okay soo this is part 1 of chapter 5...yeah...i made the chapters dummy long for no reason:P sooo...since i owe you guys BIG-TIME, i thought a few extra chapters wont hurt:) im also ganna be making a new story soon:) so feel free to check it out when its up! aha3

Blood spills and so do memories.

"Hey Jake!" renesmee called from the kitchen. "Hey sweetness." He called back. I stood frozen in my place. "What? No hi from you gu-!" Jacob saw me. 'No! I forgot! Linda! Back away now!' Esme thought. My heart started thrumming in my chest but Jacob didn't seem to notice.

'OH MY GOD! YOU BIT A GIRL! DO YOU KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS?'

he thought. Most likely to Edward, "Jacob. It's not what you think. You hear her heartbeat. She not a vampire." He explained. "So what? She's like nessie?" he asked calming down. "No she's not. She not a half breed either." Carlisle answered now. He was sounding cautious.

'God I hope that dog finally becomes useful and rips her head off!'

Rosalie thought. "I swear Rosalie. If you don't leave I'll hurt you and I could care less if Emmett tries to hurt me!" I yelled. She got shocked and Emmett stood in front of her giving me a warning look.

'You know I wont let you hurt her. But I don't want to hurt you either.'

He thought to me. I stepped towards him. "You think you can hurt me? Please Emmett! Don't you think you should know better than to mess with me after I almost bit into your wife's neck?" I growled. "Linda!" Esme scolded.

"Calm down beautiful. You don't want to make a bad impression on the wolf" 'Especially when we need to tell him about the neck snapping' jasper thought. I flinched from the thought.

"Um…hi" I said turning to face Jacob. He looked a little freaked out and I 0realized my heart had stopped beating. "Dude…what is she?" he whispered towards Edward. "Hey!" did they think I was deaf?

"Don't worry…she'll explain after you devour our food okay Jacob?" Edward chuckled releasing the tension. He shrugged "It's all good with me. Okay with you lil'thing?" he asked putting his hand out for me to shake. I stepped towards him and put my hand out only to throw it over my face and let out a scream flying backwards. "What happened?" he yelled looking at everyone.

I looked at him tears in my eyes. "Why did you do that?" I cried.

"What did he do? What did you do Jacob?" Esme asked fuming. "I-I don't know!" he stuttered backing up. "Jacob. She's not used to your smell. It's causing her pain." Jasper said growling. "Back up." He finished. Rosalie couldn't contain her laughter anymore. She clutched her stomach from laughing so hard. I couldn't stop shaking from the smell. It reminded me of a past I wanted to forget.

"I'm sorry," he said taking a step closer

. I closed my eyes tight. "Please don't hurt me! Please! Don't hurt me anymore! It hurts! The biting HURTS!" I screamed. I felt firm hands hold me down. I was back in my memory. The pain so real. "SOMEONE HELP! PLEASE! ESME! RENESMEE! HELP!" I cried screaming.

"Linda! Open your eyes! You're not hurt! Open your eyes!" Carlisle yelled to me. He seemed faint but I listened. My eyes flew open and I gasped breathing for air. I saw Carlisle looking at me with terror in his eyes. "What did you see?" he asked in a low voice. I looked around.

The only other people in the room were Rosalie, Emmett, Esme, and Renesmee. I sniffed flinching. The scent was still thick in the sir. I started breathing hard shaking the memory out of my head. I grabbed my hair and slid my way to the farthest wall. "No, no, no, no, no, no, no!" I repeated.

"Linda I'm going to bring you to my office…your nose is bleeding." He whispered coming closer. When he moved the smell flowed with him. "Stay away! It…its brings me back to…to the bad days." I said. "What does?" "The smell! The wolves! They…" I trailed off covering my face.

Carlisle took off his jacket and threw it to me. "Put this over your nose" he said. I listened to him. I smelled in his scent. It had a medicine smell to it. "Okay…can you walk to my office now?" he asked calmly. I thought about it for a second. If I moved would the smell follow me? it shouldn't. I nodded and tried standing with wobbly legs. Esme took a step towards me. I looked at her with fear filled eyes.

'My poor baby.' She thought.

She ran to me giving me a hug while lifting me up. She carried me to Carlisle's office. They sat me on his desk and he took his shirt back. "See if the smell is here" he ordered. I hesitated for a second but took a small sniff. Nothing. I sighed relieved.

