it; I'm tired." Axel rolled over but I slugged him in the shoulder.
"Get out of my bed!" I said, getting out myself and standing, hands on hips, till I realized that there was nothing on my hips or on my body at all. "Where are my clothes?!" I asked, mainly to myself as I covered my dick with my hands.
Axel rolled over with a sigh.
"You've got to be kidding me." He sat up, rubbing his eyes.
"Where are my clothes? Why are you in my bed?" I shook nervously, cold, embarrassed, exposed.
"Did you really forget again?" He looked dead into my eyes and I shivered with a chill running down my spine, not sure if it was because I went from the warmth of my bed and his body to the open cold air, or if it was because of his icy glare.
"Forget what?" I asked quietly, almost scared to see his reaction.
"Dammit Roxas! You promised!"
"Promised what?"
"You know what? Fuck you! Fuck you!" He yelled angrily, getting out of my bed, naked, naked and beautiful as he got dressed.
"Why are you mad at me when I'm the one who's trying to figure shit out!"
"You shouldn't have to figure anything out. You seduced me last night, but I didn't want this to happen so I left, but then you banged on my door super loudly crying about how you wanted me to fuck you, but I told you we had to wait until you slept off the alcohol, but I made you promised not to forget and you did, then you fell asleep and apparently now you don't remember shit." Axel stood over me and I gulped as I tried to take in what had happened.
"You mean, you, I, I asked you to have sex with me?" I asked timidly and he rolled his eyes.
"Fuck off jackass." He turned around and left my room as I chased after him, not even realizing that I was still naked.
"Axe wait!" I was thankful that no one was in the hall and I managed to squeeze into his dorm before his door shut.
"Get out of my room." He said sternly but I tugged on his hand.
"I'm sorry." I cried and he pulled his hand free.
"I'm tired of hearing your shitty apologies."
"Please, I'm so torn." I don't know why, but at that instant, as I stood naked, in his room, knowing that he was mad at me, I broke down. I fell apart all because I didn't know if I loved him more than I hated him or if I hated him more than I loved him.
"Torn over what?" he asked calmly and I fell to my knees, holding onto his one of his hands.
"I don't know how I feel, and it hurts." I used one hand to clench near my chest as I imitated the way my heart felt, so complicated and unsure, but mainly painful.
"What do you mean?" he asked, kneeling in front of me, taking my hands and squeezing feeling back into them.
"I don't know if I love you for having been there for me, or if I hate you for leaving me." I cried, ashamed to have to confess to him, but he didn't get mad. He sighed as if he were tired, then he put his arms around me.
"Well, I guess you'll just have to think about it then." He said, rubbing my back, making me feel like I really could love him and his gentle touch.
"I want to love you, but I'm so angry at you." I hit him in the chest to show my frustration, but I felt him nodding as he continued to massage my back.
"I know, and I'm really sorry. I wish I could tell you."
"Why can't you?" I cried.
"I just cant." He said simply.
"I just want to know that you didn't forget about me." I sobbed and he squeezed me tightly. Talk about irony, considering all the times I had forgotten what we had or hadn't done in the past week.
"I could never think about forgetting you." He stroked my hair as I sniffled into his chest. "Calm down Roxy, it's ok. I'm sorry I yelled at you. I know I shouldn't expect you to remember promises you make while intoxicated, but I just want to believe you so damn badly. I'm just, I love you so much, I don't want you to forget me." He kissed my temple and I hated how pathetic I felt. I wanted to be that strong independent person that never relies on anyone for help, but I couldn't. There I was, on my knees, in his embrace, needing his touch, his voice, his love.
"I don't want to forget anymore." I sniffled and again I could feel him nod.
"Then why don't we try again, sober this time?" He perked my face up with his hand and I nodded through my tears. "Shh, no more crying." He kissed each tear drop away and I held onto his arms, loving how strong they were without being bulky.
"I'm sorry." I said, not really know why I was apologizing, but feeling like I should.
"It's ok Roxas. Just, just don't lie to me or forget, ok?" he asked, never before looking as vulnerable as he did when he asked.
"I won't." I offered a small smile and he smiled in return.
"Come on, let's hug it out." He said with a chuckle before he squeezed me, providing warmth to my bare skin. I held onto him too as I tried to memorize the feeling of his embrace.
"I'm going out with some friends tonight, to karaoke. You want to come?" he asked and I nodded.
