Some what of a filler. I hope you guys are enjoying reading this as much as i am enjoying writing it! :D
"5, 6, 7, 8," I yell to the guys. It's been another three weeks since me and Kendalls pool session. We decided to keep it professional during the week because we still have a lot of work to do. But i spend my weekends with him. Hanging out at his house or on the beach. I have yet to go all the way into the ocean, but Kendall is helping me overcome my fear and for that I am so grateful to him. After he finally got me into the pool we spent the day relaxing on the patio until my pants were dry, which I never seemed to notice because all I could think about was him.
We have three more days until it is October 1st, the day of our first review. We are supposed to be done with the entire set by then and if not then we all are in trouble. Honestly, I am kind of nervous because I haven't been as focused since I met Kendall. After rehearsal I don't go home and work on my choreography, I go home and relax and text Kendall all night. I feel so irresponsible and I feel like I am letting the guys down. So this week I have amped their rehearsal schedule up and have been avoiding Kendall when possible. I know I am probably hurting him but its for the best, but I think he understands. He hasn't been asking me about it or bothering me, he just sends me texts asking how everything is coming along and saying I am beautiful and quite frankly it isn't helping me. Today is Wednesday and like always Wednesday are the hardest days for the guys because on Tuesday nights they always have midnight singing rehearsal with their record label, but I am not letting up.
We have almost all of the songs perfect, but 'Love me Love me' which I am trying to clean and 'Time of Our Life' which I haven't even touched yet. But i know once I get 'Love me Love me' done and just how I want it, the other one will just come to me and I will be able to choreograph something simple for my final piece.
It is almost 8pm and the guys are slowly dying on me. I know it's not their fault I have been really riding them, but I just need 'Love me Love me' to be perfect.
About half way through the piece, I turn the music off and they stop."Alright, why don't we just start fresh tomorrow," I say disappointed. The guys all take deep breaths and say okay and walk to go and pack up their stuff. I am disappointed in myself as a choreographer and a teacher. If these guys can't get this I don't know what I am going to do. This is the hardest piece. It is supposed to be their big huge number that is going to put everyone in awe, but by the looks of it October 1st is not going to be the big day that they say they don't need me anymore and give me my paycheck.
"I will see you guys tomorrow, get some rest," I say and start to walk out the studio. I hear Kendall call my name as I walk through the door.
"Melanie! Wait up," he says jogging over to me, where I stand in the doorway of the studio. Once he meets me in the hallway he stops in front of me breathing hard, still not having caught his breath from all the dancing. "Did you want to get something to eat tonight and maybe hang out?" he asks me. I bite my lip and look up at him.
"Kendall," i sigh, "I can't I, we have a lot of work to do and I can't get distracted right now, I need to go home and rework the entire dance," I say regrettingly.
"Yeah, but I just thought maybe I could take your mind off of things. And you don't need to change it. It is an amazing piece, we just aren't worthy. Come on, lets just hang out tonight, just me and you," he says taking my hand. I almost give in, but I can't.
"No, I want to but, no," I say. "Get some rest," I say and stand on my tip toes to kiss him on the cheek. He intercepts my kiss with his lips and there we are standing in the middle of a dance studio hallway, sweaty and smelly, kissing. I break the kiss before I give in completely to his charm. I look up into his eyes and say goodbye, smile at him and walk down the hallway towards the exit.
The next morning I get to the studio at 730 to work on 'Time of Our Life' because I figured out what I wanted to happen. As I walk in the back entrance to the blue studio I am surprised to see all of the members of Big Time Rush sleeping in the dance studio, still in their clothes from yesterday. I am completely baffled and quite confused. I see James sleeping on his stomach without a shirt on, because he is using his as a place holder between his stomach and the hard floor. Carlos is bundled up in the corner sleeping on his side laying on his bag. Logan is near the door laying on his back, his hands behind his head snoring loudly. And Kendall is over by the stereo with his body wrapped around the front of it. I walk over to the stereo quietly, put a CD in, turn the volume up real loud and press play.
The music blares and all the guys wake up completely scared. Logan jumps to his feet, Carlos rolls all the way over, Kendall jerks awake beneath my feet, and James just lifts his head peacefully.
I turn off the music and say: "Well, good morning sleepyheads," smiling at their still drowsy faces. "what the hell are you still doing here?" I ask.
Logan walks closer to me and says "We pulled an all nighter to get 'Love me Love me' finished and clean," he says. Carlos gets up and sits next to James who has now pulled his day old shirt over his head.
I sit down on one of the speakers that rest on the floor and look at them. Kendall sits down next to me and says "We wanted to finish this for you. It's our fault that it's not exactly how you hoped it would be, and maybe it never will be, but we are going to make it pretty damn close," he says grabbing on to my hand.
"Guys, should we show her?" Carlos says standing up.
They all look at each other and get to their start places. I put the cd in and press play when they are all in place. I sit there in awe of the hard work they have put in this last night. 'Love me Love me' is perfect. It is executed beautifully and is just done with such power and passion. I feel so proud. By the end of the song, they are breathing hard and sit down in front of me.
"So what did you think?" James asks eagerly.
I look at my friends, my dancing musician friends and just smile. "That was amazing. I couldn't have done it better myself," I say to them.
They cheer and get up to hug me. They all high-five each other and celebrate. Kendall kisses me hard and I hug him back as all the guys watch. I whisper "Thank you" in his ear because I know this is all his doing. He is the leader of the guys and I am sure he convinced them to stay the night and work on the dance. I pull out of his embrace never taking my hand from his and say, "well, I guess we are done for the day. You guys go home and get some rest and tomorrow we can start on 'Time of our Life,'" I say.
They all look at each other and Carlos says: "Well, we were actually thinking that since we are all already here, we might as well just get 'Time of our Life' done. And I mean we are already warmed up, and I just want to see what you have for us to be challenged with next," he says with a smile.
I look at Kendall and he gives me a look as if to say go on, do your thing.
"Alright, but as long as you guys dont fall asleep in the middle of choreography and break something," I say. They all go to their places in the middle of the room and I take my place at the front.
"Okay, so this one is a little different. The basic move is a shuffle, and it's basically just a feel good dance, not to complicated," I say but they all get a look on their faces as if I am lying. I laugh and say, "I promise, and I think you guys are going to like this," I say and turn back to face the mirror.