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Nightmare at the Cullen house.

I burst into laughter at her comment. "How does he stink?" renesmee asked offended.

"Well you wouldn't tell since you've been around him since you were born" Alice replied. "You haven't done anything yet." I said a little disappointed like Alice in the beginning. "Well I can't do anything with mom and dad always around! Even if mom isn't around dad can read minds. Its pretty obvious I cant do anything." She threw back at me.

"Wow…that's depressing," I said. No privacy what so ever. "I can help you with that." I offered remembering something. "How?"

"Remember when you were talking to me in your dreams but your dad couldn't see? Because I put a thing sort of like a barrier around that dream…when you do anything with Jacob I can block it and if you think of it in front of your father it'll be as if your spacing out." I said not paying attention that all ears could hear us. "Now that's one heck of an idea!" Alice said. I bet she knew Edward was listening because I could've sworn I heard growling downstairs

. From downstairs I heard the front door open and close letting two pairs of feet in the house. Rosalie and Emmett were back. I tried my best to ignore them. "Umm…just forget what I said before." I mumbled. I glanced toward renesmee who was still blushing. "Wow. You like him a lot huh?" I asked touching her deep red cheeks

. "Even if she does, Edward won't allow it," Alice said a little louder than needed. "But I don't think it's up to her dad to decide who she loves, just like when Rosalie didn't approve of Bella when she was human, he still went through everything imaginable to stay with her…to love her. He, of all people should know in this house love comes with out warning and can be the most precious most dangerous thing in the world" I stated as loud as Alice had spoken. Renesmee and Alice just stared at me.

"What?" I asked creeped put by there staring "that was pretty deep coming from a chick who's never experienced love before" Alice said still in shock. I shrugged. "Though it's totally true. Edward put us through a whole lot of trouble to help Bella even if we did love her to our deaths, so he can't complain if she falls in love with a boy she's known all her life." We heard a big hiss from downstairs, and then it tripled. I'm guessing it was her mom, Edward, and Rosalie.

They knew it was true though. "Linda here's your food" Esme said behind me. I jumped a little turning around. "Sorry." "No, it was nothing. I said calming myself before my heart started. "Thanks!" I said grabbing the plate full of spaghetti. "You're welcome." She sighed happily.

"Um Linda?" Esme called before I could put a fork full of spaghetti in my mouth. "Yeah?" "Even though you are right about the imprinting, and love-stuff. It'd be great if you didn't tease them. We're trying to make them love you. Not like you and think you're obnoxious." She requested. I blushed and shoved it in my mouth. "Sowwy" I said while chewing on my food. Renesmee and Alice were laughing and I blushed an even deeper red.

When I was done eating we just stood on the floor chatting. Alice was giving me an update with renesmee on how much has changed. We talked about magazines, make-up, and boys (even if I had nothing to share, it was fun). "Renesmee, its time to head home" Edward called from downstairs. "Aw let me stay for a little longer please?" she begged. "Renesmee…you're going to see her tomorrow. Alice is going to try to convince her for a shopping spree tomorrow. She'll be here sleeping in my old bedroom." Edward promised her. I was a little surprised he said I'd be asleep. "Wait…why'd you say I'd be asleep in your old room? I don't need sleep" I told him. "Really? But jasper senses you're your just as tired as renesmee…so I'm guessing you need sleep." I stood there trying to figure out my own feelings.

I guess I was a little tired…actually…a lot tired. "Well…okay but if she leaves I'm blaming it on you and aunt rose." She threatened. Emmett laughed and then everyone went downstairs to say goodbye to Renesmee while Edward carried her out. As soon as she was out of sight I felt like crying.