"It, it sounds like fun." I almost smiled. I wanted so badly to be a part of his life. I wanted him to hold me. The more I thought about those dreams, about those flashbacks, the more I craved him. I wanted his attention, I wanted his love. I was still too scared to return it just yet, but I wanted to try.
"Yeah, I'm sure it'll be great. So far it's just Demyx and his boyfriend, and us, but it's better in smaller groups anyway." Axel shrugged.
"I've never been." I bit my lip.
"I'm sure you have a beautiful singing voice." Axel winked at me, causing me to blush. It was awkwardly quiet before he coughed. "Ahem, as sexy as you are, you might want to think about putting some clothes on before we leave." Axel smirked before I rushed my hands to my parts.
"Shit!"
"Haha, just so you know, I haven't directly touched it with my hands."
"Your hands?" I asked.
"My thigh might have rubbed up against it in our sleep." Axel helped me to my feet and rubbed my hips with his heated palms.
"Axe, don't!" I begged.
"Why not?" Axel asked curiously.
"Cause," I whimpered, twitching as I tried to fight back the pleasure I was all too easily receiving.
"Are you serious?" Axel looked downward and when I realized that I was starting to go erect, I turned around. "Wait! Where are you going?" He grabbed my hand.
"I, it's, I'm so embarrassed." My eyes swelled up as I whispered.
"Of what?" he asked, almost chuckling, as if my claim where preposterous.
"Being so hard so easily." I glanced at my toes, wanting to disappear.
"Rox, that just means that I make you feel good. If you're ashamed of that, well, then, I don't even know what to say. Honestly, it makes me feel proud, that I can stimulate you." He smiled so sweetly, I nearly forgot we were discussing such a dirty topic.
"Really?" I kept a hand over my junk as I asked in disbelief.
"Yeah." Axel smiled before he took two steps closer to me. "I love you Roxy." He kissed my lips as he held my waist.
"I missed you." I held my arms around his neck.
"I missed you too." Axel accepted my bull shit way of avoiding those three words of love.
"I should get dressed." I took a step back and covered myself.
"I'll get you when we're about to leave, ok?" he asked and I nodded, scurrying out of his room but not before he slapped my ass.
"Ow!" I hissed, turning around sharply.
"Sorry, too cute." He said with way too much enthusiasm as I rolled my eyes.
"Blondie! Oy, blondie!" Axel knocked loudly on my door thirty minutes after I had left his room.
"Hey," I opened my door in my faded blue jeans and blue hoodie. Axel was wearing grey skinny jeans and a black jacket over a black T shirt, very simple, yet somehow way more attractive than one would guess.
"You ready?" He asked, waving behind him to show that Demyx and his boyfriend, Zexion, were waiting in the hallway of our floor.
"Yeah," I turned off my lights and joined them to Axel's car.
"I'm Zexion," the boy with a dark green T shirt and black cargo pants introduced himself.
"And you remember me, Demyx!" The blonde with the sky blue T shirt under a white button up shirt pointed to himself. He was wearing baggy jeans, but he completely pulled off the cute lazy boy look.
"Yeah, I'm Roxas." I smiled politely.
"Do you like karaoke?" Demyx asked and I shrugged.
"I've never been."
"Really?" he seemed shocked. "I love music!" He cheered in the front seat as Axel drove us.
"So how long have you two been dating?" I asked Zexion while Axel and Demyx chatted away.
"About nine months, huh Demy?" Zexion said loudly to get his boyfriends attention.
"Huh? Yeah sure," Demyx waved without turning around before he continued his conversation with the driver. Zexion and I chuckled to ourselves before we talked about classes.
After another fifteen minutes, we were going into our private karaoke room where we had access to unlimited drinks for an all nighter.
"This is going to be SO much fun!" Demyx took one of the two microphones and started selecting a song.
"I don't think I'll be able to stay awake the whole night." Zexion stretched before he got comfortable sitting next to his boyfriend. The room was small but had a table between two couch-like benches with a TV on the main wall.
"Yeah, I usually don't stay up too late." I sat next to Axel, wanting to get cozy, but yet, still frightened for a reason I couldn't really explain.
"Well let's just see how long we can last." Axel took the other microphone.
We ordered our first round of drinks and I knew that if I wanted a successful time with Axel, I needed to have enough alcohol to have guts, yet not half as much as I recently drank, where I forget everything that happens. I got a beer while Axel got a gin tonic, and Demyx and Zexion each shared different types of cocktail drinks.
