For a minute, Heather wasn't sure what was happening. Taylor just uttered four words she didn't want to hear come out of his mouth... Not any time soon anyway. And in front of all of their friends? What the hell was going on?
Sure, she loved Taylor. Sure, if she'd ever get over this heartache... or heart break... or whatever it was that she felt every day in her stomach for the last year or so... then maybe she'd consider marrying Taylor. If she couldn't be with Naya, he was the next best thing. He was great to her. He made sure she was taken care of. Her family loved him. But by saying yes, she knew she would be closing the door forever on the one thing that made her happy. And Heather just didn't know if she was ready for that.
You're running away to Arizona. What do you mean you're not ready for that? You've already slammed that door shut.
Heather's thoughts had really been getting the best of her lately, and the more she thought, the more she questioned what the hell she was doing with her life. One day she was ready to move on, and her thoughts would talk her out of it. The next day she wanted to try and salvage anything she could have with Naya, and her thoughts would talk her out of that, too. Her sub-conscious was becoming her worst enemy...
"Uh... Heather?" Taylor shifted uncomfortably on his knee. He had been kneeling for well over two full minutes while everyone just stared at Heather waiting for her to say something.
"Heather, say something? Please?" Taylor's voice cracked. He was noticibly uncomfortable and audibly worried.
Heather said the first thing she could to make this situation less awkward, "Of course! Of course I'll marry you Tay!"
Everyone cheered, and Taylor's sighed with relief as his face fell into a bright smile. "You scared me there, for a minute..."
"I was just picturing the future! I got lost in my thoughts. I'm back now," Heather told him. As best as she tried, she couldn't hide the slight disappointment in her voice as he slid the ring on her left hand.
After another hour of mingling, Heather and Taylor decided they'd leave the gang, and head back to their house. With some tears, and some empty promises, the duo said their goodbyes to their friends.
Brittany and Hannah were worried that by moving away, her dance moves would get rusty. Heather retorted with a snort and told them that even Beyonce could learn a thing or two from her, even from Arizona. The three laughed and hugged. Then the two dancers left the blonde to say goodbye to the others.
Jeremy and Mark came up behind them wishing them the best of luck in their new venture. Heather made her other two dancer besties promise to come visit so that she could prove to Hannah and Brittany that her moves, in fact, wouldn't get rusty.
Mark and Jenna were next in line to say bye to the newly engaged couple. Mark wrapped Heather up in a strong hug stating, "I know we haven't been able to see each other as much this year, Hemo, but I'm really going to miss you."
Jenna was crying. She couldn't much, but she hugged the blonde tightly and told her that she loved her.
Chord was pretty choked up when he reached Heather. The two had been through a lot together. There were even rumors about their characters getting together before Heather decided to call it quits. "You know you're always part of our family. Come visit us soon and often. It just won't be the same without you."
Heather hugged him breathing a soft "thank you" before releasing her embrace.
As much as Jenna was crying, Vanessa was crying twice as hard. She literally couldn't say anything. She just walked up to Heather and wrapped her into the tightest hug she's ever given the blonde. Heather laughed for a minute, and then her face fell. Since she and Naya broke up, Vanessa had been her best girlfriend on set. The one person that was able to pull her out of her funk and into a smile on set. She was able to talk to her about things that the others wouldn't understand. Next to Ashley, who was basically her sister, and Naya who was at one time her girlfriend, Vanessa was the best friend Heather had ever had.
She felt tears start pouring down her face as she squeezed the shorter girl just a little tighter. "I'm really gonna miss you 'ness." Vanessa didn't say anything, she just responded with another heavy sob. Finally letting go of Heather, she waved goodbye and ran to catch up with Chord.
All that was left was Ashley. Saying goodbye to Ashley was going to be impossible. So she wasn't about to try. Not here. Ashley just wrapped an arm around Heather's shoulders and whispered "It will be okay. It's all going to work out."
Heather cried harder. She didn't know if she was crying because she was saying goodbye to her friends... to her life. Or if she was crying because she just agreed to marry someone that she didn't want to spend the rest of her life with. In either case, Ashley seemed to understand.
Rubbing her back, Ashley whispered, "Have you talked to her?"
Heather instantly knew that her best friend meant Naya.
"No," was all she managed to say through her sobs. Ashley hugged Heather tightly soothingly shushing her, trying her best to help take away some of the pain her friend was going through.
Heather didn't know how to respond... to any of it. To Ashley, to the night, to Taylor, to their move to Arizona... she just felt frozen.
"You know I'm not going to say goodbye to you," Heather finally managed to squeak out.
"Girl, are you crazy? I'll be down in Scottsdale next weekend. And you'll be up here the weekend after. It's going to be like you never moved away. I promise. And I'll be sure to call you every day, check the progress of your life... oh and I'll keep you in the loop on my maid-of-honor speech as I'm writing it."
Heather laughed a little. "Yeah, tell that to April and Cryss. Although, with your luck, they'll kill each other fighting for the spot and you'll land it anyway."
Ashley smiled apologetically. "You gonna be okay?" Heather nodded and hugged her friend again.
"I love you, Ash."
"Love you too, Hemo."
On the way home, she and Taylor didn't talk much. She knew the ride was going to be somber. She just said goodbye to her closest friends. But it felt a little awkward and uncomfortable. They had just gotten engaged. Shouldn't they be calling their families and stuff?
Heather shook the idea from her head. The only person she wanted to call was the one person she never wanted to tell the news to.
What have I gotten myself into?
Taylor squeezed her hand and interlaced their fingers. "How about some champagne, babe? I know tonight's been emotional, but we have some celebrating to do. Plus, it might just take the edge off, help us get some rest before tomorrows big day. So how bout we stop and grab a bottle?"