'That dog finally became useful. I'll have to thank him later.' Obviously Rosalie thought this was a payback.

"Are you kidding me? How much lower can you be? I'm pretty sure humans touching the ocean floor isn't even a fraction close to how low you are. You think that was funny Rosalie? How in gods name do you freaking feel about getting upstaged by a past you never wanted? By the past that had killed you? A pack of wolves tore me to pieces when I was about…I don't know...16 years old!" I yelled. Esme gasped and Rosalie looked furious

. "Don't say anything about a past you didn't want! You think that was so horrible? Why do you think I'm a vampire now dimwit? Why I can't grow old and have kids? Because I was turned! I was raped then beaten to a bloody pulp! You don't know anything about a past you didn't want!" she yelled back at me.

She was in my face now. Emmett was holding her hands. "well…it looks like we have more in common than you think. We both have pasts we want to forget but the difference is that…I've had it all my life." I started. "I didn't end up with an eternal mate and I didn't have a mother who at least claimed she loved me. By the age of 6 I was on my own and I was killed in the most brutal ways. You only had it once. Don't YOU compare your life to mine because your life would seem perfect in mine." I stated calmly.

"Move." I said pushing her out of the way. She growled but I didn't pay attention. I heard Alice yelling at Jacob and Edward and Bella trying to calm her down. "She's fine now Alice. Stop it." Edward sighed.

"She wouldn't have needed to be in the office if he hadn't hurt her! If I would've known I would've told him she snapped Renesmee's neck long ago!" she yelled. I sighed. "What?" Jacob asked in shock. "Just stop it!" Esme scolded going down stairs. "Jacob. Renesmee is fine and again she will explain after you eat. Don't make any more trouble or I will force you to leave." Esme said fiercely. "She hurt renesmee? How can you let her stay here?" "She is Renesmee's best friend. Now again Jacob. No trouble. Understood?" Esme warned. Jacob growled.

"Renesmee?" he shouted. "What?" she shouted back. "Is she really your friend?" he asked through clenched teeth. "More like family that can not and will not be replaced." She said calmly. He groaned. He couldn't win past her. "Where's jasper?" I asked changing the subject.

"He went to go hunt…you were bleeding…" Alice explained. "Oh. Alright." I nodded going downstairs to the kitchen. Jacob's smell was still thick in the air and it killed to smell in. I took as little breaths as possible. "Are you okay sitting here?" Renesmee asked worried. I nodded and smiled at Jacob.

"I'm sorry. I had a…bad meeting with wolves before and the last time we met they killed me so I sort of…I needed some room. I'm sorry" I told him. He just glared at me and nodded stiffly. 'I'm surprised rose hasn't clawed her face off. Not that I would've stopped her.' He thought. I sighed.

"I guess I deserve that." I stated glumly. "Jacob. Be nice please. I'm not the only one with mind reading in this house and that's just plain wrong. We both know no one can purposely hurt renesmee…especially a best friend of hers." Edward said. He got wide eyed and looked at me. I nodded and blushed. "Jake where's Seth? He's always cooler about meeting new people." Renesmee asked changing the subject.

"That's rude. And he's got a cold so I made him stay away with you being all human and all." "Who's Seth?" I asked curiously. "Seth is one of the pack members. Sweetest most kindest kid you'll ever meet." Renesmee said with a smile. 'That's another reason why I didn't let him come.' He thought with a low growl she couldn't hear.

I busted up laughing. 'DON"T TELL HER I WAS THINKING THAT!' he mentally yelled at me.

Edward growled. "Okay. I won't tell. I promise. But it's another story if Eddie does." I said through giggles. "Alright enough chit-chat. Your food is getting cold. Eat. Then you, Renesmee, and Alice will be going to the mall." Esme interrupted. "What? You're going to the mall? I wanna go!" Jacob whined.

"Sorry Jake…it's a girl trip." Renesmee giggled. "Then that troll shouldn't be going." Rosalie said from upstairs. I slammed my hands on the table cracking it. "Rosalie Cullen!" Esme shouted. "I'm not apologizing. I have no reason to." She stated. "Rose. Be nice to her." "No! Why should I even be a tad nice to a freak show that messed with me?" she asked Emmett. "Because this freak show still wants to taste you." I muttered.

Renesmee choked on her food and Jacob laughed.

'Finally! Someone who stands up to the blond! I'm ganna like you…you know…after I get over the whole fact you almost killed ness.' Jacob thought to me.