I watched as Demyx and Axel sang a few songs, with Zexion joining in on a few, but was too shy to sing anything myself. They kept offering me the microphone but I refused politely for nearly a whole hour before Axel held the microphone stubbornly up to my mouth.
The thing is, they all thought I was refusing to sing because I was embarrassed and nervous that I'd suck. In reality, I actually have a pretty decent voice. I mean, I'm not like CD record level or anything, but when I had friends, they used to ask me to sing cause they liked my voice. It's not like I'm ashamed or anything, but I just didn't want them to get all awkward, or expect me to sing more than I was willing to. But after Axel's persistence, I opened my mouth and started singing these cute romance songs.
"Damn!" Demyx's eyes went wide. He had a really nice singing voice too, but he went silent once my voice became audible on the speakers within our room.
"Holy shit Roxy!" Axel smiled at me as I continued to sing. Once I hit the last chorus, I took the microphone on my own and Demyx joined in again.
"I don't want another pretty face, I don't want just anyone to hold, I don't want my love to go to waste, I want you and your beautiful soul," we continued our duet until the end, when Axel and Zexion clapped.
"You didn't tell us you could sing." Zexion said and I shrugged.
"It's not like I took lessons or anything."
"He's just naturally amazing." Axel smiled at me as I blushed.
"Thanks guys," I shrank back into my shy side as I passed the microphone back to Axel. We decided to go for our third round of drinks when Demyx looked at the menu.
"Hmmm, do you want another cocktail babe?" Demyx tapped his lip as he glanced at our options.
"No, something with vodka." Zexion scrolled through song options.
"Vodka?" Axel looked surprised.
"He likes it." Demyx shrugged. "What about you Axe?"
"Umm, give me something with whiskey." Axel smirked.
"It looks like piss." Demyx shivered in disgust.
"Is not." Axel rolled his eyes.
"What about you blondie" Demyx looked to me. "You want hard alcohol too?
"Nah, not a good idea; he doesn't handle his alcohol well." Axel patted my back.
"I'll just have another beer." I decided that it was better to play it safe by ordering something lighter than what the others were drinking.
"What are you getting Dem?" Axel asked, and Demyx told us it was a surprise before he went to give and receive our orders. When he returned he had a large tray with a ton of glasses.
"Dude, there are ten glasses on this tray, and three of us." Axel looked at his friend with a suspicious look.
"Whiskey for Axel, vodka for Zexy, beer for Roxas, and seven glasses of gin for me." Demyx clapped.
"Dude, not the best idea," Axel warned in concern but that didn't stop the blonde as he chugged every glass, twitching between breaks from the no doubt harsh dry burn in his throat.
"Demy, stop," Zexion tugged on Demyx's arm after the fifth 'shot' of a decent sized glass.
"Ok ok," Demyx took a deep breath, his body slightly swaying.
We continued to sing away for another hour as Demyx slowly downed his last two cups, Zexion ordered a couple more cocktails, and I actually shared some beer with Axel.
"This is fun." Zexion smiled at me since he and I started to do most of the singing since Demyx hit a brick wall and took a thirty minute nap. When he woke up, he started taking sips of the unfinished cocktail drinks on the table.
"He's going to puke before the night is over." Axel laughed at the clumsy blonde.
"Nu-uh! I'm not even that drunk!" Demyx laughed hysterically while Zexion and I sang a duet.
"Dude, you look like your fucking wasted." Axel laughed along. Demyx shook his head before he slipped off of his bench and fell onto the floor, laughing at himself before he put a hand to his stomach.
"Uh-oh." Demyx stood up and ran out of the room.
"I'll go," Zexion rolled his eyes and chased the tall teen to the bathroom.
"They're crazy." Axel smiled at me as I smiled back.
"Thanks for inviting me." I wanted so badly to lean slightly forward and rest my head on his shoulder.
"Thanks for coming." Axel looked deep into my eyes.
"Axe?" I bit my lip.
"Yeah?" He looked down at my mouth, as if the word 'kiss' was on his tongue.
"I," I inhaled deep, my eyes slowly closing.
"Hm?" Axel leaned forward, his eyes looking from mine back down to my lips as I gulped. We were going to kiss. I could feel the magnetic pull drawing me towards him when Zexion opened the door, causing both of us to sit up perfectly straight.
"So stupid." The slate haired boy muttered.
"He ok?" Axel asked.
