I couldn't dig myself out of the hole I buried myself in. For weeks, Axel wouldn't look at me, wouldn't say hi to me as I walked by; nothing. I felt like I should apologize, and I didn't know if its pride or fear, but something was keeping me from facing him. Perhaps it's shame. Either way, he hadn't thrown any kinds of parties and hadn't been seen for a while. Usually I can see or hear him daily, but it had been six days and I was wondering if he's really ok.

Of course, that was before I walked out of my door to shower to find that complicated redhead walking side by side with another redhead; a girl. She was short compared to him, and had these bright blue eyes and big smile, and for reasons I either don't know or don't want to admit, I had this anger in my heart.

Axel was smiling and even laughing and right when he made eye contact with me, she kissed his cheek. As much as I hated it, my jaw dropped, my face turned red, and I had to run to the showers to hide safely. It took every bit of strength not to turn around and see if he had even noticed that I had just started crying. I couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't care about him, cause it just hurt so badly. With the shower water burning my skin, I cried silently, telling myself to forget about him; to move on. I was the idiot that rejected him when we last spoke, but I only did that for his own good, and for mine too. It's too hard to fall back in love with your first love, because even when you don't want to love them, you cant help it. Dammit, does this mean that I'm admitting that I love him? Well, I guess that's beyond arguing now. Doesn't matter anymore; from now on, he's nothing but a distant memory and a neighbor.

I turned off the water, dried off, wrapped the towel around my waist, and carried my things back to my dorm at the very end of the hall in the corner. And of course, at the end of the hall facing the entire row of doors, is Axel's room. And just my luck, his door was wide open as he sat on his floor with that redhead girl sitting beside him…with her head on his shoulder.

I looked away as quickly as I could and fumbled with my keys in my nerves, unable to get it directly into the lock. After I sighed loudly and dropped my shit on the ground, I heard a voice behind me.

"Need help?" I turned to see that girl and I turned a bright red.

"Um, I got it." I said, bending over in my towel to pick up my stuff.

"I'm Kairi."

"Roxas."

"Roxas, I've heard about you, from Axel." Kairi crossed her arms and I couldn't tell if that was a good thing or bad, but I figured, given the circumstances, it was the later.

"Oh." I said, a bit stunned, but surprised when I got my key to open my door. "Well, nice meeting you." I hid quickly behind my door, shut it, and locked it with a sigh.

So, that's his girlfriend? She's pretty, and has a nice figure, but still. I guess, this is how it feels, to be…replaced? What am I talking about? We didn't date, it's not like I dumped him and he got her off his rebound. But then, why am I jealous? Jealous. Is that, this feeling? I'm mad at her, at Kairi, when I shouldn't be, and I'm sad. I think that's jealousy. And at the same time, I have a strong urge to cry, even though I just did. I put a hand to my eye, surprised to see that I was already crying. I sniffled, changed into my pajamas, and got into bed. I don't want to be this sad anymore. For weeks, I've been feeling this guilt, and even though I don't want to admit it, I miss him.

That night I dreamt about our childhood pasts, about a time when I got jealous of Axel. I remember being in my room and I looked out my window and I saw him walking home from his kindergarten with a blue haired boy. I was still a year too young to go, but as I watched Axel wave goodbye to his friend before going into his house, I couldn't help but growl.

He was mine, my Aki, no one else's.

When Axel came into my room that night, I was so hurt that I didn't even greet him as I remained on the floor, playing with my toy race cars.

"Hi Roxy." Axel sat down by me and pulled his favorite fireman truck out of his pocket. It was his lucky car that he always used to play with. I was still silent as I remained stubborn. "Are you ok?" he asked and I shook my head. "What's wrong?"

"You, you lied to me." I whispered.

"No I didn't," he said as if he were thinking back to everything he had ever told me.

"Uh huh! You told me I was your best friend." I sniffled.

"You are my best friend." He smiled, but I only shook my head.

"Then who's that boy you were with earlier?" I didn't want to look controlling, but hell I was five and jealous.