I felt alone

. "Your not alone" Jasper immediately said as he felt my emotions. I remembered how understanding he was and Alice…plus Esme and Carlisle. Emmett was okay but Rosalie still hated me and I had a feeling we wouldn't be close anytime soon. I tried to smile and walk up the stairs at the same time but before I reached the steps I was half in Esme's arms and half in Carlisle's. I was confused about why they were carrying me

. "Are you okay?" Esme asked in a shaky tone. "I'm fine. Why are you carrying me? I was just ganna go upstairs to sleep." I asked. Now that Bella was gone I could read their minds. I had tipped over almost hitting head first on the staircase. "Wow…I must really be tired." I said. I just realized my own exhaustion. It was hard to keep my eyes open the way they were holding me so I didn't fight it. "I think it's time for you to get some rest." Carlisle stated while fixing me into Esme's arms.

I felt like a baby. "But I don't need sleep…it's just a habit" I mumbled. I didn't know if they understood what I said. 'It seems your habit turned into a need ' Esme thought while carrying me to Edwards's room. She had set me half way down when I realized she would leave me alone in the dark. I grabbed her arm. "Please don't leave me! I don't want to be alone!" I begged. She smiled "okay but once your asleep I must go back with the rest. I still need to discuss your stay," she reminded me. "Okay. Just for now." I said grabbing her skirt tight to make sure she stayed.

'Sleep sweetie. Everyone will be here when you awake tomorrow morning' she thought.

She rubbed my shoulders giggling. She was a little cold but I didn't care. All I cared about was that she was with me. Like a mother. Then I went into my own dream world. Moving farther from reality.

I was dreaming.

I saw renesmee and Jacob, Esme and Carlisle, Alice and jasper, Emmett and Rosalie, and Bella and Edward. They all had someone next to them besides me. Even if they said they loved me, they have someone to love more than anyone else.

To be loved more than anyone else. I didn't have that. They started leaving one by one. First Renesmee with Jacob. Then Esme and Carlisle followed. After followed everyone else. I screamed and cried for them to stop but they just kept going until they faded into the darkness. I was eventually left behind with no one. All alone.

Then everything started shaking and I heard someone calling me. I snapped my eyes open. It was Alice. "Linda are you okay?" she yelled almost screaming. Esme, Carlisle, jasper, and Emmett were in the room close behind Alice. "What? Wha? What are you guys doing in here? What's wrong?" I was still half asleep but they were all scared.

"Linda…Edward called and told us you were having a nightmare…he said he knew because Renesmee was having one and he woke her up. She was crying and saying you were screaming but she couldn't turn…when she couldn't see you anymore she tried to call you but you couldn't see her. What was it?" Esme explained anxiously. So renesmee was still connected to me. "I… don't … remember" I didn't want them to worry.

"You can tell us Linda." Jasper said. "Yeah…you're actually giving us something to do in the morning," Emmett laughed. I sat on the bed while they waited for my answer. "Well…I don't know where it came from but all I know is that it popped in my head out of nowhere" I had to reassure them.

"I dreamt that everyone was leaving me behind. You all left with your loves. No matter how much I screamed I never got any of your attention." I explained. I looked down at the bed. I felt a little stupid. "I didn't know I was still connected with Renesmee." There was a silence. Then before I knew it Alice was hugging me with Esme, Carlisle had his hand on my shoulder and jasper did the same on the opposite shoulder while Emmett squeezed my face.

"You know, renesmee never gave us this problem and I don't think she will, either. You're the only one in this house. Its nice to have teenage tantrums back in the house." Emmett said while he squeezed my cheeks. "Are you trying to break my jaw? Its not working." I told him through the little space I had

. They all laughed while they let me go. "Linda we're not going to leave you." Esme reassured me. "I know that…but its not what my dream looked like…I think. Everyone here has someone they cant live without here…except me." I looked at them and they understood what I meant.

"Linda, we can't live without anyone here. Do you know what it was like when Alice left? Everyone was so depressed but we still loved her…and we STILL love her." Esme said smiling. "Yes but you had someone to help you through that difficult time. And Alice left with jasper so you in the end all of you had someone to lean on." I told them. "Just because you haven't found love yet doesn't mean you wont ever find it" Carlisle said sounding like a poet. "It tool Edward ninety years to find Bella because she wasn't even born yet." He reminded me. He had me there. I felt a little better but I still felt tired. "Hey um…what time is it exactly?" I asked rubbing the sleep from my eyes.