"Yeah, he's much better now that he puked several times." Zexion reached for his wallet.
"Everything ok?" Axel inquired.
"Yeah, I'm going to go to the convenience store around the corner to buy him a toothbrush and toothpaste. I'll be back." Zexion left before Demyx returned to our room, tripping over his feet, plopping lazily onto his couch, slipping to the floor, and laughing as Axel pulled him back up.
"Ok, maybe you should lie down." Axel situated his friend.
"No, I need to brush my teeth so I can make out with Zexion." Demyx was persistent to stay awake.
"Yuck, too much info dude." Axel shook his head with a smirk. "Why am I always the babysitter?" Axel sighed as he made sure that Demyx was alright. I continued to sing on my own with some occasional help from Axel, and it was nice to feel like I was actually able to be good at something. I'm kind of used to hiding behind other people's shadows, but to see how impressed Axel, and drunk Demyx, were from hearing me sing, it made me feel accomplished.
When Zexion returned, Demyx stumbled to the bathroom to clean his mouth, but as he was away, Zexion yawned.
"You ok?" I asked.
"I'm dead tired. I was really looking forward to having this date since I've been so busy with exams and reports for class, that I haven't had much time with Demyx. I've been so exhausted from all the schoolwork, and now the all nighter and walking to go buy a fucking toothbrush." Zexion let out a deep sigh as he closed his eyes. "I think I'm going to lie down until Demyx gets back." Zexion got cozy on his bench and within two minutes, he was snoring lightly.
"I'm back!" Demyx returned with his toothbrush and toothpaste in hand.
"Good timing, your boy is out cold." Axel chuckled.
"Are you serious?" Demyx looked a bit disappointed.
"How are you feeling?" Axel asked Demyx.
"Much better. I puked again." Demyx nodded with a sincere smile.
"You're such an idiot." Axel chuckled with a shake of his head.
"Not one of my better ideas." Demyx admitted with a shrug.
"No shit." Axel selected a new song. "Next time, it's my turn to get wasted and you have to baby sit me."
"Haha, oh alright fine." Demyx gave a sarcastic eye roll.
"Sometimes I hate being the one in college with a car. Stupid designated driver." Axel scoffed before he began singing.
"Night Zexy." Demyx let his sleeping boyfriend use his lap as a pillow before we decided to drink water and soda for the rest of the long night.
While Axel and Demyx were singing a rock song, I decided to fake a tired yawn, stretch my arms, and lean against Axel's chest. The redhead put his arms around me, pulled me into his lap, and offered to share the microphone with me. We remained like that for a while as I grew sleepy from the all nighter. After just a few more hours, Zexion woke up.
"Hey guys." He sat up, his eyes barely open, his hair a mess.
"Morning baby." Demyx rubbed Zexion's arm.
"How long was I asleep for?" Zexion looked around the room.
"About three hours." Axel checked his watch.
"Damn, I'm tired." Zexion yawned.
"Well it's time to go anyway." Axel patted my hip, so I stood up.
"Oh, did you use the toothbrush?" Zexion asked Demyx, who nodded.
"Sorry I fell asleep." Zexion winced.
"It's ok sweetie, I'm glad you got your rest." Demyx kissed his boyfriends cheek.
"But, I've been so busy, and this was supposed to be our date. I'm sorry I ruined it." Zexion looked so sad about having slept through a good chunk of the night.
"It's alright Zexy, we can nap when we get to my dorm." Demyx took Zexion's hand as we left.
The drive back to campus was quiet, all the way up until we walked down our hall.
"Well guys, it was fun." Demyx waved as he and Zexion went into his room.
"See ya!" Axel waved too before he and I stood right outside our doors.
"So," I looked away.
"I had a good time." Axel said.
"Me too." I nodded.
"Are you going to go to bed now?" Axel asked and I shrugged.
"Yeah, probably."
"If you want, you uh, you can," Axel rubbed the back of his neck.
"I can…?" I waited for him to finish.
"You can stay the night in my room." He offered.
"Don't you mean the day?" I chuckled.
"Oh yeah, day, hah," Axel looked nervous, so I nodded to help him out.
"Ok, thanks." I said quietly.
"Really?" he asked and I nodded again. "Ok, come on," he took my hand and we walked into his room together. He cleared his bed of his sweater and backpack before we crawled into the blankets, still in our clothes, but way too tired to give a damn.
"Night." I inhaled deeply before I felt his arms slip around my waist.