I smiled. "Lets get going! The malls opening soon!" Alice huffed. I took a few more bites and stood up. Renesmee did the same. "Come on guys…let me go!" "No Jake! Now stop or I'll call Sam to make you patrol." Alice warned.

"Sam?" I asked. "Alpha in another pack."

"Whoa wait! Two packs?" I asked scared. Renesmee grabbed my hand. "Yes but Sam is better than Jacob and has more experience." Renesmee answered calmly. "Hey!" growled. I rolled my eyes. "Linda sweetie. Don't be afraid to get what you want. I doubt you'll run out of money…but if you do just call me and I'll put more in." Esme said with a smile on her face

. 'And forget about Rosalie. She's being very rude and I shall talk to her about that.' She thought.

I nodded. "Exactly how much is in here?" I asked holding out my card. "80,000. Why?" she said calmly. I almost choked on my air. "Wow." Was all I could say. "Um…okay. We'll be going now." I stated Esme smiled and gave me a hug. "have fun sweetie." She said warmly. Alice then pulled me out of the house and drove to the mall. This mall wasn't really big but it had enough stores for Alice to go bazerk

. She bought a cart full of clothes. I told her they were for renesmee because I don't wear skirts and dresses and she nearly died…again. The clothes I picked out were more dark than light. She chose pink and orange while I chose gray and black. Black tank tops, black long sleeves, black tights, black shorts, black bras, black panties… basically anything black. I did get other colors though. I got a bright blue, purple, neon green, blood red…a lot of colors. But cool things…not like flower skirts. Ugh.

"Please! Just one pink mini skirt! It'll be gorgeous with your complection!" Alice begged. "Alice! I don't. Like. Pink!" I yelled at her. She pouted. We left the clothing store then went to the furniture. Now my furniture was a little different. It wasn't so up to date but it wasn't old fashion either.

My bed was queen sized with a complete black headboard (I plan to mess with it a little.) I get a futon and a beanbag chair that has a cute character they call Ger. When I saw him I new I wanted him. I got purple curtains and bought a light purple paint to make my room match.

My bed cover is striped with different colors; mainly purple (Obviously I love purple.) when we finished with that we went to the food court. Renesmee and me got McDonalds while Alice watched. "Where do we go next?" she asked excited. "Um…music stores? She looks like she'd like rock music and gothic clothes. Maybe Hot Topic?" Renesmee said. I looked at them while they agreed where to go.

After we finished eating renesmee pulled me into this Hot Topic store it was amazing! All of the things they had fit me perfectly! I probably had a heart attack at the entrance. "Totally my style" I answered running into the store. I bought these gloves that go all the way up to my elbow.

They had all different colors so I bought most of them. Then they had these shoes that they called converse and I bought a pair of each color besides pink. They had shirts that were pretty cool with paint designs all over the place. The music they played really wasn't my style but the store its self was my own paradise. At the very back they had these outfits that looked like a hooker would wear hanging on the wall. I laughed and picked a red one out to see what they would say. When I finished grabbing everything I could I walked to the front only to find the most perfect black dress with polka dots, hanging right in front of me. I snatched it off the hanger and ran to the front

. "Anything else I can get for you?" the store manager asked. I shook my head happily. "You look like you're the type to have gages. Ever though about having a pair?" he asked. "Gages? What are those?" I asked. They sounded interesting and by the looks on the guys face they probably were interesting. "They're earrings, but very large ones. Not all of them are large but they're bigger than the average earring. Here. Have a pair on the house. If you want more come back. I'll hook you up." He said passing me these neon green needle looking things.

They were very thin but thicker than a regular needle. "They glow in the dark" he said with a grin. I smiled back and paid for my things. "Thanks." I said shyly. "Anytime." He said giving me my bag. I grabbed it and ran out going to Alice and renesmee. "You guys! That store was amazing!" I yelled to them. They laughed. "We knew you'd like it." Alice giggled. I nodded laughing with them. Then we went to the salon.

While I got my hair washed, they did my nails and toes. They just buffed it since I didn't want fake long nails. My hair was different though. I showed them this design I saw in Hot Topic and they copied it down to the color. I had jet-black hair originally but they put a platinum white peek-a-boos with red highlights. My hair was cut to my breast area and they made longer and wider bangs. I looked like a total punk and I loved it

. They did my make up with it. They put eyeliner on the top of my eyes and I had this really glossy lip-gloss on. I had a little bit of cover up though I didn't need it and blush. I gave the store a one hundred dollar tip and they were ecstatic. Alice was angry though since I let the salon do my hair but I didn't let her do it. We had finished and went into every store when we came to a stop. We sat on a bench relaxing. "So we had how many trucks go home to drop off everything?" "2 ½" Alice answered with a smile. I laughed.