"What boy?"

"The one with the blue hair." I said.

"Hmm, oh, Saix!" Axel snapped as if he remembered, I looked at his hand before I tried to snap myself, but I failed. Axel only giggled.

"It's not funny!" I said like a grumpy child who skipped naptime.

"Shh, it's ok Roxy. Saix is a friend, but you're my best friend. That's why I came here tonight, and not his house." Axel smiled. It made sense, so I smiled back.

"Can you teach me how to do that, with your fingers?" I asked with a blush as Axel taught me how to snap.

"Roxy?" Axel asked about an hour later.

"Hm?" I was busy playing with my action figures as Axel stood up.

"I need to go home." Axel stood up, but I switched my attention from my toys to my best friend.

"No!" I begged.

"I have to." Axel frowned.

"But, but then I'll be all alone." I sniffled.

"I don't want to go." Axel said as if he didn't have a choice.

"Then don't." I pouted. "Please?" I begged. "I don't want to be alone, and you're my best friend."

Axel looked out my window before he sighed.

"If I don't go, I'll get in trouble." Axel whispered.

"Kay," I felt a tear go down my cheek.

"Roxy don't cry." Axel hugged me.

"I always hate when you go home. Especially when you don't spend the night with me. I like our sleep overs." I gulped.

"I like our sleep overs too." Axel kissed my nose. I smiled wide with a blush as I squeezed him tighter.

"Please don't go." I pleaded one last time.

Axel sighed before he nodded. "Ok, I'll stay." He gave me a weary smile before I clapped.

"Thank you!" I squeezed him even tighter as he laughed, chocking for air.

"Roxy!" he giggled, "I need to breath you know!"

"Hehe, sorry!" I kept my arms around him.

"Come on, it's your bedtime." Axel said, knowing me so well, he knew just how to take care of me.

"Ok." I didn't bother to argue since the promise of being held was too tempting to say no to. Of course when morning came, Axel was already gone, and I couldn't have been more sad, until that evening came and I realized that things could have gotten worse, cause they did. My mom went into my room and yelled at me for no good reason, and after her screaming ended, I was crying so hard that she told me to go away. I didn't want her to yell at me anymore so I went to my secret place, hoping that Axel would go there to cheer me up. I got part of my wish as I saw that Axel was already there when I was, only, he was crying too.

"Aki?" I sniffled, still getting out my tears as Axel sat on his knees with a hand on his face.

"Roxy?" he seemed surprised to see me, but not even in a good way. "Why are you crying?" he sniffled himself, but as always, he was more concerned with me.

"My mommy hates me." I started to get worked up again.

"Shh, it's ok Roxy." Axel held me against his chest as I calmed down. "It'll be ok." Axel tried to smile for me, but he looked hurt.

"Why are you sad?" I asked and he put a hand to his cheek, which looked swollen.

"It hurts," he said quietly.

"What happened?" I looked closer to see a bruise.

"I fell." He whispered.

"Here, a kiss will make it better." I smiled before I gently pecked his cheekbone.

"Thank you Roxy." Axel smiled.

"Does it feel better?" I wondered if my idea really worked.

"Mhm." He nodded, knowing that his lie would cheer me up.

"Good. I can give you another if it'll help more." I offered.

He thought for a little bit before he nodded. "Yes please."

I giggled before I kissed his bruise once more. We played outside for a little bit before we walked back towards our houses.

"Are you staying with me tonight?" I asked, noticing how he already started walking to his house.

"I can't." he said with a frown.

"But," I felt horrible for guilting him, but I couldn't control how sad his news made me.

"I'm sorry." He pouted.

"I can't sleep unless you hold me." My lower lip quivered.

"Roxy," Axel sounded conflicted. "Here, I'll tuck you in right now, but then I have to go." Axel said, and since I knew I had nothing to lose, I agreed.

He watched me climb into bed and tried to pull the blankets up, but I stopped him.

"Can you hold me? Just for five minutes." I held up four fingers before I quickly added my thumb.