"Its four-thirty in the morning." Esme answered. "Well there goes my sleep. Okay um…can I eat breakfast?" "Sorry…" Alice mumbled. "Its okay Alice" "would you mind waiting till renesmee gets up?" Esme asked. "You know…to eat" "oh. Um. Sure. So do you guys have any questions for me?" I asked trying to get myself off the bed.

"No, not really. I told them everything with out a misunderstanding" Carlisle said helping me up. He was really strong. Him holding me gave me emotions I hoped never to have again…something's that shouldn't have came up. Memories came up very unexpectedly.

I felt small and fragile…and weak and useless…I felt unclean and that scared. I was afraid…

"Um Carlisle can you please put me down? I'm…scared of heights." I asked closing my eyes and gripping his shirt so tight I rip it. "Oh! I'm sorry Carlisle. I…I didn't mean it." I apologized as he set me down.

"It's fine. Alice wouldn't have let me wear it again anyway." He reassured me. "Still sorry," I mumbled. Thinking of that I'm pretty sure I didn't bring clothes. Well I can borrow some from Renesmee…if they fit. We were going to the mall right? Okay well then I'll get some clothes from their…wait…with what money? I was in trouble. "So what do you guys do when renesmee is asleep?" I asked distracting myself from my problem. "Well we watch TV, read, play games, and Esme usually designs." Emmett said shrugging.

"Anything to pass the time. Right now since we have about 4 ½ hours till nessie wakes up. Everyone will be downstairs while Alice works on you." He added. "What am I ganna be doing with you Alice?" I asked looking at her. "Well…I noticed you didn't bring any clothes so I thought I'd make you an outfit or two." Well there goes my problem.

I smiled happily. "Oh yes. You'll be going to the mall today right?" Esme asked. I narrowed my eyes searching for the future. I couldn't see anything though. "I'm not sure…I can't see anything. Its all blank." I answered scared. Alice growled beside me. 'Stupid mutt ruins everything!' she thought. I giggled.

She was remembering all the times he was annoyed by his inability to be seen by her. "Emmett! Lets go hunting!" Rosalie called from downstairs. Emmett looked at me. 'Sorry Linds. I talked to her but she wont budge. Especially after what you did to her. I'll talk to her again.' He thought. I nodded in response. "See you later Emmy bear." I smiled.

Rosalie hissed.

'How dare she?'

'Does she not know that's Rosalie's nickname for him?'

'You shouldn't call him that if you want to get rose to like you.'

'Rose needs to stop this nonsense…she knows she didn't mean it.'

'If she doesn't stop acting like that towards Linda I swear me and her will have problems!'

'Whoa…Linds. You might not want to use that name until Rosalie can at least be around you right.'

I groaned and covered my ears.

"I could care less…I didn't copy it from her…I just heard renesmee calling him that once and I thought I could try it. I could care less if she hates me...its already to late for that" I sighed. "To much thoughts." I whispered. "Sorry." They all said while Rosalie growled. Emmett left and Alice tugged on my hand. "Lets go!" she squealed. "Hold on. I want you to have this Linda. It's a temporary credit card for your temporary-" wink. "-Stay in this house. Since you don't have anything I'm sure I put enough for you to choose clothes and furniture to your liking." Esme smiled handing me the card.

"Um…don't you think this is to much though?" please say no, please say no! I thought. "We have so much money that we don't even use. If you want a car, we can but one hundred with no problem what so ever." Jasper said. "Okay…um…thank you" I smiled. It wasn't a no but it wasn't a yes either.

Alice tugged on my hand harder. "Lets go!" she whined. Everyone chuckled and I rolled my eyes while she pulled me out.

Alice worked on me with different colors till she found the perfect outfit. 'Simple yet cute.' She thought.

I giggled. It was a white and red striped shirt with white kaprees. The shoes were a little used but they looked brand new. They were white with red hearts. "I'm done!" she said full of pride. "Alice I look amazing!" I yelled hugging her. "Wow…everyone usually refrains from telling me that because they're afraid I'll use them as my doll…but you…thank you." she giggled.