"Oh wow. Lets go home. I'm hungry and tired." I stated standing up. "Well…Esme said to go out for dinner since we wouldn't be home until later." Alice told me. "Okay but where do we go?" "RED LOBSTER!" Renesmee screamed. "Great idea nessie! Red Lobster it is!" Alice agreed.

I just nodded spacing out. I'm not even sure if I was considered spacing out. I was sleeping walking. I don't even remember what I had for dinner. I don't even remember going home! It's like it was all a dream. "Linda! Wake up!" I heard a voice call. "LINDA!" it called even harsher this time. "If you don't wake up imma throw you in the tub!" It threatened. I opened my eyes to see who was waking me and I saw Alice and Emmett. "What?" I asked in a grim tone. They laughed at me. "Look at your room! It's finished!" Alice said excited. I sat up and looked around.

Everything was different. More me. "What? How did this happen?" I asked in amazement. "You are in a house full of vampires who don't sleep. It's not impossible." Emmett said shrugging. I got off of my bed forgetting about my sleepiness. "Oh my god! It's just like my vision! I love it!" I yelled jumping. "We even added a little something extra." Alice said just as excited. I looked at her. "What did you add" "look up" she said.

I did what she commanded and I gasped. My ceiling was purple with black tree branches from the trees on the wall. There were to trees so the branches met in the middle of my ceiling. I started tearing. "This…it's amazing…thank you Alice!" I said hugging her. "I helped too," Emmett said. I laughed and hugged him as well. I looked to see what would happen today. But I couldn't see anything. "Hmm…something's blocking my visions again. Is Jacob coming over?" I asked curiously.

Alice huffed and Emmett just stood quiet. "Actually…both of the packs will be coming." Jasper said coming in from the hall. I turned to him scared. "Both?" I asked in a squeaky voice. "I can't do it. The-the last time I was in the same place with a bunch of w-wolves they killed me. I…I can't." I stuttered. Jasper gave me a hug. "They won't hurt you. I'll be here through the whole meeting.

They'll leave immediately after you talk. They don't want you to worry about them." He explained. I squeezed him close. He was like a protective big brother. "Go get ready and come down stairs. They wont be here for another half hour. Renesmee will be here at the same time." He said letting me go. I sighed and nodded.

This was going to end a disaster. Jasper along with everyone else exited my room and I went to the shower. After I finished with my shower I ran to my room. I dried my self and put on, of course, black underwear and a black bra. I put on a spaghetti strap black shirt with the character Ger on it and black leggings with neon green mini shorts. I put in knee length Ger. Socks and black and white converse.

My hair had dried so I played with it a little. I teased the back and the sides like 2 inches high and put on black eyeliner with a little blush. I remembered the gages the guy gave me and put them on. They hurt a little but I barely noticed. I looked pretty hot if I said so myself. But the leggings sort of ruined it so I had to take off my shoes and shorts and take them off. I looked even better. "Okay…I can do this." I told my self-facing the door.

I took a deep breath and opened it slowly. I walked down the stairs and saw all of the Cullen's staring at me. Jasper and Emmett were playing their x-box and dropped their remotes when they saw me. Jasper, who had a smile on his face before I came down stairs, has a hard face on.

'Is she trying to kill me? Does she know there are boys in the pack that aren't imprinted?'

'Linda! You look gorgeous!'

'I love her socks and shirt! They're sick! I'd wear that if it was in men clothes.'

'Great! She's turned from ugly troll to ugly emo troll!'

'Oh my. What an up to date with the fashion girl.'

'Different style but definitely another Alice.'

They all thought.

I shrugged. I looked at jasper. "I'm not interested." Then I looked to Alice. "Thank you Alice." Next was Emmett. "Yes. They have my shirt and socks in men sizes." After him I spoke to Rosalie. "I'm not emo. I'm more of a dark kind of girl. And considering I look better than you, you really shouldn't call people an ugly troll." I sneered at her. What I would do to this woman she wasn't the aunt of my only friend.

booooooo i knooowww...lol it wasnt really that much of a cool dramatic ending:P but like i said...part 1 of chapter 5 lol...