Axel frowned before he nodded. "Ok. Five minutes Roxy." Axel climbed in.

I felt horrible, but I intentionally held onto him and pretended to fall asleep so he couldn't leave easily. He tried to squirm free but I wouldn't let him, and when he tried to peel my body away from his, I whimpered in a fake sleep. After a few minutes he gave up, and to my surprise, he fell asleep before I did. He was snoring, and even in the dark I could see his bruise getting worse. I wondered how sleepy he must have been, since crying always made me want to sleep. Instead, I fell asleep soon after, and when I woke up to see him in my arms, I smiled. I gave him a light squeeze, and when he woke up, he panicked.

"Hm?"he sat up quickly, rubbing his eyes.

"Morning." I sat up with crazy bed hair.

"Roxy!" Axel panicked with a giant frown. "I need to go." Axel rushed out of my bed.

"But," I followed him to my window.

"I need to go home." Axel looked so sad, and almost…scared.

"Kay." I looked down to my feet.

"I'll be back later, ok?" he gave me a quick smile and patted my head before he climbed out the window and went home. I sat on my floor, bored, sad, and lonely for about thirty minutes before I heard the worst sound imaginable to my five year old mind.

It was the sound of Axel screaming, shrieking, in pain. I stood up slowly and looked out my window at his house and after a minute, I saw his back gate open. I gulped before I saw him running into the forest, to our secret place. I dropped my toys and ran out my window, following after. When I got to the secret place, he was lying down on his tummy, his arms around his face.

"Aki?" I sat next to his side and rubbed his back as he cried. I cried nearly every time I saw him, and he had hardly ever cried, so it scared me.

"Are you ok?" I asked when he never responded to my presence.

He rolled to his side, his lips shaking as he sniffled.

"What happened?" I asked, feeling scared for the answer.

"I, I got spanked." Axel put his hand on his bottom.

"W-why?" I gulped nervously.

"Cause I was supposed to be home." Axel sobbed. I knew it was my fault, so I started crying.

"I'm sorry," my eyes silently leaked.

"It, it hurts." Axel fell back on his tummy. I lowered my face and kissed his pants, hoping to help however I could.

"Does it feel better?" I asked shyly. Axel slowly moved to his side again before he nodded. I gave a small smile in response. Axel sat up on his knees, occasionally coughing up a tear before he messily wiped his eyes.

"Are, are you ok?" he asked and I nodded. He was the one who got punished, but he was more worried about me.

"Do you have to go home?" I asked, not wanting to get him into any more trouble.

"No, we can go play in your room if you want." Axel offered with a smile. I nodded before we held hands, walking back slowly.

"How's your bottom feel?" I asked as we made it inside my room.

"Better." Axel clearly lied, since he took a long time to sit down awkwardly. I didn't question it so I smiled.

"Good." We played together that day, but when he told me he had to go home that night, I didn't argue. I hugged him goodbye and watched him leave. He didn't show up for the next two nights, but I waited with my window and heart open all the same.

When I woke up the next morning, I felt so depressed. I felt guilty for the flashback reminder of the trouble I got Axel into, and I felt so jealous of my past self. I used to be so possessive of Axel, and he always seemed to love it. And now, now we arent anything and we're both hurting. Is it really my fault? I wanted to change things, but when I opened my door to see Axel holding hands with Kairi, I shrunk back into my room. Of course, right when I'm ready to own up to my mistakes and take responsibility, Axel gets a girlfriend. That's just my luck. Through the little eye-hole in the door, I saw them hug tightly, then she kissed his cheek and he kissed hers back. I guess she's leaving back to wherever she's from. Good. I don't want to see her again. I don't want to be remembered of what I let get away.

I opened my door later that night to shower and when I saw Axel doing the same, I grunted to myself. Now I was mad at him, and even though I knew that it was just my immature jealous nature, I didn't care.

"Can you hand me a paper towel?" He asked as we washed our hands and I fell silent, since that was the first time he'd talked to me in a long time.

"Huh?" I asked, frozen.