"Goodnight Roxy." He held me as my exhausted body fell into a deep sleep.
Author's Note: Ok, so this chapter took me a while to write because it's actually based on something I experienced not too long ago. I went out to karaoke with three friends, none of us are dating each other though. So anyway, you're probably wondering which character I was in the karaoke scene, right? Can you guess? Was I Roxas: the one who didn't want to sing, but am actually pretty good, happy to be reminded that there is something I'm good out. Was I Axel, the one laughing at friends who got wasted since I have to be the mature responsible one, but still had fun while drinking whiskey, getting made fun of cause it looks 'like piss'? Was I Demyx, the idiot who chugged too much gin and needed a toothbrush but then was disappointed to see someone I like fall asleep which means no kiss? Or was I Zexion, the one who had to buy the toothbrush but fell asleep due to exhaustion from trying to stay up all night since I've been so busy with exams?
I'm curious to hear your guesses! I'll post the answer at the end of the next chapter! If enough people guess (even if incorrectly) I'll write an Akuroku one shot for Halloween. If a lot of people guess correctly, I'll write a Soriku one shot in addition! Have at it! Lol
So this chapter didn't have too much for plot…but it does help set things up for the next chapter, plus it is based off of what I experienced which makes it realistic, and who doesn't love Demyx and Zexion? lol
To ReliveTheGreat: Ahh, you will find out soon….ish lol. Thanks for reviewing!
To Kindofabadger: Yes, more Demy in this chapter, and I love him so uber much, glad you do too!
To ChibiSeme97: Love is painful, it's really hard sometimes, but that's why I love fanfiction, it gives me hope hehe. Thanks for the review!
To twilighttimefan: Thanks! I wanted a story with more than just 2 characters, so I added Demyx and Zexion in for fun hehe
To ZeltaFrost: I love Roxas too, not as much as Sora in the games, but I do relate to him more easily in fanfiction, although for cosplaying I prefer Sora. Actually all my friends call me Sora, half think its actually my real name O.o hehe. Yes, fireman Axel is adorable!
To AliceofHoenn: Yes, childhood sweetheart is a perfect way to put it! I love it lol. Yes, I'm in japan, and it's pretty cool although its so different from what I'm used to that it's a bit of a challenge. Awww, thank you! No need to apologize, I consider myself a geek especially for Kingdom hearts! Thanks for the bows *bows back* hehe.
To Cirxe145: No, nothing seemed random! Awww, I hope you feel better. Sadly I'm late on updating so by now I'm really hoping you feel much MUCH better, but yeah, maybe Akuroku can be some medicine for ya! Lol
To FormidableRain: I don't mind pushy suggesting, although I've always been the type to do what I want regardless of opinions, but I read and take in every review, so thank you. I got a lot of positive feedback with the flashbacks, so I don't think it's really a matter of "too much" or "not enough" but a matter of entertainment and being able to understand what happened, which explains what currently is. Hopefully you didn't mind that this chapter wasn't too "plot developing" but every scene happens for a reason ^_^ Thanks for reviewing!
To Purple Rin Ninja: Hahaha, I love the smell of yaoi in the air! Awww, I'm sorry I made you wait so long for an update! And you are welcome for the late bday wish!
To XMoymoy: Awww, you are really too kind! I couldn't stop blushing when I read your review, it really was such a great encouragement, thank you a million billion times! Hahaha, I love writing drunk characters, although it doesn't complicate the plot so it's a bit tricky, but I'm glad that you enjoyed it! Awww, I'm honored to hear that you think my story is worthy of such a review as the one you wrote, and you'll find out about Axel's reasons soon! Thanks again for such a wonderfully kind review!
To RoxasVentusHikari: Funny how you said the backstory was short when I got another review that it was 'useless'…..people are so hard to please sometimes lol. Personally I thought it was short too though, so I'm glad you agree hahaha. Congrats on the B's! I got an A on my Japanese speech and I find out in a few days how I did on my recent exam, super scared! Yeah my dad was a marine and I grew up training for the military way, so even though I know I'm not ready, I still feel somewhat prepared. Thanks, it'll still be a little way off in the future, so until then, I shall continue writing! Thanks for reviewing ^_^
To Paige: Thank you for the feedback!
To SKITTLESONTHEGRASS: Nice name, I love skittles lol. And thank you for your review!
Don't forget to 'vote' on which character from karaoke you think is based off of me! I'll try to update the next chapter within the week!
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