Heather didn't feel like drinking, because she knew once she'd start, she wouldn't be able to stop. But she nodded anyway. She didn't want Taylor to think she wasn't happy about their engagement.
... Even if she wasn't.
When they got home, Taylor popped the bottle open and poured two newly-bought plastic cups from the liquor store they stopped at. Heather had just sat down and was waiting anxiously for Taylor to bring her her champange so she could choke it down and maybe get some sleep.
Before Taylor had even finished pouring she heard a small noise come from the door.
"Did you hear that?" Naya asked Taylor. "What?" He responded. "That noise? It sounded like a knock." "It was probably just Jenni. You know how rambunctious she gets."
Heather laughed. Probably a litle harder than she needed to. But Jenny was one of the few things that made Heather smile. Plus, she wanted Taylor to see that she was in a better mood. So even if she had to force a laugh a little bit, she had to at least pretend she was happy.
Then she heard a knock again, this time a little louder. Taylor had started toward the couch when he turned. He had definitely heard it, too.
"I'll grab it," Heather said as she nodded toward the couch, signaling for Taylor to sit and wait for her to come back.
When she opened the door, she froze. Her mouth gaped open and she couldn't talk. Her eyes were fixed on big brown ones. Unfortunately those big brown eyes were darting back and forth between Heather's hand on the door and Taylor behind her.
Shit.
"...Naya? What are you doing here?"
Naya stood there in silence for a minute. Her eyes darting back and forth between Heather's hand and Taylor.
"Oh, um... well, I heard you were leaving tomorrow. So I wanted to swing by and say goodbye," Naya responded... Almost too nonchalantly.
"Oh," Heather signed. She seemed disappointed.
"Yeah, but it looks like I came at a bad time. Celebrating, I take it?" Naya said stiffly.
Heather didn't know how to respond. So she just held up her left hand for Naya to see. Naya's eyes started filling with tears as she said "I'm so happy for you Heather. It looks like your life is turning out the way you had always hoped. There's no one who deserves it more."
Heather's heart broke. Why was Naya saying all of these things? And moreso, why was she so disappointed in such nice sentiments from her ex-girlfriend?
Just then Naya caught Heather's eyes. For a second, Heather thought she saw a glimpse of sadness. As if everything Naya had been saying was a complete lie. As if Naya had really come there to tell her that she loved her, and that she wanted her back. But after a brief second, Heather was shaken out of her fantasy.
"Anyways, I'll let you get back to it. I just... I... I'm really happy for you Hemo, and I'm really gonna miss you."
Heather felt herself well up again. Naya reached in for a hug. Heather awkwardly leaned in to reciprocate. But when their bodies touched it was like an electric shock. It was the first time in months that they had touched and it felt just as good as when their skin touched for the very first time 3 years before.
Heather quickly pulled back with her head down, responding with a soft, "Me too."
And without another word, Naya turned and walked away.
Heather closed the door behind her and sighed.
"Taylor, I'm pretty tired. I think I might just go to bed. Don't stay up too late, we have a long drive tomorrow."
Heather walked over, kissed him on the cheek and went to the bedroom that she shared with her now fiance.
She knew she didn't have much time when she got into the bedroom. She knew Taylor would follow her in the bedroom within minutes. So she let the tears flow for a quick second, grabbed her iPhone, and then sent a quick text to her friends that were at dinner that night.
Which one of you guys told Naya? Seriously?
One by one, her friends responded.
Not me. - Mark
I swear I didn't say anything. - Chord
I don't know if I even have her number anymore. - Hannah
I haven't talked to Naya in days... I'm sorry, boo. - Brittany
OMG are you okay? I didn't say anything I swear! - Jenna
You know I would never do that to you. Are you okay? What'd she say? Need me to come over? - Ashley
As Heather read their responses, she didn't understand. Deep inside she hoped they were telling the truth. She wanted Naya to had come for any other reason but to say goodbye. She wanted Naya to feel emsomething/em. Anger for Heather's move... Sad from her letter... Anxious to get her back.
Of course you're disappointed. What were you expecting? Her to get your letter and come after you? Stop it. YOU'RE running away.
Heather couldn't take it anymore. She had to find out. So she pulled out her phone. Even though she took Naya's number out of her phone months ago, she remembered her number. That's something she'd never forget.
Naya, how did you find out? - Heather
She anxiously awaited her response. She knew she was running out of time. Taylor was getting ready for bed, and she knew he'd be in any second.
I didn't until I got there. - Naya
Heather's heart sank. If she didn't know, why did she come over?
Then why were you really here? You owe me the truth. - Heather
Naya quickly responded.
I don't owe you anything Heather. YOU'RE the one moving away to get away from ME. I just wanted to make sure to tell you goodbye. - Naya
Heather felt a tear drop down her cheek from the angsty response.
Right... Well... thanks for saying goodbye. - Heather
Heather heard Taylor coming out of the bathroom. She quickly flipped off the only light they had left in their room, and climbed into bed. She pretended to be asleep, because she didn't feel like talking to Taylor.
After what felt like hours, and it probably was - Heather hadn't checked the time because she didn't want to wake Taylor - she finally started to doze. She was moving to Arizona tomorrow, and that was that.
...Until she heard her phone buzz again to shake her out of her almost-slumber.
A/N: What'd you think?! Thanks for all the follows and feedback everyone! :)
This one is from Heather's POV - we'll get to how Naya's feeling about everything next chapter! PLEASE let me know what you think!
Disclaimer: I do not own Glee - All rights to Ryan Murphy & Fox.