"Paper towel?" Axel asked again and I handed it to him quickly. "Thanks." He said, happy; it must be because of Kairi. He probably got laid, that's why he's so unexplainably happy. She makes him feel good, when all I did was stress him out, whether we were five, or twenty.

"Is your girlfriend still here?" I asked, trying to make it seem like I didn't care, but I'm sure he saw right through me.

"Kairi?" Axel took a wild guess and I nodded. "She went home today. I miss her already."

"I'm sure you do; she's pretty." I added and he turned to face me.

"Watch it, she's my,"

"I know, she's your girlfriend, it's not like I want her anyway."

Axel looked at me funny, like he was confused, then he got serious as he asked, "Then who do you want?"

I could feel my own eyes widening. Shit. This wasn't good. For weeks all I've been able to think about is him and how much I wish we didn't have to fight so much, but I still wasn't ready to tell him anything.

"No one." I cleared my throat.

"Is that so?" He asked, like he was sad.

"What's it to you?" I asked, getting angry that he was teasing me. He has his girlfriend; he has someone to make him smile, but here I am, still without my parents approval and now without Axel's.

"Maybe I still want you." Axel looked away and I could feel this weird aching in my heart. It wasn't painful, like it usually had been of late, but it was more…anxious. Wanting. Yearning for his smile to be given as a result of something I said, or something I did. Yearning for his approval and care.

"You… you want me?" I asked, as if I could hardly understand the language he had been speaking.

"Of course I do. I told you, when we were kids, that I'd always want you." Axel returned his eyes to mine and then it was my turn to look away.

"But, you have a girlfriend." I said, reminding him of how hurt I was to see him taken, even though I knew I was to blame.

"Kairi?" He asked and I nodded. "She's not my girlfriend."

"She's not?"

"She's my baby sister." Axel laughed at me and I could sense my cheeks flushing into a dangerous red.

"Baby….sister?" I asked, mainly to myself.

"I can't believe it; you were jealous." Axel crossed his arms with a cocky smile and I put on an angry face.

"Was not!"

"Oh yes you were. You couldn't stand to see me with someone else, even though you won't let me be with you." Axel uncrossed his arms and leaned in close to my face. "But it's ok Roxy, I'm not giving up on you now that I know that you want me too. I can't be mad at you anymore, now that I know how conflicted you must feel since you want me so damn badly." Then, out of nowhere, I felt his tongue trace up my ear and I shivered as I closed my eyes. My mouth opened as he pushed his tongue further into my ear as a moan got stuck in my throat. This wasn't good. At that rate, I'd be hard and desperate and horny, which would mean giving into his dominate and sexy nature. No, I couldn't do that. Not after how hard I had worked to try to erase him from my heart.

But it felt good, it felt oh so good the way his strong wet muscle navigated its way up and down my lobe, occasionally sucking. As a small moan escaped my mouth, he pressed the firm pink into my ear, as if he were trying to get into my head, causing me to grab his biceps in desperation, needing to stabilize my stance before my racing heart made my legs go numb. I gulped, ready to be taken captive as he began lapping his tongue up and down my ear, trying to taste every possibly patch of skin as I stood there shuddering.

The second I felt his hands on my hips, my mind returned to me and I pushed him away.

"I'm not jealous and I don't want you!" I yelled as I went into my stall, but I could still hear him laughing even as I started the water. It was obvious that I didn't fool him. Hell, I didn't even fool myself. And the sad part is, I'm glad that he saw through me. I was glad that he knew me well enough to know I was lying, but that didn't change my goal of looking stubborn and uninterested.

"Roxy loves me, and he's lonely, but he still misses me!" Axel started singing in his shower and I turned so bright a red in the privacy of my own stall.

"Idiot! Shut up!" I put my hand to my soaking ear, trembling at just the memory of how good it felt to have attention there.

"He's pretending to be angry, but he loves me, and he's lonely, but he still misses me!" Axel sang louder as I growled. For a while, I hurried, trying to race to clean myself so I could leave, but when he started singing new words, I stopped, clueless.