"No, thank YOU!" "Now let me do your hair!" she said looking through a magazine full of freaky hairstyles. "Alice! Simple! We're going to the mall." I reminded her. "Oh. Right. Ugh! Fine." I laughed while she went to her dresser. She pulled out a white headband. "This will have to do." She sighed. Then went through her dresser again pulling out red ribbon this time.

"What-?" I didn't finish when she started wrapping it around the band. At the end she cut it and turned into a ribbon. "Wow." I said. She put it through my hair. I looked cute…even if I go for darker styles but this is cute nonetheless. My hair was straight so not much work. She gave me bangs and put them to the side.

They were cute but I screamed when she cut them. I didn't actually think she would. My mistake. By the end I looked like a regular girl with a cute pixie stylist by her side. "Besides the screaming I enjoyed that very much." She said with a sigh. "To bad its done for today. "

"Well we have tonight," I reminded her. "No…you'll die of exhaustion." She sighed again. I couldn't deny it because she was right. "Right, well wake me up at four again" I suggested. Of course she got a little excited but she still thought it wasn't enough time.

"Well it should be time for renesmee to wake up so lets go surprise them, huh?" she asked with a wide, almost devilish grin. She was planning on making them see what she could do in 4 hours. She obviously gave me to much credit. "Okay." I said giggling. She grabbed my arm before I could walk out the door. "Let me introduce you first?" she asked with pleading eyes.

"O-okay." Wow. She was like a kid with candy…has to have every moment count. I heard her on the stairs. "Everyone! I give you the new and improved Linda!" she started clapping and they clapped with her. I walked down the step one at a time. Every pair of butterscotch eyes were on me.

'Wow! So beautiful'

'Couldn't have done it better myself'

'Dang…this girl is ganna cause problems in the town for boys…to cute for her own good'

'Looks like Alice over did it without over doing it again'

'All she did was put on new clothes…she still looks like the dirty troll that walked in.'

I flinched at the last comment. No doubt it was Rosalie. "You look amazing!" Esme said when I got to the last step. I blushed a deep red. "Okay, okay no more comments. She needs to be ready for ness when she comes. Can you stay out of trouble while I change?" she asked eyeing me suspiciously.

"Yes. I think I can hold myself together!" I said in a sarcastic tone. "You better." She warned then ran off. Esme went to the kitchen so I followed her. "What are you making Esme?" I asked looking at the pan in her hands. "A buffet" she sighed. I giggled. "Why so much? Its only me and renesmee who eat here." I said. "Because you two wont be the only ones eating today. Jacob called while u were sleeping and asked to have breakfast since he was patrolling the woods." She explained

. "We didn't tell him about you so he'll be a little surprised." She said worried. " I want you to know Jacob is very protective of renesmee, now, especially since she's human. I don't want you to be close to him when we tell him about the incident. You stay behind me okay?" she didn't ask as much as her tone begged. It was shaking with fear. 'I don't want you to get hurt.' She thought.

"Esme I'll be fine. Thousands of people have tried. They even burned me alive. Twice." I flinched at the memory and Esme flinched at the thought. "Plus who could hate their future wife's best friend?" I asked in a joking tone.

Everyone laughed besides (of course) Rosalie. I turned to see Alice who wore a light pink top with dark blue skinny jeans and platforms. "To much?" she asked. I shook my head not able to speak when I heard footsteps. Renesmee came. My heart started beating like wings on a helicopter. Dang it! Shut up u stupid thing! I thought at myself.

When they touched the front porch it stopped in its place. Everyone laughed beside renesmee who couldn't hear as good as us. "Linda! You stayed!" she yelled pulling me into a hug. "Yes I did so lets go eat because I'm starved! Alice has been working on me all day!" I whispered teasingly. She giggled and Alice huffed. "Alright!" she whispered back running to the table. I rolled my eyes at her enthusiasm and turned to walk when we heard a loud knock at the door.

"Guess who's here?" a deep voice asked.

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