"Roxy may be pretending to be angry, but he loves me, and yeah he's lonely, but he still misses me, but I love him too, cause he's my baby. Roxy don't be angry, just be my baby." He sang in a different tune and I blushed and to my dismay, I smiled. Dammit, I was falling for him. He, he called me his baby. He wanted me to be his baby. He loves me. Why couldn't I love him back? Or do I love him back? If so, why can't I just say it?

"Roxy can you hear me? Roxy don't you love me? Roxy don't be angry, with me you won't be lonely; Roxy just be my baby." He continued to sing as if we were the only two people who lived on that floor. And as I rinsed out the shampoo in my hair, I smiled wider. I turned up the water and let the heat drown me in his voice as I held myself, just wishing it were his arms instead. I was falling for him. Hard. Without any safety net or any care in this goddamn world.

"If anyone's out there, I want you to know, that I, Axel Lea, love Roxas!" Axel shouted as if we were the only two people in the building.

"Shut up!" Even as I yelled, I was smiling.

"Oh, you're still here?" Axel asked in a loud voice to be sure I heard over the sound of our showers. I waited a little while before I answered.

"Yeah, I'm here." I said shyly.

"Are you lonely?" He asked, normally.

"Shut it." I said, gritting my teeth, trying to hide my smile in my fake angry voice.

"Do you miss me?" He asked in a tone that sounded serious, but was covered in his teasing personality.

"Be quiet."

"Hey Roxy?" He asked in a new tone, like he was changing the subject.

"Yeah?" I asked back, assuming it was safe to do so.

"I love you." He said, simply and yet, sincerely.

I blushed again, just then realizing that I had been standing in the shower for five minutes after I had finished cleaning myself. Why? Why was I still there?

"Kay." I said, just to say something.

"You know, it's kind of implied that when you love the person back, you say it back." Somehow, I felt like he was seeing right through me and into my stall and into my smile and excited eyes and pounding heart.

I didn't respond. I turned off my water and realized that his was off too. I opened the first curtain, of the two that adorn each stall, to grab my towel and clothes, but when I did, I saw him.

"Eyah!" I screamed, covering myself with my hands.

"I didn't hear you say that you loved me back, so I wanted to make sure that you were ok and like, didn't die or something." Axel shrugged with his towel hanging low on his hips.

"Are you serious?" I asked with my hands still over my private parts.

"I don't know why you bother, it's nothing I haven't seen before." Axel winked at my hands and I quickly moved them to grab my towel.

"Well I'm alive, so is there anything else you need?" I asked, fastening my towel around me.

"Yes, there is one more thing." Axel held out a finger.

"What?" I asked, not sure what he could possibly need at a time like that.

"A kiss." Axel leaned in and stole my lips and words and heartbeat. "You see," He pulled back ever so slightly, just enough so that he could talk, but still close enough that I could feel his lips move as he did so. "You shouldn't have let me know that you were jealous if you didn't want this. Now that I know how you really truly feel, I'm not going to let you get away. I'll save you Roxas."

"Save me?" I whispered, my lips moving up and down against his.

"From yourself. You're the only one stopping you from being with me." Axel kissed me again and I stood there frozen. "Night baby." Axel winked and left, leaving me there for two minutes to think about what had just happened.

Fuck. I had fallen for him harder than I thought, without a safety net, into his love, into his heart.

Author's Note: There is still one more chapter left! Sorry it took me so long to post. Originally this had a super sad ending (a chapter I haven't posted yet and probably wont) so I decided last minute to change it lol. Anyway, I hope you like it and continue to follow!

To Twili Princess Hyrule Queen: Yes, I actually haven't had a Demyx moment since I wrote about that chapter, but I'm going out tonight and will probably have a similar experience lol. Thank you for commenting and for expressing your desire to read more! I hope this chapter helps hehe.

To VeniVediVici: Haha, hope this chapter sets it all on the right path for a happy ending!

To twilighttimefan: Yes! Isn't it? Oh well, it looks like Axel is solving the puzzle lol.

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